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I'm STILL sick 🤌 but I want y'all to know that the country of r0mania has an official tiktok account and everytime I see it I laugh thinking that Teo runs it

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"Golden haystacks shaped like teardrops have been a symbol of rural life in Romania for hundreds of years. The 3-metre-high (10ft) ricks are the culmination of days of hard work by families, from children up to grandparents, in the height of summer."

(Photography by Billy Barraclough, via the Guardian)

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HSMTMTS APPRECIATION WEEK Day 1: Favorite Character → Ricky Bowen

“Do you know ‘Bet On It’?”

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words from we hug now by sydney rose

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fighting god, father time and the sea to not put the entirety of epic the musical in to teodors playlist... its already got two songs in there (Little Wolf and Just a Man), and Legendary is clawing its way in too

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‘Well, I suppose it’s lucky that you were called instead of Kennedy, then? I mean, you’re in London now. You don’t have an excuse not to visit after our meeting.’ Teodor said with a smile, about to open his mouth to go on, but the waiter finally came along, taking their orders. Teodor ordered himself a coffee and a simple sandwich – sure that his stomach wouldn’t be able to handle much else in front of Reginald – and once the Englishman was finished with his own order, Teodor thanked the waiter, reaching for his glass of water.

‘My family is well, though. I haven’t seen my father too often recently, but… well, he is not the fondest of the idea of visiting me in Slovenia.’ Teodor admitted, breathing a gentle laugh through his nose, the air around him easing with each word they shared. ‘You know what my dad is like… or, who he doesn’t like, I should say.’

Reginald smiled as soon as he saw the sincere expression on Teodor's face. Seeing him happy, well and truly happy, made him happy, too.

'I miss when Luci was a baby,' he said with a nod of his head, 'I wish she stayed small forever. But, ah, well, everyone has to grow up every now and then, yes~?'

He laughed at his own words, mostly because he knew that his kind didn't age and grow the way humans did.

'They're fine, although, I haven't spoken to them as much as I would like too lately. Teaching is getting in the way. How are yours?' He continued, though he wondered how many formalities they were going to go through before they run out of things to talk about entirely. Really, he hoped that they wouldn't run out of topics to talk about. He could talk to the other until the end of their days.

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It's Teo's turn, I fear... and this is my boy so you know it's about to get miserable up in here. His playlist is in chronological order of his life (for the most part), so I will try to post the songs in the list the same way, but I might get too caught up, we will see.

Robin - Taylor Swift

Long may you reign You're an animal You are bloodthirsty

The first song in Teodor's playlist. This song represents his childhood and early years, of course. He was bright-eyed and had such a hunger for the world that he still carries today. He had the world at his fingertips, and grew up in the forests of modern day Rom.ania, not knowing that his home had an edge or an end. This song makes me teary-eyed so often because he was just so... pure and good aside for the fact of being weird, and that was taken from him. He just wanted to live with his dad in the woods forever.

Abstract (Psychopomp) - Hozier

The poor thing in the road Its eye still glistening The cold wet of your nose The Earth from a distance See how it shines

Teodor is greatly connected to animals. He was literally born out of a wolf, so he feels a great sense of connection to the flora and fauna of his home. While he is a hunter and grew up ruthless, he has acted as a psychopomp to many animals and humans alike. He has brought death to many things, but he never numbed to the effects of it. He would often try to comfort animals as they passed if he shot poorly, and with people, he would sometimes offer a prayer (though, he is a lot less forgiving with humans... perhaps a harbinger is more apt where people are involved, but still!).

The Fear - Ben Howard

My, my cold hearted child, tell me how you feel Just a grain in the morning air, dark shadow on the hill My, my cold hearted child, tell me where it all falls All this apathy you feel will make a fool of us all

There are a lot of songs that speak to Teodor's rage, this is one of the first. Teodor is... angry. Much of his history has been thrusted onto him by other nations and not forged on his own, and it has made him grow resentful of the countries around him.

Who We Are - Hozier

What I had left here I just held it tight So someone with your eyes Might come in time To hold me like water Or Christ, hold me like a knife

This song, and the one beneath, speak to Teodor's perception of his occupation and being used. He was molded by the people in power, turned into something he didn't recognise. He was always a fighter, a hunter, but over time, he became a weapon; something unkillable and insatiable. The lyric 'hold me like water or christ, hold me like a knife' really sings to Teodor's character in a way that I can't put into words. He has always been used and abused in some way or another, and he always expects it from any new person that comes along. He is so desperate for love though, that he will bend himself to fit the will of whoever gives him the recognition and love he seeks.

Creature - Half.Alive

Look inside my heart and find a perilous ravine Carved within the beauty, the darkness in between Standing in the balance of complete and incomplete I identify the echo of what is and what will be

See above.

