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Song: Danielle

By: ウミ の 海

What would you say if I told you

I've never forgotten how

We chatted well into the night

Any day any time

I was always by your side

Danielle

What would you do if I told you

I always feel so sorry even when

I still don't wanna say sorry

To you for everything

You were always there for me

Danielle

Why did we have to say goodbye?

I still don't know why

You left without a single glance

Maybe you've forgotten

About this old me who's still right here

Thinking of you

Danielle, I just wanna tell you

The days we spent together

Are still fresh in my mind

There are many things that

Only you can understand

I guess it's too late to say

I miss you, and maybe I always will

I miss you, but maybe it's trivial now

I miss you, but maybe your goodbye

Is all I'd ever have to remember you by

What would you think if I told you

The things you told me about him

Have already come to pass

Yet the ground didn't open up

And swallow me whole as I feared

Danielle

I wish you'd loved me hmm mmm mmm enough to stay...

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Song: Start

By: ウミ の 海

I wake up every morning dreading the sunrise

Streaming beams of sunlight cheerfully through my window pane

I wish I had plans all written up today

So I'd know what I'm supposed to do for the rest of my life

They say start somewhere but how do I move forward when I'm forever glued to the ground I stand on?

When you start somewhere, shouldn't you have a little idea about your final destination?

I walk home every evening fearing the twilight

lluminating radiance quietly as the streetlights pass by

I wish darkness will come soon as I lay my head to sleep

So, I don't have to toss and turn in fear of tomorrow

They say start something but I have enough clutter in my life and I don't need anything more

Why should I start something when I'll end up abandoning everything behind when I leave?

What are the odds that a life's purpose would drop on my lap this late in life?

When all I can hope for it seems is this neverending cloudy skyline

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Song: Awestruck

By: ウミ の 海

Original arrangement:

Looking at you looking at me, you're grinning

Saying all sorts of serious things with a mischievous light in your eyes

Standing in the crowd invisible to you

My face is just one of many, I know that you won't remember me

Wish the moment could be crystallized forever

At this point in time where you seem to

look at where I stand

You don't have to leave me, you don’t have to leave the stage

Tears, streaming down my face

Like waterfall

For reasons I can't explain if I tried

Pain, stabbing my heart

Like lightning

For no reason that I can think of

When you smile

Strumming on your guitar, bathed in light

Laughing at your own mistakes, you'd continue on fearlessly

I know your songs aren't my memories

But every word is fleeting, so precious, I can't let go

You don't have to look at me coz I'm looking at you

Looking at you looking at me, you're laughing

I guess you'll only let us know the jokes, but never the punchlines

Audio guide:

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Song: Purple Roses

By: ウミ の 海

On a train ride going somewhere, anywhere

Thinking 'bout all sorts of things, and nothing

Looking out the window, not expecting to see you

Yet there you were, as I passed by, purple roses

Your majesty, regality, and mysticism

Right next to this old railway track

Collecting dust and grime while looking so fine

Just a glimpse, now you're captured in my memory, purple roses

Once upon a time

A few moments or years before today

You haven't existed in my world

I didn't pay you any attention

Now you've insinuated yourself into my waking hours

I found myself wishing you could penetrate my dreams

Your uncommon hues

Occupied my mind and fantasies

You're dark and intense, yet pale and airy too

What do I do

What do I do

What do I do

When I see you?

