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hi rinapie!!! just managed to read ur update and firstly CONGRATS ON UNI!!!!!! im sooo proud of u and so excited for u to start on this new chapter of ur life eek ure truly so amazing and wonderful i hope uni treats u well 🥹

secondly ive always been a huge admirer of ur works and im not just trying to gas u up im being so Fr. so genuine. i love reading ur works, any and all kinds. be it smaus or ur written fics, u truly were born to write it always amazes me :] u absolutely did not have to apologise for discontinuing good graces, this is UR blog, UR smau, u should do whatever makes u feel the best!

i also cant wait to see what u have in store for first blossoms!!! whether u decide to continue it as a smau or revamp it into a written work i will Always be the first one here to support you.

i larb u always rinapie & this is a selfish wish of mine but i hope 106alibi stays up even if u decide to switch to a new blog because i cant Live without yuzu yushi #stillyuzushi’snumber1fan ^:p

MIMIIIIIII ☹️☹️☹️ thank you so much for being here through the different season of my life and writing 🫰🫰you give me so much reassurance, confidence, and most of all inspiration to continue writing and posting here and i just know my time here would be so different if I had never met you!! I really can't thank you enough for the love you've shown me and I hope life shows you the love you deserve as well 🫶🫶 I larb u too always mimipie

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reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

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can’t a woman just run a flop blog in peace?

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hi rina!!

this is the first ask i’m sending but i jus wanted you to know i really really enjoy ur smaus!! i can’t wait for you to continue writing but i hope you’re doing better and your life is better! pls don’t overwork yourself and we’ll be looking forward to your return <333

hello this is so so sweet and I'm really grateful for this ask <3

I thought I'd use this opportunity to give a life update and sort of what has been on my mind lately.

good news first, I'm entering university soon! and I managed to get into my dream course which is english literature!! also the 3 month programme that I talked about awhile ago is over which means I have more time to be active here, but I have a lot on my mind and some reservations about coming back here.

I'm not the same person I was 3 months ago, and for the longest time one of my biggest inner conflicts was 'how much of myself should go into my works?'. I love writing and I'll always love writing, and I also don't know if most of you have realised but my written works compared to my smaus have very very different moods/tones! it's not always a bad thing, but I definitely feel more like myself in my written works than in smaus.

good graces, for example, doesn't feel like myself at all and embarrassingly one of the reasons why I started it is because it seemed like something nctzens tend to enjoy here. on the other hand, first blossoms is a genre that feels more like myself so I have no qualms when it comes to writing it.

good graces was fun to write and plot, but after a while I realised I was forcing myself to churn out updates and continue the storyline. I was writing scenes and using language that didn't align with my values and who I was at all, but I did it because I felt like it was my responsibility as a writer, and I had people waiting for me.

people read for a variety of reasons, and a lot of people read smaus for the humour and maybe even as a form of escapism, and there's nothing wrong with that. I enjoy a good laugh from smaus too 😭 but as a writer and someone who takes writing maybe a little too seriously, what I put out is a representation of myself, and I don't think I've been representing myself well at all.

this is my official apology that I don't think I'll continue good graces and I'm sorry for breaking my promise. if you followed me solely for good graces, I'm sorry to disappoint you. first blossoms might be revamped into a written format or continued as an smau, but I'm afraid to make any definitive statements.

as for this blog, don't worry I won't deactivate and leave!!! I've met so many amazing people on this app and I've never regretted posting my works here!! I might leave 106alibi up and make a new blog or refresh this blog to make it more...me?

and just as a self reminder, and maybe a reminder to other writers out there: who and what are you writing for?

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NOTICE: As more and more fanfic writers are using generative AI for their works (you uncreative dweebs), I hereby swear on everything I hold dear that I have not and will NEVER use generative AI in ANY of my written work. Everything I post will be organically and creatively my own.

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Hi if you start writing good graces again, could I be added to the taglist please? it’s genuinely so good

of course! thank you for being willing to wait 🥹🥹

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happy birthday rina baby!!! ⭐️

thank you so much my starry 🥹☹️🫶

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HAPPY FRICKING BIRTHDAY RINABEARRR 😭😭😭💗💗💗 im glad i decided to check your blog pls i hope you have a wonderful birthday bebs!!! you’re a true sweetheart and i’m glad we’re moots now ^^ my facking aegi… i wish to take care of you… (even tho you’re older than me-) I HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR DAY AND EAT LOTS OF NICE FOOD AND TREAT YOURSELF WELL and don’t let anything ruin it~~

I DID EAT LOTS OF NICE FOOD TODAY!!! thank you so much nunu I'm so glad to know you I love u so much ❤️❤️

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missing rina saturdays 💔 hope may has been treating u kindly so far!!!! 14 more days to wishies hehe i hope ure just as excited as i am :3

mimipie 🥹🥹 you sent this asked at the right time because today's my birthday!! and it's been such a blessed birthday hehe I hope april treated you well and I hope may will treat you well too ❤️