Two Evils - Bastille

There are two ways to skin tonight Let's see whose road gets there faster This is a game, no wrongs, no right Only a winner and a loser You and I, oh you and I We're not that different, you and I

Need I say... Teodor @ Hun.gary? It was always a losing battle with Hun.gary, but not for a lack of fighting on Teodor's part. He was there, always biting back at the hand that fed him, pushing his luck at every turn. This got him in trouble more times than I can count, and Teodor has a lot of trauma revolving this relationship and dynamic, and a lot of his issues stem from the Hun.garian occupation of Rom.ania. He will never forgive them for everything that happened.

The Comeback Kid - The Midnight

I've make mistakes And I've been hard hit I say so what So what if I did I'm the clear eyed I'm the comeback kid

Teodor is resilient, and this song sings to that fact. He very much holds the "I can do this all day" mentality, and will always push himself back up to his feet, even on the brink of death. No matter what hardships life and history has thrown at him, he has bounced back from it adapted and stronger than before. He knows that he is strong, and he knows history could have been different if he was given the chance to thrive.

The Albatross - Taylor Swift

So I crossed my thoughtless heart Spread my wings like a parachute I'm the albatross I swept in at the rescue The devil that you know Looks now more like an angel I'm the life you chose And all this terrible danger

Teodor is the albatross and I don't prescribe to prescribe to pronouns in music. Teodor has had many bad things said and written about him through history (look at what the Saxon's wrote about Romania during Vlad the Impaler's rule). So, historically, people might have been anxious or apprehensive about befriending him. But, Teodor is a great friend and even better lover. He is steadfast and brave, and will throw himself into the fire to keep those he loves safe. He has a knack for sensing danger and "bad vibes" in people, and he has time and again tried to warn the people he cares about when something doesn't seem right, and often times, his fears get overlooked in favour of whatever he is worrying about. It brings about a very "I told you so" attitude in him, but who would feel that way after centuries of not being heard or listened to?

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Darling, there's a part of me I'm afraid will always be Trapped within an abstract from a moment of my life The weeds up through the concrete The traffic picking up speed All my love and terror Balanced there between those eyes See how it shines

x / x / x

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Ricky Bowen’s smile.

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Taking a half-step back from Lukas’ desk chair, Teodor turned his smile up to the Slovene, hands reaching instead to rest on either side of his husband’s waist. ‘Ah, that is true… perhaps if you didn’t leave me all alone all those years ago, you wouldn’t have all these documents to go through now—’ he teased, peaking around Lukas’ arm to the desk, and the pile of neatly stacked papers with tabs and highlighted words. The Romanian sighed through his nose before turning a smile back up towards the blond man in his hold.

‘I didn’t think that far ahead—’ He shook his head, stepping back from Lukas, only to take his hands into his own. ‘How about we find something to make? I would suggest bograč, but I am hungry now and don’t want to stay up for that long. Hm, perhaps something like French toast?’

Lukas breathed out a light chuckle at Teodor's words, 'then let him cry because this dull, mundane, home office life is a lot easier than what his was. I like it a lot more, too. I can see you every day.'

He stood from his seat, smiling down at the other as he stood in front of him, 'what do you want to eat, hm? I'll make you whatever you want me to make you, my love.'

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𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘵𝘴.

continuing from this list i made earlier!

“ i miss you. ”

“ i don’t think i can do this anymore. ”

“ were you really about to leave without saying goodbye? ”

“ please don’t make me say it. ”

“ i need you. ”

“ please don’t go… ”

“ you know i’m never going to let anything happen to you. don’t you? ”

“ are you… are you afraid of me? ”

“ you’re a good person. ”

“ don’t worry. i’ll stay. i’m not going anywhere. ”

“ …is what they’re saying true? ”

“ i don’t care about any of that. i only care about you! ”

“ i’m here. ”

“ you have no idea how glad i am to see you. ”

“ just… tell me how to fix this. ”

“ please. now is not the time for lies. please, just… tell me the truth. ”

“ you know you can tell me anything… right? ”

“ hey… there is nothing in this world that you can tell me, that’ll ever make me hate, fear, or leave you. please, rest easy in that knowledge. ”

“ i never thought i’d see you again. ”

“ please… you have to understand why i did what i did… ”

“ why didn’t you tell me? ”

“ everyone has secrets, don’t they? i’m sure you’ll tell me yours when you’re ready. ”

“ you’re not alone. ”

“ you can trust me. ”

“ i can’t believe i ever trusted you… ”

“ it’s okay… everything’s going to be alright. ”

“ i…  i  don’t know how to fix this. ”

“ there’s no other way, is there? ”

“ no. absolutely not. no way. i’m not letting you do this. ”

“ you don’t know what it was like. ”

“ for gods sake, don’t do this! don’t you dare make me lose anyone else! not today! ”

“ i can’t lose you… ”

“ haven’t we suffered enough? can’t we have this one good thing? ”

“ you know, i think this might be the first time i’ve ever seen you frightened… ”

“ goodbye, my love/old friend. ”

“ you didn’t honestly expect me to let you do this alone, did you? ”

“ you lied to me. ”

“ you abandoned me. ”

“ promise me. ”

“ you promised! ”

“ please don’t do this… ”