As the clock struck midnight, it's now third november

The very thought of you can make me smile

I'd be on a train again somewhere, anywhere

And there you'd be, as I pass by, purple roses

Audio guide:

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Song: Awestruck

By: ウミ の 海

Verse 1

Standing in the crowd invisible to you

My face is just one of many, I know that you won't remember me

Wish the moment could be crystallized forever

At this point in time where you seem to

look at where I stand

You don't have to leave me, you don’t have to leave the stage

Verse 2

Strumming on your guitar, bathed in light

Laughing at your own mistakes, you'd continue on fearlessly

I know your songs aren't my memories

But every word is fleeting, so precious, I can't let go

You don't have to look at me coz I'm looking at you

Tears, streaming down my face

Like waterfall

For reasons I can't explain if I tried

Pain, stabbing my heart

Like lightning

For no reason that I can think of

When you smile

Repeat verse 1

Looking at you looking at me, you're grinning

Saying all sorts of serious things with a mischievous light in your eyes

Looking at you looking at me, you're laughing

I guess you'll only let me know the jokes, but never the punchlines

Repeat verse 2

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Song: NO I

By: ウミ の 海

You said you love me, can't live without me, isn't that a lie?

You only love the image of me that you have in your head

You don't care how devastated I am, with your confession

That it's never been about me all this time

No I... have tried to fulfill all your wishes

I know... this is going nowhere fast

No I... really wanna make you happy, but now

I know... it's futile

Futile...

Watching the sunset wondering where you were, October 15

A part of me's stuck in the past, waiting for you to save me

With what I know now are merely lies and condescension

Deep down in your heart of hearts, no you don't care

No I... have tried to fulfill all your wishes

I know... this is going nowhere fast

No I... really wanna make you happy, but now

I know... it's in vain

In vain...

What about, what (what) about my aspirations and desires

What about, what (what) about my hopes and fears

What about, what (what) about my beliefs and expectations

Don't I even matter to you all this time?

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Song: Missing You

By: ウミ の 海

I was myself before I met you

Bored with life, sad at everything

Aimless with nothing much to live for

Then you appeared without a warning

Showed me what I've been missing

And now every day I'm missing you

I miss you like the earth misses the rain

When it's hit by drought for months on end

Missing you is like a physical pain

I was ambitious before I met you

Wanted everything, needed nothing

Clueless as to why I was chasing things

That people said I should have in life

You showed me nothing lasts forever

Now from day to day I'm missing you

I miss you like a flower misses the sun

When it's been in the shade for too long

Missing you is like a physical pain

I wore tinted glasses before I met you

Rose-colored, they obscured my sight

My world looked warm and perfectly fake

Everybody was moving at the same pace

You showed how differently I could've lived

Now, today, this moment I'm missing you

I miss you like a song misses the note

When it's sung the wrong way all this while

Missing you is like a physical pain

Like a vein that bleeds without a wound

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Song: 恭二沼

By: ウミ の 海

I watched you come with the rain 

and show me your colours 

They're beautiful

You've always kept yourself away from life

You've been here all along, hidden from sight

You seem alive but somehow dead inside

You set yourself apart from everybody else

(sax interlude)

I've always wondered what you see when you look at me

You can freely mold your feelings into such a stark reality

I'm mesmerised time and again just watching you smile 

And fall under your spell

How long would it last between us?

Would you always give me all your time?

Tell me how I can hold on forever to your faith in me, your pure heart, your guileless love

Memories of how you kissed me senseless in a crowded parlour

Said things like "I really love you" when we barely knew each other

Smiled at me beneath the moonlit sky as if you knew I'd walk away

So, I let you go with the rain

Audio guide:

