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i just watched the fallout season 2 trailer and i think i'm gonna throw up i'm so excited it looks so fucking good i actually got goosebumps when they showed new vegas

i'm incredibly curious about what canon they've cemented for new vegas and i have a feeling i won't be toooo happy about it on a personal level since they're definitely setting it up for the ghoul and mr. house to meet up when he's firmly dead in my own 'canon' run but it's fine i'll get over that and i'm still looking forward to it immensely

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I'm not gonna post this on my art blog till I'm done (if I'm ever done.................) but I wanted to post it here for now to give myself a kick in the pants to finish this shit since it's been literal YEARS since I've tried to draw anything + maybe have a more introspective thought dump

with amirah and logan lurking as my refs/comparisons

I recently got my life absolutely taken over by my time at sandrock and then I found a mod that let you use custom portraits in the game and then and then and then.... I somehow ended up dusting off my tablet (literally)

I've only colored the face since that's all I needed in the game portrait but there's still something off about it to me that doesn't quite match the sandrock style 🤔 I can't put my finger on it I've been adjusting and readjusting and idk I've been looking at it for too long and I can't see anything anymore

I keeping telling myself to finish this but it's so hard to focus on anything and since i haven't really been drawing consistently over the years it takes me FOREVEr to make any progress bc I never really nailed down a method/style that works for me. it's a big big regret I have because I could be so much farther than where I am now, but also agh I just don't know why it's so hard for my brain to stay focused on anything (I do know actually but actually getting medicated is another hump to get over) but anyway difficulty focusing + slow ass progress makes it so hard to stick with something long enough to finish it

and I'm too scared with my lines and my method, I dunno like I can't draw loosely and freely and everything looks and feels so stiff; and then I don't have the patience for the precision and detail that a lot of the "boring" bits require

I really really want to finish it tho bc I wanna see my fully rendered builder 🥹 I cannot believe how into this game I got like idk how many years it's been since a game sank its claws into me like this

and I wanna draw... I wanna be good at it............... like I so desperately wish I practiced consistently over the years.......................... wah

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THE EYE AND THE EYE - pt. 1 by Mel Mo

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Wizard village part I by Christelle Dhomé

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why are people asking me for things at work

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my idiot son tore off a piece of rubber from his chew toy and was chewing it and I reflexively yelled his name before I could stop myself and he looked me in the eye and swallowed it and now I just have to sit here and wait for it inevitably to come up in a pile of vomit

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Art by jinglin Xu

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Thanks for the recs! I took a break from LGIEF, I'm on ep 11 and am currently unsure if I want to finish. I still think I want to, but it probably isn't something I'm going to binge.

Could I ask if you've watched Kill Me Love Me and what your thoughts are on it? I was just browsing what Netflix has to offer and saw this one--it caught my eye since the FL is an assassin and hopefully less of the cutesy type. I'm probably going to give this one a shot purely from that alone lol.

I just started watching love game in eastern fantasy as my long overdue venture into xianxia dramas and I have so many mixed feelings?? but one thing I'm not mixed about is that this mu sheng guy is hot? but also what an ass? it's my first time being tested by a real face and voice (which i learned is apparently not the actor's??) and not a drawing on a page from my beloved trashy OI webtoons

anyway I feel like i'm just... like kinda too western for this lol I just can't stand the cutesy bits that they make lin yu do but I know this is a super standard and common archetype for e. asian FLs in general... I tried to start with love between fairy and devil and could NOT get even halfway through the first episode bc I couldn't stand the overly cutesy shit. lgief is better in this regard but still has those moments

I mean it's still adjacent to my general interest in rofan OIs with a lot of the same tropes so it's not like I hate it, it's just that the type of acting that comes with putting these things on screen with real people (instead of me just reading them on a page) isn't really my cup of tea

I'll see this one through bc mu sheng is hot and mu yao is so gooorrrgeous (even tho her character is flat af so far) but I feel I'm gonna be on a long journey finding a cdrama that fits my tastes 🤔

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I just started watching love game in eastern fantasy as my long overdue venture into xianxia dramas and I have so many mixed feelings?? but one thing I'm not mixed about is that this mu sheng guy is hot? but also what an ass? it's my first time being tested by a real face and voice (which i learned is apparently not the actor's??) and not a drawing on a page from my beloved trashy OI webtoons

anyway I feel like i'm just... like kinda too western for this lol I just can't stand the cutesy bits that they make lin yu do but I know this is a super standard and common archetype for e. asian FLs in general... I tried to start with love between fairy and devil and could NOT get even halfway through the first episode bc I couldn't stand the overly cutesy shit. lgief is better in this regard but still has those moments

I mean it's still adjacent to my general interest in rofan OIs with a lot of the same tropes so it's not like I hate it, it's just that the type of acting that comes with putting these things on screen with real people (instead of me just reading them on a page) isn't really my cup of tea

I'll see this one through bc mu sheng is hot and mu yao is so gooorrrgeous (even tho her character is flat af so far) but I feel I'm gonna be on a long journey finding a cdrama that fits my tastes 🤔

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League of Legends cinematic backgrounds by Daniel Clarke

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Art by Alex Twin

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Art by lin ho

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our country is a shithole but pretentious canadian slacktivists whining about how americans wanted this and throwing vague sentiments around "why aren't you rising up and resisting" "you need to do more" and then "you deserved this" like oh my GOD shut up and get off your high horse you fucks. tons of people are suffering under this shithead's administration and LIVING in this incompetent nightmare and you're sitting there behind your keyboard telling us we deserved it and need to take responsibility and aren't doing enough. just shut up

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my biggest flaw? my inability to resist telling stupid people that they're stupid

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axel has been SUCH a brat lately oh my lord i'm so tired

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mr thrill of the chase