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upcloseandchaotic ¡ 7 days ago
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Tuesday Blues
🎉A Lloyd-A-Palooza Party Favour🎉
Oral sex, noncon, stress.
Prompt: You’re perpetually shy and nervous and Lloyd thinks you’re just wound too tight and need to get laid, so he gifts you himself and his D for your special day. + Boss/employee dynamic + oral sex (f receiving)
For @stargazingfangirl18
Thank you all for reading. Please reblog and leave some feedback if you can. 💓
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You come out of Mr. Fowler’s office and nearly walk straight into someone’s chest. You look up, only briefly, maybe just a split second, but it’s enough to shrivel up. You side step Mr. Hansen and flit away, only catching his, “hey, baby face” before you’re back into the bull pen.
You go back to your desk and open your laptop. You hook up to the extended monitor and sigh. Mr. Fowler isn’t happy about the missed contract renewal. He won’t listen to you when you say the prospective partner refused to answer a single email. It’s always your fault, no matter what.
You review your meeting notes. It’s all things you did wrong. You put your chin in your hands and pout. Your eyes glaze over but you don’t let the tears fall. You turn your head down and sit like that for a couple minutes. As long as you’re at your desk, it counts as work.
When you lift your head again, you wiggle your mouse before you get your focus. You click on the newest email. How do you flag this for Fowler without pointing out that he hasn’t sent his notes as requested. Five times.
Movement catches your eyes over the monitor. You blink in surprise. Mr Hansen watches you over the brim of his coffee cup. It has a mustache like his. It’s kind of silly.
You quickly shrink and hide behind the monitor. Ugh. Why do you have to be so awkward? It’s a miracle you got hired here. You’re not built for service roles.
Of course, it’s easier to fake it on email and all these AI assistants can just tell you what to say. You think of the days you worked retail, the ones that on paper looked good enough to get you in as a desk jockey, and you cringe. You got written up for hiding behind the men’s jackets too many times.
You shrug off the memories. Turn it around, girl. You can do this. You have to. That wasn’t a formal review but you’re certain when that comes, it won’t be good.
You pause. The pink gift bag on your desk sits there mocking you. Shoot, you keep forgetting. Just a few more minutes and you’ll get the courage to give it to Marlene.
Your fingers flutter over the keys as the time rolls by. You answer emails, pin, categorize, and put in folders. Organization isn’t your problem. How can the send button be intimidating? Jeez.
Your teams bings. Shoot. You mute your audio. It always turns on when you unhook from the HDMI. It’s Mr. Fowler. What? No.
‘Meet me in my office. Now.’
You look at the calendar. He’s supposed to be in a meeting. At the West Port location. You thought he left already. No, no, no. He’s going to blame you for this too.
You get up and trip over the wheel of your chair. You stumble but keep going. You hurry down to Mr. Fowler’s office door and knock.
“It’s me, Mr. Fowler.” You squeak.
“Get in here,” he says.
You twist the handle and clamour through.
“Shut the door,” his voice sounds odd as he sits with the back of his chair to you.
You do as he says. The door clicks and you flinch. You stand in silence, waiting.
Slowly the chair turns. Your eyes go wide as it isn’t Mr. Fowler that faces you. It’s Mr. Hansen. He’s grinning.
“There you are, baby face,” he tilts his head. “Go on and have a seat.”
“What? Um…” you look around. “Where’s Mr. Fowler?”
“Oh, trust me, I can’t help but notice Mr. Blue Eyes and his tight ass but let’s not think about him right now. Sit.”
You frown. Mr. Hansen isn’t your direct superior but he is superior.
You sit in the chair across from him. He grins. “Good girl.” He pushes himself up with the arm rests. He spreads his shoulders in his printed polo, a diamond pattern stitched into it. “Now, you need to relax.”
“Ummmmm,” you drone as he nears.
He hushes you as he stops in front of you. He puts his hands on your shoulders as he bends to look you in the face. You bit your lip nervously and look down.
“It’s okay, you won’t be looking me in the eyes,” he chuckles.
He lowers himself down to his knees in front of you. You gulp. You lean back in the chair, scared.
“Mr. Hansen–”
“Shhhh,” he pushes his finger against your lips. “You make any noise, you might draw someone’s attention and if we get caught–”
Your lip trembles as he drags his finger off your mouth. What is he doing?
He grabs your knees and you squeeze them together. He wrenches them apart as you whimper. You grip the sides of the chair.
“Mister…” your voice wilts away.
He hums and moves back on his knees. He keeps his hands firmly on your knees. He nuzzles the hem of your skirt. You flinch.
You lift yourself slightly from the chair and he tuts. You fall back down. He pushes your skirt up with his nose and his breath clouds over your thighs.
He pushes his nose against your panties and sniffs deeply. He purrs. “Smells like you’ve been working too hard.”
He pinches the edge of your underwear with his teeth and pulls the cotton aside. You whine but quickly swallow it. He can’t do this! Not here.
He pushes his tongue between your folds and you clap your hand over your mouth. You shake as the mingling of hot and cold makes you all squidgy. You stare at him and turn your hand, biting onto your knuckle.
He flicks his tongue up and down then presses his lips to your cunt. He laps and moves his lips as if kissing you… down there. You shudder and drop a hand to cling to the chair as you feel like you might slide right off.