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the spring it all ended. hirose ryo.

cycling along the coast of the river as pink petals confetti around you and your partner, meaningless laughter resounding through the air, the wheels of your bikes crushing already fallen, already dead petals. that was what spring romance was about, right?

ryo didn't get what was so romantic about spring.

while tulips bloomed in their flower beds, all ryo could think about was how you had sowed his heart just to cut it out in its ripest.

rosey ryo. you'd call him.

when your life started to snow, you'd tell ryo that he was your rose; your hope of spring and warmer days.

so ryo let you grow a garden, right where the soil was the richest. he let you plant the seeds with every touch of your finger and let you water them with your kisses. the flowers grew and blossomed, a colourful array gleaming under the light of your smile and dancing in the melody of your voice.

he remembers your gentle hands and how your fingertips brushed his skin, like you were caressing the petals of a delicate lily. he remembers when you first told him you loved him, and his heart swelled like a blooming bud, threatening to burst with nectarous adoration.

that was the spring ryo wanted.

but with every garden came weeds. so he let you pull them out, snip them with your sharp words if it meant a prettier garden. if it meant you'd love him more. but maybe all the weeds you were pulling weren't weeds after all; weeding wasn't supposed to hurt this badly, right?

ryo didn't realise his heart had been uprooted until all the leaves had fallen, and he found himself bare, surrounded by soggy petals and dried leaves. alone.

ryo didn't get what was so romantic about spring. watching flowers desperately cling on to its branch, begging to be held and loved, only to float away in futility when the tree decides its time has passed.

ryo wondered if he was truly your spring, or just another petal clinging on to your branch.

a/n: hello!! this is an impulse write and inspired by my recent trip to korea because I experienced spring for the first time!!!!! it was so so beautiful and I saw sooo many wild flowers. I saw wild pink tulips and literally my jaw almost dropped it was the prettiest scene. it was not at all sad so idk why I made this sad haha...forgive me pls...? spring is commonly associated with new beginnings and budding romances, so I wanted to write something contrary to that idea.

I thought about not posting this. I feel somewhat guilty for posting this when I have ongoing works. to be completely honest I'll always love writing more than smaus and idk why that makes me feel guilty too. but then I realise I don't owe anyone anything and I can post whatever I want LAWL! so here it is!!

consider me inactive still, but i missed writing a lot and I miss the community here. I hope to be back soon <3

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pls continue the good grace jeno smau i need to know what happens next ☺️

i really do appreciate when people ask nicely ☹️🫶 and not treat me like story churning ai lol. i promise i won’t leave good graces unfinished but do give me more time anon!!

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omg why isn't good graces updating

God forbid i have life responsibilities ig…

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rina is ALIVE and DOING WELL wow that’s beautiful to hear 😭😭🩷 no but haii… nice to see you online again… hope you’ve been well queen, always put your life first ^—^

NUNU!! I missed you so much I hope you've been doing well too 🤍🤍

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rinapie!!!! oh my god i missed ur active window im sorry SIGH but im soo glad ure doing well and happy!!!!! thats really all that matters to me 🥹 its not selfish at all for u to take breaks and live life, this is what ure supposed to do so dont worry about coming back and writing... just do whatever u need to do and release content at ur own pace!

also!!!! i dont know if uve seen this yet but i was watching wish content the other day and LOOK!!!!

this blew my mind MY JAW DROPPEDDDDDDD yuzu yushi is real brah 😭😭😭💔

anyways so happy to hear from u and the little updates in ur life while u were gone :3 i missed u and i hope life continues to treat u well! ill see u in may when we're at the same place, at the same time, watching our wishies hehe i lub u rinapie

I Birthed yuzu yushi 🤍🤍🤍 thank you for thinking of me so much mi I hope I'll get to see you at wishies 🤍

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hi!!! been missing you and glad you’re doing well!! take your time and live life!! we will be here cheering you on :)

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my star anon 🥹🥹 this message means the world to me i love you

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short life update <3

happy april everyone!! I've been gone for a longgg while and I truly do miss writing and talking to you all a lot! a lot has changed in my life this past month and for the better too so I've been doing very well!! learnt more about myself, my spirituality, made new friends, finally getting around to processing old wounds, liking a guy for the first time in 2 years after my shitty previous relationship, and so much more. it's been such a rollercoaster ride and I hope it's not selfish to say I've been the happiest I've been in a long time. I'll get around to writing when I can, but for now I can't promise any updates for any of my works. if you need me tho, my inbox is always open and so are my dms!!

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happy rina Tuesday except rina has been missing her own tuesdays 😑😑😑😑 (i miss u i hope ure well and taking good care of urself 🤍)

breaking my silence just to reply to you mimipie 🤍🤍 I miss you so much and I miss writing too but good news is that this past month has been the busiest but the best I've had so I'm really happy 🥹🥹 I hope you're doing well too and taking care of yourself mi <3