wantingsobad

[wantingsobad]

reblogging as i’m stuck in the minsung mindset after seeing so many things pink and green today 💔

heaven and back | l.mh + h.js | (a,f)

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pairing: lee minho x han jisung x reader (y/n)

content: angst, fluff, unrequited feelings, college-aged, mainly just a silly y/n who is going through it rn.

word count: 2.6 k

Thursdays.

If there was one thing you could say about Thursdays, it is that they are the pure feeling of going to hell and back.

Actually, scratch that. You haven't even been able to come back from this hell of a day.

Nothing had helped. Even when buying coffee in the hopes of lifting your spirits, it had been extremely too bitter and ruined the entire drink. The attempt to get a nice walk outside during your lunch break had only left you caught in a rainstorm with no protection from the harsh elements. The walk back to your next classes should have been considered a walk of shame from the stares of your fellow classmates and your pure embarrassment of not checking the weather.

The one bright side of today is that you can now finally go home.

No more dreadful professors giving useless monologues or ignorant students on campus bumping into you when trying to leave class.

Just a nice, calm, soothing night left to enjoy by yourself--

***buzz buzz buzz***

On second thought, you might actually lose your mind before the night is over.

You take out your phone from your back pant pocket as you make your way up the stairs of your dorm building, hoping that whoever texted is either dying or needing immediate assistance (both of which you doubt are true as it could very well just be Felix blowing up your phone for the 6th time this week, asking if you would finally let him teach you how to play League of Legends).

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ji ji ji ji baby baby : tell me you aren't busy tonight. minho and i ordered too much food to the dorm for the two of us to eat by ourselves... please come over? 🙃

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Oh, nevermind.

I guess this text isn't as horrible as you thought it would be.

I mean yes, you could very easily just get into bed and sleep off the last torturous 9 hours of your life as you have dreamed of doing all day.

or....

You could definitely take up Jisung's offer of eating some free food while also being able to hang out with the two men who you are absolutely infatuated with.

Yes, it's a bit of strong of a term to use when referring to two men (yuck) but it's just the truth. From the day of college orientation three years ago, when your childhood friend, Hyunjin, introduced a few of his closest friends to you (Minho and Jisung included), you have been a strong group of 9 since.

All of the boys are nice, but Minho and Jisung just happen to be the ones who have kept your attention since the first day of meeting them. From their adorable dynamic to their love for their friends, there is no reason to prevent anyone from falling in love with both of them...

other than the fact that they are already dating eachother.

Logically, it's impractical. You are the third-wheeling, pining over two men who already exclusively pine over eachother. If anything it's so damaging for you to be so close to them while having these feelings, but can anyone really say no to Jisung when he asks so sweetly.

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y/n : for sure, ji! i can be there in 15 minutes, if thats okay?

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You scratch your forehead a little while waiting for a response, wondering what you should change into before heading over there. Obviously something comfortable, but also maybe something a little nice so that they could be impressed or-- no.

They are dating. Stop. You are just friends. No romantic opportunities, unless you feel like home-wrecking your two bestfriends (probably not the best option).

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ji ji ji ji baby baby : yea that works for me and min! just lmk when you are here and i'll come get you from the front of the building.

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And cue the stomach butterflies.

You know how to get to their dorm from the front of the building, but every time Jisung insists on coming to get you from the front door. It's such a little gesture, but it never fails to get your heart beating and you checks burning.

It takes you a few minutes before you are finally back out of your dorm, taking your time to pick an outfit, fix your hair, and retouch your makeup after the rainstorm that you struggled through earlier.

The walk to their dorm is pretty quick, only 7 minutes on a day with some good pep in your step (aka a day like today where you are practically running to their front door).

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y/n : I'm here 😗

ji ji ji ji baby baby : omw, y/n! we need to eat before the food cools down too much. minho is getting hangry and I cannot handle him when he is hangry.

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Jisung is downstairs in less than a minute, making it seem like he's the one who was practically running to see you. Or maybe that's just your mind trying to give in to your delusions...

"Y/N!" Jisung screams a little while picking you up into a hug, "I need us to get back upstairs quickly before Minho decides that he is tired of waiting for us."

You giggle a little at that statement, knowing that Minho would never start to eat without Jisung. He would not be able to handle the pout that would show on Jisung's face if he found out.