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Song: Hourglass

By: ウミ の 海

Did you ever think this is how it'd be for us

We'd still look at each other with trust in our eyes

Did you ever wonder how it'd turn out for us

Those connections we'd missed out on, coz we're always together

The world keeps spinning without stopping on and on

Taking us with it like a merry-go-round

We're whirling in life with no destination

As long as we're not apart, I guess we'd just be fine

Even though we're still clueless, we're stumbling forward

Time is trickling too fast down the hourglass

One day everything will end for you and me

We can't stop it even if we tried

So, let's twirl through the night while waiting for the day to break

I'll be worrying about trivial things while you smile

Let's savour this once in a lifetime's chance that keeps on repeating

Coz the end will come too soon

Goodbyes are futile

There's no need for regret or tears

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Song: Ryo's 38

By: ウミ の 海

The photo in my hand seems faded somehow

But the shine in your eyes remains just as bright as before

The road we've travelled together's worn out now

But our footsteps echoing along still sound as loud

You always wanna do more, you always wanna be more

And I always wanna be by your side cheering you on

Even dark clouds will be blown away when you sing

Even a future still uncertain, you'll make it look promising

You fear the unknown just like me but you look fearless in my eyes

And instead of going on by yourself you insist on pulling my hand

You take me out of a gloomy world and into a place where I can be myself

I wanna return the happiness you gave me, but I can only make one wish

On the day you turned 38, I wish that one day you can be a cool old man

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Song: 亮の歌

By: ウミ の 海

This harsh wind I'm weathering

The rain falls on my face unbidden from the skies

I'm standing alone facing an immense space ahead

The side of my feet hurt after walking so far

Why must I keep worrying about all the wrongs and rights

When the choices are all mine to make?

Even if my heavy feeling became an unwanted gift

This fragile heart of mine is yours to break

But when I look into your eyes all I see is hesitation

Stepping on, I reach out for you again

The blood that I've bled

The vows that I've pledged

The tears that I've shed

The smiles that I've shared

The life that I've led

The recklessness I wear like a badge

Crouching at the edge

Gazing up ahead

Teetering on this ledge

Confusion in my head

Driven by a wedge

Held together by a thread

Pour the abstract in my heart, paint my story in black and white

Our restless footsteps echoed in the hallway

This October goes by so fast that it feels as if years had passed

My fear of the unknown kills me softly inside

But when I look into your eyes all I see is warm devotion

Stepping down, I leave the chasm behind

Pinpoints of light guiding me in the dark

Shining like a beacon showing me the way

I gather your love like a shield around my soul

Riding on in this quest with you always by my side

Pinpoints of light guiding me in the dark

Shining like a beacon showing me the way

I gather your love like a shield around my soul

Riding on with your heartbeat always next to mine

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Song: You All Over

By: ウミ の 海

So near yet so far, only touching your guitar

No reason to stay but I can't get away

You beckon me here but you're never near

My heart's etched with the memories of you, like a scar

That's what you are

Warmer than the sun, the loving words you spun

No chain connected but I'm still affected

You wave your magic wand and strengthen this bond

My heart's splashed with the colours you use, like an abstract

That's how you are

An image far above holding sway

A song running along the walkway

A vision lighting up my gloomy rainy day

You're all over... all around...

No reason to stay, you're never here anyway

So near yet so far, unreachable like a star

No chain connected but I still feel protected

My heart's cluttered with everything you do, like a home

That's where you are

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Song: It's All About You

By: ウミの海

You, yes you... you 10x

Overshare without a care and say a penny for your thought

Then ignore my words like they're a nuisance you already forgot

You don't know nor care how many times I rewrote them in my head

To share my thoughts without hurting you

Yes you, you... you 10x

Are always there when I need a shoulder to cry on, listen to my worries

And I hang on to your every words like precious pearls of wisdom but

You don't know nor care how many times you've saved me coz

I'm just another person in your busy and important life

(rap)

I think what I wanna think, say what I wanna say, do what I wanna do, whenever I'm with you

You smile at me and tell me how everything's A-okay, never complain to me or say, that I'm being in your way

And I thought it's what friendship's like, that we were real friends, turned out you've been complaining 'bout me to your R.E.A.L. friends

Now I don't know what to think and I don't know what to say, now I no longer wanna have anything to do with you

So stop it with your concerns and leave me alone, I've blocked your number on my phone, I'll never again have a friend like...

You 10x... yes you

As I look at our reflection talking to each other, I've always wondered what are "us" to you

Even knowing your deepest fear isn't enough

You don't know nor care how much it hurts when you shrug me off as if I'm inessential, replaceable

Unworthy of your attention and time

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Song: Castle

By: ウミの海

I'm beautiful, I'm precious

I'm different than everybody else

That's what you said

That's what you always tell me

My face, my body, my hair, my soul

I'm your work of art, I'm your pride

That's what you said

That's what you always whisper in my ear

(But)

If I'm beautiful, why are tears running down my cheeks?

