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TEMPORARILY MOVING

@vonbirden

I am hoping this helps my desire to thrive online again. So while things are slow, I'm going to move all my muse(s) to my main multi. And it's all good if people don't want to follow because truly my brainrot for my old shows is going brrr. If you'd rather write with me here, I can see what I can do. For the time being, everything is getting moved.

My original muse ( @lausticzt ) is staying as a single blog because I like having ocs separate to brainrot on. And honestly, I really want to write on her blog more.

I might even tag fandoms so that you can bulk block if needs. I want to go back to having a goofy time, so won't be taking my blogs too seriously. If my style changes for writing and isn't always that coherent, bare with me <3 I am not good with words and writing but I want to have fun with all my silly little characters. So please don't feel forced to follow my multi etc. only if you really want to!

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TEMPORARILY MOVING

@vonbirden

I am hoping this helps my desire to thrive online again. So while things are slow, I'm going to move all my muse(s) to my main multi. And it's all good if people don't want to follow because truly my brainrot for my old shows is going brrr. If you'd rather write with me here, I can see what I can do. For the time being, everything is getting moved.

My original muse ( @lausticzt ) is staying as a single blog because I like having ocs separate to brainrot on. And honestly, I really want to write on her blog more.

I might even tag fandoms so that you can bulk block if needs. I want to go back to having a goofy time, so won't be taking my blogs too seriously. If my style changes for writing and isn't always that coherent, bare with me <3 I am not good with words and writing but I want to have fun with all my silly little characters. So please don't feel forced to follow my multi etc. only if you really want to!

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I've been considering moving my aot muse(s) to my other multi. I tag all characters with one main tag so other fandoms/characters can be blocked *thinking* I'll keep this blog as archive if I end up wanting this to be separate again. I'll probably keep my oc to one blog and not move her.

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Super busy time for me hence my little absence! My plan is to organise some things and then save my free time to write.

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I want to write threads and I want to plot. Or I'm getting distant from my blogs again ... which I don't want to do I love writing oop

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Me, who desires more engagement to distract from endless work.

Also me, who can't engage to save my life because my mind is never present.

*shocked pikachu*

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Not to say Connie doesn't care about all his friends ⸻ but there's only two people he cares about more then life itself and it's Jean and Sasha. He's sad when he loses people. But he also is a bit selfish in the way he really just, cares that Sasha and Jean are alive and okay. Everyone else could die, as long as those two survived he'd be okay. This is definitely more post-time skip behaviour. He had his own bonds with everyone, mostly with Reiner, bits with Bertholdt, Annie as well, Ymir was a love/hate relationship but man that was it's only sibling thing, and he was closer with Eren out of that trio, even though Armin and him got closer over time. But man, he really is playing a Mikasa card 'there's only so many people I can care about' and for him it's Sasha and Jean.

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one day I will make an entire post about Manga!Mikasa over wit studio.

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contains some SPOILERS

artist: @/gemmsenn (twitter)

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[ death ] sender just died is considered dead, receiver finds out @naitfall / x.

IT'S THE FEELING OF THE WORLD FALLING SILENT AROUND HIM (...) the tumultuous aftermath of a single battle in the mountainous war all but stands still. A ringing in his ears that drowns out occupying noise, people untroubled by the news carry on in a blur, forgotten, unimportant - words the girl, Ackerman, speaks are no longer audible / can't tell if she still was, barely assess Kirschtein's subdued bearings as the boys own thoughts are clouded, he's somewhere else entirely. Her words are foreign in sound, as if such a term didn't exist. Because for Farlan they didn't.

'Commander Hange and Captain Levi ...' DEAD.

The ground falls from his feet but still he stands, unmovable. “ What did you ... just say? ” Did those words ever leave his lips? Did the girl, who's eyes remained voided and shattered, ever response? In this moment of their lives, perhaps they were the same. Both losing everything to them.

Levi. It's sickening the way his body reacts. Frozen in place as pieces within shattered all at once. Questions raced in the back of his mind, but none ever made it through. The why, how, who (...) the speculations ran wild, but he couldn't focus on that. Levi. Why was it that of all times, he thought back to the underground. Why was it that memories began to take over and spiral with his distress. Why did his mind go back to that first meeting, one that used to humiliate and embarrass him when he spoke of it. When they first made contact, when their eyes had first met - why was it that image that stuck in his mind.

The days he spent in the underground were vile, full of torment, he only wished to leave that hellhole and never look back. It was cruel, and ironic, how those years in that house of theirs together (...) became fond memories at the end. Before reality sets back in. The world continues. Now, he feels the pain. The grip it has on him is a familiar agony, and yet, so new. The way his expression trembles, tensing, jaw tightening as anger, grief, sadness, all come crashing ahead. He was never ready for this. He couldn't be. He knows what happened (...) he knows.

