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The End

And in the end, the love you take Is equal to the love you make

Thank you for 4 years. I truly do.

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Annoying

Am I really that annoying for a long time?

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Head / Water

I hear children laughing in the distant

Phone call ringing

Water running in my bathroom

I saw a death parade outside the window

Wondering if they dream too

I only sleep, I can't dream

I cant see you anymore

I'm not prepared yet

I'm horrible

Tomorrow will never know what I'll do next

But this time, I guess I'll answer the phone

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Birota

I would never thought of you being my comfort amidst of the chaos

We’re already getting the hang of each other, but already far from each other

For all the times that life had already put me into a fiasco

Your seat is always available

You were with me even if I didn’t know where to go

Watching the sun go down as we say goodbye

We would go on dates and I’ll take you to somewhere delicious

That was every other day and even sundaes every Sundays

But we would always shift gears

Fast and slow, to the highs and the lows

Wishing I will always chase that feeling whenever I’m on top of you

We were like an open affair

My girl knows it too

Every dirt, dust, and mud that we got through

As time passes by, the less time I’ll have for you

But until I come back home, I’ll have to grow it out too

Thank you for riding with me my precious bike

The third gear is now ready to go

- Summer Vacation, 2025

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"To succeed, you've never seen such devotion"

- Ka

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GRind

There’s something weird that came into my mind tonight. I just had a rundown of most of my time here in NE. I was with a fatal friend before and we discussed these memories together as the sun lays and rests. That was one of the points that I realized that I was so jam packed this year and so was she. So was she. As I went back home and watched TV shows, late night with my girlfriend, she also gave me a nostalgic feeling. Those times that I was with her most of my time during pandemic and junior high school. It was adrenaline. I felt rushed about the things that I wanted to do and I have this feeling of wanting to relive every single moment since high school for some reason. Now that I’m grinding on my personal stuff more than ever, I hope I can capture those lighting in a bottle moments that I experienced with them before. Not to say that I like one more than the other, but these experiences made the man who I am today. And I am thankful for the both of them. More thankful to my girlfriend for a lot of obvious and deep reasons. Right now, I don’t know if I’m feeling right with what I’m thinking. I want to make something old but fresh and foreword to my own chapters and my own universe. But I have to find the right balance to all of these. I can’t just let myself be deep in my own work. I have my family, girlfriend, the little set of friends that I have now. And especially me. I pray that the past me can pass me those drives, passion, and emotions to what I am doing today. I have gone way better than expected and I want to keep improving as time passes, but with the same personality that I was during my “maturation” process as some people call it. This may be a cringey post about nostalgia, but I just want to be thankful about it. Praise the Lord.

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Hints from Elle

Elle was a girl who was mistreated by her dad. Her dad used to speak down on her, scolded like no other, and used her to his pleasure. Such acts even if they're valid in the eyes of her father, the father never was pleased nor happy with her presence.

Elle's aunt with her husband do things that couples shouldn't. They were ambitious and disregarded with their parenting skills. Their only son whose name likens to the city of gods. They treat him like a god.

Their mother who was 70, the most wise and loving among them all showed martyrdom. She let god hurt her and used her to his advantage. Among her children, they view her as a liability. A worker without compensation. All just for the sake of family.

Elle who has witnessed every fight. Only stood up for herself. No one was there to help her. She only had a couple of friends and those friends start to get annoyed of her. Only two stayed and one was her lover.

Her mother, oh her mother! When she remembers, her mother. Her mother. Her mother. They have shown Elle, old skeletons.

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Remind me in 2027

September 01, 2024

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Note:

Something is cooking up in my mind. Something sinister.

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January fades into the dark like crazy

I don't wanna go online again Maybe tomorrow

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2024

Why do I always put myself in the schedule of others? And sometimes even my family gets into my way. Do I really have to do everything in their terms? Do I always have to walk into their path? I don’t have time anymore to deliver for every single one of you. Heck, can even do my work. I want to leave so bad. It’s already the second day of 2024 and you are all making me disappoint. I love every single one of you, but give me my goddamn time now.

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Still have work to do but

Finally

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Why am I wearing this again

Felt on fire literally

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things arent supposed to go this way, maybe im just too tired man.

sum keep clinging cause i give them shit

some try to continue things that aren't meant to be

but i just wanna make a song bro

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ITS TIMEEE!

we back hoe

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Time to die, but I'll keep fighting.

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I didnt ask for shit

I was already born under punches