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updates might get a bit slower because classes start on monday :(, but chapter 5 is started and i already have a layout for ch. 6 so we shall see

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NOSTALGIA | S.JY

sim jaeyun series

summary: after losing your spark and passion, you've decided to study abroad for your final year of college. fortunately, your childhood friend-turned-stranger, jake, attends the college you'll be attending. while rediscovering your spark, you begin to question if there is a spark between you and your old friend.

jake's old feelings resurface while you take in everything your year trip has to offer, with jake at your side

pairing: jake x f!reader

genre: college au, childhood friends to lovers, fluff w/ tiny bit of angst

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warning: some suggestive ideas, foul language wc: 3.4k synopsis: now that school is finally starting, you begin to struggle with sorting out your emotions for jake. in the midst of it all, jake notices you're acting differently towards him. author's note: some more fluff, as there will be SOME angst coming up

“jake! what the fuck do i do?”

your just put together apartment now looked like a tornado swept by as you searched for your laptop. it was the first day of classes at this college, so you were already stressed, but now you were about to blow a fuse.

jake, who had gotten here 10 minutes prior, was in utter disbelief at the mayhem in front of him. he had to try and hold in his laughter at the sight of you flinging things around like you were some animal proving you could put up a fight.

“what do i do? what if i didn’t bring it with me?” the horrific thought makes its way through your nervous system. you felt like throwing up. could you of actually forgotten your laptop?

jake has started to pick up the items that you left lying around the room, trying to help you find it by making his way through the newly created mess. “i’m sure it’s lying around here somewhere.”

“we’re going to be late. oh my god that’s mortifying. you know what, maybe i should just book a flight back home right now.” you’re pacing now, your pace matching the pounding of your heart.

“relax _____.” jake continues his search, unaware of the fact that he has just trapped himself in a lions den.

as you process the fact that a man just told you to “relax” when your entire school life depended on you finding your laptop, you stop what you're doing. taking shallow breaths, you tell yourself not to kill him. instead you let out a puff of air. “relax?” you ask, “relax!” you chuckle at the absurdity.

jake is now looking at you with wide eyes, understanding that what he said didn’t help the situation and only made his stressed friend hone all of her frustration on him. “not like that.” jake utters, in an attempt to remedy the situation.

“not like that?” you scoff, grabbing the pillow next to you and chucking it at the poor victim.

jake takes it like a champ, deciding that since it was only a pillow, he could take the hit if it allowed you to get your revenge.

“jake i’m doomed,” you sigh, sitting down in surrender. as you sit on a pillow discarded on the floor, you notice it feels a bit firm underneath it. your eyes widen at the thought of what could be underneath it, you don’t even have time to blink before you yank the pillow out from under yourself to reveal the grey laptop.

you immediately kiss and hug it like it’s the love of your life that you had been kept apart from by war. “thank you, god!” you shout to the heavens or all that could be out there.

jake shakes his head, knowing that you were freaked out for no reason. “should i get a privacy room for you and your laptop?” he gestures to you and your laptop.

“no,” you huff, sitting up, “would you mind putting my laptop in my bag though? that way i can finish getting ready?” you look at him with pleading eyes, knowing he’s already suffered enough for helping you on multiple occasions.

jake loves every new side he sees of you, your eyes widening and glistening as you stare at him. he wants to believe that you’d only look at him like that, but you’re just begging for a favor. honestly you look like a deer when you pout, it causes him to chuckle.

“sure hand it over.”

as soon as you leave the room, too preoccupied and amped up from stress to even think about anything other than getting ready, jake stares at the laptop.

“i can’t believe i’m jealous of a mere laptop.” he mumbles, thinking back to the kiss you gave it.

how your plump lips puckered up, eyes fluttering closed. what was a 2-second kiss felt like slow motion to jake, who couldn’t help looking at your lips as you spoke.

he was going to have to step up his game. he had already stuffed your laptop inside your bag and was now peaking through your cabinets for something to snack on.

as he searched your cabinets, he found some cereal… or well, sweets they call cereal. he was going to eat some of the colored marshmallows with some of the cereal, but there were hardly any. you had already dug through the box to eat the marshmallows, leaving the barely flavored cereal behind in the box.

“seriously?” jake asks, looking at you with his jaw slightly dropped. “i hope you know there’s no nutrition in this breakfast and even less so when you only eat the marshmallows.” he grabs the last few marshmallows he can find before eating them.

seeing jake finish off your marshmallows lit a fury within you. you march up to him and snatch your box of cereal away. “hey! i like snacking on those,” you glare, “and you can’t say anything when you ate the last of my marshmallows.”

jake had it bad for you. he was so desperate to grab onto you right in this moment, to wrap his hand around your waist and flip you around so he could hug you from behind. he wanted to forget about the dumb cereal and eat you instead. that was unacceptable, though, so what he did instead was say, “come on, we’re going to be late.”

he grabbed the cereal back from you to put it back in it's place, and you watched to make sure he didn’t eat anymore, even though at this point he could eat the bland cereal without the marshmallows.

as the two of you left the apartment, jake made sure to hold the door open for you as you left. he had forced his way in front of you to open the car door for you as well. to be honest, you had seen very few men do this. especially not to you, who had challenged every man who ever dared lock eyes with you. you were not sure what the feeling was, but it made you uncomfortable, and not necessarily in a bad way.

as jake turned on his car, you couldn’t help but notice that only one of the fans was turned towards you, just the way you like it. you look over at jake, who was seemingly unaware of the whole situation, before deciding there’s no way he would’ve picked up on something like that.

for some reason, every time you were confined in a car with jake, you had crazy thoughts. how hot he looked when he was concentrating, furrowing his brows anytime a car moved unexpectedly or hazardously. how he licked his lips every few minutes until you slid some chapstick over to him, to which he would glance at you and hold eye contact for a split second before thanking you with a soft smile. his smiles could eliminate all the negative energy in the area, maybe even the entire world. how, when he would ask a question he would drum his fingers against the steering wheel only to get no response and then laugh before meeting your eyes.

you snap out of it. “sorry i was… zoning out. what did you say?”

but jake had caught it. he might be a little oblivious, but when it came to you, he was very aware. not once had you ever looked at him the way you were just then, getting lost as you marked every little movement he made. your eyes trailed his fingers as he tapped on the wheel, turned up the volume, and rested on his thigh. then when he had stopped moving so much, you would go back to his face. sure maybe you were just bored, but he couldn’t recall you ever looking at him like that. in fact, that look was similar to the one you held when you experienced your first crush in the third grade. this time, it was slightly different, but jake said he needed to up his game, and now he feels a lot more confident.