“Mmm, that’s it. You shouldn’t be so stressed on your birthday, baby face,” he nips your thigh. “Should’ve said something sooner.”
You bat your lashes. What does he mean? He once more delves into you, his tongue spreading to taste all of you as he swipes it up. You squeak. The gift on your desk!
“But… It’s not…” You stammer. “It’s Mar– Mar— Not my— birthday.”
He pops his lips off you and hums. “Well, then… Happy Tuesday.”
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upcloseandchaotic ¡ 7 days ago
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Maybe if a werewolf put his clawed hand on my waist and made me feel small and helpless but also warm and safe I’d calm down
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upcloseandchaotic ¡ 18 days ago
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i cannot keep quiet about this anymore.
if you're in the US or Canada and interested in learning a language using a free app please get a library card and download MANGO. it's very good and extremely free with a library card (there are many public libraries and universities using the service, so make an account and use the search feature here to find out if there's one near you).
mango currently has 72 available languages and dialects (that's right! different courses for french or canadian french! spanish or latam spanish!). it's set up basically like an audiobook with text. the idea is that the narrator explains the words while you read, and you repeat after them or say the translation out loud when prompted. there's a daily review where you go through flashcards. you can also use the flashcards at your leisure and create your own. at the end of each chapter there's a listening comprehension quiz and a reading comprehension quiz. i cannot emphasize how effective this all is. and it's free with a card.
if you're not in the US or Canada and/or looking for something more like duolingo (don't use duolingo btw tldr they fired translators and replaced them with "ai"), then try BUSUU! it only has 14 languages atm but the lessons are really descriptive and effective. it also has a feature where you can correct other people's open-ended speaking/typing exercises. you set your fluent languages, and exercises by people learning those languages will appear in your feed for you to correct. you can even add others as friends! and, much like duolingo, it has a streak and leaderboard system for you to strive for, minus the guilt-tripping owl.
busuu is free (you watch ads to unlock lessons and they're all skippable after like five seconds), although it also has paid premium/plus versions (i don't use the paid version—the language courses are available for free, and the ad system is Really unobtrusive).
so that's my wisdom for the day. mango and busuu. please check them out :)
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upcloseandchaotic ¡ 22 days ago
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Yes @itsPeteski
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upcloseandchaotic ¡ 22 days ago
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I Love You Means You’re Never Ever Ever Gettin’ Rid of Me
Pairing: Jake Jensen x Female Reader [Second Person Narrator]
Word Count: 5.3K
Summary: Dating is scary, but it’s one online date with a nice guy. There couldn’t possibly be more, right?
Warnings: Monster AU (Werewolf/shifter Jake, Monsters x Human Romance), Dating App/Online Dating, Instant Attraction, Shifting, Possessiveness, Clingy Behavior, mild Violence, Bad Family Relationship (brother), Making Out, Smut (Unprotected Sex, Groping, Werewolf Sex, Knotting), UnBeta’d. Minors do not interact (18+).
A/N: So happy to post this before my birthday! More fun and fluffy monster loving like my Stucky Monster verse and Ari/Curtis’ Someone To Call Mine. So, meet clingy Werewolf Jake!
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Title from “Never Getting Rid of Me” from Waitress (Musical)
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“Oh gods,” you drone, head finding your hands as you lean against the counter of the diner.
“What?” Candy asks, passing by with the carafe of decaf.
You peek between your fingers, watching her fill a mug and make her way back to the counter. Nodding toward your phone, you can’t help the whiny grumble rolling in your throat.
“He wants to meet.”
Pinkie rolls her eyes. “And that’s a problem how?”
“What if he doesn’t like me?” you moan. The bell dings from the window and you spin on your heel. Plates of scrambled eggs and pancakes and fruit filling your tray. Walking over to your table, you set them down with a quick and cheerful, “enjoy your meal!”
“Why wouldn’t he like you?” Candy asks, turning over her shoulder.
“I don’t know?” you reply, hugging your empty tray to your chest. “What if I’m not what he expects? I mean,” your toes tap on the floor, “I didn’t exactly tell him everything about me. What if he thinks I’m a dweeb or…too much trouble?”
“Oh, honey,” Candy soothes, her hands falling to your shoulders. “He’s gonna love you.”
You nod like a bobble head, brow furrowing as nerves bubble up and sting at your insides. “Yeah, yeah.” You swallow and glance at the clock. “Yeah, I’m gonna cancel.” Slipping from Candy’s hold, you stretch for your phone, only for Pinkie to snatch it up and tuck it into her apron. “But—”
Her gum pops between her candy apple red lips. Her stare cutting as it falls to you. “Just try it,” she challenges.
“You can’t just—” you insist, cutting yourself off in frustration, hands squeezing into fists. You rock on your toes, scrambling for a bit of calm and confidence.
“Hey,” Candy soothes, shooting a glare over her shoulder, “don’t pay attention to her. She’s just being prickly, but she knows exactly like I do. You’ll be fine.”
“Okay,” you hem. Unconvinced, but turning back to your other tables regardless.
The rest of the day passes in a limbo of anxiety and anticipation. Leaving Candy and Pinkie with a small wave and a tenuous smile.