Thats when your heart pangs for the first time tonight, already feeling hopelessly doomed to be the third wheel before even seeing Minho.

This was going to be a long night.

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Dinner is going by smoothly. The lo mein and miso soup that had been ordered by Jisung and Minho was a little odd considering you are the only one of the trio who eats lo mein, but you pushed that thought aside. The food was delicious nonetheless.

The pangs kept happening though.

When Jisung would stare at Minho with such adoration that you felt like a spectator on the sidelines of a romance show, rooting for the main characters to be together while simultaneously wishing that you were them. When Minho would get up from his seat to get something from the kitchen, having to pass by Jisung and giving him a loving pat on the head every time, causing Jisung to smile and spread a blush across his puffy cheeks.

It was getting to the point of pain where you had just needed to step out of dinner into the bathroom just to take a breather, convincing yourself that you can get over this and be able to just be best friends, nothing more.

breathe in, breathe out, in, out, in, ou-

"Y/n? Are you okay?"

It was Minho.

You hadn't really felt like you had been in the bathroom for too long to be concerning but a glance at your phone screen surprises you when you see that you had been standing there for over 15 minutes just trying to ground yourself.

A look up in the mirror is also a sudden surprise, seeing tears running down your face, leaving your makeup disheveled and streaking down your cheeks. When had you started crying? Probably sometime in between thinking about your horrid day to thinking about your pitiful love for two men who don't feel the same.

"Yeah-" sniffles "I'm all good Minho. Just-" sigh "Just give me a second and I'll be out..."

Just stop, y/n. You are not making this day better.

And then the door open a smidge. I guess you forgot to lock it.

Even though the door is barely open, it's still enough for Minho and Jisung to see your reflection in the adjacent mirror with the mascara tears running down your face.

The door is no longer open a smidge, being forcefully shoved open by Jisung as he pushes past Minho to get to you, engulfing you in a hug that only fuels the tears.

"Y/n... What's wrong? Please talk to us. Well, cry it all out first then talk to us". Jisung says while speaking into the side of your head, making you chuckle through the tears at his attempt to humor you in your times of turmoil. You wish you had a Jisung like this all of the time.

"You do have me, Y/n? What do you mean? I'm right here, so is Min."

Yikes. Nothing is going your way tonight. First, they see you sobbing. Next, you say your thoughts outloud.

This instantly humbles you and brings you back to where you are, immediately attempting to apologize for whatever you just muttered out of your mouth, "Ji- I mean- I know I have you, but like- I just- I wish I also had someone like you, you know. Like you and Minho". This was clearly such poor phrasing as you watch Jisung pull away to fully face you and give a little look of shock with confusion written across his features.

"What do you mean- Like me and Jisung? You want a boyfriend, y/n? Is that what this is about?" Minho announces this from behind Jisung, making you unable to see the slight look of hurt that flashes on his face.

You look up from where you had been looking at your feet, trading your eyes between looking at both Minho and Jisung. Your brain is being wrestled right now while trying to find the words to explain how you don't want just any boyfriend but the two boyfriends who were standing in front of you.

"Not that, exactly..." You finally manage to mutter out after bullying your mind to produce any answer to stop the two from looking at you with such concern and hurt for you. "I just can't explain my problems to you two..." You look away from the two boys, not being able to watch them as you try not to break down further.

"Y/n if this is something serious, you can talk to us..." MInho pipes up, Jisung grabbing your hand for reassurance, causing you to turn your head back toward them.

Your logical side seems to be taking over for the first time, in a long time, telling you to do what you know needs to be done for your own sake.

"I think I should take a break from seeing you guys..." You finally said it. The words you knew needed to come out eventually to allow yourself time to heal and get over this silly infatuation.

But, the look that you then saw on their faces might have just killed you right then and there. You don't think you have ever seen them both be so in sync with their expressions, synchronizing their faces of hurt and sadness in a way you didn't know you could hurt so much from.

"You.. What? Why?" Jisung asks, his voice cracking a little and letting go of your hand to step back towards Minho, allowing Minho to leave a comforting hand on Jisung's shoulder.

If you wanted to run away ever in your life or sink into a black hole, it would be now. The embarrassment of this whole situation and your reasoning behind why you need to do this just simply cannot be explained to them without ruining everything.

"Did we do something?" Minho asks with no faults in his voice, but a single look you take towards him shows that he really is trying to maintain his composure.