“i asked if you’d want to look over first week class notes in the university library together.” jake, with newfound knowledge, was pumped with energy.

you had noticed the change because he seemed like he was ready to fly out of the car. the sudden change weirded you out, wondering what could’ve possibly caused him to be so chipper the morning classes start back. “yeah… that’s fine by me.” you glance out the window, getting the feeling that maybe you shouldn’t stare at jake right now.

jake, with his newfound energy, had turned up the volume to his music and was singing along. his voice was addictive; you loved hearing his voice change depending on the note. if you could, you would replay it over and over again. honestly, you just loved jake’s voice, so you’d be okay if you could settle for only hearing him talk every day.

the drive was only 10 minutes, but it was long enough for you to realize you liked jake a lot more than you thought. things were not going as planned.

on the other hand, the car ride was not long enough for jake. the idea that you were suddenly very aware of him sent fireworks off in his stomach. the fact that you were nodding along to his singing, refusing to look anywhere but the window as you played with your fingers, made him feel giddy.

unfortunately for jake, the car ride ended fairly quickly, and as soon as he had parked his car, you had rushed away. he didn’t even have time to tease you about running away; all he heard from your retreating figure was “thanks for the ride, can’t be late, see you later!”

you needed to get far away from jake as soon as possible. your mind was doing weird things and wouldn’t cooperate with you. you couldn’t blame it on the car, so you could only blame yourself and your weak composure. jake wasn’t going to be in your life forever; that had been a fact you realized sooner in life. as you got older, friends moved away and gradually forgot about you. you wouldn’t be in the same country as jake in a year, so there was no reason to entertain the thought. besides, jake has already labeled you as a friend, nothing more to it.

once you were out of sight from jake’s car, you had finally slowed down, taking a few deep breaths as quietly as possible so that you didn’t seem out of shape to the people around you. your class was in the building farthest away from the main campus, so it was quite a walk, but you enjoyed looking at the greenery along the paths.

the arts department, which included your fashion design program, was a beautiful building that was one of the older ones on campus. unlike most of the other buildings that you had seen on your walk to class, this one still had the older architecture, the outside being brick with white accents at the doors and pillars.

you chuckled, thinking about the fact that jake would be so jealous that you got to work in this building for most of your classes. jake had always preferred the older architecture, loving each era and location of building until modern architecture became popular. the two of you had been passing by your favorite coffee shop this past week, and he was explaining why your coffee shop was better because they had more of an antique and authentic vibe compared to the bright, modern, and clean coffee shops.

the only downside to the older building was that the air conditioning did not work nearly as well as the newer buildings, even though they had implemented newer systems. as you made your way to your classroom, you realized you were ten minutes early, allowing you prime time to find the perfect seat. opting to sit in the middle of the second row, preferring not to be front and center when you’re new to this college experience, you unpack what you need.

as you had finally gotten to the point where you could sit and collect yourself, a girl had shown up beside you.

“hi! i’m kim soojin, you’re new here, right?” the girl had been wearing pants that were decorated with various accessories, some earrings, maybe even a nose ring, and a few chains. it honestly looked pretty good.

you smiled at her, glad someone was introducing themselves. “hi, i’m _____ it’s nice to meet you, but is it obvious i’m new?” you rub the back of your neck, hoping you didn’t stick out like a sore thumb.

she waves her hands to signify that you understood her wrong, “not in the way you think,” she explains, “it’s just classes for our department are a lot smaller, so it’s easy to notice when someone new shows up.”

you nod along, accepting that you would stick out like a sore thumb, not that you shouldn’t have expected that because your classes were small at your old college as well. soojin had started to unpack at the table next to you, giving you a supportive smile as she did so.

“let me know if you need anything,” she offered.

your first classes had only been about what they were expecting from you, but you got too caught up talking to soojin to notice the time. jake would’ve been waiting for you for thirty minutes by now. seeing as your classes ended 15 minutes after his, and you had talked for 15 more minutes.

by the time you had reached the library, you were gasping for air and slightly sweaty from the heat. since it was the first day of class, the library was nearly empty. you were rushing through the area that jake said he would be in, but you couldn’t see him anywhere. a wave a guilt and disappointment rushed through you at the thought of jake leaving because you were late.

“no need to rush, i’ll wait for you.” jake’s voice appears right beside your ear, low and hypnotic in the library. shivers run down your body, and you feel the goose bumps pleasantly tingle on your arm. you’re not even cold, especially after running in the heat.

he smiles to himself, his head faced downwards as he shakes it slowly back and forth. as he walks by you, his hand brushes yours, his pinky almost interlocking with yours.

you assume jake had just gotten back from the bathroom, as he goes to a table that already had a backpack and laptop out.

you follow him, plopping down in the seat in front of him. the eye contact he holds with you is slightly intimidating, “s-sorry,” you stutter, regretting the tremor in your voice, “i was talking to this girl in my class.”

jake nods, the soft smile remaining on his face as he grabs a tissue and wipes your forehead, stopping at your ear. he lingers there, giving you time to process what just happened before he pulls away. you were slightly embarrassed that jake had just wiped sweat off your forehead, but also anxious because during that whole time, you were staring into eyes that shine in the light.

closing your mouth that you didn’t realize was slightly parted from surprise, you clear your throat, being the first one to break eye contact.

jake tilts his head. he couldn’t get enough of seeing you flustered. even with your head turned downward to the side, he could see the pink hue of your cheeks and ears. "cute," he thought.

as your head tilts upward, jake notices you perk up, like a cat who had just seen its owner after a stranger tried to pet it. “sunghoon!” you wave, gesturing him over to your table.

the more distance and less alone time that you could get from jake, the better. your heart was pounding, and sunghoon with his angelic face was your savior.

sunghoon, who liked to tease jake, saw this as a wonderful opportunity. he sauntered his way up to your table, finding joy in jake’s miserable expression. now that sunghoon remembered, he never got revenge for the unprompted jealous attack.

this time, sunghoon leaned towards you on the table, “what’s up _____?” he asked, staring down at you because of his height.

“you should come look over your classes with us!” you glance at jake, nodding, trying to get yourself out of this situation.

as sunghoon moved his hand closer to yours, causing your eyes to widen, jake pushed his laptop in between. sunghoon retracted his hand, a knowing smirk worn on his face.

“sorry sunghoon, i need _____ to look at some ideas i had for my senior project.” jake smiles sheepishly at you, his shoulders popping up and then down. he was so endearing, the action made your heart melt.

"oh maybe i could-" jake's pleasant smile turns homicidal when he looks at sunghoon, who is trying to ruin his chance. he didn't come to the library on the first monday for no reason. he was on a mission. a make my childhood friend fall for me mission. the difficulty level was estimated to be a nine out of ten.

noticing you looking at sunghoon he takes the chance to mouth, "take a hint bastard."

deciding that riling up jake was enough and that maybe jay was right and jake was a little crazy, sunghoon decided he valued his life and friendship more than teasing the lovestruck man.

"you know what. i forgot that i have… this thing to go do, so i'm gonna go." sunghoon spoke pretty slowly, and it was honestly kind of awkward. the awkwardness almost made you forget the situation you were in. your only hope at survival was walking away.

"oh! before i go, jake you should invite her to jungwon's party this friday." as soon as you turned towards jake at the mention of a party, sunghoon winked a jake. "you're welcome," he mouthed, before finally sliding out of the library.

jake had hidden his fist of respect under the table. he had finally gotten through to sunghoon, and now he has added another wingman to his collection. without sunghoon as eye candy for you, the difficulty level decreases to 8.5.

"what party?" you ask jake, now used to the proximity between you and jake. you had leaned forward as a result of wanting to attend the party that jake had the invitation to.

jake didn't back down, he leaned forward as well, taking advantage of your excitement. "our friend jungwon is part of a dance club, so he throws a few parties here and there because he knows so many people. i usually don't go…" he watched your reaction, noting how your eyebrows furrowed once he said he doesn't attend, "but if you wanted to go, then i will go with you."

your face lights up, you had been to college parties before, mainly as a freshman and sophomore, when you went to frat parties, but this should be more like a house party. you grab jake's hand, "yes let's go!" you practically scream before remembering you're in a library and quieting down.

jake holds onto your hand tighter, "alright, now this senior project."

you're brought back to reality when you notice jake holding your hand. you debate pulling away, but he wasn't paying any attention to it, so maybe… you were just overthinking.

instead of focusing on jake and causing your body to go into overdrive, you focus on the sketches of a few buildings. some of them have the characteristics of the coffee shop by your apartment, with a few adjustments.

