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annoying ass, i cant keep up w him anymore

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qui noi siamo i migliori della scena punk hardcore e grazie al cazzo, anche perché ci siamo solo noi . . .

. . . ari , 7 teen , rockin' 🗡

comunque alla fine dai, ci divertiamo sempre un casino

. . . raver , mosh-pitter , anything to get movin

si veste solo bene!

. . . baggy clothes , grind , hardcore

- confine

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now its 7teen but yesss

.・・゜𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙙𝙪𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣

𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦 : 𝗷𝗼𝗲𝘆 / 𝘨𝘦𝘦

𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙨 : 𝘩𝘦/𝘹𝘦/𝘷𝘢𝘮𝘱/𝘪𝘵

𝘢𝘨𝘦: 4𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣

𝙨𝙡𝙞𝙥𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙩 & 𝗆𝗒 𝖼𝗁𝖾𝗆𝗂𝖼𝖺𝗅 𝗋𝗈𝗆𝖺𝗇𝖼𝖾 ♡︎

☠︎︎

𝗜'𝗺 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗢𝗸𝗮𝘆 (𝗜 𝗣𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗲)

𝘔𝘺 𝘊𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭 𝘙𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦

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1:11 3:06

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❥︎ 𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗎𝖾

ʸᵒᵘ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵈᵒ ᵗᵒ ᵍᵘʸˢ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᵘˢ ⁱⁿ ᵖʳⁱˢᵒⁿ - ᵐᶜʳ

ᵃᵉʳⁱᵃˡˢ - ˢʸˢᵗᵉᵐ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ᵈᵒʷⁿ

ᵖᵉᵒᵖˡᵉ = ˢʰⁱᵗ - ˢˡⁱᵖᵏⁿᵒᵗ

ʲᵒʸʳⁱᵈᵉ - ᶠʳᵃⁿᵏ ⁱᵉʳᵒ ᵃⁿᵈᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵉˡˡᵃᵇʳᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ

ⁱ ᵈᵒⁿᵗ ʷᵃⁿⁿᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃⁿʸᵐᵒʳᵉ - ᵗʸᵖᵉ ᵒ ⁿᵉᵍᵃᵗⁱᵛᵉ

ʷᵒˡᶠ ⁱⁿ ˢʰᵉᵉᵖ'ˢ ᶜˡᵒᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ - ˢᵉᵗ ⁱᵗ ᵒᶠᶠ

ˡⁱᵃʳ - ᵏᵒʳⁿ

ᵒᵘᵗ ᵒᶠ ᵐʸ ˡᵉᵃᵍᵘᵉ - ᶠⁱᵗᶻ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʰᵉ ᵗᵃⁿᵗʳᵘᵐˢ

ㅤ☠︎︎

𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗠𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗘𝗦

𝗂'𝗅𝗅 𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋

ᴡᴇ'ʟʟ ᴄᴀʀʀʏ ᴏɴ

who walks amongst the famous living dead?

♡︎ they were gross people, immoral and wrong to the world.

it made them so happy though, knowing this was

their doing and undoing. the unspoken promise to

themselves. ♡︎

I'm Not Afraid To Keep On Living

singing songs that make you slit your wrists

"Yeah, it's cool, I'll be okay."

I felt your pain wash over me

i'll give you pain

ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴀʟɪᴠᴇ

𝗂 𝗐𝗂𝗌𝗁 𝗂 𝗐𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝖺 𝗀𝗁𝗈𝗌𝗍

𝗣𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗨𝗧𝗘𝗦

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hi idk y im updating this jst found it

ari , she/her , 6teen .. music taste is the same

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𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦 : 𝗷𝗼𝗲𝘆 / 𝘨𝘦𝘦

𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙨 : 𝘩𝘦/𝘹𝘦/𝘷𝘢𝘮𝘱/𝘪𝘵

𝘢𝘨𝘦: 4𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣

𝙨𝙡𝙞𝙥𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙩 & 𝗆𝗒 𝖼𝗁𝖾𝗆𝗂𝖼𝖺𝗅 𝗋𝗈𝗆𝖺𝗇𝖼𝖾 ♡︎

☠︎︎

𝗜'𝗺 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗢𝗸𝗮𝘆 (𝗜 𝗣𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗲)

𝘔𝘺 𝘊𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭 𝘙𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦

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1:11 3:06

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❥︎ 𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗎𝖾

ʸᵒᵘ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵈᵒ ᵗᵒ ᵍᵘʸˢ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᵘˢ ⁱⁿ ᵖʳⁱˢᵒⁿ - ᵐᶜʳ

ᵃᵉʳⁱᵃˡˢ - ˢʸˢᵗᵉᵐ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ᵈᵒʷⁿ

ᵖᵉᵒᵖˡᵉ = ˢʰⁱᵗ - ˢˡⁱᵖᵏⁿᵒᵗ

ʲᵒʸʳⁱᵈᵉ - ᶠʳᵃⁿᵏ ⁱᵉʳᵒ ᵃⁿᵈᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵉˡˡᵃᵇʳᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ

