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For the soft asks-

3, 16 and 23!

thanks so much for the asks!! ^^

3. I'm torn! Reading I love cause I get to just curl up and zone out, but writing because it's my passion, and gets my creative juices flowing!! Ugh I don't know! 🤣

16. Hmm, I have so many ideas! I definitely want to try develop my artstyle and do a peice on that – or!! I wanna design my ongoing novels cover!! (Also just get back into creating in general, I've definitely not done much recently)

23. Nope I've never received flowers haha! Personally I don't really like receiving things/ being given gifts, I'm weird that way! Haha. Also, flowers just always make me feel abit sick, they smell so sweet and pungent, just no thanks! (Yet I do lots of photography based around flowers T^T)

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ask as many as you want!!

✨soft asks✨

What song makes you feel better?

What is your go to comfort show?

Reading or writing? Why?

Whats your favorite feeling?

How do you like to take care of yourself?

What’s your favorite candle scent?

Who do you feel most like yourself around?

Whats a fabric/texture that’s nostalgic for you?

Best childhood moment?

When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried? (or just felt really good afterwards)

Do you have a comfort item? Tell us about it!

What calms you down?

Bath or shower to relax?

Whats something upcoming that you’re excited for?

Comfort food?

What’s something you want to create soon?

How do you feel best loved?

What age in life do you think you’ll feel most yourself at?

Have you ever written or received a love letter?

Tell us about a memory you hold close to your heart.

Tea, Coffee, or hot cocoa?

Name of your favorite playlist?

Have you ever received flowers?

Who is your bestfriend?

If your soul was a color, what would it be?

If you could live anywhere with anyone you want, where would it be and who would you bring?

Do you like to garden? Have you ever grown something?

What are you proudest of?

Are you a kind person?

What do your hobbies look like?

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That feeling when you just got a new hair cut that makes you feel so gender euphoric, you can wear femme clothes and not feel dysphoric>>>

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so I have nothing to post, so here's me doing a Genderfluid bingo I found on Pinterest

(Fun fact, I only just recently learnt I'm genderfluid! I use both non binary and gendefluid labels cause that's just what I feel comfortable with, but still, yayay!! ^^)

Clean version

My version!

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Sgakbtjsbrje THANK GODS IM NOT THE ONLY ONE, I WAS SO CONFUSED WHY IT WAS SO SIMILAR?!?!

Like the 'you not my mother, your my master' line was literally so Brenner and 011 coded! And the black tears!? Also galpins eyes being gouged out?! So vecna coded + it reminded me of Chrissy's dad part when Chrissy was in the trance

Also, this had me so mad they basically copied the line

'I find music reaches a part of the brain medicine can't fix' (Wednesday)

'Music reaches a part of the brain words dont' (Stranger Things)

Like huhhhhg so similar omg

I just finished watching Wednesday s2, and is it just me or is the series (especially ep4) just a pure rip off of Stranger Things s4!?! Like am the only one who sees it?

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I just finished watching Wednesday s2, and is it just me or is the series (especially ep4) just a pure rip off of Stranger Things s4!?! Like am the only one who sees it?

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just wrote a scene in my novel that made my friend (who loves horror/gorey stuff) writhe in her skin.

Love that for me

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I was tagged by @artbecausewhynot to share 6 photos from my phone sooo here you go ^^

(they layout got a bit sqished, so I recommend going into the photos QwQ)

What we have:

Eddie Munson Funko Pop infront of the Stranger Things logo I put on my sisters Lite Brite!!

waterfall and leave have already been posted (the post below this one)

a page from The Cruel Prince!! (I finished it the other day, and absolutely loved it!! I'm already halfway through the second one >:3 )

A little mushroom 🍄:D

And some pride flags I saw outside of a book shop in Bristol <33

(Sorry these photos aren't the greatest, these we really all taken recently - bar the first one - but my cameras been acting super weirdly recently, constantly drifting in out of focus, randomly closing down or glitching,!! Sorry!!)