"wait, are these layouts of that coffee shop?" you ask, curious as to why jake would make layouts of a building that already exists.

"well, i was thinking they could expand, get a bigger building, add more buildings across different locations, and make each one have something unique to its own location."

you look at one, noticing it had a more romantic vibe, "where would this be placed ideally?" you point to the last one on the screen.

"ideally i would have it next to an art museum or some kind of boutique." you can see jake looking at you from the corner of your eye.

"funny, i've always wanted to go to an art museum as a first date." you murmur, loving the idea.

jake doesn't turn away, "i know."

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NOSTALGIA | S.JY

sim jaeyun series

summary: after losing your spark and passion, you've decided to study abroad for your final year of college. fortunately, your childhood friend-turned-stranger, jake, attends the college you'll be attending. while rediscovering your spark, you begin to question if there is a spark between you and your old friend.

jake's old feelings resurface while you take in everything your year trip has to offer, with jake at your side

pairing: jake x f!reader

genre: college au, childhood friends to lovers, fluff w/ tiny bit of angst

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warning: allusions to suggestive ideas (nothing happens), some angst about burnout wc: 2.6k synopsis: finally moving into your apartment, you try having some fun… in the form of a guy… named sunghoon. your plans get ruined by a jealous jake, resulting in more time spent with him and some feelings blossoming as jake comforts you about your future.

if there’s one thing jake was not expecting when he decided to make jay and sunghoon help move you in, it would be you ogling his best friend.

just last night, he had gone back to the living room, and after making sure you were out of earshot, he had told his two best friends that you were off limits. even if jake didn’t have a shot, he couldn’t stand seeing someone close to him have something he had yearned for all his life. that would be too much.

despite having planned to prevent any connection forming between him and his friends, he was not prepared for you, who was not aware of the deal, shooting shots instead. jake would be lying if he said he wasn’t going a little crazy. he had been flirting with you from the moment he picked you up from the airport, but you continued to laugh it off.

was he not attractive in your eyes? surely he had changed enough within the past few years to become an attractive man in your eyes. you had always been beautiful to him and even more so now that you had grown up.

you, on the other hand, were too focused on how to score sunghoon. it felt like you were being blessed every time you looked at him. his pale skin shone in the light, making him seem like an angel sent from above.

you didn’t want anything serious, seeing as you’d only be in korea for a year, but that didn't mean you couldn’t have a little fun. especially if sunghoon was okay with it.

how do you casually ask him that, though? you look over at jake, who was currently helping jay build a shelf, as you debate asking him if sunghoon was interested in you. he was in the zone at the moment, so maybe you’d ask him another time.

instead, you decided to go help sunghoon in setting up and leveling a pretty large painting. “hey sunghoon, thanks again for helping me move in, even though we don’t know each other.”

sunghoon stops his hard work, opting to set down the painting instead of holding a conversation with it in his hands. “it’s no problem. plus, jake’s the one who practically dragged us all out of bed to do this. he’s not even a morning person.”

“yeah, jake even had to pull me out of his bed. i think the jet lag is getting to me.” you sigh.

sunghoon laughs, grabbing the picture one more time, “honestly i peeked inside his room when he was trying to wake you up and thought i might have to call emergency services because you looked dead.” sunghoon starts lifting the painting to place it on the nails once more.

“here let me help you.” you step beside sunghoon, grabbing the other edge of the painting so that the chances of the left edge falling on him were decreased.

the two of you manage to stabilize the painting before stepping back and looking at it. simultaneously, the two of you tilt your head to the right.

“well…” you make two L’s with your hands, marking where the painting is tilted more towards the right side, “at least we got it up.”

sunghoon looks over at you, “normally i’d say it’s better this way, but i can’t lie to you like that.”

you meet his eyes, deciding now was your chance, “since you’ve been so honest with me, the least i could do is offer you a coffee after.”

you smile as sunghoon’s face lights up, “free coffee huh?”

you look back at the painting before looking back at sunghoon, “not without fixing the painting though.”

sunghoon chuckles, shaking his head as he goes back to fix the painting. as he maneuvers the painting and steps away, jake steps beside you to quality check its position.

“hmmm…” he ponders, staring intently at the painting, “i think it needs to go a little to the left again.”

you look at the positioning and can’t find any problem with it. “jake, you must have a great eye for this sort of thing.”

he continues to direct sunghoon, repeatedly telling him left and right with certain degrees, “must be my degree in architecture.”

you nod your head, it makes enough sense to you. unbeknownst to you, jake was getting his payback on sunghoon, who entertained the idea of getting coffee with you. he had just spoken to sunghoon about his whole ordeal, and he wouldn’t let him forget it just because you were pretty and forward about your interest.

you had already sat on the couch by the time they were done fixing the painting. sunghoon had looked visibly irritated, glaring at jake unrelentingly. that huge painting probably got heavier as each minute passed, so you can’t blame him.

“so about that coffee,” you look at sunghoon, whose glare dissipates when his attention turns to you.

he smirks, looking at jake. considering this payback, sunghoon wanted to agree to the coffee.

jake would never let him get that chance. “oh jay didn’t you and sunghoon have to go grab something from heeseung?”

sunghoon looks confused, looking at jake, and then jay, trying to determine what he could’ve forgotten. jay, on the other hand, immediately gets up to drag sunghoon out of your apartment. jay didn’t know whether to roll his eyes or laugh at the way jake was acting. maybe all those years of yearning for a girl who never saw him as more than a friend were driving him crazy, and jay couldn’t blame him.

they were quick to head out, so quick that you had to shout a quick “thank you again!” towards their retreating figures.

jake had finally taken a seat on the couch beside you, trying to regain his energy after helping you move in and keep you from pursuing sunghoon. now that it was just the two of you, he leaned his head back against the wall, closing his eyes.

you watched him, feeling grateful that he had been such a great help. honestly, you don’t know what you would’ve done if you had to do this all alone. you get up, smacking his thigh gently as you do so, “come on, let’s get some coffee.”

although jake was tempted to hop right up at the thought of grabbing coffee with you, he didn’t want to get up just yet. he had just gotten comfortable, “noooo,” he drags out, placing his arm over his closed eyes.

“yessss,” you answer back, putting your hands on your hips as you debate what to do. jake still doesn’t move an inch, so you hit his foot with your own, “come on.”

he ignores you, but you can see a smile adorn his face as you stand there waiting. “jakeeeeee,” you complain, grabbing the arm that was resting over his eyes and pulling at it. you’re using your entire body weight, and he still won’t budge. why is he being so stubborn? you’re in desperate need of coffee.

as soon as you lean your body backwards, jake decides to stand up, causing you to lose your balance and fall backwards. instead of your butt meeting the floor, jake yanks your arm forward, making you stumble into him instead.

“you’ve really gotta stop falling _.” jake stares down at you. the close proximity between the two of you throws you off, so you immediately back away.

“well this time was your fault.” you glare at him, and he responds with a shrug.

“atleast i caught you.”