ⁱ ᵈᵒⁿᵗ ʷᵃⁿⁿᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃⁿʸᵐᵒʳᵉ - ᵗʸᵖᵉ ᵒ ⁿᵉᵍᵃᵗⁱᵛᵉ

ʷᵒˡᶠ ⁱⁿ ˢʰᵉᵉᵖ'ˢ ᶜˡᵒᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ - ˢᵉᵗ ⁱᵗ ᵒᶠᶠ

ˡⁱᵃʳ - ᵏᵒʳⁿ

ᵒᵘᵗ ᵒᶠ ᵐʸ ˡᵉᵃᵍᵘᵉ - ᶠⁱᵗᶻ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʰᵉ ᵗᵃⁿᵗʳᵘᵐˢ

ㅤ☠︎︎

𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗠𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗘𝗦

𝗂'𝗅𝗅 𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋

ᴡᴇ'ʟʟ ᴄᴀʀʀʏ ᴏɴ

who walks amongst the famous living dead?

♡︎ they were gross people, immoral and wrong to the world.

it made them so happy though, knowing this was

their doing and undoing. the unspoken promise to

themselves. ♡︎

I'm Not Afraid To Keep On Living

singing songs that make you slit your wrists

"Yeah, it's cool, I'll be okay."

I felt your pain wash over me

i'll give you pain

ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴀʟɪᴠᴇ

𝗂 𝗐𝗂𝗌𝗁 𝗂 𝗐𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝖺 𝗀𝗁𝗈𝗌𝗍

𝗣𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗨𝗧𝗘𝗦

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the yours j hit me

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Also, my second therapist said she's pretty sure I have BPD. It's not an actual diagnosis because the symphtoms have calmed down A LOT after the break-up, but it's like... Intermittent BPD or some shit. Or at least thats what it sounds like.

𝙩𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙙𝙖𝙮, 𝖽𝖾𝖼 21

hi lil update

i basically forgot this existed yeah.

BUT well i have some news all over- .

first, the diagnosis: idk if i talked about it here but well i am pretty sure the psychologist is actually going to diagnose me with ADD/attention deficit. have been doing test and stuff and well i think its accurate but i'll see; the next and (hopefully) last appointment is probably tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.

- IM UPDATING LATER BECAUSE YUU'S HERE

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An updated setlist!

Name: Morgan.

Pronouns: She/Vamp/Ghost

Age: 5teen

Slipknot, MCR, Ghost, AM, The Cure, The Smiths, Morissey

.・・゜𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙙𝙪𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣

𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦 : 𝗷𝗼𝗲𝘆 / 𝘨𝘦𝘦

𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙨 : 𝘩𝘦/𝘹𝘦/𝘷𝘢𝘮𝘱/𝘪𝘵

𝘢𝘨𝘦: 4𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣

𝙨𝙡𝙞𝙥𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙩 & 𝗆𝗒 𝖼𝗁𝖾𝗆𝗂𝖼𝖺𝗅 𝗋𝗈𝗆𝖺𝗇𝖼𝖾 ♡︎

☠︎︎

𝗜'𝗺 𝗡𝗼𝘁 𝗢𝗸𝗮𝘆 (𝗜 𝗣𝗿𝗼𝗺𝗶𝘀𝗲)

𝘔𝘺 𝘊𝘩𝘦𝘮𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭 𝘙𝘰𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦

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1:11 3:06

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❥︎ 𝗊𝗎𝖾𝗎𝖾

ʸᵒᵘ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵈᵒ ᵗᵒ ᵍᵘʸˢ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᵘˢ ⁱⁿ ᵖʳⁱˢᵒⁿ - ᵐᶜʳ

ᵃᵉʳⁱᵃˡˢ - ˢʸˢᵗᵉᵐ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ᵈᵒʷⁿ

ᵖᵉᵒᵖˡᵉ = ˢʰⁱᵗ - ˢˡⁱᵖᵏⁿᵒᵗ

ʲᵒʸʳⁱᵈᵉ - ᶠʳᵃⁿᵏ ⁱᵉʳᵒ ᵃⁿᵈᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵉˡˡᵃᵇʳᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ

ⁱ ᵈᵒⁿᵗ ʷᵃⁿⁿᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃⁿʸᵐᵒʳᵉ - ᵗʸᵖᵉ ᵒ ⁿᵉᵍᵃᵗⁱᵛᵉ

ʷᵒˡᶠ ⁱⁿ ˢʰᵉᵉᵖ'ˢ ᶜˡᵒᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ - ˢᵉᵗ ⁱᵗ ᵒᶠᶠ

ˡⁱᵃʳ - ᵏᵒʳⁿ

ᵒᵘᵗ ᵒᶠ ᵐʸ ˡᵉᵃᵍᵘᵉ - ᶠⁱᵗᶻ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵗʰᵉ ᵗᵃⁿᵗʳᵘᵐˢ

ㅤ☠︎︎

𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗠𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗘𝗦

𝗂'𝗅𝗅 𝗀𝖾𝗍 𝖻𝖾𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋

ᴡᴇ'ʟʟ ᴄᴀʀʀʏ ᴏɴ

who walks amongst the famous living dead?