He shouldn't have entertained the idea / there's an obsession in that final promise (...) Farlan should of just killed the Beast Titan while he was sleeping. That's what his gut had told him, that's what his intuition advised. He knows Levi, that loyalty and anger, the need to be the one to kill Zeke himself, even to the detriment of himself, as if that was his only worth. That damn Commander. Even dead, he was still causing Farlan trouble.

╼╼╼ HE NEVER CARED ABOUT THE OUTSIDE. All he had wanted to do was get out of the underground. Live above the rundown city. Venturing outside the walls (...) he never imagined of it. Levi. He might have been the one to express those desires of leaving that horrible place, to give them a dream to live off, but it was Levi who took them further. Those wings on his back couldn't be caged. After that first expedition, Farlan came to understand that. He saw the sight for what it was. Honestly, he was mesmerised by it. That dream of his grew, changed, and he wanted to understand what that entailed for him. After all , together, they saw the sea. The world outside was vast. But, Farlan knew he never cared about the world. All he wanted to do, he realised, was be at his side. He wanted to make sure those wings of his were never cut or broken from the weight of it all.

Before they met, Farlan had given up on people. Didn't trust them as much as they could trust him. Relationships with people were there to be exploited - in the end, they'd all betray each other one way or another. He wonders if Levi ever knew that. How much of his life he changed.

Brows furrow, his eyes SHARP, as he turns on his heel. Where was he going? As the walls fell around them, as the internal struggle of allies and enemies erupted, of what was right and wrong plagued the minds of those who still wore the symbol of freedom (...) he had his own determination.

“ No, you're wrong. There's no chance (...) that stubborn idiot won't allow himself to die. ” FARLAN WON'T ENTERTAIN THE IDEA. He knew the cruelty that was this world well, understood that no one was safe from it's wicked clutches - he wasn't naïve enough to believe in miracles. But putting Levi next to those very ideals was impossible. There was one thing in this world he did believe in. He'd wager it all on that fact. If there was anyone that could survive what this shitty world would throw at them, over and over again, no matter the stakes, no matter how treacherous a climb; clenched fists shake at his side, nails digging so deep the cut into his skin. He's going to find him.

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Writing time writing time writing time

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"IT WAS MY FAULT" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue for owning up to your mistakes, adjust as necessary

that never should have happened.

i should have listened to you from the start.

this is all my fault.

you can blame me for that.

i was completely out of line.

i screwed up.

i owe you a sincere apology.

that wasn't what i thought would happen.

now you're hurt, and it's all my fault.

will you ever forgive me?

it was an honest mistake.

i didn't mean to hurt you.

that was wrong of me, and i know it.

if only i'd been more careful.

next time, i'll be better.

please forgive me.

how can i make it up to you?

i wish i hadn't done that.

i accept responsibility.

i can't live with myself.

are you going to hold this over my head forever?

i said i was sorry.

i made the mistake of not listening to you.

please don't blame me for everything.

how many times do i have to tell you i'm sorry?

i crossed a line.

not sure what i was thinking.

the words came out wrong.

you deserve better than that.

there were plenty of other options, and i didn't listen.

i wasn't listening!

that's my fault!

i'm the one who got us into this mess.

if it weren't for me, we'd be out of here by now.

this will never happen again.

oh, i learned my lesson.

i'm forever haunted by my mistakes.

will you ever find it in your heart to forgive me?

i'll say i'm sorry until i'm blue in the face.

this wasn't part of the deal.

i never should have listened to them.

i thought i was doing the right thing.

they didn't do anything wrong. i did.

i'm the one you should blame.

i feel so wrong about this.

i didn't mean to hurt you.

be mad at me, not them.

if you want to yell and scream at me, go ahead.

it was an accident.

i don't deserve forgiveness.

if there's anything i can do to fix this, please tell me.

what can i say to make it better?

can you please take me back?

they promised me they wouldn't hurt you.

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Connie dresses up as Shadis for Halloween to scare Sasha (he would have dressed as the commander or levi but they are too close, they can still kick his ass) his fourth option was to just wear a wig and mimic Jean.

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HOME (...) that's right, because no matter what, she had to return. That's what she had fought for after all. Annie didn't care what Marley's objectives had been, she was a warrior by birth - born or made into one, she isn't sure. Never the chance to be a normal girl. She was anything but normal / a monster. But, there was a time she felt something different. A time her father made her promise to come back alive. A time when she had spent three years with people who saw her for just her (...) just Annie.

Perhaps that's why she isn't on guard (or, was she too just as exhausted as he) around Armin. Why his words leave her silent, simply watching him for all he was. When his gaze abstained from doe eyes, all hesitation gone ; as sharp as a whip, more cutting then any blade. She always admired that bravery in him. But there was more. A resounding will that could shake even Eren's when he got serious enough.