“yeah alright, now let’s go slow poke.”

you’d be lying to yourself if you said that being in the cafe one-on-one with jake wasn’t bad for your mental health. you ignored it earlier because you were too tired and busy to care what your friend had been wearing, but now… now with him standing in line directly in your line of sight.

wow.

although he was only wearing grey sweats and a black jacket over a white top, it was doing wonders for him. it doesn’t help that you know how to appreciate a nice grey sweatpant outfit.

with him in line, you felt like you actually could stare this time around. he stole your card after the two of you argued over who was going to pay, so your tax was checking him out.

you tried to tell yourself that he was your friend, but you couldn’t help but feel a little bashful around him. it’s been hard for you to try not to let your giddiness show every time he got too close to you, which was very frequently. he had always been a very physically affectionate person. however, now that he wasn’t the little kid you had always known his physical affection caused your heart to race.

surely it’s just cause he’s attractive. but he is paying for your coffee, he picked you up from the airport, he let you stay in his bed at his apartment, and he helped you move in. all of these actions, along with how he acted so naturally around you, were creating a spot for jake to live in your head rent-free. it didn’t help that you had trouble falling asleep because jake’s bed smelled like him, so it was almost as if he had been right next to you the whole night.

he’s just being nice, you remind yourself. plus, you were only in korea for a year. even if you wanted to embark on a new journey with jake, it wouldn’t last and you wouldn’t hurt your friend like that. maybe you should try sunghoon again; he could probably get jake off your mind.

while jake ordered your coffee, he couldn’t help the constant smile at his face. not only did he manage to cock block sunghoon, but he’s at the coffee shop with you instead. it was like a little date, except without the intention behind dating. granted, jake wouldn’t of minded if those intentions were included, he actually would’ve preferred that.

he’d been wanting to try to make some moves and ask you out, but it seems way too soon. you had just gotten to korea and he doesn’t want to bombard you so soon. so, he’s playing the waiting game while all his friends laugh at his suffering.

the coffee shop you had taken him to was right next to your apartment, and it was small, but decorated nicely. he could see this place growing and could imagine how they’d set up their shop in a bigger building. there he goes again, thinking about businesses and architecture.

he decides to glance at you when he finally grabs the coffee at the counter, and instantly meets eye contact. before he could raise the coffee to show you he was coming back over, your eyes had already darted away from him. instead of being upset by it, he found it kind of cute despite not understanding why you didn’t want to look at him in that moment.

“here’s your latte,” jake hands the cup to you, forcing your eyes back on him. you were trying not to seem awkward after getting caught staring at him. surely it wasn’t that bad.

“thank you.” you gratefully take the coffee, ready to chug all the caffeine your body desperately needs.

"so have you made any new outfit designs?" jake asks, unknowingly bringing up the entire reason you felt the need to get away from your home country.

it wasn't that you suddenly started hating fashion designing; it was more so that your entire life had been surrounded by it. having a mom who worked for a big fashion company didn't help. you still loved fashion design, you just felt trapped in a box. honestly, you just had a mental block and couldn't remember why you loved it in the first place. you started to feel like a drone, repeating the same task over and over again with no improvement. you had still been doing good work, at least that's what everyone said, but you just couldn't seem to get it right or find creativity within yourself.

"what's wrong?" jake asks, resting his palm on your thigh, directly above your knee.

had you waited too long to speak?

"nothing's wrong, i've been sketching here and there, but that's all." you brush his question off, hoping he will leave it behind, but jake is as stubborn as you and doesn't let it go.

"i know that look _. it might've been years, but your thoughts can still be read all over your face." the air is now somber, jake's comforting presence standing out in the unsure aura surrounding you. he is looking into your eyes, patiently waiting for you to speak, as he rubs his thumb back and forth against your lower thigh.

you sigh, "i don't know. i hate looking at my sketch book now because they all just look like the same plain a generic designs now. like all i'm doing is what i know other people want. i could easily get a job at my mom's company, but do i actually want that? i thought getting away from everyone else's influence would help me get out of that mindset and that living my life to it's fullest would bring back the part of me that loves fashion design." in attempt to hide, you had your head down the entire time you spoke because you didn't want anyone to see you at your weakest. you hated being unsure about yourself.

jake grabs your hand, releasing your thigh, urging you to look at him. you can't. it's bad enough that you just dumped all of this on jake. it seems he can't catch a break from you.

jake just wanted you to look at him. he always saw you radiating confidence, but he understood you couldn't be that way all the time. "it's okay to feel unsure about your future right now. you're still in college, it's completely normal for you to feel that way. you're doing a great job _. even if you are not feeling yourself right now, you're taking the steps to get there, and that's what matters most. just take it one day at a time."

you didn't realize how good jake was at comforting people. seeing as how his life seems all figured out, you expected him to simply tell you that "everything would be alright" and leave it at that.

you finally look at him, and he smiles softly. He's even more beautiful like this, his eyes holding a kind of sincerity that you've never seen before. he said he could tell what you were thinking because everything was written on your face. now you're wondering if he can see you falling for him in this exact moment.

"thank you, jake. that actually makes me feel a lot better." you slide your hand away from jake's, not able to handle the constant contact without thinking too much into it. "you know i'm going to have to start paying you at this point."

"what for?" he's genuinely confused by your statement.

"because you're constantly lending me a hand," quite literally as well.

jake laughs, "well we're friends, are we not?"

"hmmm. i thought i was just a family friend." you look away from him, crossing your arms as you pretend to be offended.

the two of you are like two peas in a pod. the distance didn't matter; the two of you would always click. just like the old times, except this time the two of you were grown up and thinking about your futures together.

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NOSTALGIA | S.JY

sim jaeyun series

summary: after losing your spark and passion, you've decided to study abroad for your final year of college. fortunately, your childhood friend-turned-stranger, jake, attends the college you'll be attending. while rediscovering your spark, you begin to question if there is a spark between you and your old friend.

jake's old feelings resurface while you take in everything your year trip has to offer, with jake at your side

pairing: jake x f!reader

genre: college au, childhood friends to lovers, fluff w/ tiny bit of angst

2 | reminisce masterlist | prev | next wc: 2.3k synopsis: you and jake meet his roommates, reminisce on old times, and become naturally close to each other again, but is jake acting a bit weirder than he used to be?

“hey.”

“hey _____.”

you hear someone talking, or whispering beside you, but in your blissful sleep-like state, you assume it’s someone talking to someone else.

“_____.”

never mind. they’re definitely saying your name.

“what?” you mumble, scooting closer to where the door should be. however, there is no door, only something else that’s not as firm.

you feel someone’s hands prop you back into the seat before they reach over you. “we’re at my apartment.” the seatbelt clicks, and your eyes fly open.

you get a weird sense of nausea as you remember that you're in an entirely different country and heading to jake’s apartment.

“i’m so sorry, i didn’t even realize i fell asleep. i was just trying to rest my eyes.” you stretch out your arms a bit to get rid of the stiffness in your body, before getting out of the car.

“you don’t have to apologize. you were traveling all day. i don’t blame you.” jake’s eyes linger on you for a bit, “by the way… i forgot to mention that i have two roommates.”

“huh?” at first, you were thinking about how you were staying at someone who was practically a stranger's apartment, but now you’re actually staying in a stranger's apartment… well, two strangers and one acquaintance.

“i’m sorry i forgot about it. they’re cool though, i swear,” he raises his right hand in attestation, “they might even be asleep.”

they were not asleep. in fact, they were wide awake, staring at you from their spot on the living room couch.

“do you not usually have company?” you mumble to jake, wondering if their staring was a common occurrence.