Phone clutched in hand, you find your way home. Changing from your uniform, trying to pretty yourself with some makeup and fixing yourself from a long shift.
And before you know it, you’re seated at a table for two at the restaurant Jake suggested. Turning over your shoulder and watching the people around you. Strangers enjoying their evening. No sign of your date.
What if he stands you up? Your stomach flips, acidic. You could vomit right on the tablecloth, but you hold it in and take your glass of water. Swallowing the cool liquid and letting it calm you.
“Hey,” a voice greets to your side.
Your head whips in the direction and tilts up. A man stands beside you, his hands tucked in his pockets. Shy smile sitting on his lips framed by a goatee. Light glints off his round-framed glasses. He says your name and nods toward you in inquiry.
“Oh, hi,” you reply. Pushing your chair back to stand and pause. Arms raising for maybe a hug, but you hadn’t thought that far. So instead you offer your hand. Stiff as he takes it for a slightly clammy shake before you shuffle back to your chair. Internally cringing the whole time.
Jake jumps behind your chair to help you push it in. His muscled arms caging around you before he steps back and takes his seat. A smile flashes on his face. The low light of the restaurant limning him beautifully.
And doesn’t that just make your heart flutter. Yet you can’t bring yourself to look at him. Too dazzled by his handsome features. Cheeks heating.
Silence settles around you. Stretching awkward as you straighten your silverware.
“So your profile said you like animals?” Jake starts, breaking the ice.
“Uh, yeah,” you squeak with a nod.
“Did you know that cats can make a thousand different sounds and dogs can only make ten?” he asks. Clearing his throat and taking a sip of his water.
You blink. Brow furrowing as you think about it. “No,” you reply, curiosity piqued, “is that true?”
“Yeah!” he enthuses, smile brightening. Latching onto the conversation topic with enthusiasm. “Which do you prefer? Dogs or cats?”
“I like both, but dogs, I think.” Your voice raises in a question.
“Me too,” he nods, his hand reaching up to scratch at the back of his neck. Face scrunching as he continues, “which is good cause I’m sort of…” He trails off without finishing his thought.
Your head cocks as you ask, “sort of what?”
He sighs. Hands gripping the edge of the table as he stares at the candle between you. “I don’t usually put it on my profile. I know there are specific sites for it, but then you matched with me and I didn’t want to risk scaring you off.”
Your mind spins. Trying to follow along with his confession, and dreading it. Half raising from your chair in case you need to make a hasty getaway. Bracing for impact.
“But I’m a werewolf,” he concludes, shoulders tense as if he’s flinching away.
“Oh,” you say, surprised but not averse. Falling back into your seat. “Why didn’t you use—”
“Glammr, yeah,” Jake interrupts. “That’s what my friend, Ari, suggested.” He shifts in his chair, unable to find a comfortable position. “I just—I’m a man most of the time.” His hand runs through the blonde kissed ends of his hair. “Never really felt the urge to shift unless it’s the full moon, you know? So I felt like it didn’t apply.” He glances at you, from under his lashes. “Is that a problem?”
You sit for a minute, mulling it over. He hadn’t told you in your chats. But he did now. Was the omission a deal breaker?
Your fingers wrap around your menu. Sliding it to your front and opening it up. More comfortable focusing on the dishes than the man—werewolf—in front of you. Gazing expectant and nervous.
“I don’t see a problem with it,” you finally reply, flicking your gaze his way to ease his nerves with a small smile. “I mean,” you clear your throat, “we are still getting to know each other, right?”
Relief washes over Jake’s features. Every muscles easing as he echoes, “right.”
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“Oh, sweet Jesus,” you mutter to yourself, sinking behind Pinkie at the counter.
“What are you doing?” she asks with a grimace, eyes finding you over her shoulder.
“He’s here,” you whisper, peeking around your friend and finding Jake. In your diner. At a table. Looking in your direction with that sweet and dorky smile that kinda sets your toes curling and your heart pitter-pattering.
“Fuckin’ hell,” she mutters under her breath. “And he’s in my section.”
“Be nice,” you demand as she saunters over, popping her gum and pasting on her customer service smile.
Their conversation drifts over as she asks how he’s doing and what she can get for him. Your name catches your attention and you hunker down behind the counter. Heart just about ready to beat out of your chest.
“Just hold on a second,” Pinkie says, making her way back to you. Her gaze finding you as you pick at the shelves under the counter. “He was wondering if you would talk to him.”
“I—” you swallow and peek back over the counter. “Yes?”
“Don’t tell me,” she says with a sigh, grabbing you by your bicep and lifting you up, “tell him.” And with a gentle shove, she propels you toward his table.
You glance back to her as she leans against the counter, not smiling but flashing you a thumbs up.
A soft crack reaches your ears. You glance down to your shoes, ensuring you haven’t stepped on broken glass. Nothing.
You clear your throat and turn to the table. Only to stop. Jaw dropping to the floor.
Jake sits before you. Furry. Ears perked. Tail wagging emphatically behind him. Contrition radiating from the curl of his lips and the lowering of his chin.
“Sorry,” he says, smiling in embarrassment and righting his skewed glasses, “this keeps happening lately. And I can’t seem to control it. I feel like I’m going through puberty all over again.”
