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Everything I Will Never Be Able To Say.
'She was like the moon. A part of her was always hidden..' *TRIGGER WARNING*
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7/3/24 0041
Tonight was a really bad night. For no real particular reason which makes it even worse. Is it a fear of losing you? Am I pushing you away? Anxiety is so high rn and it’s becoming really hard to stay grounded. How do you block out those thoughts when it’s spoken in your own voice?
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7/12/23 1054
I want to avoid everyone and everything.
Im getting so anxious and stressed. This should be such a happy time in my life and all I want to do is cry??? I am so confused. I feel horrible that I feel this way. I felt so much better after talking about it last night but now then feeling has come back. Am I overwhelmed with the planning? Am I overwhelmed about the decision? That’s strsssing me out even more. I don’t want to hurt anyone. My thoughts were racing.
Im trying to lean into it all and push past this. But I’m really struggling. Why can’t I be happy about it????? WTF
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14:43 8/10/23
It’s been a moment.
I just feel so overwhelmed. Have felt funny for a couple of days and things have just been stockpiling I think. Almost like I felt smothered. All these amazing things are happening to me and around me recently and I should be so happy but all I feel like doing is crying. I feel so anxious and overwhelmed. I called F and had a cry about what I thought it originally was about but I think the overarching theme is always going back to me not feeling good enough or that I don’t deserve these things?
But at the same time I then flick back to freaking out about is this a genuine feeling or is this my brain trying to back out of something out of fear? How do I even talk to you about this so you understand without hurting you? I feel like I make sure everyone else around me is fine but don’t take care of myself.
I just had to get out of the house I felt so trapped almost but came for a walk to the cemetery. It’s so pretty here. Then the guilt kicked in about me crying over what feels like irrational fears when there are people with loved ones here feeling real grief and sadness.
I want to look forward to my future but I just don’t know what to do. Trying to stay rational. :(
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5/9/22 0047
I feel so fucking triggered. I can’t believe this has happened again. I can’t see how you could do this to me again. My heart feels so heavy and I haven’t stopped crying. I don’t even know if this even affects you, I feel like it doesn’t. I hate the person I just became. Why the fuck did I just do that I’m so mad FUCKING HELL. It’s like I’m repeating my parents actions and I hate that. It’s me and you. It should’ve always been me and you.
I don’t know what to do now. Where to go from here. I hate that this has happened now. We were in such a good place. What does this mean?
I’m not sure 💔
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I’m torn between wanting to eat everything or nothing at all
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29/10/20 1556
I can’t help but feel like a burden. Feeling very triggered and sensitive.
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25/8/2020 12:12
Wow. I just weighed myself. I feel paralysed like I can’t move. I don’t want to move. I don’t want to see anyone. I feel anxious. Disgusted. Embarrassed. I’m scared to move.
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12/05/20 21:31
I feel a bit sad/down/dissapointed? I have felt like for a while now I’ve wanted us to have a deeper connection and talk about something that I felt was meaningful, but when I asked a simple opening question I felt like you were shut off to the whole idea. I want us to know each other. Like really know each other. At times I feel like I don’t even know what you’re thinking. It could be me, I know and feel at times I push you away. But I want us to speak open and communicate freely which sometimes I struggle to do
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23/04/20 16:52
I feel like I’m falling back into the hole. It’s becoming hard to find motivation. I feel anxious and sad
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22/12/19
I think I’m terrified of you finally seeing me through my own eyes and then realising that I’m not all worth it and you can do better
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22:21 17/11/19
It seems for the past 2 weeks I have been spiraling back down to where I never wanted to be again. Just when I thought I would’ve been making some sort of progress I’ve fucked up and gained all this weight again. I feel disgusting
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