“i do sometimes,” he mumbles back. “hey guys this is _. she’s,” he pauses thinking of what to call you, “a family friend.” you’d be lying if you said you weren’t a little hurt by him diminishing your history of being friends for years. then again, you did kind of consider him a stranger.

you wave, not sure what else to do.

“hey _____, i’m jay.” jay sits up a little straighter before he waves.

“i’m sunghoon.” the guy to the right of jay introduces, and quickly looks over at jake with questioning eyes. “is that the girl who you-”

“alright!” jake raises his voice, making you jump as he catches you off guard, “now that you guys are acquainted, she needs to eat.”

before jake leads you to the kitchen, right next to the living room, you see jay turn to sunghoon with confusion etched all over his face.

“sorry about them, it’s just late and i normally don’t have many people over this late.” jake starts searching through his fridge as you sit down, feeling out of place in the kitchen.

you were honestly debating skipping dinner because of how tired you were. the nap you took in the car had only made it worse.

“they seem nice.” honestly you were too focused on them staring and on how attractive they were. was it a requirement to be hot to live here? maybe you should look at the apartment’s paperwork just to see.

jake sighs as he closes the fridge and turns to the cabinets, “okay so we are completely out of everything except ramen.” he pulls out the ramen from the cabinet, holding it up for you to see.

“that works.” you laugh, kind of relieved because it takes the least amount of time to cook. in other words, you’ll get to go to sleep faster.

jake immediately gets to work, filling a pot with water before setting it on the heated stove. it brings you back to when the two of you were kids, making mud soup. well, you were making mud soup, and jake was always the one watching. you laugh at the memory in which he was almost a victim of poisoning after you tried shoving a spoonful of mud down his throat.

“what’re you thinking about?” jake leans against the counter next to the stove, a slight smile appearing on his face as you look at him again.

“nothing.” you shake your head, unable to fight the smile that crosses your face.

jake props himself back up, taking a step as he does so. there’s still quite a bit of distance between the two of you, an entire bar table separating the two of you.

“oh come on, all these years have passed, and you’re still keeping secrets from me.” his eyes appear dazzling as he teases you. you notice the way his styled hair has started to fall, one strand appearing in front of his eye.

“oh shut up, i’m not keeping any secrets.” you roll your eyes, “i was thinking about how we used to make mud soup.” it isn’t until now that you realize how stupid that sounds.

jake inches closer, “oh the soup you tried to kill me with, yeah, if i recall correctly, that was your idea.”

his disgusted face is an exact copy of the disgusted and frightened seven-year-old jake. the sight sends you into hysterics.

“god,” you try to collect yourself, “you haven’t changed a bit.”

jake appears at your side as you get a hold of yourself, taking in one last deep breath.

“oh yeah? and what about you?” he leans over the bar table, his face surprisingly close to your own.

you lean back a bit as you feel your cheeks warm, “well i’d like to say i’ve changed, puberty and all.” you shrug, gesturing to your now mature body.

jake scans you, a serious look on his face. after a second passes, he straightens up, smiling once more, “no i don’t see any difference.”

“touché. now go back to the stove before my ramen gets ruined.”

it was nice knowing that after all these years, you still felt comfortable with jake.

after he retreated to the stove to finish the ramen, you started taking in the decorations in the kitchen. there were plants here and there, with a few paintings that matched the color scheme of the entire apartment. honestly they did good, better than good. you’d hate to say it, but you had stereotyped them and assumed that their apartment would be plain, lacking personality, because they were men. it was a pleasant surprise.

now that jake had finished cooking, he noticed your eyes studying the artwork on some of the walls.

“jay and i decorated the place. sunghoon doesn’t know a thing about interior design,” jake explained, setting the bowl of ramen in front of you.

“by the way, how did the three of you meet?” part of you was asking because they were cute, the other part of you was asking because you were interested in jake’s life now, as a childhood friend is.

“we had some gen ed classes together, but we got closer when they needed another person to live with after their roommate heeseung was graduating. i took his spot.” jake pulled a stool out from beside you, sitting next to you as you ate your ramen. “is it good?”

mid slurp, you gave him a thumbs up. ramen was ramen, no complaints here.

“it’s nice to see you again _____.” jake lays his head down on the table, angling his face towards you. the sight was so adorable that you had to fight a smile.

you finish your bite before responding. “you’re so cute.”

jake smiles, now propping his head on the back of his hands. “how cute?” he asks, blinking his eyes at an alarming rate.

“now it’s just creepy,” you laugh. as you eat more noodles you think of something else to say, “i’m surprised things are not as awkward as i thought they would be.” you manage to get out in between your chewing.

jake, now sitting back up, tilts his head at you “why would things be awkward?”

“i don’t know. i just assumed that things would be entirely different between us now that years have passed since we’ve spoken.”

jake ponders for a moment, “well we did message each other until college, so technically it hasn’t been too long.”

you finish eating, setting the bowl to the side. “three years is still a long time. plus, by junior year of high school our messages were more so just wishing each other happy birthday, and that was it.”

thinking about it now… you realize that you were the one who kept forgetting to respond to him.

jake seems lost in thought, making you feel a little guilty that you contributed the most to the distance that grew between the two of you. if you recall correctly, the distance got the worst it had been whenever you started dating your ex. needless to say, letting him distract you from your old best friend wasn’t worth it.

“hey jake… i’m sorry that i didn’t message you as much.”

his head pops back up, eyes meeting yours with an unreadable expression. “you don’t have to apologize, life happens.”

as the silence grew between you two, you had to break eye contact. to lighten up the mood that you had darkened, you moved on from that topic. “so… where am i sleeping?”

jake has moved, standing up and grabbing your bowl to put it in the sink. “in my room.”

your jaw drops, not so comfortable with the idea of sleeping in the same bed as jake. “uh jake, we’re not kids anymore i can’t just sleep in your room.”

his laughter fills the room, “you know i’m starting to get the impression that you think i’m a dick.” he walks back over to you as you hop out of the seat. “i’ll sleep on the couch.”

“i can’t kick you out of your room jake. i’ll take the couch.” you start to walk to what you know as the living room, before jake catches you by the wrist.

“not happening.” he looks at you, allowing no weakness to show in his face, giving you the impression that he wasn’t gonna let you have this fight.

you would’ve fought harder against the idea of jake sleeping on the couch if it wasn’t for the long travel day you had suffered. too tired to argue, it was easy to let jake take the lead as you followed him to his room.

you would be lying if you said you weren’t a little curious as to what his room was like. blaming curiosity, you were on jake’s heels, practically skipping to his room. when he brought you to the last room in the hallway, you couldn’t resist peeking into the room before the two of you walked in.

the first thing you notice is how organized he is, the second is the lack of color. despite that, he still had a few photographs hanging on a portion of the wall as well as some figurine-like decorations on some shelves. he lit his room up with his interests, a few vinyls on the wall of his favorite artists, as well as a soccer ball discarded in the corner of his room.

“i cleaned everything before you came,” he explains, discrediting his cleanliness.

you nod, walking over to the pictures hanging on the wall, glancing at him to make sure it was ok to sneak a peek. seeing as he only moved closer to you, you assumed it was okay.

along the edges of the pile of pictures were pictures of jake and his roommates, some including the three of them with a few others. as you inspect the pictures, you come across a familiar one. jake had posted this picture of him and jay at a concert together, the two of them making a piece sign at the camera.

you point at it, “i remember you posted this. how was the concert?” you turn your head to the side, only to notice jake has moved right beside you to get a better look. his head hovering over your shoulder, he scans the picture.

