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    ;; hey, mun here. i wanted to make a post to officially announce my hiatus, although it might be unnecessary, since my absence shows.

    roleplaying means so much to me, it’s a huge part of my life, ever since my first roleplay on gaia over ten years ago. what’s more, i’ve made many friends here during the last seven years of me roleplaying on tumblr, to the point i still consider those i see around as family.

    however, i’m just too tired. i’ve made several attempts to become active again – even limiting myself to one character, in case the issue was being overwhelmed – because roleplaying with my family means so much to me. however, i just don’t have the energy to keep up, not just on here, but on any social media really. the most i’ve been able to do is create and reblog/retweet shitposts, make illustrations, and work on vocaloid/utau covers. with the illustrations, however, includes ocs from the fandoms i’ve interacted with on here, and i grow sentimental for the times i’ve had with these people, but feel dejected that i can’t really speak with about these characters anymore. i haven’t spoken to anyone in a long time, and i’m just afraid that i’d just be bothering everyone, despite any insistence that that’s not the case.

    i’m sorry, this went on a bit longer than i’d expected haha. despite everything i’ve just said, i still want to hold onto that bit of happiness and keep in contact with my friends, so if you’d like, my discord is AZUSA#6618 and my twitter is DarkSideHeaven. if you're reading this, yes, i do include you as my friend, and it would be very nice to chat again. thank you for everything.

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extravachance·:

“You aren’t, I know you have important issues to attend.” Pulling away, whilst still keeping a close distance, he places each hand over her shoulders, it’s a loose grip - merely for the sake of gaining her attention. She’s acting strange, remorseful, and he won’t play dumb if something is hurting her, hence his consequent query.

“Can you tell me what’s wrong, Yuki…?” Downcast, his gaze begs for an answer; whichever may be her burden, carry it alone will only end up hurting her.

    “It’s... nothing.” Again, it was as though she was more trying to convince herself, keeping her gaze averted. She internally cursed herself for letting her worry become visible. Sakon did not deserve that – just as much as she did not deserve him.

    “Someday, I won’t be able to come back. I guess I’m just... scared, how soon that day may be.” That may be the closest to the truth, to acknowledging that she was afraid of what all of life eventually comes to at the end. To admit that was almost the reason for her latest absence was too much. “...Maybe I’m just tired.”

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What is your alignment?

Your Result: Neutral 88%

— You put your own beliefs above all else, and they are not evil. In fact, your beliefs might be better than so called “good” beliefs. After all, what is good? Your answer to that is that it is a moral bias, and that being good depends on who is the judge. If you are working for another, it is because you felt like it or because they are paying you and are not insanely zealous.

Other Results:

— Neutral Good 72% — Lawful Good 48% — Lawful Neutral 45% — Chaotic Good 32% — Chaotic Neutral 17% — Neutral Evil 10% — Lawful Evil 10% — Chaotic Evil 0%

Tagged by: @extravachance Tagging: uhh anyone really lol

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    ;; I keep forgetting that Yuki and Sakon are the exact same height, so it completely messes with whatever angle I attempt to go for that involves him just being so tall because that’s clearly not the case.

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extravachance·:

“It’s fine, I’m just happy that you are here again, safe and sound.” Relief washes over him, keeping her wrapped in an all-encompassing hold.

“Still, Yuki… Next time try to not take too long, please?” A selfish request, for sure, but — he does not want to be left alone, not for what it felt to be years.

    “I’ll try, I can only promise that.” That was all she could manage to mumble into his shoulder, at first. But someday, I may not come back at all, was what she wanted to say, but she couldn’t bring herself to do it. Not yet.

    “—I’m sorry I keep letting you down,” she mused, almost in a whisper. Was that directed at him? At herself? It was hard to say.

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So this is all I’ll have until August 15, but it doesn’t include what I’ll have to pay for electric or water, which I don’t even know how much it will be, especially since I still need to get electric under my name. I really hate to ask for help again, but I have to try.

Art Commissions (Tumblr, Twitter, DeviantArt) PayPal.Me

I sound like a broken record, but I would sincerely appreciate any and every donation I can get.

