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ILOVEDEFTONES86 / ZEE

Instagram: ilovedeftones86

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I would’ve killed for a blackberry phone when I was a preteen 🥺

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Jessica Alba early 2000s

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I’ll never be sick enough

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there is nothing wrong with me why is everything fucking wrong with me it was getting better but I don’t feel good I’m empty

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Me: I feel like I lost weight!

My ED: you look like this:

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Made another meme with this template

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me

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i want to be a blank slate

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“Disordered Eating” Things

- Simultaneously eating like a normal person and mentally lashing yourself for it.

- Not eating when you feel angry or sad, but then a few hours later you eat a bag of chocolate marshmallows because you somehow convince yourself it doesn’t count.

- “I shouldn’t have done that”

- Looking at thinspo at night and crying because you feel ugly

- The 5th grader pitch screaming in your head as you take another bite of food.

- a week of super healthy eating and working out followed by two weeks of unhealthy eating 

- constantly shifting of wanting to look like a toned fitness model, to a thicc slim, to a skeleton fairy 

- *eating something* *someone comments on the thing you are eating* *stops eating thing* *50/50 chance you may eat it later*

- oh yeah, random moments of eating something before spontaneously destroying the food or tossing it 

- “Okay, after this weekend, I’m fasting”

- wishing you were anorexic knowing you shouldn't 

- body dysmorphia 

- Calling it disordered eating because you don’t feel deserving of calling it an ed