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i can’t write and hold all of these edge transits at the same time.

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ooc; slow weekend will be slow !!

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A quick summary of Destiny lore

warlock lore: I heard whispers, in the secret tongue of the Ones Beneath the Universe, and, perhaps foolishly, I followed. There is something in the caves the Hive dug under the Moon, and I am this close to finding it oh no whoops oh dang, oh no, ow, my mind, they’re shattering my mind, oh no, why did I look for the secrets, owwwww, don’t look for the secrets, aaaaaah

hunter lore: When I found Billiam Vogg, he was alone, crying to himself. “I’ll never be forgiven for what I’ve done”, he said. “I’ve done something real messed up, dang, real morally ambiguous stuff”, he bawled into an empty glass. I told him this wasn’t a world made for heroes. He chuckled. Then I shot him in his got dang face, eleven times, because I too am morally compromised.

titan lore: And then she told me that, if you punched a Servitor just right, you could throw it into a Skiff and blow their shit up real good, and I was like “lol no”, but then she fucking did that, she fucking punched that orb real good and it blew these fuckers up real nice, hahaha being a Titan rules, anyway that’s how we won the battle of six fronts.

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STATIC BALANCE

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rebirth (we are all made of stars)

we’re remaking designs on Threadless and I asked mynameisecsu if I could take a stab at one of his. it’s one of my all-time favorites. Marcelo makes nothing but good stuff and you should follow him!

my remake is up for scoring.

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ECHO CHAMBER

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                                    @nullbloom​ — sc.

                  ❝ —Nico !  ❞       The warlock was unmistakable, and a Crucible-junkie such as Jaax knew that she would be up for the antics he had in mind. While going rounds in quick teams worked the skills it needed, often times a more personal setting for sparring struck a nerve that worked muscles in a more fine-tuned manner. The delicate art of fighting in a one-on-one situation allowed for more of a focused go of things, and the Titan was very much in favor of exercising all he could to ensure he was kept in favorable shape. His regiment for doing so when his fireteam hadn’t been tapped for any sort of work was executed flawlessly, and if any sort of idea had the rare opportunity to worm its way into his mind, he went with it. This was such an opportunity revealing itself to him — one that not even his ghost shut down, so it had some measure of potential to is.

      Besides, for what he had in mind a fellow void-user was the sort that would do best. The Titan half-jogged near the other, hands moving to plant themselves on his own hips as he regarded her with bright smile and tingling anticipation.                   ❝ What'cha doing right now? ❞

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get up get up  get up - dust is blowing in your face. you’re lying, facing upwards, on the cold ground. you laugh. your heart hurts, and you realize this might have been all for nothing. you realize you might have lost the fight before it even started. your bones splinter (and isn’t that ironic? in these dying moments, you feel alive) you pray to ares. your breath is threatening to leave your lungs, but you need to know. you need to know this wasn’t all for nothing (but this is war, what did you expect?) can you hear them? warriors just like you, their soulless cries echoing through eternity - what are you still doing here? why don’t you follow them? (maybe you are different after all, you and them) get up. the war is not over and you are not done (your heart still hasn’t broken your ribs after all)

// s.z (via sprsoldier-archive)

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                                             ( forsaken spoilers under the cut )

The ghost stories lore got me all kinds of messed up. Whether Windmills or Cranes is a damn blow to the gut (also very interesting that the power is always with the ghost to make the choice regarding that scenario, and puts a hell of a weight on that, takes that control right out of the Guardian’s hands — and also validates there needs to be that harmonious and clear connection and understanding between the pair) but Pulled Pork was a sweet balm for it. To Map the Unknown is also pretty damn wild. I’ll have to sit down and maybe hash out my Hot Take on Jaax’s dealio with his ghost in some detail at some point. 

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like this for a starter !!                                      i’m wordy and slow-paced.

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threads where muses talk about things that confuse them

threads where muses talk about things that have hurt them in the past

threads where muses talk about their deepest fears

threads where muses talk about sexual and romantic orientation and relationships (past and present !!)

threads where muses have deep conversations and are vulnerable with each other !!

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mundane headcanons || relations

It’s worth noting that those who are all housed up in the Tower likely know each other, in passing at the very least. They train together, fight together, exist together, and weather through insufferable events to regroup and push on. It’s highly likely that those who are capable of knowing Jaax — location, timeline, etc — probably have at least has seen his face somewhere.

• Friendly: The Awoken is a reasonably agreeable person. He’s confident without slipping into too arrogant territory, enough to strike up a casual conversation with nearly anyone, no matter how threatening or plain the other person may appear to be. He enjoys people, and thrives in an environment where he has plenty of interactions. Jaax delights in mingling and keeping busy, and companionship in the form of friendships are something he values greatly — even if it’s no more than a name and maybe one like topic, he’s apt to catch onto details and retain them when it’s regarding a person.  • Professionally: Working with Jaax cuts out some of the shenanigans, but it doesn’t cull them entirely. He does tend to have a habit of talking a little too-casually, or say things that may border on crossing lines of what is proper, but hardly is it ever meant to be malicious. For the most part he is a fine example of work ethic and gusto, his enthusiasm for finishing a job direct and controlled. Sometimes he can be a touch spontaneous with how things get done, but at long as the job is finished and everyone’s coming out of it mostly unharmed, things are good.  • Intimately:  Oh boy. This will earn it’s own post with more details at some point, but not today. To put things frankly, Jaax is a heaux. He enjoys keeping busy, he enjoys physical activity, and he enjoys social interaction — thus he doesn’t mind getting in tangles often. The Awoken is clear and casual about his affairs, no strings attached and no ulterior motives mapped out. Intimacy is a form of stress relief for him, and he deals it without much severity. He’s not the sort to limit himself in terms of who can be any sort of partner, an equal opportunist across all fronts, however he is not keen on keeping any sort of partner. Commitment is a big red flag, thus why he is so brashly honest about intentions when they do come up.    • Fireteam: Scrap everything about being a commitment-phobe in the prior bullet, because the members of his Fireteam are noted exceptions to that. They are the closest things to him, and individuals he will drop everything for to be at their side — doesn’t matter who he is with or what he is doing, if the ringtone of a Team member comes through, he will stop what he’s doing and take it, no matter the circumstances. 

