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Take a warm bath in this song today.

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Wizz

We're troves, tethered. Quick mists of fettered thoughts, strewn we lay out. Half-meanings meander old lofty goals spinning like a top. Wait, we can, we've got this under our arms. Elevated senses, tokens amassing, dials red-lining. A bastion of hope, returning.

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We Think We Deserve

I have learned to stay silent, to keep my discomfort under my breath to remind you, who loves me so that I can't trust how you'll react and it's not worth putting my heart on the line to be truthful - trustful - real. The last ditch effort from my gut tries to reverse my thoughts and run myself back into the rut of loneliness. I'm comforted by the assumptions, as it's easier to construct a version of you who 'never understands' than to stand my ground, to touch the precipice of our union and remind myself that my humanity matters. I'm not doing you any favours by acting okay until the dam finally breaks and I'm heaving this death in your face -- daring you to defend a love I won't believe in. {I don't deserve it yet}

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Thomas Hart Benton - Fishermen's Camp, Buffalo River (1968)

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Thomas Hart Benton

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Trickle Down

There's that soft light, still keeping me in a foggy hope lavishing the dreamscape world with new songs, daring to sing, sweeping my soul of its remaining dirt. Don't we all seem perfect? when reflected in the morning-light of easy happy, sipping coffee, glancing leisurely out the window just to capture something real? We've all got lies that tear up our insides with knives, but it's a good life if you can harness the weight of letting expectations give way to a bare minimum truth. Did you think you knew better?

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Squandered Potential

Past, present, or future? Jumbled, mumbled up in my head again for what seems like the millionth time.

Can't sit straight or make any leeway with my projects, prospects surely dwindling let's make something new out of nothing.

Or should I fret away the hours I've been given, precision isn't (and has never been) my strong point but I still take small bites of information every now and then.

It's been said we can move mountains.

Well, I've never been impressed with dynamite explosions and I think I'd have to blow away all this noise before I'd ever think about pushing back the peak--

What did we all learn this week? Another wasted opportunity.

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A part

I would like to stare into a star

just to read the void

and parse the paradise inside

each lonely eye can see the dream

inside every dreadful moment

but time must pass

and love must freeze

and hearts may believe without knowing

may sing without having the words

our collective search to define feeling

but we bury the sweetness of relieving the pain

in dissecting.

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Dream of what might be, sculpt and tumble me

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Process and push the pressure, jumping into the treasure of light. Whatever was collected, sits and bubbles on its own in the background. Some suffering can be stipulated, back and forth in the mind with a cope, many measured mechanisms interfere. And love - what's left of the truth inside of it? The fear, the scream, the try and try again, this meagre triumph of human error jumps from word to word without thinking. Is there any point in keeping the boat from sinking?

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‘Boy Reading of Adventure’

~ Norman Rockwell

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Like You Can Hold It In Your Hand

Warm your heart with the flame of inspiration, an intention to deliver yourself the goods in the woods you traverse, this universe of doubt you've still got the knowledge to sound out some semblance of rebirth, even when the worst is swirling around --

Wasn't it so much easier to live in this town? Before the death draped on all the roofs, blood dripping into the houses, carrying the doom we used to feel fear was hiding, aloof, but now we're scouring the streets for hovels of reprieve.

Do you dare take the leap to believe? No notions of holy havens still heaven-sent but yet - we're trying our best to squint our eyes and see the ideals we dreamed up in our youths, even then there was no such thing as objective truth, but we were able to live as if there was.

And God, all we can do now is trudge along.

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A Poem in Conflict

Pardon me, something's come between the thought-concrete of my mind and the delicious candy of my dreams -- I've given my insanity a pass, for at last there may be ignorance in bliss so, whatever this new existence is, I'd like to try some clouds on for size might I decide to float above the noise awhile, to gain back the joys of giving in (and dropping out).

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Heartbreak, you know, drives a big black car/I was in the back seat just minding my own

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The Albums That Changed Me

So, I decided to see if I could make a list of all of the most important albums in my life. The idea here was not to list every single one of my favourite records, nor to list the ones I think are the very best. Rather, these are the ones that made the biggest impact on me when I encountered them, the ones that changed my life in some way.

I would not be the person I am today without them.

Enjoy!

Our Lady Peace - Clumsy MxPx - Life in General Slick Shoes - Rusty Blink 182 - Dude Ranch Goo Goo Dolls - Dizzy Up the Girl Incubus - Morning View Mae - Destination: Beautiful Dashboard Confessional - The Places You Have Come to Fear The Most Rufio - Perhaps, I Suppose… Further Seems Forever - The Moon Is Down Saosin - Translating The Name Sunny Day Real Estate - LP2 Alexisonfire Taking Back Sunday - Tell All Your Friends Hopesfall - The Satellite Years Name Taken - Hold On Copeland - Beneath Medicine Tree Number One Fan - Compromises Elliott - False Cathedrals Pretty Girls Make Graves - The New Romance Jimmy Eat World - Clarity Underoath - They're Only Chasing Safety Spitalfield - Remember Right Now Northstar - Pollyanna Broken Social Scene - You Forgot It In People Rush - 2112 Coheed and Cambria - In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth III AFI - Sing The Sorrow Circa Survive - Juturna Sparta - Wiretap Scars Boston Moneen - The Red Tree This Day and Age - Always Leave The Ground Emily Haines - Knives Don't Have Your Back Arcade Fire - Neon Bible Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism At The Drive-In - Vaya EP The Beatles - Magical Mystery Tour The Smashing Pumpkins - Mellon Collie and The Infinite Sadness Elbow - Cast of Thousands The Postal Service - Give Up Kings of Leon - Because of The Times Anberlin - Cities The Cure - Disintegration Radiohead - Kid A Silversun Pickups - Carnavas Wintersleep - Welcome to The Night Sky Cassino - Sounds of Salvation Stars - In Our Bedroom After The War Tegan & Sara - The Con Tool - Lateralus The Mars Volta - De-Loused in the Comatorium Interpol - Antics Brand New - The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me M83 - Saturdays = Youth Bon Iver - For Emma, Forever Ago Local Natives - Gorilla Manor 1997 - A Better View of The Rising Moon Dave Matthews Band - Busted Stuff Elliott Smith - Either/Or Youth Lagoon - Year of Hibernation Relient K - Forget and Not Slow Down Carly Rae Jepsen - EMOTION Side B The Arkells - Michigan Left The National - High Violet The Tragically Hip - In Violet Light Fleetwood Mac - Rumours Counting Crows - This Desert Life The Pains of Being Pure at Heart - Days of Abandon TTNG - Animals The Antlers - Hospice The 1975 Taylor Swift - Midnights Lydia - Illuminate Chastity - Home Made Satan Noah Kahan - Stick Season (Forever)

-TP

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Beckoning

Try your best not to keep averting eye contact. I want to know the love you have pulsing behind your pupils, I want to give that back to you - and, in being truthful, we'll once again be able to see each other clearly. These draining fears we carry, day-by-day, letting our little romantic hearts decay from lesser knowledge of ourselves. Let me in there, darling. We don't need to lay here starving if we just let our worlds collide (again).

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With all the help I can give, nothing seems to budge. Like lilting, freshly fading from feeling deep in my guts there's a freeze, a halt, a half-measure of the overflowing effervescence, Lest I remember the essence, I can't repent for the defenses I've put up - but, oh, what luck, another day's another chance to make good.