If there's anytime to say anything. It'd be now. Your relationship is already changed. There's no going back.

"It's not you guys. It's me," You say while looking at both of them, powering through what you are about to say even with seeing their heartbroken faces, "I just cannot do this anymore. Being around you two all of the time is so painful because you guys are just so happy and in love, and I would do anything to be like you. Not with other people..." Here it goes. "but with both of you. I cannot handle being around you guys while I am helplessly in love with you both. Just give me some time, and I know I can get over this..."

Well. There it is.

You finally said what has been torturing you for years, laying it all out on a platter for Minho and Jisung to observe and pick apart.

But thats not the reaction you get from them when you check back in to register their facial expressions. It's bizarre. Minho looks almost relieved while Jisung looks.... happy? Where you missing something? Was this what they wanted to happen?

Before your thoughts can go any further, you are tossed into a hug between both Jisung and Minho, rocking you back and forth and holding you so tightly.

"Are you serious, Y/n? You actually had me so horrified I thought we were going to lose you" Jisung mutters into your shoulder.

You are still so incredibly confused as you manage to let out a quiet, "...What?..."

You are finally released from the grasp of the two hugging you to be faced toward Jisung, "Me too. I mean- like I am in love with you, too. So is Minho."

This information actually shatters any ability to function that you had left, only being able to repeat the word "Huh?!" while looking at Minho to confirm what Jisung said, to which Minho nods.

"We always have, Y/n. We just didn't really know what to do about this because you never told us anything or made it seem like this was mutual. I thought we would always be stuck as bestfriends." MInho says this so gently to you while reaching up one of his hands to cup the side of your face and caress your cheek so lightly with his thumb. I think this is the first time you have ever recognized Minho looking at you this way. It's the same way you notice him and Jisung look at each other everyday.

"You guys love me?..." You manage to get out while bringing up a hand to hold Minho's hand that is resting on your cheek. This is a surreal moment for you. What you have been fearing as the break in your relationship as a trio may actually be what causes your relationship to grow further, into....???

A nod comes from MInho, "Can I kiss you?" he asks ever so sweetly.

A simple nod is given in return, a silent conversation that you and him exchange in before he initiates the kiss.

It feels like a dream. Finally being able to feel his lips on your own after years of pining. By holding onto the back of his head, you keep him close to make sure that this is real, and he isn't leaving.

That then makes you think about Jisung, who's simply standing to the side, mouth agape and blushing across his entire face at the two people he loves kissing eachother. To Jisung, this is like a dream come true, but he does want some attention from you (casual Jisung behavior).

He tightly grabs ahold of your side, turning you away from Minho and guiding you towards his own lips. The moment you and him meet is as electric as it was with Minho.

The pangs in your heart are no longer from the pain of unrequited love, but now a pleasurable pain of an overwhelming love from those two boys who have captured your heart.

Maybe this day has finally had its come back from being a burning hell, reaching the sweet and blissful heavens that we all dream of.

a/n : ahh my first fic on here. I hope to only improve from here and I apologize for rushing the ending haha. lmk if anyone has any requests or ideas, i'm open to writing anything - eb

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poll time! do we like the concept of this fic or should i leave her to rot in the drafts ☹️ my guess word count would be around 4-5k and im about 1k into it rn…

thoughts?

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hi squad! sorry i haven’t been around lol. i’ve been thinking abt this acct a lot and ill be coming back soon… AFTER MY SKZ CONCERT THIS WEEKEND AYEEEEEE. orlando skz is abt to be made my bitch in this shitty weather. anywho ily all and i’ll be back to my nct skz brainrot soon 😛

- eb 🩵

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fighting with bf!mark lee (a)

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pairing : idol bf!mark lee x reader

content : angsty af, NOT A HAPPY ENDING, spoiler : break up , emotional and unreasonable y/n tbh

ss count : 5

a/n : i fear this came to me in the middle of my unreasonable insomnia last night. i dont really like how this ended bc now im just mad at y/n but shes always causing issues anyway. im currently working on a mark written work inspired by fool for you by zayn.... i can feel the angst coming from miles away everytime i open it. anywho, ily all and have a good day!- ebs

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texting jealous bf!nct dream