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extravachance:

“But, they are gone now!” It’s hugging time, a ‘welcome back’.

“You are here, it lifts forty years from my person! Like, magic!”

    She easily returns the hug. After all, she missed him just as much, and she was afraid she would never see him again.

    “—I’m sorry, I guess I lost track of time again.” A half-truth would have to do for now.

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"Youxi, you may think it's not an important matter, but I noticed your absence. And I still remember what you said to me the last time we met. But I never had the chance to give you an answer." (Heeeeey welcome back!!)

    “Oh, Lord Sun Quan. My apologies, I seem to have been unwell,” —very unwell, she neglected to share— “but I’m better now. Would it be too out of place for me to still ask for that answer?”

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    “Wow, that sounds genuinely horrendous.”

    She has already braced herself.

@xuyouxi​ | (x) 

“Yes, a beard! And wrinkles! A bunch of terrible things!!” 

Beware, he’s going to cling, there’s no holding back. 

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˚‧º·(* WД˂̣̣̥`)‧º·˚ "Yuki!! I thought I'd never see you again! I-I was this close to growing a beard...!"

    “A-A beard?! Surely, you’re exaggerating!”

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LORDE SENTENCE PROMPTS

i.   lyrics taken from various songs by lorde. adjust as necessary.

❝  but what will we do when we’re sober?  ❞

❝  we didn’t come from money.  ❞

❝  we don’t care, we aren’t caught up in your love affair.  ❞

❝  i’m in a clique but i want out.  ❞

❝  there’s nothing more i want, except to be alone .  ❞

❝  i breathed so deep i thought i’d drown.  ❞

❝  but i know they’ll never own me.  ❞

❝  it drives you crazy getting old.  ❞

❝  we might be hollow, but we’re brave.  ❞

❝  glory and gore go hand-in-hand.  ❞

❝  only bad people live to see their likeness set in stone.  ❞

❝  i guess you’re lucky that it’s dark now.  ❞

❝  the people are talking. people are talking.  ❞

❝  what the fuck are perfect places anyway?  ❞

❝  i know about what you did and i wanna scream the truth.  ❞

❝  i’ll come get my things, but i can’t let go.  ❞

❝  can we keep up with the ruse?  ❞

❝  our rules, our dreams, we’re blind.  ❞

❝  can you hear the violence?  ❞

❝  just move in close to me, closer.  ❞

❝  you’re a little much for me.  ❞

❝  sorry i was never good like you.  ❞

❝  the truth is i am a toy that people enjoy.  ❞

❝  you’re not what you thought you were.  ❞

❝  in my head i do everything right.  ❞

❝  it’s just another graceless night.  ❞

❝  please could you be tender, and i will sit close to you.  ❞

❝  bet you wanna rip my heart out.  ❞

❝  i’m gonna mess your life up.  ❞

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    ;; holy fuckles the login actually works

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☆ Sentence Starters ☆          Lost & Found

❝ How did you find me? ❞

❝ Do you know the way out? ❞

❝ We’ve gone in at least three circles now. ❞

❝ Are you absolutely, one-hundred percent sure you know where we’re going? ❞

❝ Did we make a wrong turn? ❞

❝ Which way should we go? ❞

❝ This place wasn’t on the map… ❞

❝ Um. Where are we? ❞

❝ Look what you did, genius. We’re completely lost! ❞

❝ Where’s the map? ❞

❝ We might be here a while, so get comfortable. ❞

❝ There you are! ❞

❝ Did you really think I wouldn’t be able to find you? ❞

❝ You stand out too much to not be found. ❞

❝ Do you need directions? ❞

❝ Why did you stop following me?! I was so worried! ❞

❝ It’s been 84 years since I was last at home… ❞

❝ Why should I follow you? You’re the reason we got lost in the first place! ❞

❝ I hope you’re good at pathfinding… ❞

❝ I thought you were marking the trees, now what do we do?! ❞

❝ This doesn’t look familiar… ❞

❝ Are. You. Sure. It’s. This. Way? ❞

❝ You do realise we’ve just walked in a giant circle, right? ❞

❝ Oh, look! Right back where we started! Good job! Moron.. ❞

❝ Time to start fresh and build a new home here instead. ❞

❝ Help! I’m trapped! Get me out! ❞

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SEND “ ✿ ” FOR 2 HEADCANONS FOR OUR MUSES’ RELATIONSHIP.