You blink, stunned. “You’re—”
“Shifting, yeah.” He scratches clawed fingers through the fur at his nape. “Happens when I catch a whiff of you.”
Your brow furrows. “Does it hurt?”
He smiles and it’s that same goofy grin that makes your heart flutter. “I knew you’d ask that.” He shakes his head. “No,” he replies, “no pain.”
You swallow and drop your gaze, rocking back on your heels and fighting the urge to look back at your friend for support.
“I’m sorry if this form scares you.”
Your eyes snap back to his. The guilt staring back at you, the attempt to shrink his massive form. Your hand pops up in a bid of placation. “It doesn’t,” you say, head shaking in emphasis. “I just didn’t think I’d see you today. Like this.”
Jake glances around. The few patrons of the diner paying no mind to the werewolf in their midst. Continuing their conversation and meals without pause.
“I should have reached out instead of showing up outta the blue,” he admits, returning to you. “I just couldn’t stay away.”
You nod, slowly, piecing together the bits of your conversation. “Because of how I smell?”
His eyes flutter shut, a dazed sort of euphoria overtaking his features. “Like honey and bergamot and something so deliciously you.” His claws wrap around the edges of the table, the vinyl-covered wood creaking in his grip.
“Hey,” you say, wrapping your hand over his. Gulping down the shock of electricity at your touch. “Be careful.”
The hand you hold flips faster than you can react. Gentle as it cradles your fingers. Your lips press together, holding back a smile.
Jake tilts your wrist to his wet nose. You shiver at the cold press. A graze of it against your skin. He breathes deep and releases you. Your hand clutches at your order pad. Knees weak as you fight off a swoon.
“Sorry,” he mutters, “sorry. I’m gonna need a minute.” He shifts in his seat. Knocking the center pedestal of the table with his knees.
He won’t look at you. And you’re too stunned to move.
“Hey,” your boss calls from behind the counter, pouring a cup of coffee for himself before retreating back to the grill, “get back to work.”
“Sorry, Frank,” you call over your shoulder, “just getting his order.” You turn to Jake and click your pen. Another kind of hunger gnawing at your belly. “What can I get for you? Coffee? Pie?”
“Uh, I guess,” he pops open the menu and scans it with his eyes, “the blue plate special with a slice of lemon meringue.”
You jot it down with a muttered, “of course,” before looking to him again. Your teeth worry over your lower lip, a surge of confidence surprising you as it makes you blurt, “Ireallyenjoyedourdateandwantedtoseeyouagain.” And then you spin on your heel and retreat. Swift steps taking you to the counter to put in the ticket.
“His tail is wagging like crazy,” Pinkie says, a smirk on her lips. “He’s utterly besotted. You should see the puppy dog look he’s got on his face.”
“You’re taking too much pleasure in this,” you say, eyes narrowing on the usually acerbic woman.
She hums, noncommittal, and grabs her order from the window to deliver to table 8. Popping her gum as she does and plastering on her service smile.
You try not to watch her pass, knowing you’d take a peek at the werewolf staring intently back. And you just don’t think your heart can take it.
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The door closes behind you and you breathe a sigh of relief. Stretching your ankles and tilting your head back. Shift over with and survived—barely.
The way Jake looked at you when you dropped off his lunch was absolutely deadly. You thought your knees would give out right then and there.
But you made it. Jake eating his meal and leaving with a wave on his way out the door. Pinkie eying you the whole time.
You’re woman enough to admit, you’re a total goner for Jake. His sweetness getting you right in the gut and leaving butterflies.
So when you see him sitting on a bench just a few paces down the block, you stop. His head lifts and he turns over his shoulder. Raising his hand from the laptop sitting on his thighs for a wave. Your lips crack in a shy smile and you step toward him.
Only to find your path blocked by someone much less desirable.
“How much did you make tonight?” your brother asks, shoulders curled forward to intimidate and crowd.
“You shouldn’t be here,” you reply. Your hand slipping toward your phone. “I have—”
“You think a flimsy piece of paper is gonna stop me?” he scoffs, glancing over his shoulder. “You know you owe me,” he says, grasping at your forearm, “after everything mom did.”
“I owe you nothing, Gideon.” You step back. Finding your phone and pulling it out. Poised to hit the emergency line when he smacks it from your hand. Screen cracking before your eyes.
You turn back to him, ready to chew him out, but stop short. Your brother pushed up against the brick wall of the building. Jake snarling in his face. You didn’t even notice the cracking pops of his transformation.
“You don’t lay a finger on her,” he bites, teeth sharp and ears pinned back.
“Says who?” your brother scoffs, pushing at the werewolf’s shoulders.
And in a flash of movement, your eyes barely able to track the shift. An instant. Your brother crumples, pushed faced first into the brick. Jake bending his arm at an uncomfortable angle up his back.
“Says me,” he growls. He leans closer, whispering something in your brother’s ear. Gideon’s wide, scared eyes finding you before Jake releases him. “Do we have an understanding?”
Your brother swallows, straightening himself out and rocking back on his heels. He nods once and rushes away. A glance cast over his shoulder before he turns the corner and disappears down the street.
Jake faces you. Still in his wolf form. Hesitating as he watches your reaction. Nearly cowering after his outburst. Tail curled and ears drooping.