(bonus photo cause I just couldn't leave this one out :D )

I will tag: I have no one to tag whoops :0

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Some poetry i found floating around in my notes app. Sharing it, cause I miss my person <3

(Unedited and the end is a bit crappy lmao)

I saw you in my dreams again last night

3rd time this week

Maybe it's the constant wanting for you

That's making me lose my decency

Because the dreams are forever the same

Us, curled up in your bed

Fractals of light beaming into the room

We talk about deep nothingness

The forever crave of your voice, calming me simply

I saw you in my dreams again last night

3rd time this week

I wake, always the same

Thinking its real, before turning to my side

And only seeing the mere dust of my room

The sore i feel, the longingness vanished just like that

I miss you so much as of late, more than normal

It could be because everything in my petty life is changing rapidly

But I don't even know anymore. . .

I saw you in my dreams again last night

3rd time this week

I wonder if it'll make it to 4th?

Maybe it'll be the same scenario as normal or something different entirely?

Whatever it be, Yes or no

I hope its nice, comforting me away from my usual night terrors

I promise stay asleep a little longer tonight

So then if I do see you, I'll get to live in the moment of warmth, where your arms wrapped on me

Possibly then the sense if loss might not be so heavy

I love you S

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just a few photos from a llittle walk around a hedgehog protection place <33

a little hedgehog and a cool statue

Some 3 week old robins (?) A waterfall and a leaf

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currently wrapped up in a blanket cacoon thing, imagining it's my best friend hugged around me, not the blanket

Gods, I miss her so much

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This is my best friends horse Lenny! I decided to doodle him, cause I'm reallyyyy missing my bsf atm

(were long distance – 4hr 30m apart T^T)

But yes hope you like him! I know some of the anatomy may be off but shhhh >:3

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She didn't want long flowing hair, or to wear fickle dresses to prom

She wanted short messy hair, and a tux that didn't make her feel dumb

She never wanted breasts or thick thighs

But that's what all the other girls seemed to comply

So she just played along with their sick, morbid games

They thought they knew her, slick and tame

But if you looked a little closer you'd see how damn scared she is

Whenever someone calls her 'ma'am'

She doesn't want to be bonded over thick gold rings with a simple man

She wanted to be with a loving woman, who would see her naked, and still see her full glam

Because her naked body doesn't resemble what she wants

It's a constant taunt

She wants a flat body, but it still holds curves

A body that doesn't make her feel like a slur

One that makes her feel both a man and a women, but also neither at all.

This body will never exist, she knows that; her mind isn't that small

So she tries out different words

But no one seems to listen to this meek little bird

She just wants to feel comfortable

Knowing she is still remarkable

Even if she isn't what they've always known

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That's it! She's sick of their unruly tone.

Shes tried and tried again to make them listen

But a girl, is what they constantly see in their vision

She's not going to be quiet any longer.

She will not hold her tongue

So she screams 'IM NON BINARY'

And suddenly they didn't feel so tiny

They just had to make them see

Who they wanted to be.

-Freya

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just published my first fiction on AO3!! Yippee!!

it's a kinda steddie fiction with no steddie (cause eddies dead heh) with some touches of byler, missing scenes from the show and ends in a rockie (Robin x Vickie) wedding!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/67738136

(thats the link for it if you wish to read it! ^)

(Just copy and paste link into your Web browser!)

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Stranger things 5 trailer analysis/rant!

Ok, this is gonna be a long one!

When I first started the trailer you see Steve. Now my first thoughts were this seemed like a bts clip or a blooper or something, but then the music starts to build and I was like oh. . . OK this is an actual scene? I really wanna know what that thing that counts up to 100 is!

Next (0:18) you see lucas and I think Mike(?) On bikes but who is the figure in blue shirt behind them? I'm thinking maybe Joyce or Robin or will, cause they all have blue tops on but idk

What is Mike counting down, I get its for the 'burn' but what is it? Why is he counting? Where is he counting from? Clearly not the radio shack! (Please stay safe Mike!!)

(0:28) who is the blonde kid in the flannel and the kid with the bowl cut? New characters? Or just very minor backround characters?

(0:43) on bikes, in order: Mike, Will, Holly!

(0:45) what is that destroyed building?