“it was so good. he’s a great singer and even better performer.” he pauses, seeming to put himself back in time to that exact moment. “god it was so good,” he mumbles.

you smile, making a mental note that you need to go to some more concerts. as you analyze the pictures again, you see a woman pop up repeatedly. “is this your girlfriend?” you assume, pointing at one of the pictures of the two of them.

jake laughs, understanding who you mean immediately. “no definitely not, though i think you’d be her type.” you nod, pushing your lips to the side as you realize what he means. noted, don't assume things.

“she’s pretty,” you offer.

“why do you ask? are you curious about me?” jake smirks, bending his upper body to block the view of the pictures in front of you. “i’m single, so be curious all you want.”

his words throw you off for a minute. with how he’s looking at you right now, as if he was desperate for your attention, your heart beat a little too fast for your own comfort. instead of revealing that off-putting feeling, you roll your eyes.

“you’re still such a tease. stop messing around.” you push him out of the way to finish looking at the pictures.

he sighs, “alright, i’ll leave you to it. rest well _____ and i’ll see you in the morning.”

“night jake.” you wave him away, still looking at all of the photos.

it isn’t until he leaves, closing the door behind him, that you see the picture of you and him as kids at a playground and another picture of the two of you at his send-off when he was moving. in the latter picture, your face was puffy from all the tears you had cried.

“i wonder why he put these pictures up.” you mumble, feeling slightly appreciative that jake didn’t completely forget you. deciding that you have had enough of being nosey, you got ready for bed.

his bed had remnants of his scent.

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after writing so much angst, writing fluff is so fun sometimes

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NOSTALGIA | S.JY

sim jaeyun series

summary: after losing your spark and passion, you've decided to study abroad for your final year of college. fortunately, your childhood friend-turned-stranger, jake, attends the college you'll be attending. while rediscovering your spark, you begin to question if there is a spark between you and your old friend.

jake's old feelings resurface while you take in everything your year trip has to offer, with jake at your side

pairing: jake x reader

genre: college au, childhood friends to lovers, fluff w/ tiny bit of angst

1 | head over heels masterlist | next word count: 1.6k

you’d be lying if you said you weren’t nervous about spending your last year of college in korea. sure you’ve grown up with your parents who familiarized you with korean etiquette and the language, but it is completely different when you are dropped into the middle of it. right in this moment, you were dropped into the middle of sleep deprivation from just arriving in korea. luckily you had about a week to spare before classes started, but it still didn’t feel like enough.

the airport wasn’t too crowded, allowing you to maneuver throughout the building easily. when your mom found out that you’d decided to do this, she was ecstatic. she went on and on about how you needed to make sure to visit her best friend, your not-so-biological aunt. it’s been so long since you’ve seen her or her family, so you felt kind of awkward about it. sure, you followed them on social media and occasionally got updates from them through posts, but you haven’t held a conversation in years. despite the distance you felt between you and your mom's best friend's family, your mom had reached out to her friend to make sure you would have no problems settling into a new country.

thus, you were now struggling around the airport with tons of bags and suitcases, looking for your mom's best friend, sim jiyeon. it would be a sight for her to see you manhandling your luggage. if it wasn’t for the public eye seeing you struggle, you would’ve laughed. as you were nearing the airport's exit, you didn’t see any sign of the older lady. maybe she had gone to the restroom. as you glanced around, a clutter of balloons caught your eye. you started to smile, thinking it was cute that someone would do… that… oh… those were for you.

a boy whom you haven’t seen since middle school was standing alone, phone in hand, head in the clouds, and balloons in the air. Jake must’ve been waiting for a while because the sign with your name on it was stuffed in between his armpits, and he was shifting back and forth between his legs. now that those balloons were for you, a bit of embarrassment crept its way in.

to hell with it.

“jake!” you called, making your way towards him.

it was comical how his head darted up, eyes wide like a deer in headlights. the sight naturally caused you to smile, which was returned by him. once he had processed that you were actually in front of him, he started running towards you. it was surprising because at this point, the two of you were practically strangers, but you wanted to return the sentiment. you had started to run towards him with all of your luggage, only getting five steps in before one of your suitcases maneuvered its way in front of you, causing you to stumble and fall forward, taking the suitcase with you. you didn’t even have time to process jake’s surprise before seeing the floor approach your face.

“oh fuck.” you blurt, pushing your arms out in front of you to catch your fall. as you did, a stinging sensation ran from your wrist to your elbow. you hissed at the pain, sitting up after successfully catching yourself.

jake had already managed to get to you while you held your wrist and inspected it.

“are you okay?” he asked, staring down at you.

you sighed, resisting the urge to be sarcastic as you processed what just happened. “yes i’m fine. my wrist took some damage, but it’s probably just a sprain.” you finally looked up at the man.

holy shit. you knew jake was attractive; he posted enough on instagram that you were able to see his beautiful face often, but he was hot. Like super hot. so hot you just had to sit there and gawk for a second.

his soft laughter pulled you out of your trance.

“good because that was hilarious. how did that-” he gestured with his hands, laughing a little more, “happen?” he began laughing so hard that he had to gasp for breath.

“yeah okay, go on and laugh, while i help myself up.” you roll your eyes, now annoyed at the boy who was surprisingly natural around you.

as you start to help yourself up, making sure to avoid putting pressure on your wrist, jake reaches out to you.

“sorry. sorry. let me help you up.” he inches closer to you, leaning down to grab your arm, but you shoo him away.

“i got it. i bet you spent all your energy laughing at me anyways.” you glare playfully as you stand up, making sure to smile at him so he doesn’t think you are actually mad at him.

“yeah well, you look like you spent all your energy sleeping on a plane…” he tilts his head at you, analyzing your state of being, “or maybe not at all.”

you punch him in the shoulder, shaking your head as he chuckles. truth is, he was right… it was hard for you to sleep on the plane, especially when your ears kept popping.

“alright let’s go get you some food and look at that wrist.” without asking jake grabbed two bags from your shoulders and two suitcases, leaving you with one of each.

“i could carry some more,” you complain, feeling guilty that he took most of your things and was still carrying the balloons. the sign was discarded somewhere without your knowledge.

jake raised his eyebrow as he looked at you, seeming to say, yeah… as if you didn’t just fall from carrying your luggage.

“fine, but you better hope you don’t take a tumble either.” without all the extra luggage, it’s easier to stay caught up with jake. now that the two of you have settled down after your clumsy encounter, it had gotten quiet. too quiet. being the way you are, you couldn’t walk in silence even as exhaustion loomed over you.

“so… we haven’t seen each other in seven years. how’s life been?” you question, leading the two of you into the small talk that you would normally hate. instead of small talk, maybe you’ll refer to it as catching up.

“it’s been good.”

oh. short and sweet, now what?

you purse your lips, nodding your head at his response. jake glances over at you, taking notice of how your gaze wanders around the airport.

“i’ve been interning at this company in seoul for the summer, but i just finished up since school is starting again. my mom said we’re going to the same college, so maybe i’ll see you around.” jake smiles at you as the two of you exit the airport and head to his car.

“oh that’s nice. i’ve been looking into some companies in america that i’ve submitted some work to, but i’m putting that aside for now as i spend my last year here in korea.”

it’s dark outside now, only adding to your exhaustion.

“what made you decide to study abroad?” he slides one of the suitcases to his other side, managing two suitcases in one hand while he reaches into his pocket for his keys.