You shift your weight on your feet. Hands clutching the strap of your bag. You lick your lips, preparing yourself to speak. “I’m sorry,” you say.
Jake blinks at you. “Sorry?” Confusion arches his brows. “What have you got to be sorry for?”
“I didn’t mean for you to see that. For that to happen. My brother—”
“Hey,” he hushes, reaching out. Claws tenderly cradling your elbow. The lightest touch, likely to release the second you show discomfort. “Don’t worry about that.” He breathes deep and curses under his breath. Pleading eyes stare into yours. “I—please, can I hold you?” he asks.
“Oh,” you stutter, taken aback by his temperament, “uh, sure, but….” You trail off, letting the rest of your objection fizzle.
“But?” he asks.
“But I was on my way home,” you finish. Face scrunching in apology.
“I see.” Jake takes a step back.
His lips part to say something more, but you interrupt with a quick, “do you want to come with me?”
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Your key turns in the lock and you gesture Jake into your apartment. The studio space smaller with him in it. Like he takes up all the air in the room.
And then he does it. Scooping you up in his arms using all the monstrous strength in his furry limbs.
A whoop bursts past your lips at the sudden loss of solid ground beneath your feet. He chuckles. A low, rolling sound in his chest pressed right against you. His bag dropping to the floor by your couch. Carrying you to your bed tucked in the corner behind a wispy curtain.
Jake lays you down gently and asks, “is this alright?”
You prop yourself on your elbows. Eyes tracing over his furry figure as it looms over you—not threatening in the slightest. His gaze filled with the sweetest hope.
Your head bobs in a nod and relief washes over his features. His giant body lowers—not beside you—but on top of you. Laying across you like a soft, weighted blanket. His muzzle nuzzling right into the space between your breasts. Breath a warm brush. Tail wagging lazily.
Heat fills your cheeks. Hands pressing against his furry forehead.
“Jake,” you chuckle, self-consciousness tugging at your stomach.
He rumbles a growl in return. “Smell so good,” he grits, unbudging. “Right here is where I belong.”
“I, uh,” you swallow, heart fluttering, “I guess that’s okay.”
“Okay?” Jake repeats, chin tilting to meet your eyes. His ears perk, gaze radiating concern. “Do you mind?”
You roll the question around in your head for a minute. “No,” you start, “as long as you don’t mind that I smell like diner grease.”
A growl rumbles in his throat. Lip lifting over his teeth in the beginnings of a snarl. “No, you don’t.”
Your phone chimes from your pocket. With a wiggle or two, you fish it out. A notification from Glammr lighting up the screen. Only then does Jake fully peek up his head. Large hand a flash as his claws wrap around your device. Stealing it away from your grip to examine it.
“You’ve got a message,” he reads, a furrow pulling between his brows and ears angling flat on his head. A deeper, growling grit to his tone. His gaze finds you from the corner of his eye before your device goes flying.
A surprised noise falls past your lips, seeing your phone fling past the curtain and bounce from a cushion to the floor. “Jake!” Your hands shove at him with much more gusto, legs kicking to get out from under him. But you’re no match for his strength.
He blinks, gaze clearing of vexation. He glances over his shoulder and cringes. “Oh jeez, okay,” he points with his thumb, “I’ll definitely fix that. It should be fine, I think. I wasn’t—”
“What was that?” you ask, fingers prodding at his chest. “Cause it wasn’t okay.”
“I’m sorry,” he replies immediately. “My instincts—just thinking about someone else getting their hands on you.” His voice turns rough at the end, the dark shadow eclipsing his features once again.
“Hey,” you bite back, finger pointed at his muzzle, “you stop that right now.”
He snaps out of it. Shoulders lifting toward his ears, chin tucking to his chest. “I know it’s scary,” he mutters.
“No,” you correct, tone softening as you tilt his head toward you. Scratching under his chin until his tail wags. “It’s not scary. It’s misplaced.”
His brow arches in confusion, looking for answers in your face.
“You don’t need to take it out on my phone,” you continue, adjusting his glasses on his muzzle. “I’m not gonna run off with someone else. I like you, Jake.”
And like an eager puppy, he perks up at the declaration. “Yeah?” His eyes sparkle and you can’t hold back a fond laugh.
“Yeah.” You shift under him and relax back on the cushions. Mind trailing back to your brother. “With Gideon, my brother,” you ask as Jake reinserts himself between your breasts, “was that instinct, too?”
“Yes.” His head moves back and forth between your breasts. Hands framing your ribs to keep you in place. “Part military training, too.”
“What did you say to scare him?”
He stops, lifting his eyes to meet yours. “That I’d hunt him down and tear him to pieces if I saw him again.”
“Why?” you breathe, struck by the devotion in his gaze.
“Cause I’ve chosen you,” he replies, sincerity dripping from every syllable.
A breath puffs past your lips. Hands cradling his furry cheeks and drawing him near. Your eyes drop to the sharp points of his teeth.
“Do you want to change back?” you ask, voice quiet.
“I don’t think I can.”
So you kiss him. A long, languorous tasting. Feeling his teeth prick at your lips. The fur of his cheeks beneath your palms. The squeeze of his hands around you as he holds you tighter.
Even the slightest withdrawal for air results in a pitiful whine and the most heart-wrenching puppy dog eyes. So you keep yourself close. Kissing. Letting your hands begin to wander—petting and scritching. Until he pulls back, breath heavy.