“ we were one hell of a pair, weren’t we? ”

“ perhaps i am a little frightened… ”

“ we’re a team. remember? so let’s face this one together. ”

“ sorry. you’re stuck with me, i’m afraid. it’s part of the whole friendship/relationship thing. wherever you go, i go. ”

“ you… you must know, before anything else happens tonight… you must know that you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me. ”

“ i love you. ”

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ooc; i swear im alive, ive just been possessed by fay muse and have been spending too much time on his blog twiddling my thumbs fjghf

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‘Oh, I—I wouldn’t have waivered it anyway—’ Teodor said too quickly, shaking his head fervently. Even if he had been warned ahead of time that it would be Reginald making the appearance, and not London, Teodor would have managed to muster up the courage to be sitting in that exact seat. It… just might have taken him a couple of weeks.  

He smiled a little easier at the mention of Luciana, glad to have the conversation move along. Anything would be better than the chance of Teodor’s tongue falling out of his mouth with all the words he actually wanted to say. Gently, the Romanian nodded.

‘I’m glad to hear that. Less so that you are worried about her, but that can’t be helped.’ He readjusted the glass of water in front of himself.

‘Ah, Danilo? He’s well… as well. He can roll himself over now just barely… his eyes have darkened a little. I love when babies have those big blue eyes, but I am excited to see who he takes after.’ Teodor couldn’t bring himself to look at Reginald as he spoke about his son; his mind would wander far too much. ‘It’s funny to watch him looking around at the world on his belly. His whole body wriggles around with the weight of it. I’m worried I won’t be able to catch him once he’s walking.’ There was a sincere smile on Teodor's face then. Prideful. His son was the light of his life. He was quiet for some moments before straightening up a little in his seat. 'The rest of your family? Um... I haven't kept up with them recently.'

Reginald nodded his head. If he was someone other than himself, he would have made some kind of comment about how he was the absolute last person that Teodor wanted to see, but, deep down, he knew that wasn't the truth; no matter where they were in the world, they always wanted to see each other.

'I guess our governments care about it so much that neither one of them wanted to waive this meeting,' the man teased with a gentle smile, 'that being said, I'm glad it wasn't waived.'

He turned his eyes to the waiter the other had looked at. His head tilted to the side as he wondered how much longer it would take for them to order; Reginald wouldn't mind having all the time in the world with Teodor.

'She's well,' he answered as he turned his attention back to the other with a smile, 'I'm constantly worried about her as her father, but she's well. How is Danilo?'

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Humming gently, a teasing lilt in his tone, Teodor tried to fight back the smile that snuck up his cheeks, but he couldn’t for long. ‘You have friends? Other than me and Luke? That’s news to me—’ he joked, eyes bouncing from the crown moulding, to Danika, and back again. His nose screwed up, a light laughter bubbling up from his chest. He couldn’t take himself seriously.

‘But good, I’m glad that I take precedence over Lukas. I should. I think he would probably try to hunt down any beau of yours, anyway. Your secret will be much more safe with me.’ He nodded, finally sitting up then, though his eyes stayed stuck on his sister all the while. ‘But honestly, if you are tired of government work, you should take a break. Luke will be fine on his own for a decade or two.’

'Well, I've helped Lukas his whole life. Yours, too. At least, I think I have anyway,' Danika teased with a smile as she looked down at Teodor; she rested her head in her hand, 'but yes. Maybe I should look into it. I'm getting a bit tired of being an official.'

She shook her head, 'I wasn't texting someone, Teo. Just a friend. If there was someone in my life who ever started to border on a romantic relationship, you'd be the first one to know about it.'

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Mitski / Agnus by Konstantin Korobov / Angela Carter / Marie Lu / Schwolf by Dietmar Gross / Pierre Corneille / Hélène Cixous / Painting: Agnus Dei by Francisco de Zurbarán edit from Pinterest / Unknown / Adira Bennett / Pinterest

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Teodor smiled to himself the instant he heard the clip of the laptop closing, a tender hum rolling past his lips. His fingers traced further, down the sides of Lukas’ face, nails teetering so gently along the line of his husband’s jaw. ‘Mm, I suppose I could be persuaded~’ he teased as he planted a kiss atop the other’s sunny hair, only to flatten it out again with gentle fingers. ‘I am a little hungry… You could make me something? It would give you a good use of all those muscles you’re putting to waste too – sitting in here in the dark all hunched over a screen. Where is the boy I met all those years ago? I think he would cry if he saw you now, Luka. Miroslav al meu.’

Lukas immediately melted as soon as he felt Teodor's hands on his shoulders; breathing out a soft, content hum, he let his head lull to the side.

'I'm almost done, babe,' he said, but he closed the lid to his laptop anyway; he may have been a workaholic, but his husband wanted his attention and who was he to deny him?

He continued, 'I miss you, too. I'm sorry I've worked so late into the night the last few weeks. There's so much to do—' he dropped his head back to look at the other with a smile, '—any chance that you can forgive me for it~?'