“well… i was always told i should try traveling abroad at least once, but i was always too focused on getting experience for a job after college…” you pause, debating whether or not to tell him about how you lost your passion in the process, “i didn’t want to miss out on it and already knew the language, so i ended up here.”

jake nods, avoiding your eyes for a moment, “well i’m glad you tried it out. i promise you’ll love it here.”

he unlocks his car and opens the trunk, making sure to grab the luggage you were carrying in first before putting the luggage he had in. once all the luggage is packed away, he opens the passenger side door before walking around to the driver's side. honestly you weren’t used to the chivalry, but jake made the action feel so natural, like it was second nature for him.

“so, where are we going to eat?” you ask, looking at the time that reads 10:42 p.m.

“well…” jake seems to notice how late it is as he starts the car and drives out of the parking spot, “my apartment.”

you gape at his words, causing him to laugh.

“relax, it’s too late to go out and eat, and there’s no way i’m helping you move into your apartment this late.”

you’re unsure about this whole thing. you haven’t seen jake in years, and now you’re going to his apartment. the situation reminds you of what some men have expected when you've gone to their place. you’re a little skeptical. it’s not like you know jake anymore.

sensing your worry, jake elaborates on his plans, “we will eat whatever’s in the fridge and go straight to sleep because we’ve got some moving to do in the morning. my mom would kill me if i sent you on your own on your first night in korea.”

once you’ve agreed, you spend your time staring outside the window, taking in the sights of korea. occasionally, you look at jake, watching as the street lights flash onto his face. it makes him seem like he’s a part of a dream.

you decide this man is too attractive for his own good, and that if you stare too hard, you might become awestruck. instead of continuing to stare, you close your eyes, letting the exhaustion take over.

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NOSTALGIA | S.JY

sim jaeyun series

summary: after losing your spark and passion, you've decided to study abroad for your final year of college. fortunately, your childhood friend-turned-stranger, jake, attends the college you'll be attending. while rediscovering your spark, you begin to question if there is a spark between you and your old friend.

jake's old feelings resurface while you take in everything your year trip has to offer, with jake at your side

pairing: jake x reader

genre: college au, childhood friends to lovers, fluff w/ tiny bit of angst

note: i have no idea how colleges in korea work, so i'm winging it w/ my own college experience.

NOSTALGIA MASTERLIST

1 | head over heels

2 | reminisce

3 | basketball or coffee

4 | game on

5 | in progress

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it’s been two years, but i might just write an enhypen fanfic cause i’m bored 🤔. is this impulsiveness or something i will finish for once. (i have 30+ drafts 🙈)

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reading snow white with the red hair has me thinking of a new fic cause their romance is just so PURE AND SWEETTTTT

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Labyrinth | Kang Taehyun

Kang Taehyun

genre: fluff, kinda angsty

note: i wrote this for everyone who tends to overthink and believes they’re hard to love. it’s alright. the right people are out there, don’t push away the good ones (and yes i wrote this with labyrinth on repeat). this might be the first time i wrote something this way, but still hope it’s enjoyable.

BREATHE

come on

just breathe

breathe in, breathe through

breathe deep, breathe out

how many times have you had to tell yourself this? when reassuring yourself doesn’t work… breathing. all the thoughts in your head telling you to flee. your body seemingly pumping through adrenaline in a panicked state, but you only wanted things to slow down. now things are moving at an alarming rate.

what if he doesn’t feel the same way?

how could you be so stupid?

he clearly isn’t interested… conversations are dying. why can’t the two of you hold a conversation? panic.

it’s fine. it’s not too late to stop liking him. it’s no big deal… but damn you really do like him. no. it never ends well for you.

just text him.

then you’ll come off as pushy. what if you’re just overthinking?

come on… breathe.

you hate it. you don’t just like him.

“i think i’m gonna hurl.” don’t.

breathe. it’s okay, just admit it.

“i think i love him.”

what if he doesn’t feel the same way? text him.

“okay we got this.” this is scary.

just hit send.

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the knock coming from the door sends your heart to your throat. you feel like you could choke, instead you clear your throat one… three times as you head to the door.

a deep breath and then the door is open and you’re face to face with your boyfriend. he looks scared. his eyes are wide with fear.

oh god.

“you said you wanted to talk?” he looks serious.

“yeah…” you swallow, “you can sit, it’s nothing bad…” hopefully.

his shoulders drop slowly as if the tension there had relieved itself. maybe he’s telling himself everything’s fine. hopefully it is.

you follow after him and sit on the couch.

“i don’t mean to jump right into it, but first i wanted you to know that it’s okay if you lose interest. i don’t mind really. if that’s ever the case i would just like to know. you don’t have to text me if you don’t want to. don’t feel like you have to spare my feelings or anything cause it’s fine. even if you changed your mind i could never blame you for it.” you watch as his eyes scan you with something… pity?

“y/n-” he starts, but you can’t hear what he’s about to say. you just want to get this over with.

“i… i love you taehyun.” holy shit. you take a deep breath, “and i don’t expect you to feel the same. it’s fine i told you. if you don’t see us going anywhere or you don’t feel the same way-”

“y/n, i love you.” he grabs your hands and you have to try not to cry as your eyes widen.

he loves you. your heart starts pumping fast again, but this is a different feeling. a smile adorns your face and you feel as if your whole body is on fire.

“if i have to remind you everyday i will. i love you.” he squeezes your hand, “i love you and i never want you to feel any other way.”

he sees you. it’s as if he had looked deep into your soul and wasn’t afraid to touch it.

“thank god.” you laugh, finally feeling relief. “i was beginning to think that i was crazy.”

“well… i never said you weren’t crazy.” he smiles as he leans down and kisses you.

you love him and that’s okay. you’d love him no matter what.

“you had me scared for a minute. i thought you were going to break up with me.” he chuckles, looking at you.

you gasp, “never.”

“good because i just planned this whole date to tell you that i loved you and now i won’t be stressing out the whole time.”

“lucky you.” he understands you.

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I’m 🥺🤭 but also haunted by this knowledge

ur moots as kpop idols?

AAAAA okay ive got IDEAS, SURELY!! (i had like 2 ideas this took so long please forgive me. but also it's not any better because of that,, please drop your expectations)

@hanniiesuckle17 :: stray kids han. i would be lying to myself if i chose anyone other than jisung for hunter.

@fandomgirl489 :: enhypen jake. SHE'S MY JAKE <3 and i love her for it! WHAT MORE CAN I SAY

@goldenhypen :: blackpink rosé. em is so sweet (& GORGEOUS) i cannot explain it further than that but i get such chaeyoung energy from her hehe.

@unlocktxt :: txt yeonjun. i know bc of the among us moas server when she private messaged me to make sure i was okay. but also danced around to everlasting shine within like a day of us talking. lexi is yeonjun end of discussion HEHE

@ashxxgyu :: txt soobin. it's the way she posts and texts and the fact that she's so caring and i never feel lonely when she interacts w me <3

@petrichor-han :: enhypen sunghoon. he'd have higher standards though. PICK THE BAR OFF THE GROUND, RAIN, YOU'RE TOO HOT FOR THAT!

@foreshadxw :: bts rm. hayz is such a great moot and always knows what to say <3

@heesnovia :: somi. sel is so funny and hot and i wanna talk to her so often :)

@skz-minchan-enthusiast :: bts j-hope. everyone loves jenny!

@hsgwrld :: enhypen ni-ki. i've already told meg this but it's so true HAHA just enough silly and sweet <3

@heetoldme :: enhypen sunoo. they're both kind and fun and i associate her with him SO MUCH. (also,, just saw your theme...LOVE IT!)

