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God

9:20, doors open

im in my sunday best

i walk to the pews

i sing the songs

why dont i feel Him?

where are you?

i ask

where is that feeling?

i wonder

i go to class

i wait for that lesson that sparks that fire

it never comes

i force my eyes open

my mind to focus on what they are saying

but nothing seems to reach me

where have You gone?

i think

when did i lose You?

i ask

was it when my tears mixed with cleaners as i scrubbed my fathers house?

or when my eyes, once brilliant blue, turned lifeless sockets?

when a man i loved and saw as a father snuck touchs under the covers?

why dont i miss You?

i dont think i ever really have

your Plan praised for perfection and love

but all i ever saw was hate

hate for who i was

for how i cut my hair

the name i chose

the people i love

i dont miss You

You say the love carved into my bones is wrong

that my brain is the devil

that my thoughts are demonic

You say never be selfish, never take your own life

yet you ask me to sacrifice my flesh for You?

You ask me to rid of my mind and accept this “perfect” version of me You see?

why would i miss You?

when all through my life i have fought by myself

when all ive done is build others lives up using my brittle bones as bricks and my cracked skin as tools?

“God of love”

“God of peace”

“God of hope”

all your god has ever done to me is make me feel like im worthless for wanting to live.

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AHHH THEY ARE SO CUTE

Somewhere, far away from Piltover 💕

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jayce surrendering to viktor in the exact same position that his alternate self died in is so funny because he really went all in on the power of love thing huh. he was really putting that much faith in his ability to snap viktor out of it. and it wouldn't have even fucking worked if ekko wasn't there. i fear that he's not beating the himbo allegations with this one, jayce talis you continue to be the stupidest man in all of piltover. godspeed you fucking idiot

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you are uninvited from my jayvik party 😭

A core, fundamental piece of Viktor’s character that people tend to miss is that deep down, he’s so incredibly scared. He puts on a front of confidence, builds up his walls so tall and so thick that no one can get through them, but inside he’s afraid.

He’s afraid that he’s not good enough, that he’s not worth it. That he can’t compare to everyone around him, that he won’t leave anything of note behind when he’s gone. He’s afraid to be wrong. He’s afraid to die.

When he has to leave Jayce behind, he imagines Sky to keep him company. To praise him and tell him his choices are correct. To keep him from being completely alone. When Jayce returns to their universe, Viktor immediately wants to talk with him, allows him into the commune with his hammer, leads him to his sanctuary, and in his eyes, Jayce shoots him without hesitation. He gives into the Hexcore then— when he feels he’s lost everything.

He’s afraid to be alone. He thinks he’s too far gone at this point, that he can’t go back, that his partner— the one man who means more to him than anything— hates him. So he gives up. Thanks Sky for keeping him company in “his solitude”, before sealing himself inside his own personal bubble. He builds those walls up higher, and hides away behind the mask of the Herald. If you connect the lyrics from “The Line” to Viktor’s mindset after his emergence, it speaks of fear and a desperation for some form of comfort, some form of assurance that everything will be okay despite it all. That he didn’t burn every bridge that he crossed. That despite everything he’s done, he isn’t alone.

He’s tired, he’s scared, and he thinks he’s past the point of no return. He thinks he’s made his choice, and that he’s walking it alone. Only for Jayce to show up and both literally and metaphorically break down those walls, show him that he is not, and will never be, alone. That Jayce will never leave him, will never stop caring for him. Viktor never lost Jayce, even after everything they both went through.

Jayce would not have been stranded in that other universe if it weren’t for Viktor’s actions. None of this would have happened, in any universe, if it weren’t for Viktor’s actions. Yet, Jayce loves him, still. Enough to give everything up for him. Enough to stay with him until the end, even after Viktor gave him the choice to leave and save himself.

In their last moment, as they hold hands and Jayce tenderly holds the back of Viktor’s neck, you can see Jayce grimace and brace for impact. Meanwhile, Viktor’s face is completely calm. He’s not afraid this time. Not with Jayce there with him. He can finally rest knowing that he was enough for someone. He left an impact on someone. He was important to someone. That’s all he’s ever wanted.

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In all timelines, in all possibilities, only you.

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viktor posted this

wear robes do magic serve cunt

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HAPPY LAST DAY OF PRIDE MONTH

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❤️

drew this helpful diagram for mha fans who don't understand what a character arc is

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Batteries

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Dont you still love them?

I get asked the question “Do you still love them?” and I can never find an answer. 

There is not a doubt in my mind, i still love them. It's the kind of love that hits when you least expect it. The kind that is a bandage over a cut. The kind of love that soothes the little aches and pains of everyday life. It is the love you feel right before you fall asleep, when you take the last bite of your food, when you type that one sentence you have a million times before. Yes, I love them. I never will stop loving them. They are my home, my safe space, my warm coco on a cold day, the feeling of the book I've read over 12 times, the smell of my baby blanket. I will always love them, and I will love all the things that remind me of them. They will always be with me in a way, always on my mind. They hold a part of  me no one else ever will. They were my first true love. They were my very being. My reason to get up. They live in the way I dress, in the way I smile, in the way I talk. They are part of me, a part I cherish.