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pairing : idol bf!nct dream x idol!reader

content : possessive but in an understandable not giving toxic kinda way, i didn't mean to make this so idol based but she ended up that way, mentions of various other male idols, fluffy cutesy in general

ss count : 7, 1 per member

a/n : hey sigmas! def not my best work ever but its whateva! ive been brewing up some good ideas for some smaus and shorter fics so ill lyk if i cook with any of them. ive been in a heavy vamp diaries kick so maybe some vamp fics coming soon.. you never know.... (constantly thinking abt the motel scene from szn 3.) but thats that! ily all and gn or gm!- ebs

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texting bf!nct dream with only kaomojis

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pairing : bf!nct dream x reader

content : cute and fluffy, established relationships, pet names (baby, princess, pretty/pretty girl), just a cute relationship dynamic post

ss count : 7, 1 per member

a/n : hey cutie pies! hope everyone is having a good day even though its sadly the start of a new week :( this is my comeback era to tumblr so if anyone has any ideas or reqs they want to send in please feel free to do so! any inspo is good inspo. anyway, ily all! - ebs

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For some reason, the links on your master list don't work, do you have any idea of why that might be? It's really confusing me.

i’m sorry anon but i actually have no idea 🙁🙁

the links all seem to work for me on my phone and laptop🥹

i’m not sure if you’re the only one with this issue but if anyone else can’t use the master list properly lmk (even though i don’t know how to fix it…)

master list here

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tumblr user wantingsobad comes back from a year of radio silence?!?

be prepared for some fire nct dream and skz indulgence to drop bc i suddenly have the urge to be back on this platform more than ever

i live laugh love this app no matter how much school makes me want to explode 🩷

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welcome to... wantingsobad ᯓ★

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reqs/asks always open!

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about me ⋆⭒˚｡⋆

hi! my name is 'eb' or 'ebs'. i am a 19 year-old college student in the u.s. if you want to know abt my schooling, i am a microbiology major who's also picking up a molecular genetics minor eventually (when i feel like talking to my advisor again </3) i'm an istp-t and a gemini (with a scorpio moon AND scorpio rising). my ults are stray kids, nct dream, and boynextdoor. my biases are han jisung, renjun, and woonhak my stan list is so incredibly long but i listen to a lot of enhypen, ateez, zb1, nct (all units obvi), txt, xikers, oneus, evnne, bts, svt, tbz, epex, allhours, ampers&one, cravity, treasure, &team... and a lot more i cant even begin to actually list (i have a whole chart in my phone's notes...) for concerts, i've been to the last two years of kcon LA, enhypen fate plus in chicago, lollapalooza 2024 for skz and ive, young posse, and i have tickets for ampers&one and skz in orlando (hopefully also kcon when it comes around lol) i started listening to kpop in late 2022, around case 143 and good boy gone bad era. other than kpop, i mainly listen to tame impala, rex orange county, taylor swift, carti, tyler the creator, clairo, freddie dredd, haarper, lana, lorde, joji..... yk just basically everything but country i would also like to say that whatever i write here is going to be giving very chronically online brainrot bc i <3 the internet and would be a skibidi ohio rizz kid if i was that age :( thats all i can think to say when i'm yapping abt myself! if anyone reads this page... y'all better oomf me up so we can yap together. - ebs

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m = sensitive topics, s = suggestive/smut, a = angst, f = fluff, ꨄ = my personal favs <3

© all work is written and created by @wantingsobad (formerly @/ebbaskz)

STRAY KIDS

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heaven and back | l.mh x h.js x reader (a, f, ꨄ, 2.6 k) are you bored yet? | h.hj x reader (a, f, ꨄ, 1.7 k) escapism | c.bc x reader (a, 1.3 k) step on me | l.mh x reader (m, a, 0.9 k) an 'accident' | skz!ot8 x reader (s, 4/8 posts, ongoing) vampire!chan x reader (s, 0.9 k)

mixed media ˎˊ˗

fangirl | skz!ot8 x reader (f, ongoing series) needy bf!jisung (s, 3 ss and a written part)

fake texts ‧₊˚

random bf!han (s, 5 ss) random bf!hyunjin (s, 5 ss) sending suggestive pics to bf!skz (s, 8 ss) reacting to gayo daejeon outfits (pt. 1) (pt. 2) (s)

NCT DREAM

written works ‧₊˚

coming soon...

mixed media ˎˊ˗

coming soon...