“I can’t do it,” he says with a tinge of desperation. “I won’t be able to hold back.”
“From what?” you ask.
“I’ll keep kissing you,” he says with promise, letting his eyes rove over your figure. “I’ll touch you.”
“Okay,” you reply. The statement an easy agreement.
“I’ll fuck you,” he continues, voice strained, “claim you. Make you mine. I have a knot. It’ll lock you to me after…”
You swallow, thighs rubbing together at the very thought. Need dripping through your veins. You meet his eyes, dragging your touch away only for him to chase it. It’s heady, the confidence he gives you in his presence. The way he defers to you and seeks your approval. “Okay,” you repeat, voice breathier.
His gaze darkens. Locked on you as your heart patters in your chest. A glimpse of the predator staring back.
Claws trace up your sides, plucking at the buttons of your uniform. Each one popping beneath his touch. His focus draws to the swell of your chest as he bares it. A moment of reverence as he leans down and nuzzles against each breast cradled by your bra.
“You have the most amazing tits,” he croons, voice rough with barely concealed restraint.
“You could fuck them, if you want,” you offer, spine arching to push yourself closer to him. The words forming on your lips by sheer desire to please him.
He swallows hard, jaw dropping on a wounded sound. His eyes squeeze shut and he shakes from head to tail. “Later,” he promises, voice husky with need. A reverent caress paid to each nipple before he continues his quest to divest you both of clothing.
His shirt and shorts, strained around his monstrous figure, find the floor in an instant. An afterthought as he unwraps you like a present. Your dress falls open, pulled from your arms and pushed to the floor as he kisses you. It leaves your comfortable underwear on display—cotton and plain. But he drinks in the sight as if it were the most exquisite lace lingerie.
“Gods, you’re gorgeous,” he breathes, letting his gaze trail over each curve of your body. Only snapping back to his exploration as you squirm beneath him.
His chest expands on a deep breath. Your fingers tucking under the straps of your bra. Slipping them off your shoulders and letting the cups loosen around your breasts.
The noise he makes rumbles through you. Shivers skittering pleasantly down your spine.
“Let me,” he begs, hands slipping beneath you to unhook the band and peel the bra from your body. He mutters under his breath, a dizzy chant of, “thank you, thank you, thank you,” before he buries his face against your breasts. Letting his hands feel the free weight of them. Tongue laving over your nipples.
Your breath hitches as your back arches. His teeth scrape against your flesh. Goosebumps prickle over your body.
“I need,” you swallow around the words. Arousal ratcheting higher with each swipe of his tongue or trace of his claws over your skin. An insatiable hunger between your thighs.
“What do you need?” he pleads. His eyes shining with his own kind of desperation.
Your chest heaves with a deep breath. Licking your parched lips and seeing his eyes focus on the swipe. You softly demand, “I need you inside me.”
He pauses. Eyes widening. Even his tail ceases its wag. He raises off you. Hands frozen at his sides. Never in your life did you think you would see a werewolf looking like a deer caught in headlights.
You prop yourself on your elbows and tilt your head, sizing up his reaction. “Are you alright?”
He blinks, eyes falling to his place, kneeling between your thighs. Underwear a thin barrier between him and you. His tongue peeks past his lips, licking over his muzzle.
“Can you repeat that?” he asks, voice gruff.
“Are you alright?” you ask again.
His eyes fall shut, chest heaving. “No,” he says with a shake of his head. “No, before that.”
Your mind trails back through the conversation, before you repeat, “I need you inside me.”
“Right, great,” he agrees, “am I dreaming?”
You chuckle, perplexed by his scattered questions. Though, you answer with a soft, “no. Not dreaming.”
“Alright,” he says, his situation finally sinking in. “You’re gonna need to take off your panties cause I would rip them.”
With a couple wiggles and some maneuvering, you slip your underwear off and down your thighs. Flicking them across the room, leaving yourself bare beneath him. Your cheeks heat, staring up at him.
He doesn’t meet your eye. Entranced by your body.
“Jake?” You shift beneath him. The heat of his gaze lingering along your pelvis as he tips his head to find your face once again.
He clears his throat. “I didn’t realize it was possible for a brain to blue screen.” The surprise in his stare enough to ease any self-consciousness on your part.
“Does that mean you don’t want to?” you ask anyway. Your hands trail down his sides, carding through his fur until they reach around his back and find the point where his tail meets his spine. Your nails scratch right at that juncture as you wait for his response. A lazy, unconscious attempt at soothing—which proves to do the opposite.
His hips jolt beneath your touch. Humping into the air just above your legs. Cock growing hard and heavy out of his sheath. His tongue lolls past his lips, heavy pants following it. A murmur of want rolls in your throat, his ears perking at the noise.
“Are you sure?” he asks, slotting himself between your thighs. The weight of his cock resting—throbbing—against your mound.
“Yes,” you moan. Your arms wrap around his neck, pulling him into a kiss. Hips tilting up to feel him slide between your lower lips. The graze of his length against your clit a delicious sensation.
He takes one clawed hand and guides himself to your entrance. Prodding gently and slicking himself. Your arousal drenching him with a few maddening strokes.