@heesterical :: seventeen wonwoo. idk man i could not tell you why but jae gives me that type of energy in my bones. sorry for the lack of explanation, babes ;-;

@full-sunnies :: stray kids felix. she is silly and kind and i love her for it. as i do felix.

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ZAARAAAAAAAA! Hello! I know it’s hard for anyone to really get in touch with me (I’m very bad at responding to messages in general) but I’m finally on summer break so hopefully I can be on more… and relive my passion for writing (maybe possibly… reading books has been getting in the way of that) I’ve missed you and I’m glad you’re still active. I love hearing from you

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txt reacts: you’re preparing for finals

boyfriend!txt x gn!reader requested by :: @unlocktxt (thanks for requesting, babes!) beta reader :: @goldenhypen (thank you for your feedback :) author’s note :: writing this was genuinely so fun and managed to relax me while i was actually losing my mind over finals 😭. dhmu about how inconsistent the tenses are i know they're bad HAHA i hope you guys enjoy and good luck to everyone taking finals now or soon! warnings :: a lot of food and eating habits talk,, i think that's it though. lmk if i need to add anything.

soobin

soobin would be so sweet while you were prepping for finals

if you were struggling with something that he didn’t understand, he’d literally spend 15 minutes on the computer with a pen & paper in hand trying to figure it out 

&& then he’d call you over to explain it but get confused in the middle 

but by that time you’d understand & explain it to him (◡‿◡✿)

you’d probably have many visits to the library since it’s more quiet (& less messy) there than the dorms

you’d also share earbuds while you worked

every once in a while, amongst the slow tracks, a random banger like ‘that that’ by psy would play & the two of you would be sent into a fit of laughter that you tried so hard to contain

luckily, the librarian never busted you

although it did earn a few looks from elsewhere in the room (whoops)

he’s also definitely the type of boyfriend who makes you really good tea

&& it probably became a very important part of your day (because how could it not?! the tea was amazing)

he would prioritize sleep quite a bit, so lights are off for him by 11 every night during finals week

&& that rubbed off on you!

the days would end with an episode of your favorite show playing on his laptop while you drifted off to sleep on his bed together (。-ω-)zzz 

stress be gone!

yeonjun

if you were in a long distance relationship with yeonjun, you & him would have planned for him to fly in the night your finals ended 

but yeonjun found a cheaper flight for the week before :) so naturally, he bought it!

he was so excited to surprise you, especially because he knew how stressed out you were from the several late night facetime calls you had 

&& you were indeed happy to see your boyfriend at your doorstep with takeout from your favorite restaurant in hand

it improved your week tenfold just seeing his face (ꉺᗜꉺ)

he, on the other hand, while happy to see you, was shocked to see how poorly you had been taking care of yourself

considering the dark circles under your eyes & the fact that you were in pajamas at 3 pm,, he knew something was off

&& you, as every student does at one point or another, were living on instant ramen & cereal — he could tell from the state of your dorm alone (╯•﹏•╰)

you didn’t plan for him to find out because he tends to worry about you a lot <3 (SORRY JUN)

&& the ‘less than 6 hours of sleep during finals week’ thing was pretty standard for people at your school

“eat with me” ( •_•)

he set the bag down on your table & looked at you with the playfully threatening stare that you had missed so much

“then i’m getting groceries while you nap” he continued, looking over at your kitchen area

oh wow had you missed your boyfriend

it only came to you when you felt as helpless & overwhelmed as right now

but you needed him. & so, you pulled him in for a tight hug, cutting off his mumbles about the lack of fruit in your kitchen (づ ◕‿◕ )づ

oh, how he loved you <3

beomgyu

beomgyu would not want you to overwork yourself. obviously.

but,, if you were gonna be pulling all nighters & working your butt off, so was he

y’all are in this TOGETHER (｡-_-｡ )人( ｡-_-｡)

he strikes me as the type to know those random life hacks so he might come to you excited with studying ones HEHE

like he’d tell you to chew a different flavor of gum while studying & then chew it again during the exam so you can remember the content better

&& ofc you’d comply to make him happy, but a few of them definitely helped you!

you two probably made plans to go on a little getaway together after the semester ended

so whenever you seemed particularly down, he’d remind you that you’d be miles away from all this in just a week :)

beomgyu is 100% the one making ramen runs to the kitchen (he made sure to stock up before finals week!)

&& he makes yours with the little modifications that you like, whether it’s extra spice, an egg, or some chopped vegetables – he’s got it all

he’s got flashcards, he’s got tea, he’s got hugs…& he’s also an absolute pain in your side when it comes to sleep

ಠಿ_ಠ “it’s 1:30…you said you’d sleep at 1:00” 

he’d have to physically pull you away from your work sometimes 

it wasn’t hard either because you were so tired that your eyes were closing

he’d probably sleep in the mornings of your exams,, but would slice some fruit for you to eat before going to bed

&& leave a little note of encouragement on a sticky note with a couple sticks of gum next to it :)

“good luck. you’re gonna ace this test. love you ♡”

taehyun

you & taehyun had a whole finals prep schedule planned out. this man was not about to let you fail any of your classes or fail any himself

so, your finals prep started at least a month early

he’d be up at seven am shaking you awake & threatening to pour his water on you ʘ‿ʘ

even though he knew you’d tackle him to the floor if he actually poured it 

once you finally rose, he’d give you a quick forehead kiss & push you off towards the bathroom to brush your teeth

you’d eat breakfast & start working relatively quickly

the two of you quickly realized that the pomodoro method worked best for you – finishing a task in 25 minutes, taking a five minute break, & repeating three times before taking a 20 to 30 minute break (y’all should try it frfr)

by noon, you’d be internally thanking him for waking you,, bc as much as you hated to admit it,, you are definitely more productive in the morning

&& on taehyun’s plan, you were actually getting enough sleep somehow?

&& he definitely had special allocated time slots in the schedule for personal time & date nights so that you two wouldn’t get burnt out

the routine definitely got harder to keep up with as finals inched closer & he could tell 

so he took you for a much-needed massage the day before finals started to destress (°◡°♡)

&& as expected, y’all would CRUSH finals week

he’d be so proud <3 but also he knew you would succeed bc of how hard you worked!

[honestly this is such a dream. i made taehyun my dream bf in this LMFAO but hey he already is so…]

hueningkai

hueningkai would be there for you during your breaks. sure, he’d help you with the flashcards if you asked him, but he’d support you most by making you smile!

he’d make sure there’s always food in the fridge, especially if your schedules didn’t line up & he couldn’t eat with you

hueningkai would also give GREAT back massages & it’s all because he would NOT hold back ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ no knots would be left when he’s done

&& he’d probably also put on your favorite show or music while he did it which would be really odd at first, but you’d grow to appreciate it hehe 

he’d also go on a walk with you every night to help you unwind 

that would always do you wonders, especially after being cooped up inside all day 

it would also be a time when the two of you could finally talk about something other than everything stressing you out (because boy, had it become all-consuming)

on the mornings of your finals, he’d walk you to class & buy you your favorite drink with a bagel or donut on the way

if you got really anxious before going in, he’d hold your hand tightly & tell you to take deep breaths

&& to remember that you’re prepared & that one test will not matter in the grand scheme of things

he’d also send you in with a hug & a peck on the cheek. (´ ᴗ｀✿)

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I’m currently writing a semi dystopian fic soooo let’s see if this goes anywhere