fake texts ‧₊˚

texting bf!nct dream with only kaomojis (f, 7 ss) texting jealous bf!nct dream (f, a, 7 ss) fighting with bf!mark lee ( a, 5 ss)

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reacting to bf!skz sbs gayo daejeon outfits (2)

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pairing : skz x reader (chan, changbin, seungmin, jeongin)

content : very suggestive and very horny, down bad y/n but also very down bad skz, usage of wolf jokes and breeding in chans, thigh riding in changbins, pillow princess!reader in seungmins, 18+

ss count : 2 per member

minho, hyunjin, jisung, felix here

a/n : hello! happy belated new year lovers!! hope 2024 is a great year (which it should be with the skz tour...). heres the second part of this little prompt. ill be picking back up fangirl and the accident series soon. sorry for always vanishing for a few days, my life is just a little hectic. hope this was enjoyable and have a good day/night pooks! - eb

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hi hi. coming back from the abyss to ask the local stay tblr community a question for my next fic inspo.

i’ve been really into supernatural!skz fics and i have a nagging urge to write one but i need ideas on who and what supernatural ability yk.

this is all i can think of rn but lmk what member you think could fit with each <3

- eb

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reacting to bf!skz sbs gayo daejeon outfits (1)

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pairing : skz x reader (minho, hyunjin, jisung, felix)

content : very suggestive, very horny, down bad y/n, usage of 'daddy' in minhos, breeding kink? mentioned in minho and lixs, 18+

ss count : 2 per member

chan, changbin, seungmin, jeongin here

a/n : wsp cuties! merry post christmas. we were blessed with this gayo daejeon this year. the technical difficulties were absolutely horrendous but everyone looked so good. hyunjins hair had me questioning if han is really my ult bias BUT DW i stayed true to my pookie hanji. anyway enough with my rambling and have a nice day/night! ily all! - eb

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merry christmas to those who celebrate!

i love this season and i am so blessed for everything i have and get

i hope everyone’s holiday season goes well!! 🫶🫶

- eb

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fangirl | IV. uh oh

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pairing : idol!stray kids x stay!reader (y/n)

content : skz ot8 are menaces, mentions ryujin of itzy and kyujin of nmixx as non idols, swearing, flirting (mostly from seungmin), mentions of prey/predator but its jokingly maybe

includes : 10 text chains (skz gc are from chan’s pov)

a/n : hi hi this is just a buffer chapter for them to all meet y/n before the real juicy stuff takes place. im not sure if the next chapter will be written or the one after but we'll see. thanks for all the support and ily all - eb

taglist (open, just reply under this post so i see it haha!) : @caravm @he7ven @hwangseungminnie @strawberry31 @mingiswow @lolareadsimagines @chaotic-world-of-the-j @puppy-minnie @chlodavids @adestayskz @enchantedgrunge @spilled-coffee-cup @queen-in-the-shadows @loverlixie @minhwa @felixvsp @tfshouldidohere @seungmyynie @greyyeti @sona1800 @lofasofabread @ihrtlix @abbiestearsricochet @yevene @dreamerwasfound @f9clementine @skzhoes @realrintaro @midmourn @deadcrow-donteat @minholythighs @simp4myself @lakoya (unable to tag)

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fangirl | III. bet

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pairing : idol!stray kids x stay!reader (y/n)

content : skz ot8 are menaces, mentions ryujin of itzy and kyujin of nmixx as non idols, swearing, flirting

includes : 5 text chains (skz gc are from chan’s pov)

a/n : okay... ik ive been dead but here i am back alive! midterms kicked my ass and work has not been any better. ive been feeling a lot like im living outside of my own body if ykwim. im getting back to things normally and this is one of them. ill try to get a few of these out by christmas and ily all! sorry again for the inactivity lol - eb

taglist (open!) : @caravm @he7ven @hwangseungminnie @strawberry31 @mingiswow @lolareadsimagines @chaotic-world-of-the-j @puppy-minnie @chlodavids @adestayskz @enchantedgrunge @spilled-coffee-cup @queen-in-the-shadows @loverlixie @minhwa @felixvsp @tfshouldidohere @seungmyynie @greyyeti @sona1800 @lofasofabread @ihrtlix @abbiestearsricochet @minholythighs @simp4myself @lakoya (unable to tag)