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Winter Holiday to Blantyre, Malawi. June 2023.

In April 2022, life changed for my family. My Dad's life partner got a job that meant moving to Malawi. This means life is drawing us further apart and all around the world and around South Africa.

My biological mother living in Afghanistan, father, brother and step-father in Lesotho, younger sister in Durban, second mother and youngest sister in Malawi, siblings in Cape Town and me in Johannesburg. Interesting how we still manage to get together, I suppose it's love.

This year, we decided to go Malawi. (Father, cousin, youngest sister and siblings in Cape Town) for the winter holidays and i had the best days of my life there. This particular blog is going to be about the time my siblings and i went out during the day.

It was a beautiful day in Blantyre and my siblings and I decided to explore the city. We started by going to Blue Elephant, a restaurant/bar/pub but decided not to stay because it was rather quiet, so we went to Scallas pub which was recommended by a local and boy were we in for a treat! The atmosphere was electric! We tried some local cocktails and the Malawian Kwacha was just weird and hilarious. After some drinks and jokes about the currency we decided to go fetch mom from work and joined her colleagues for drunk aerobics, we must have looked hilarious. :'-D We shared laughs and even came up with silly names that we still use to this day.

It was a great day out with my siblings, one that we'll always remember and look back on fondly. Blantyre is a breath of fresh air!

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It is difficult for one to navigate through this world alone, that is why people always find themselves gravitating towards other people. However, it is more difficult to choose who the right people especially for us as young people. I for example, have a bad radar when it comes to picking friends that is why i have chosen too ride solo. it is however, not easy to do things alone. i am an introvert, but i feel energized when i am working in a group. but it is very difficult for me to initiate groups or friendships. life is hard for me because i don't have any friends. i find myself alone all the time on campus. i go to school, go to class and go back home without having spoken to anybody. i am very lonely.

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Enola Holmes, 2020

ignoring politics is a privilege

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First of many. It has always been a dream of mine to become a blogger and find a way to get my creative juices going. It has taken me close to 5 years to decide to finally start because I have been struggling with a seriously low self esteem and not feeling like I am creative enough for anybody to enjoy my work. That episode is over now, I am outgrowing all the hiding, numbness, brokenness, and feeling like nobody is worth a piece of my brain. This is the first of the many big steps I want to take to explore myself and see how far I grow with the blog. Just give me time, hopefully it will look proper in no time. I wanna give myself at least 3 years with this blog to see how well it will do and hopefully it will grow bigger with time. I am not an aspiring artist, I am not a poet, I am also not the most creative person in this world but I assure you, you will enjoy this. With that being said...

Hi, my name is Thuto. My name carries a lot of meaning. Thuto is a Sesotho name and it means to educate or a lesson. I often find myself, after most interactions with many people. questioning whether they learned anything from me, whether it be about myself, life in general, or just anything. I read a lot and try as much as I can to share whatever I learn with anybody who might seem interested. I like to think my brain was designed differently from others because it is very rare for me to find people who share the same sentiments as myself. I am not your typical “I am loving, kind, bubbly” type of person and I am not trying to be. I consider myself like the seasons and changing weather. You feel my presence and aura wherever you may be and that just sums up my very strong character. I am like a poem, which means I can be whatever anybody would like me to be. I go thru a lot, like ay other individual on this earth, but I always like to view life as “beautiful” (that’s my favorite word) because I strongly believe that everything is happening just as it should be, and that is just the beauty of life. I believe I am the person everyone should think about when they wanna have a quiet day in, a crazy night out, a stormy day and a sunny day by the beach. (except to receive hugs, I give the worst hugs in the world) I am 100% okay with everything that life throws at me and maybe that is why most will describe me as “chilled.” I love art and one can tell in the way I express myself thru words, the music I listen to and the way I dress. I am not the girliest girl there is, but whenever you’re around me, you can always feel that female energy. I am very very independent but that doesn’t mean I have completely closed room for a union with somebody who might need my help and whose help I might need. I do not nag, I do not force things, I do not like to take people out of their comfort zones and I don’t think in my life, I have ever done anything to intentionally hurt somebody, be it in my head, or in practice. In other words, I am not an evil villain (or at least I want to think so) I love kids, but I don’t think I will have my own someday.  I consider myself very inexperienced when it comes to so many things in life (although I come out at somebody who has it all figured out) and that’s because I sped most of my time at home or in intimate areas. I would like to think I am a very critical and deep thinker, but you will never find me consumed by my thoughts. My number one value is open mindedness because I cannot imagine myself being comfortable around people who are not able to broaden their thinking. I spend my days eating fruit, reading articles, watching documentaries and taking walks. I would like to think I know myself now, I love the person I have become and I am “a real one” because I don’t believe in the art of hiding things and letting things consume you until you reach a dead end. My biggest flaw though, is that I tend to distance myself from people, all in the name of protecting their images in my head and that leads to many thinking I am negligent and that kind of makes me an idealistic person because nobody can ever do wrong in my eyes and when shit takes that turn, I take a few steps back an those few steps turn into miles and miles of distance. But I am working on that because I value all the relationships I have. You’re gonna love me. Welcome to my world, welcome to my space.