Honestly, even if it was a trap, she wouldn't care anymore. But he's earnest in his approach, wants her to understand that. Doesn't give her any reason to doubt.

“ I'm not completely heartless. I know what you're all doing now is commendable. It takes a lot of guts. But you're right, I just want to go back home. Nothing else really matters to me. ”

They had the same objective. No longer on opposing sides. She didn't have to kill anymore of those she'd once called comrades. Well (...) almost. For now, that was enough. Annie wasn't the enemy. How could she be a threat to them now anyway?

... couldn't be a threat to him.

“ I guess. Well ... I have to wonder, if you ever saw me as a threat to your life, Armin. Even back then ... when I really was your enemy. ” It's a lighter atmosphere between the two as she contemplates. Huh? That's right. Even backed into a corner, did Armin ever see his life in danger around her? THE FEMALE TITAN. Had she given him reason to. How many times had she hesitated to finish him off ... enough, because it was ultimately her downfall.

“ I spent a long time wondering why that was ... even I don't really have an answer for it. ”

there is something nice about hearing her voice again. for a while, he wasn't certain when he might again, instead comitting its sound to memory, childish and embarrassing in a way he would never admit to her. even with the iron that steels it now, the familiar defenses she puts up, he still savors the sound. the calcite that separated them turns now back to a mineral of her own making, but he can't find it in himself to be disappointed by it. four years he spent waiting for her, what harm would a little longer do?

" is that what you think? " the question is soft from him, his warmth rising to meet her coldness. it's true that in another life he's always had a plan, always a way out. always had a backup, and when even those didn't work, he always had his words, sharp as a sword, and his crocodile tears. he even had plans for her, all that time ago, but now, as the world falls apart around them, he can't say the same is true anymore.

he tells himself it's because he's too tired to try to make another for her now when he's had to make so many others, trying to stop something unstoppable. immovable object versus unstoppable force. but maybe the real reason is trust. that day when he has always been certain she could have killed him. he expected her to, waited for the crush of her hand, cracking and crushing his bones as easily as she might squash a bug. but it never came.

he thinks his trust can't be misplaced here. not when the sides they used to be on, dividing as wide as an ocean, no longer exist. and if she didn't kill him then, when she had more than enough reason to, why would she do it now?

he could bluff if he wanted to. but he doesn't. he lays his cards down for her, splays the truth as if it's an offering, an olive branch, a heart on an altar. " i don't have to have a plan if you aren't a risk to me. and i won't give you a reason to be, annie. "

her gaze sharpens like a knife, but he doesn't look away, takes the edge of the blade in his palm. she's fought long and hard enough — why be anything else but absolution for her? why be anything else but peace for her, the way she was for him all those four years? she is stone he chips through, ice he waits to thaw. she expects to be met with something like betrayal or hate, something familiar to her, but he offers up something else, something foreign she must not quite know what to do with. " i think [ ... ] you want the same thing i do — to go back home. and if that's true, and we want the same thing, how could you ever be a threat to me? "

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"IT WAS MY FAULT" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue for owning up to your mistakes, adjust as necessary

that never should have happened.

i should have listened to you from the start.

this is all my fault.

you can blame me for that.

i was completely out of line.

i screwed up.

i owe you a sincere apology.

that wasn't what i thought would happen.

now you're hurt, and it's all my fault.

will you ever forgive me?

it was an honest mistake.

i didn't mean to hurt you.

that was wrong of me, and i know it.

if only i'd been more careful.

next time, i'll be better.

please forgive me.

how can i make it up to you?

i wish i hadn't done that.

i accept responsibility.

i can't live with myself.

are you going to hold this over my head forever?

i said i was sorry.

i made the mistake of not listening to you.

please don't blame me for everything.

how many times do i have to tell you i'm sorry?

i crossed a line.

not sure what i was thinking.

the words came out wrong.

you deserve better than that.

there were plenty of other options, and i didn't listen.

i wasn't listening!

that's my fault!

i'm the one who got us into this mess.

if it weren't for me, we'd be out of here by now.

this will never happen again.

oh, i learned my lesson.

i'm forever haunted by my mistakes.

will you ever find it in your heart to forgive me?

i'll say i'm sorry until i'm blue in the face.

this wasn't part of the deal.

i never should have listened to them.

i thought i was doing the right thing.

they didn't do anything wrong. i did.

i'm the one you should blame.

i feel so wrong about this.

i didn't mean to hurt you.

be mad at me, not them.

if you want to yell and scream at me, go ahead.

it was an accident.

i don't deserve forgiveness.

if there's anything i can do to fix this, please tell me.

what can i say to make it better?

can you please take me back?

they promised me they wouldn't hurt you.

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@arrowablaze ⤸ -- connie coded behaviour with sasha