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null is growing an eye in the fridge. it had appendages.

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even after all this time, i cannot begin to understand memory. i always thought it might be tied to feeling, and the chaos in their mind might be destroying those connections, muting them, but it is never that simple.

they did not even bat an eye at the oddity. as if they had always said it. like nothing has changed.

in a way, nothing has. maybe i was right. the ghost of a feeling from the start of that loop, said in comfort. in peace.

apologies for my idle musing, koldun. as of late, i have been finding many reasons to... reminisce.

they called me my real name today, for the first time in a thousand years.

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they called me my real name today, for the first time in a thousand years.

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even old, ornery cats can still hold onto expectations like hospitality.

the black box holds ones i made personally. i hope they agree with you.

take care. we will watch from the windowsill.

thank u @umbra-cantabri

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i have more weapons than null even realizes.

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i hope the next one is not aware of its maligned existence.

mike is very useful. elizabeth is good company.

they do not hold a candle to the creatures i remember. aldous will certainly recall a few.

it was certainly an age of discovery.

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mike is very useful. elizabeth is good company.

they do not hold a candle to the creatures i remember. aldous will certainly recall a few.

it was certainly an age of discovery.

this is still not the worst thing i have had to live with.

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this is still not the worst thing i have had to live with.

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i had to parry the creature this morning.

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i unfortunately think it is capable of thought.

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i would offer the context... but i don't think it would actually help all that much.

@jujulebee My dear, should you return in the coming days, I would like to formally invite you to my domain. I will have Ripper fetch nice tasting desserts that you may enjoy, and I will even have them shoot you several times, would that be nice?

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if the question was whether you would rather fall off a building or stub your toe, i will choose the stubbed toe. it is not my fault i can drink acid.

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acid.

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would you like to look at the photo album some more while listening to some early radio? if we can't find a few recordings, heim might be able to assist.

do not get used to this kind of length.

i just want to reminisce.

my memory is not infallible. memory is tied to feeling, amusement, anger, surprise. i tend to be a very... muted individual. beyond the manageable chaos null provides, my days overlap nearly perfectly. if i am not so considerate enough to remember all the lives i have effected, i am not going to remember most idle news.

i remember null was very excited in 1922, despite the other things i remember about that year. various countries gained independence. the bbc was founded. it was the first time i heard mussolini's name, taking power in italy. first time i heard stalin's name; lenin made him general secretary of the russian communist party. lenin suffered a stroke that year too, if i'm not mistaken, but there were conflicting reports downplaying it. and the ussr was born before the year managed to pass. a year of foreshadowing. but i remember what null was excited about the most: radio.

in february, herbert hoover—who wasn't president yet—had convened the first conference to petition the united states congress into enacting broadcasting laws for radio. null was excited, they had an interest in radio by that point but it was a wild west period with no real regulations. i'll admit, i didn't see the value every time heim and null spoke about it. i remember it was february because i had picked up the first reader's digest that had ever been printed, its very first issue. no pictures or advertisements (innocent times), just a white cover, white paper, nothing but print beyond the little illustration of a woman on the front. i don't remember how many articles it had, it was largely conservative and unmemorable, but i remember this at all because the very first article in it amused me. "how to keep young mentally". ha.

in june, president warden harding became the first u.s. president to use the radio. that's when i realized there was something to this radio thing. null was very smug.

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do not get used to this kind of length.

i just want to reminisce.

my memory is not infallible. memory is tied to feeling, amusement, anger, surprise. i tend to be a very... muted individual. beyond the manageable chaos null provides, my days overlap nearly perfectly. if i am not so considerate enough to remember all the lives i have effected, i am not going to remember most idle news.

i remember null was very excited in 1922, despite the other things i remember about that year. various countries gained independence. the bbc was founded. it was the first time i heard mussolini's name, taking power in italy. first time i heard stalin's name; lenin made him general secretary of the russian communist party. lenin suffered a stroke that year too, if i'm not mistaken, but there were conflicting reports downplaying it. and the ussr was born before the year managed to pass. a year of foreshadowing. but i remember what null was excited about the most: radio.

in february, herbert hoover—who wasn't president yet—had convened the first conference to petition the united states congress into enacting broadcasting laws for radio. null was excited, they had an interest in radio by that point but it was a wild west period with no real regulations. i'll admit, i didn't see the value every time heim and null spoke about it. i remember it was february because i had picked up the first reader's digest that had ever been printed, its very first issue. no pictures or advertisements (innocent times), just a white cover, white paper, nothing but print beyond the little illustration of a woman on the front. i don't remember how many articles it had, it was largely conservative and unmemorable, but i remember this at all because the very first article in it amused me. "how to keep young mentally". ha.

in june, president warden harding became the first u.s. president to use the radio. that's when i realized there was something to this radio thing. null was very smug.

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it is difficult to not be light-headed here.