If I'm precious, why am I just the dirt on your shoes?

If I'm your work of art, why am I invisible in your eyes?

If you're proud of me, why do you try your best

To keep me locked up inside...

This castle that he built?

(This)

Castle)

(That)

(He)

(Built!) x 2

I'm perfect, I'm lovely

As your fingers softly caress my hair

That's what you said

That's what you always whisper to me

I'm your baby, your other self

Your love for me is forever true

That's what you said

That's what you always tell me in the mirror

(But)

Why do I flinch in fear, whenever you praise my perfection?

Why do I sense hatred in your fervor for my loveliness?

Why does your love choke me from my crib right to my grave?

Why do you try your best to turn me into

The monster that you are within...

This castle that you built?

(This)

Castle)

(That)

(You)

(Built!) x 2

The wicked witch of the west cursing my fate

The king plotting my demise

Being a fairy tale princess ain't all it's cracked up to be

I'm still waiting at the balcony

For the prince who'll save me from...

This castle that we built

(This)

Castle)

(That)

(We)

(Built!) x 2

This castle that we... built.

Inspired by: It's Okay to Not Be Okay (korean drama) & Believer (Imagine Dragons)

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Song: Watcher

By: ウミの海

My whole life I've spent fighting all kinds of fears, I'm scared all the time

But looking around me, I've realised everyone is fighting too, that's the harsh fact of life

In the company of strangers, I'm not alone

There's no solace in the truth, but the tumult in my heart is calmed down, I'm still here and breathing

While looking around me, I feel the futility of complaining about life, the hardships and struggles

I can surely do something wonderful soon

Instead of sitting here and thinking...

What have I done with my life? What have I gained?

It seems like no matter how hard I've tried, I'll always amount to nothing

The successes I've been proud of have turned into mere illusions

If it's impossible to always live in a world full of lovely things

Why try?

Why try?

Why try at all?

Is it worth trying at all?

All that were in my past, may still remain in my present, and be around in my tomorrows

But in the diary of my life, there may no longer be a new chapter written, with some of them in mind

This is just me being myself with all my flaws and thoughts

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Song: Kind

By: ウミの海

I know this guy who's so contradictory he blows my mind

One minute he's shouting, the next he's terrified

His gaze can burn my insides or melt me like butter

...but also make my fragile heart beat faster, coz he's sly

He's sly

Coz he's sly

He's got a sly smile

Saying "yeahhhh" and "I'm sure" with a hint of a smile

He's so embarrassed he just can't meet my eyes

I wanna make fun of this chink in his armor

...but I put an end to that move every time, coz he's shy

He's shy

Coz he's shy

He's such a shy guy

What can you say when your thoughts get in the way?

What would you do in my shoes?

What can you say when his looks get in the way?

How long must I pay my dues?

With a jawline so sharp it could cut glass

And hair falling down his face like waterfalls

Eyes that seem to see through my soul in a wink

...but still be forgiving, coz he's kind

He's kind

Coz he's kind

He's one of a kind

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Song: What's Up

By: @Umihere 2021

What's up, stranger?

Your message lit up with a greeting and

nothing else, I've been waiting for your call but it's silence

What's up, stranger?

It's been awhile since I've heard from you and

never thought you'd be reaching out to me again now

With just a hello in black and white our memories surge to the fore

clouding my mind, making me sigh

You used to call me over and I'd drop everything to be where you were

broken in vain, forsaken dreams

How long ago has it been since your smile for me's genuine

How much of what you showed me was honest and true

What's done is done and I've no desire to turn back the clock

Coz I now know there's nothing to come back to

Later, stranger

I've finally made up my mind to erase your number and

lay the ghost to rest on the bed of your deceit