He pulls away from your kiss. Watching the first, steady plunge of his cock as he stretches you open. A dull ache forms from his intrusion, but you don’t mind. Knowing that you want him to leave his mark on you.
Jake’s head falls back, looking ready to bay at the moon as he bottoms out inside you. It drops back toward his chest with his throaty, “thank you.” And then his hips rock, dragging him out only to plunge back in. Praise dripping past his lips. “So good—you feel so good. Just wanna keep fucking you forever,” he moans. He kisses you and tucks his head against your throat, nibbling a love bite into your skin.
“It’s okay,” you reply on a breathy sigh, delighted and amused by his continuous praise.
“You’re just perfect, squeezing me so tight,” he continues, barely hearing you over his own words. “I can feel you fluttering.”
Your head presses into the pillows. Nerves alight with pleasure. Sounds fall from you, punched out by each push of his hips against yours. Your fingers raking through his fur, urging him closer and closer.
His lips meet yours again. Tangling your tongues. His claws pressing lightly into your cheeks, cradling your face as his hips slow. Focus captured by your kiss.
You moan against his mouth, letting your hands wander as one of his trails across your flesh to meet the pert peak of your nipple. His whole body cages yours to the bed. His heat, his desire—delightfully oppressive.
Of all the outcomes anticipated from your foray into online dating, to find someone to make you feel this way so quickly—you would have never imagined, never hoped.
Sweat beads along your body, trickling down the creases of your skin. An unconscious shift breaking you from your daze—lost to the press of his lips and the pluck of his fingers.
“Keep fucking me,” you beg against the teeth that gently nip at your swollen lips. “Please.”
And he does. Resuming his steady pace. Parting your walls around the rigid girth of his cock. Each thrust feeling too shallow for the ache inside you.
“More,” you gasp, hand finding his ass and tugging him into you.
“I—” He pants around his thought, kissing you to distraction and squeezing his eyes shut—gathering his last vestiges of restraint. “My knot is swelling,” he explains on a quick burst of breath. “It’s gonna stretch you.”
“Give it to me,” you demand, caressing his sides before finding his muzzle with your hands, “just like you promised.”
He grunts, his hips stuttering, and nods. Pressing his cock deeper inside. Filling you to your breaking point. Until you feel the swell at the base of his cock.
He drowns out your blissful whimpers with apologies. Over and over a mantra of, “I’m sorry,” mumbled against your mouth and skin as he kisses you all over and keeps going.
Never before have you been stretched so wide. A giddy electricity rising inside you. Your breath catches in your throat. Climbing to your peak until you crash over the edge.
His cock locks you together, knot swelling until you feel as if you might burst. You cry out your pleasure. Rocking your hips to ride out the high.
He moves with you—short, quick thrusts that jolt you with euphoric aftershocks. His face scrunches. His voice rises. A final howling moan rips out of his throat as he cums. Spilling inside you with a few more oversensitive drags of his cock that have you whining.
But he doesn’t stop kissing you. As the afterglow sets in and your pulses calm to steady beats. He kisses you and kisses you until you can stand it no longer.
You break apart and run your hands through his fur. Your eyes rove over every detail of his face. Committing it to memory and admiring it in its entirety.
“You’re gorgeous,” you mutter.
His head drops to your chest. And you think if he were in his human form, he’d be blushing.
“Does this mean I’m all yours now? Since you’ve knotted me and everything,” you ask. A small adjustment to your position has you hissing. The strain of his cock still inside you and tugging at your entrance mildly uncomfortable.
“Whoa,” he says, stilling your hips with the firm weight of his hands, “we gotta stay like this for a bit. Don’t move—don’t wanna hurt you.”
You hum and comply. Your eyes drift closed and you savor the moment. Feeling the stretch of his knot, the press of his furry chest, the scrape of his claws. A small smile tilts the corners of your lips.
“I’d have to mark you with my teeth to make you mine,” Jake explains, pulling you out of your quiet musings. You meet his eye as he stares up from your chest. Wet nose nuzzling against the swell of your breasts. “So you’re not technically mine yet.” He pecks a kiss to your sternum. “But you will be.”
“You’re so sure,” you chuckle, letting your eyes roll fondly at his insistence.
“I am,” he replies.
And with his weight pinning you to your bed, the sparkle in his eye, the warmth of his fur, and the sweet smile plastered on his lips, you are, too.
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upcloseandchaotic ¡ 26 days ago
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a printer error is an attempt from god to get you to kill yourself but you must be stronger and you must must must beat the printer to death with a large object like object
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the holy trinity: the father (fuck it we ball) the son (it is what it is) the holy spirit (to be cringe is to be free)
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forgive me father for sometimes i just say things
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FRENZY
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PAIRING: Boyfriend!Steve Rogers x Female!Reader
SUMMARY: Steve comes home to you from a mission after being hit with some sort of powder. Turns out it’s an aphrodisiac…and it’s strong.
WARNINGS: PURE SMUT, no plot really, 18+, MDNI, SHORT AND NOT PROOFREAD.
A/N: I was craving some depraved Steve, so here! I had this in the drafts and decided to finish it. I hope you guys enjoy! I have more plot thick fics coming out soon!