♡︎ they were gross people, immoral and wrong to the world.

it made them so happy though, knowing this was

their doing and undoing. the unspoken promise to

themselves. ♡︎

I'm Not Afraid To Keep On Living

singing songs that make you slit your wrists

"Yeah, it's cool, I'll be okay."

I felt your pain wash over me

i'll give you pain

ᴠᴇʀʏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴀʟɪᴠᴇ

𝗂 𝗐𝗂𝗌𝗁 𝗂 𝗐𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝖺 𝗀𝗁𝗈𝗌𝗍

𝗣𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗖𝗛𝗨𝗧𝗘𝗦

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"bitch has been wanting to slide and bleed knees for times now." i forgot about this. i can't wait until september. at least I'll have time to trash around all day... god.

this shit is so abandoned.

nothing much happened.

just fucking wanna trash around with a fucking alpine white Les Paul. bitch has been wanting to slide and bleed knees for times now. fucking wanna see the skin rippin' off my bones and leave trails of crimson on the gig stage

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I dont deserve their tears, but he, he deserves mine!

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I cried too many tears, there's none left now.

I dont deserve the world.

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I don't feel worthy, i never will. I was never worthy of anyone, i was always the bad guy. I was always the mischief of my own problems.

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Oh how fucking stupid i am. She's right. He's always right. My bunny, my beautiful bunny, why did i turn them into a such helpless person? I feel bad. I feel so bad i wish i could kill myself. I wish i could write with my blood a whole letter. But even so, they wouldnt believe me... They wouldn't believe me even with signed proof, he never believed me. I wish i could go back in time and erase everything that i wrote, that i said. Everything just vanishes in the faint light that becomes smoke who disappears. Why did i fall into my mind again? Why, didn't i, just stop there? And after i heard that song, what did i gain? Nothing, but guilt. Nothing but guilt. I cant comprehend my own mind and i cant resonate the thing i did. I desperately tried to erase my search but nothing, nothing could repair the wound i opened once again. I wish i could promise something again but all buns faith in me disappeared! I wish i didnt do this to myself, and to her, i just wish i would've stopped! Can I be forgived, after all i did? Can i be forgived for the very last time?... Is It ever the Last time? Im sorry. I hate the fact that a person like them is stuck in love with one like me. We, promised etern love to eachother, but why does love have to be this difficult! I don't wish to let him go, but i wish rot to be happy. I cant understand why i do this to myself, too. Why did I even listen to it? What was the point? The gain in it? It Was nothing, nothing at all and i just did something i regretted so much just after. It's so unfair for them, its so unfair having to love someone like me. And now, there's he, probably laying down trying to sleep and me, writing here, desperately wanting bun to beat me up to death, while writing this plea.

I feel sorry. I feel sorry all the time, every hour, every minute and every second of the day, i don't go without sorrow and guilt a day. I just want my bunny back. I know I'll be able to, but i still want to do it now. I don't want to wait for anything, I just want them back.

I am sorry. I'll write it with my blood a thousand times, and then, I'll stop bothering you, i wont say it again.

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I really don't deserve anything they do for me.

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I don't deserve it, i don't deserve his guilt. I don't deserve any of his kind words, and kind heart, i don't deserve it all. I was just made a monster on this world

Yours, J

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so abandoned pt2

whatever just some shit with slenderman, the woods and yeahhh. i mean, check symb1xte

school is almost here and shit id really point a gun to my head

who am i kidding?

// also, i think it's gonna end up being a bit ugly but i probably use also the name gerard now, yeah. i mean, i dont mind i guess?... i prefer being called "gee" but it still stands short for gerard. (joey doesnt stand short of jonathan)

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well ummm i fucked up real bad today yeah.

basically i had to go out at 11 and wake up at 9 ,, err i didnt wake up cause i didnt hear the alarm and slept until 12:12 ..so ofc yuu got mad at me and cursed me out

i deserved it

its not even the time to say sorry i let them all out already

apart from that we both calmed down soon enough so its kinda fine

// gonna be the next jim morrison, life is a bag of shit...

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𝙩𝙪𝙚𝙨𝙙𝙖𝙮, 𝖽𝖾𝖼 21

hi lil update

i basically forgot this existed yeah.

BUT well i have some news all over- .

first, the diagnosis: idk if i talked about it here but well i am pretty sure the psychologist is actually going to diagnose me with ADD/attention deficit. have been doing test and stuff and well i think its accurate but i'll see; the next and (hopefully) last appointment is probably tomorrow or the day after tomorrow.

- IM UPDATING LATER BECAUSE YUU'S HERE