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“...and in that moment, i swear we were infinite.”

-the perks of being a wallflower.

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l o v e

no one ever told me love was going to be this painful, or that i'd have to wait years to be with the one i loved. i always thought i'd be right beside the person i loved and that my first kiss would go to the one i was gonna marry. i didn't know it was going to hurt this bad.

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And then my soul saw you and it kind of went, ‘Oh, there you are. I’ve been looking for you.’

Iain Thomas (via naturaekos)

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have you ever fallen in love with someone that you can never have?

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Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back.

Mitch Albom (via quotemadness)

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Name Numerology

Every letter of the alphabet matches a number from 1-9. The number can be calculated by the digit sum equaling the place of the letter in the alphabet. E.g. ‘K’ is the 11th letter, the digit sum of 11 is 2, so ‘K’ equals the number of 2.

Alphabetical number table:

1      A      J      S

2      B      K      T

3      C      L      U

4      D      M     V

5      E      N      W

6      F      O      X

7      G      P      Y

8      H      Q      Z

9       I       R

For the calculation of your Name, Personality and Heart number use your complete name(s) with first, middle and last names as it is written on your birth certificate! (This will bring the most accurate results.)

Here’s an example of how to calculate the Name number:

                          J   E   F   F   R   E   Y         L   E   B   O   W   S   K   I

                          1   5   6   6    9   5   7         3   5   2   6    5    1   2  9

add together                     39                                          33

build digit sum                3+9=12                                 3+3=6

                                       1+2= 3                                  stays 6

add together                                           3+6=9

NAME NUMBER IS                                     9

What your Name number indicates:

(1)    A leadership personality with frontier spirit, strength, independence and determination.

(2)    A diplomat and peacemaker who is sensitive towards the own and other people’s emotions.

(3)    A master of words, always appearing to be youthful who is able to do many things at once and who becomes more self-confident in the process of getting older.

(4)    A practical person who works hard, is patient and possesses a sense of detail.

(5)    A freedom-loving traveller who appreciates diversity and change and who is able to do many things at once.

(6)    A harmonious person who loves a peaceful home, family and all things beautiful and who is responsible as well.

(7)    An analyst who is wise to use his time for reading and writing and moreover doesn’t miss the forest despite of all the trees.

(8)    An organiser who gains power and success when being in charge of one’s own fate.

(9)    A true humanist who loves art, music or voyages. You give generously and need recognition.

For calculating your Personality number you do the same as above only using the consonants of your name(s).

E.g.  J E F F R E Y     L E B O W S K I  —  J F F R Y    L B W K S                       Personality number: 6

Your Personality number indicates that the people surrounding you see you as:

(1)    daring, independent, original, strong-willed, competitive

(2)    receptive, sensitive, empathetic, cooperative, diplomatic

(3)    friendly, optimistic, eloquent, happy-go-lucky, entertaining

(4)    disciplined, practical, hardworking, reliable, loyal

(5)    astute, versatile, active, adventurous, modern

(6)    affectionate, adaptable, helpful, responsible, fair

(7)    restrained, self-confident, critical, analytical, trust-worthy

(8)    modest, disciplined, efficient, powerful, successful

(9)    gentle, generous, helpful, tolerant, influential

For calculating your Heart number you do the same as above only using the vowels of your name(s).

E.g.   J E F F R E Y     L E B O W S K I   —   E E     E O I   —   Heart number: 3

Your Heart number indicates that your deepest inner feelings, wishes and skills motivate you to:

(1)    use your own ideas to lead and guide others exemplary.

(2)    collaborate with others and to use your sensitivity and diplomatic skills to be a joy to the people around you.

(3)    express your optimism and creativity.

(4)    bring sacrifices to reach tangible results for all your hands-on plans.

(5)    seek adventures and to live life on the fast lane.

(6)    create harmony and a peaceful atmosphere.

(7)    spend time alone seeking for the truth and to reflect on the meaning of life.

(8)    take things in your own hands and to use your energy to gain money, power and success.

(9)    use your knowledge and compassion for the benefit of others.