RELATION HOOKS: Friendships both personal and professional are welcome in all degrees of longevity and strength. Intimate relations can typically be assumed in most cases, but don’t expect any fluttery romantic feelings to be floating around on Jaax’s end — hit me with a msg just for the okay to assume such a thing between muses, he might get around, and might not have any limitations, but he would've had to experience some inkling of attraction (fleeting, imagined, or otherwise). His Fireteam solidly has Lambda-5 as a member, while the third party is left ambiguous for the most part — as of right now a permanent third is not open, however the idea of filling in for a missing-third-party is something that can be asked about!

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Step one: lift your shoulders. breathe like nothing is holding you down; head high, do not look down to the blood and sweat that cakes your chest. they put you here to make you weak but you are winning this battle. Step two: don’t think about who you left behind. they are gone now, but that does not mean you should forget. hold the world in their honor, so even if you are not in their shadow you hold the ground steady when they fall. let your comfort be that with you bearing the weight of the world they will never lose their grip on it. Step three: endure. there’s nowhere to go, nothing to do but stand and bear and prove you are stronger than they ever dreamed. teach your brother the lesson of the strength it takes to never fall even when your knees buckle and your shoulders tremble and your eyes close and you just want your head to fall but you stand straighter to bear the weight of us.

how to bear the weight of the world (M.M.)

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mundane headcanons || training

Lacking the finality of death and dumped with Light cording through a system, a Guardian’s body still needs to be tested and trained in order to keep in fighting fit shape. Jaax, in particular, utilizes the need for such as a means to keep busy. Idle hands, idle minds, idle anything can do no good — the Titan’s general amiable mood is direct result of him keeping so busy so that nothing has the ability to latch on and sour thoughts. Amalgamated here is what is typical of Jaax throughout a normal week.

• Weekly Routine: You best believe that a regimented and nailed down schedule is what keeps the Titan in balance while he’s at the Tower — not a day goes by where the routine is dropped or paused, days may be shifted or traded accordingly if there’s other outside forces at work — in fact, the only way to actually halt it would be a mission. He’s got a strict regiment of days for chest and biceps, back, cardio, legs, shoulders and triceps, and two days of rest — of which may or may not be spent with the bullets below. Through this, though, Jaax is very much a sociable person. You want to join him for a day? He’ll be thrilled for the company — let him bench press you or something. • Light Training: While it’s a different kind of muscle to keep in shape, the importance of it goes hand in hand, perhaps even exceeding at some points, that of the flesh. The ability to keep that connection with the Light a thriving and fit thing is a bit more nuanced than weight training. Typically either paired with aforementioned cardio days, Jaax trains his Light accordingly. Void is his preferred subclass — you can bet he knows, on average, how long he can hold a dome and what his personal best it — however he has dabbled in enough Arc to get somewhat of a taste for it, even if the unfamiliarity with it leaves his fingers numb at times. • The Crucible: There’s no real limit as to what days Jaax will pair this with, it is a favored activity, so he’ll often run through when he can — responsibly. Training against others in a setting where they’re meant and encouraged to beat each other up in a positive, reinforcing sort of way is refreshing. The best way to keep on edge is, of course, to train against the unpredictability of other individuals. It keeps mind and body sharp, despite the wear and tear it’ll mark the latter with. However the Guardian doesn’t binge through the Crucible — the Titan knows his own limits, and if the Shaxxbots show any inkling of comment of warning, he will take it. Burning out is not beneficial, in any form of training. 

RELATION HOOKS: Maybe you've bumped into him working out, maybe a regular workout partner for a few of the days, his leg day matches up with your back day or something, or maybe you slowly cruise on your sparrow while he does cardio running who knows where (because he def prefers that rather than any sort of treadmill). There's also room to work on Light Training with him — and of course the Crucible, either be it someone he purposefully teams up with, or purposefully aligns up to go opposite on to spar against. Feel free to assume any of these when writing with me.

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                                                                           ❝ — jaax are you flexing right now? ❞

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"Is that too much to expect?" /zak maybe?

richard siken poetry sentence meme —— accepting!!

            ❝There’s shit people say about expecting things.❞     The Titan had slipped into the chair opposite the other Guardian, freshly rinsed from some grapple in — the Crucible? Gambit? Nah, likely the former, if Jaax opted for sparring fun against his peers, he liked to get at them without third parties involved — a personal preference, really. Too casually the Titan slid into his seat, heels kicking up onto the one beside him as he balanced back on the chair’s hind legs. He tipped his head faintly in the direction of the other awoken, eyebrows lifting faintly and smile worn easily.

            ❝About how if you expect nothing, then anything seems like it’s good shit — bunch of fuckin’ noise if you ask me — Did someone not measure up to your expectations?❞

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Can one not be of the void when inside of a friendly void-bubble ?