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Aperently im only interesting when theyre hard.

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When will i be loved instead of lusted?

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idk why, but I acknowledge I'm too young to be going through this, but it's whatever the damage has been done.

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my emotions cause me physical pain btw

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Dear nick

Ik youll never see this but in the slim chance that you do, please read.

I hate you so much - you ruined me.

Genuinely, i hope to see you die.

Please, k.y.s.

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having both commitment and attachment issues is so draining ౨ৎ

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"How bad your commitment phobia is?"

"I stop shipping my favourite fictional couples when it's canon".

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Being both constantly touch starved and touch averse and afraid of commitment and having avoident issues is a weird combo

Fym i want to hug and kiss and cuddle but on the other hand that's scary and i would rather jump off a river then do that because that means I'm trapped

I want to be known and i want to devote myself to someone- it's my purpose- but what if they leave? What if they get tired or angry at me for being so clingy? I should just push them and my feelings away so that never happens. genius. /sarc

Like- HUH????

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The one place im meant to feel included im being left out

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I don’t know how to go on like this. Giving up sounds so much easier

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I know my life will end in suicide. I'm sure of it.

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„Suicide is selfish“ let me be selfish for once in my life.

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"Leave first before they leave me" mentality because in the end, my inner child is just scared that someone will leave me all over again.

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Finally found smt im good at and now someones better than me.

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i’m not getting better anyways so why not get worse

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i want to cut everyone off but i know that no one will even notice my absence

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maybe killing myself is the only way to sever the attachment i have to you.