I still love you. It's the kind of love that is constant. It's a gunshot to the chest. It's a knife wound in the back. It's the love that burns my throat. The love that flips my stomach. The love that makes my eyes leak. It's the type of love that hurts. This love, it hurts. It hurts because that love isn't for you. Not when you stabbed me in the back with the knife I handed you to protect me. Not when I gave you every part of me and you used it to build yourself a throne. When I built you palaces with my pain, towers with my tears, billboards with my blood. I gave you my world, I showed you the darkest parts of me. You were my world. I was devoted to you. I worshiped you. I thought you could do no wrong. Because I love you. I love you so much it hurts. I love you so much that I can't seem to get rid of it. I want to rip the love I have for you out of my chest and shove it into the back of my closet so I don't need to feel it anymore. But I can't get rid of that love, because it means so much to me. The pain it brings is part of me. I don't want the feeling of betrayal, the hurt. I don't want to remember you like this. You built me up only to destroy me. And even with all of this, even with all the pain, the hurt, everything. I would still keep you in the closet. Because in a way I'm addicted to the pain, the pain you caused. I thought that pain was part of the love. That everything that you did was to help me. The love I have for you isn't a way to love. It is its own form of self harm. You are my drug, and I'm an addict. You ruin me, destroy me, make me hate myself. Yet I can't shake you, I am but a servant to the pain. 

It took me a while to see that I did not love you. I loved them. I loved the person who I fell for. I loved the person who cared for me. You aren't them. You will never be them, not again. Maybe you do get better, and you learn to be greater. Maybe then you will resemble them, but you will never truly be them. That's what hurts the most. No matter what I did, how long I would have stayed, I never would have them back. There is no fight I could have, no battles I would've fought, nothing would ever bring them back. If there was a way for me to bring them back, a way to make you them, I would. And it's selfish, I know it is, but how could I not be? 

I don't love you, not the same way I love them. My love for you is filled with pain, with the need to stay, with longing for them. My love for them is filled with hope, with silly dreams, with plans to run off together. I miss when there wasn't a you and a them. There was a person who was my world. I will always miss that person. I miss them. If you get better, if you become something greater, I don't think I would be able to tell you no either. 

If someday, somewhere, somehow, you became something more. More than them , more than you, more than what we are today, then I think I would find a way to fall in love with that person all over again.

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the urge to add these biomes into my minecraft world just got stronger

my current list of biomes that need to be in Minecraft

cave biomes:

ice cave with ice and icicles, found under cold biomes

crystal cave with quartz in it. have a more natural looking quartz block for the overworld that can be crafted into the existing quartz, as well as quartz crystals. Found only in the deepslate layer like the deep dark

Flooded caves should be their own biome and have cave fish and stuff

island biomes:

you know how in real life islands can create really bizarre isolated ecosystems? yeah

definitely needs to be a Volcanic island that is all basalt and has magma and lava

desert/arid biomes:

lush desert with more diverse desert plants

red sand desert or outback with red sandstone and red sand

scrubland with patches of sand, coarse dirt and packed mud, occasional small trees and thorns

ocean biomes:

abyssal ocean found below y=20 with deep sea creatures, it is dark all the time. Since the world depth has increased so much we desperately need this. This could also include strange metal shipwrecks with strange loot

hydrothermal vents when

other biomes:

hot springs: Surface pools surrounded by calcite and dripstone, with mud at the bottom and bubbling water that gives off steam. How? Simple: just make it so that mud placed on top of a magma block will make water on top of the mud bubble and steam

pink sand beach: Exactly what it sounds like, because why not.

salt marshes: Found in similar areas to mangrove swamps, with reeds that can be harvested for thatch. There are soooo many types of wetlands, Mojang. So many.

peat bogs: Another swamp variant where you can dig peat which can be used for fuel

cloud forest. You know how in real life there are jungles at high elevations called cloud forests? This would be a slight fantasy exaggeration/expansion of that idea. Cloud forests are found mixed with stony peaks in high mountains and on clusters of floating islands/rocks at or above the levels that mountains generate. They're often inaccessible without elytra.

ancient forest: Mainly just a forest with huger trees and mushrooms that give off light. I want BIG trees. I want 3x3 oak trees and dark oak trees. Patches of mycelium on the ground. Rarer orchids.

p l e a s e

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if you don't understand tumblr then TRAIN FOR ANOTHER ONE THOUSAND YEARS

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i want it to make the most scrunkly noises to appease the raccoon brain

i hope the sniffer's like noises are the snorfiest ever. like snorfsnorfsnorfsnorf like the biggest creachur friend snuffling you ever

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I also think he has no preference in gender in anyway shape or form. Just people who he can tolerate

i am convinced that Bakugou is both demisexual and demiromantic and i will die on this hill

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Keeping this for a rainy day

"What's does kissing feel like?"

The question was unexpected, Coming in unannounced and putting a wave of silence over the small living room.

Katsuki speaks up.

"I saw two grown-ups kissing on the TV," he says with a straight face, lifting a hand up to point at his lips in indication. "They were kissing on the mouth."

Series

Part 1 of 7 works

Language: English

Words: 1,464

Chapters: 1/1

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This was the most interesting thing I read all day

I’ll never understand why anthropomorphic animal cartoons like Robin Hood and Zootopia will go to the trouble of creating character designs that are meant to be understood as “attractive” or even “sexy” to the human audience but explicitly avoid showing interspecies romances between anthropomorphic animals. Why is THAT weird but, like, trying to make rabbits recognizably sexy-coded to humans isn’t?

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I love this

When the author tags hurt/comfort and there's only hurt and no comfort

Me seeing major character death in the tags but keeps reading anyway

Me seeing the unrequited love and angst tags in the same fic

Me finishing a 50k+ top tier fic and not knowing what to do with my life anymore

When you're looking for a specific trope in fics but it doesn't show up in the "other tags"

When you didn't see the major character death tag in the beginning and you've reached the end

Me opening a ship tag not expecting it to have more than 5k fics

When I find a really good, completed, 25k+ words, angst with a happy ending, hurt/comfort and fluff fic with a god-tier plot

When you find an author's 200+ bookmarks after reading all their great fics

THAT jealousy/possessive smutty angst fic