(0:47) nooo eddie! :(So this is the scene I'm pretty sure where Dustin gets beaten up! We see throughout the rest of the trailer Dustin covered in bruises such as 2 black eyes and a busted lip. Also in some bts shot we got in December(?) It shows Dustin at a graveyard covered in fresh blood surrounded by some of Jason's lackeys

(0:52) *hugs lucas through screen *

(0:55) is this the burn Mike was talking bout?(0:58) Nancy, Johnathan, Steve, Dustin in upside down! What I wanna know is how will Johnathan and Steve get on? Will Dustin and or Nancy have to break up a fight between them? What's going on with Nancy's love triangle *sighs*

(1:02) what is eleven wearing? Looks like some strange(r things) super suit!

(1:10) Eleven in the upside down (can tell by dark colour backround and vague vines and Ash in backround)

(1:12) will jumping from one tree to another, demogorgon chasing! We've seen some of this scene before when they were halfway don't filming they showed off some quick unedited scenes and will falling from this tree was one quick flash in the vid!

(1:16) who is dis lady with very robust cheekbones?

(1:22) can see dustins injuries here!

(1:25) lucas holding unconscious (?) Max while nurse next to him! Demodogs making first appearance since s2 (wait nope scratch that there were some in s4)

BLINK AND YOULL MISS IT!! (1:28) Eleven lying on floor, lights beaming over her head, while mike or hopper leans over protecting her body. (Dead? Unconscious? Alive?)

1:30 Steve driving like maniac, and looses wing mirror tut tut! Not very safe driving Steve!

(1:31) Joyce holding an axe! Will to her (our) left and Robin to (our) right with Derek I think his name is hanging above her, possessed by vecna? They are in the barn! Demogorgon break through door! This scene was seen in TUDUM but without the demogorgon breaking through door

(1:33) will faints ✨️

(1:35) Nancy with a gun YIPPEE

(1:36) Karen and Holly in the water. . .out of all the scenes this one scared me the most. I'm really neverous for holly (and karen) this series, she was recast cause she was gonna play a bigger role and im scared she's gonna die! Karen too, because i feel like she's related to the creels somehow i have so many theories aabout this matter which I'll get into another time

(1:40) at first I thought the light thing was gonna fall onto Robin but then I realised, it was demogorgons/demodogs crawling up it (I think)

(1:46) my first thought was: is will shirtless? Like his shoulders that are blurred in the backround look like his skin tone? Like I may he completely wrong! I dont really wanna see him shirtless (#wlw) lol

(1:49) DUFFER ISTG IF YOU HURT DUSTIN EVEN MORE IM SUEING YOU! do not make him lose Steve or one of the party members or I will loose it.

(1:57) hopper looking very cheery with some explosives! I watched this with my friend and she was terrified that hopper was gonna die again cause if the explosion scene that happens right after this but all I'll say is. I doubt they'd 'kill' him off again. We had it once and that was devastating but if they do it again it just won't be as impactful

(1:59) will getting possessed by vecna (can see his hand over his face)

In the next 10 seconds everything happens very fast, but what is shown is nothing that I feel is too important atm (except for the fact 11 can fly?)

So that theory of Joyce holding ills body in that one photo from tudum I think is correct, cause at (2:06) we can see Joyce surrounded by dead soldiers with a foot in frame. Someone wearing red or brown trousers! Will wears brown trousers with white sneakers in the season! But the figure thay could be will seems to be moving?

(2:08) RIGHT I am so confused, who is this lady with glasses stood behind Mike?!?!?!?! Like I first thought it was suzie but idk?! Who is it T^T(

(2:11) vecna reveal (no more that lower torso is shown, and his face is not shown at all in entire trailer)

(2:18) why is vecna so spiky looking QwQ

Ok thats it! Thanks if you've read this far it's much appreciated! Any questions you may have lmk ^^

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RIGHT OMFG

SO I just finished watching the Stranger Things S5 trailer and basically I am freaking loosing it! Like there's just like so much stuff and it looks so cool and just aifnkshfkshfjshdisbdhsksf! (Freya.exe has stopped working) like I have so many emotions about this, I'm scared im excited I'm nervous (but that's mainly because I'm going to the doctors tomorrow lol) and just yeah! I may talk more about this later on here, talking about my proper initial thoughts and feelings but I'll wait for myself to calm down first heh! (My Autistic brain can't take this)

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