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I bring you scans!! Today’s batch features:

Lü Meng: Pike Xu Shu: General Sword Jia Xu: Chain and Sickle Cao Ren: Flail

Also:

CATS!!

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Send "🐣" to meet my muse as a child.

For child muses: Send “🐣+Reverse” to meet my muse as an adult.

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descendants 2 lyrical sentence meme .

FEEL FREE TO CHANGE PRONOUNS / ETC .

ways to be wicked

❛ we got all the ways to be wicked . ❜ ❛ looks like this place could use a bit of misbehavior . ❜ ❛ wanna try it ? ❜ ❛ take a bite . ❜ ❛ be bold ! ❜ ❛ class is back in session ! ❜ ❛ mother always knows best . ❜   ❛ with us evil lives on . ❜ ❛ let’s go ! ❜

what’s my name

❛ all hands on deck ! ❜ ❛ i’m getting tired of the disrespect . ❜ ❛ our sail’s about to be set . ❜ ❛ what’s my name ? ❜ ❛ soon the world will be ours . ❜ ❛ i’m the queen of this town . ❜ ❛ i call the shots . ❜ ❛ bad girls have all the fun ! ❜ ❛ ready , here we come ! ❜ ❛ we always get our way . ❜ ❛ all eyes on me , let me see ‘em . ❜ ❛ i see your eyes on me boys . ❜

chillin’ like a villain

❛ everybody’s got a wicked side . ❜ ❛ watch and learn so you can get it right . ❜ ❛ you need to not stare . ❜ ❛ you need to not be yourself . ❜ ❛ you wanna be cool ? let me show you how ! ❜ ❛ you look like you would lose a fight to an alley cat . ❜ ❛ you need to watch your back . ❜ ❛ don’t make a sound ! ❜ ❛ i’m giving it my best shot . ❜ ❛ it’s hard being what i’m not . ❜ ❛ you’re gonna get us caught ! ❜ ❛ i think i found the worst in myself . ❜

space between

❛ i didn’t know what you were going through . ❜ ❛ i thought that you were fine . ❜ ❛ why did you have to hide ? ❜ ❛ i didn’t wanna let you down . ❜ ❛ i would never stop you . ❜ ❛ even though we’ve changed , nothing has to change . ❜ ❛ i’ll never be out of reach . ❜ ❛ nothing can stay the same . ❜ ❛ be proud of all the scars . ❜ ❛ i’ll never really leave you . ❜ ❛ there are no words left to say . ❜ ❛ this is not the end ! ❜ ❛ you’re part of who i am . ❜ ❛ even if we’re worlds apart , you’re still in my heart . ❜ ❛ we can meet in the space between . ❜

it’s going down

❛ let’s get this party started ! ❜ ❛ i swear i’m cold - hearted . ❜ ❛ i’m not here for debating . ❜ ❛ ask yourself how long you think i’ll remain patient . ❜ ❛ let’s all just be smart ! ❜ ❛ your bark is much worse than your bite ! ❜ ❛ bring it on ! ❜ ❛ make your move . ❜ ❛ your time is running out ! ❜ ❛ you should really watch your mouth . ❜ ❛ it’s a do or die situation ! ❜ ❛ make one wrong move and i’ll debilitate him . ❜ ❛ release him now ! ❜ ❛ we get it , chill . ❜ ❛ we don’t have to light the fuse . ❜ ❛ whatever you do it’s gonna be a lose - lose . ❜ ❛ there’s gotta be a better way . ❜ ❛ i promise i’ll give you your chance ! ❜ ❛ make the trade ! ❜

you and me

❛ i thought i gave it everything . ❜ ❛ it’s worth it in the end . ❜ ❛ together we can change the world . ❜ ❛ do you wish that you were something else ? ❜ ❛ i promise we can work this out . ❜ ❛ it’s up to me ! ❜