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"All the movies and books tell us about the red, chocolates and flowers types of love. What we have isn't that. We have the solid, grey, concrete type of love. We don't get to hug and kiss eachother everyday, in fact, we haven't even seen eachother in person yet. We don't need to see eachother to know we're in love. Love isn't always about the physical aspects of affection. It's about how much you care for someone. It's about how much you'd do for someone. It's about the feeling in your heart. That's true love. And I do know that I love the fuck out of you."

-FaceTime 6.25.17

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Bottle of water 💦

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No. 9

he left. he's gone. i put everything into him and he just tore it to shreds. he told me to wait. he told me he cared. i lost all my pride and self esteem again. he said that he would never leave. he told me that he wanted to be something. i put faith into someone who i knew i could trust. now i'm here on my own with this pain in my chest again waiting for someone to come and fix me because it hurts to move. it hurts to move and it hurts to breathe. it hurts to breathe and it hurts to know that fact that he's out there right now flirting with all the girls and then i'm stuck here in this hole and i'm not gonna be able to get out of it and it sucks. it sucks so freaking bad. i want to kiss him one last time. i want to hug him. i wasn't ready for this to happen. not this way not like last time he told me he wouldn't do that and he did. he lied. he broke me. i'm broken again. but as i always say: it's whatever.

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No. 8

"I want to be skinny" says an average girl who looks perfectly fine to everyone else. Does no one understand that self confidence is a thing? Does no one get that what might be skinny to one may not be to another? "Average" I'm so sick of hearing "average" "Average body type" "Average weight" Maybe she doesn't want to be "average" Maybe she wants to be skinnier than she is. What might be skinny to one may not be skinny to another. "I want to be skinny" When someone says this don't tell them to shut up. When someone says this don't tell them that they ARE skinny. Encourage them. Tell them there's nothing wrong with them now but if they want to be better in their eyes then you're proud of them. What is skinny to one may not be skinny to another. And that's okay.

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No. 7

i knew I didn’t have a chance. his standards are so high, not even mt. everest could reach them. yet, i’m still holding onto something. maybe it’s the fact that a freshman in college and a highschool junior are dating. they started off best friends. but I shouldn’t get my hopes up. i’ll end up hurt, just like the other times, but you know, it’s just whatever. (heartbreak of 10.25.16)

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Give people time. Give people space. Don’t beg anyone to stay. Let them roam. What’s meant for you will always be yours.

Reyna Biddy  (via wordsnquotes)

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When I get hurt, something inside me just shuts off.

Unknown (via wordsnquotes)

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No. 6

I'm fucking stupid for not liking him. Like I'm really fucking dumb. He's so fucking sweet. He has this like... mysteriousness to him, he'll never tell you when he's upset. He always puts others before himself (as you can tell with the exgirlfriend situation). He's just awkward but it's funny and it's really weird how he can go from joking around to completely serious. He'll always ask you if you're okay and he'll feel obligated to ask you if you even look like you're upset. He's amazing at fucking everything he does. Like. He's great. He's so great. I hurt him and I feel like shit and I don't know how to tell him I'm sorry because I know he won't listen or believe me. He's one of the nicest people on the earth and I hurt him. I'm an awful person for it too. But I didn't feel the thing with him that I feel with babe, and I didn't wanna go out of my way to try to push babe aside and focus on something that wasn't right for me. But babe wants to wait, I'll wait for him. I'll wait for him, because I want to be with him, feel that feeling, for a long time. And if waiting is what I have to do, I'll wait a fucking lifetime, because I'm so beyond happy when I'm with him. It's great. He makes me a better person, he makes me truly happy, and not like the fake happy that I trick myself into, it's like the tingling in my heart happy that I haven't felt since sixth grade before all the bullshit went down with my dad and my first love. It's amazing. It's unexplainable. It's whatever. (based off a real conversation)

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RANT

you know what fucking pisses me off? when you're friends with someone and you consider them your bestfriend and they know that and they know that they mean the world to you and all they do is post fucking pictures of their better friends. but when you try to be with them. they fucking reject you. that's bullshit. and it pisses me off. but you know fucking what? it's whatever.

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The most pathetic person in the world is some one who has sight but no vision.

Helen Keller  (via purplebuddhaproject)