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You were curled on the couch with a half-finished mug of tea, a blanket draped across your legs and your phone dimming with a forgotten text thread. The apartment was quiet, soft city sounds bleeding through the windows…too quiet without him.
Missions always made you anxious. Steve could take a punch better than anyone, but still... he was your safe place, your constant, and when he was gone, it felt like the world had lost color.
He was late. And not in the usual "had to stop by HQ for debrief" kind of way. No, this was hours.
Long enough that you'd started pacing. Long enough that when the front door finally clicked open, your breath caught in your throat, heart thudding.
He was staring at you like he hadn't seen you in years. Like he was starving. His fingers flexed at his sides, and he didn't speak, didn't drop his duffel, just closed the door behind him and locked it with a decisive click.
"Steve?" You were hesitant. "Are you okay?"
He was not. At least, not by your standards. His chest was rising and falling faster than it should've been for someone who'd just walked in. Sweat beaded at his temples. His voice was rough when he finally spoke.
"They hit us with something. Some kind of fuck- I don't even know. Red powder. Natasha said it was a hallucinogen. But it's not. Not really. It's..." His eyes dragged over your body like a caress.
"It's something else."
You were swallowing thickly, heart racing as you stepped closer. "What do you mean something else?"
He was already moving. One second, you were standing near the kitchen island, next, your back was pressed against it, and he was crowding into your space, heat pouring off him in waves.
"I can't stop thinking about you," he was growling now, words bitten off between clenched teeth. "Since it hit me. Can't breathe right unless I'm near you. My skin hurts. Everything hurts, except when I think about touching you. Being inside you."
You were breathless. Scorched. Wet already, embarrassingly fast, and he hadn't even laid a hand on you yet. "Steve-"
He was kissing you before you could finish, mouth crashing into yours. Desperate. Messy. He groaned like it hurt to kiss you, like it hurt not to. His hands grabbed at your hips, your waist, your thighs, like he couldn't decide where to touch first.
You were melting. Your fingers slid into his hair, tugged hard, and this made him growl into your mouth.
"Bedroom…" You tried to say
"No time," he was gasping, already pulling your sleep shirt up, hands greedy and trembling. "I need you now. Right now."
You were half-lifted onto the counter, legs parting for him automatically, instinctively, as if your body had already made the decision for you.
He tore at his suit, too frenzied for finesse, groaning low in his throat as he freed his cock…thick, hard, already dripping.
He was out of his mind. Kissing you like it was the only thing keeping him tethered to Earth.
Pressing the blunt head of his cock against you, slick with your arousal. "You smell like heaven," he said. "Taste better. Fuck- gonna die if I don't-“ He mumbled, not able to finish a single thought as you consumed him.
You were gasping as he pushed himself inside of you, your nails digging into his back, anchoring him there. He filled you in one slow, torturous stroke…too big, too good, hitting deep.
He was panting against your throat, rocking into you with bruising, punishing thrusts, his control shot to hell. "So warm. So tight. You were made for me- fuck- made just for me."
You’d never seen him this desperate. He was normally a perfect gentleman, preferring to make love to you, taking you nice and slow. But this- this was feral, this was unhinged for him.
But you loved it.
You were clinging to him, sobbing his name, the edge coming faster than you could handle, everything inside you tightening like a bowstring.
And he held you so tenderly, making sure you weren’t hurt from the counter. You didn’t know how he was multi tasking…not like this.
He was relentless. Worshipping and ruining you in equal measure. "Not gonna last," he growled.
It hadn’t even been five minutes.
He normally had good stamina, and lasted a while before he came. The powder, whatever it was had to be behind this.
"It's the powder- I can't-shit, I need-need to cum inside of you, please-"
You were already there, already falling apart, moaning loud enough for the neighbors to complain, not that you cared. Not when Steve was grinding deep, chasing his own release, spilling hot and thick inside you with a broken sound.
He was trembling when he kissed you again, forehead pressed to yours, breath ragged. He rode you both through your high, pressing his head to your chest.
As you both stilled, you wrapped your arms around his neck, running your fingers through his hair.
“I’m- I’m so sorry, sweetheart” He said after a few seconds, his breathing still uneven.
You shook your head, still out of breath as well. “You have nothing to be sorry for” You said softly, nodding “I really enjoyed whatever that was…” You admitted and he looked up to meet your eyes.
“Really?”
“Really, honey” You confirmed “I love when you’re gentle, but this…I’m speechless” You said and after that, you felt him get hard inside of you again.
The poor Super Soldier let out a whine. “I don’t know how long this is going to last” He said and you gently cupped his face in your hands.
“You can take whatever you need, honey” You said “As long as it lasts…” You assured.
And with that, round two began….
FIN.
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A/N: This was an old draft but I spiffed it up a bit. I hop you guys enjoyed!!
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…feEL THE RAIN ON YOUR SKIN NO ONE ELSE CAN FEEL FOR YOU ONLY YOU CAN LET IT IN
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saying “i want him” about the character but not in a romantic or sexual way . i just Require him i need to Obtain him
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Dancing Bear, Dancing Caribou by Pitseolak Qimirpik (Inuit)
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i love her. i’m so glad she said something.
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Bottoms, Tops, we all hate cops!!
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feel free to cite the deep magic to me witch i was there when it was written but my memory is like REEEEALLY shitty
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