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people will still love you despite it all

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The air feels so nice and I’ve been feeling cozy w my hoodies and coffee, I sit in the outdoors while my dog runs and plays, these little moments makes life good :)

There’s nothing in life quite like autumn. Misty mornings and rainy afternoons. The crisp cool feeling that hangs in the air. A sense of warmth that comes from within. It’s nothing less than magical, really.

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autumn walks 🍁🎃☕️🍂

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There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart.

— Jane Austen

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-held me like a dream

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I need to start writing again

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I’ve had this book for about two years, I’ve honestly got it for free from the bookshop. Maybe it was the guilt that it was free (the manager said to get anything from the free table so I did) or maybe it was that I never got the time to read it since it was confusing when I opened it when I got home. I’ve finally read it and it’s actually quite beautiful, art really is inspirational.

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July 6 2024

I took vacation days from work. Except for my Niall Horan concert I have nothing to look forward to. No one wants to do anything, I’m literally going alone and I don’t mind going alone because I’m going to be focused on the music but it sucks that I don’t have friends to go with.

I need to do something exciting and so fun that I forget that it’s just me and my dog..

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Unexplainable until I realize my mood still depends on how much attention I get from him

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Virginia Woolf, The Voyage Out

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Bothersome beast, comforting friend

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MAY 5 2024

Today was annoying. My coworker annoys me with his dumb jokes. I’m not rude to him, I laugh and smile at his jokes I don’t get but lately it’s more painful I should’ve not done that in the first place because if I start not faking a laugh he will see me as rude. He’s always happy idk it annoys me.

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May 3 2024

I didn’t go, it got cancelled and I guess that’s why i felt a bit sad today.

I asked a few friends if they wanted to go out for a drink, out of the 3 one replied. And she said she would love to but she had no last minute babysitter, which I understood, yet I still felt sad and lonely that no one wanted to hangout. It was just me and my dog today. Well we spent a good time outside, and then I did my makeup to feel good. I might have ate a little bit too much which I might regret later but I’ll hit the gym and feel better and have a clearer mind after a good workout.

I really do need more friends… I wonder if my friends even think of me as best friends anymore, we see each other every few months and don’t text often. Then I see other friend groups (my guys’) and his friend group is always talking in the group chat and they’re always hanging out. But I might be over thinking it. I think I just don’t like feeling alone and my friends are super close to their families so I know they don’t get lonely. I’ve expressed how sometimes I feel lonely and they don’t understand. And that makes me feel more alone. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy being alone, chilling, doing what I want, when I want but sometimes it gets too repetitive.

I love my hobbies and I want to try new things, maybe I need to join a community group and make a new friend group… idk I just want MORE yet I like my simple life after those feelings go away.

April 28 2024

Life’s been good. Boring but good. There is times I wish something exciting was happening but I’ll take a dull, relaxing day over an anxiety filled day.

I’m going on a one day trip this weekend but I think I’m trying to not get too excited because I am not sure if it will actually happen.