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Nash hits you

You and Nash had been in a relationship for nearly 4 years and had moved in together. one night he comes home a little tipsy around 2:00am in the morning. Your pacing around the house trying to call and text him but nothing was going through to him. here’s what happened that night:

the front door flies open and you hear a husky yet dizzy voice shout “IM HOME!!!!!!!!”

You ran to the front door and examined him and noticed a red lipstick stain on his cheek. “WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK NASH?! WHY DO YOU HAVE RED LIPSTICK ON YOUR FACE? AND YOU HAD ME WORRIED SICK TO THE POINT WHERE I WAS CONSIDERING EVEN CALLING THE POLICE!” You feel your head start to feel hot.

“B-babe im not cheating on you i-i- swear!” he started walking towards you but you back away

“THEN WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU HOME SO LATE AND HAVE LIPSTICK SMEARED ON YOUR FACE AND NOT TO MENTION YOUR DRUNK!!!!!” At this point your fuming and feel blood start rushing to your face. he then run towards you slamming you against the wall.

“y/n listen here. I do what i want and that’s none of your business!”his voice was filled with rage

“your an ass hole” you mutter. bad idea. the next thing you know Nash pushes you away with great force sending you head first into the wall. you feel blood trickle down your head as its drips onto your clothes. tears flooded your eyes and streamed down your face as you sob. you look up slowly losing your vision he looks back at you and you see the regret in his eyes as he rushes to aid you.

“y/n im so sorry please! I love you!”

“No Nash.” You get up feeling dizzy but you start picking up your bag and coat.  he tried to stop you but you push him away using whatever streangth you have left. 

“Babe... no im so sorry i promise ill never do it again!” 

“Nash its over...” You say before passing out.

-----------Life support------------

You wake up to find yourself staring at a white ceiling you sit up to attempt to recognize your surroundings. The hospital. A doctor rushes to see you.

“y/n Your awake this is a miricale!” The old man says.

“Wha-what happened” You had no memory of why you were there and the only thing you could remember was it was something to do with Nash.

“You were in a coma for 2 weeks now we thought you’d have to be on life support for the rest of your life.” 

“Oh... ok. Wheres my family? my friends?” you start remembering things from the night that you passed out..

your friends and family join you in the ward you were staying in. 

Before long the door opens and it was Nash... You start feeling angry but all you could feel were tears in your eyes. you stare at each other in dead silencef or a solid 2 mins before he broke the silence.

“y/n Please i didnt mean to do this to you... i was feeling so guilty when you were in a coma, i came to visit you every single day...” you heard the amount of sorrow in his voice but you couldn't find the strength in you to forgive him for what he did.

“Nash. you have to earn my trust. i don’t think i wanna live anymore.” the tears became heavier.

“y/n dont say that! i love you and i always will. you will always be the love of my life and ill never look at another girl like i look at you, even if you decide to break up with me. I love you and only you”

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Its different now... A Nash Grier Imagine pt 3

I woke up at 5:30 in the morning. Two words Snoring.Nash. I feel his arms wrapped around me i didn’t mind it was just the fact that he was snoring into my right ear. I once again wriggle out of his arms making sure i didn’t wake him. Unfortunately he woke up and grunted.  

“Come back to bed, pweeshh?” He says with a babyish voice. I smile and Join him. He puts one hand on my face and kisses my forehead.”Can we...”

“Can we?” I reply. He smirks. I then started kissing him he presses his lips harder. next thing i knew we were having a full on make out session. 

----School----

This morning well. We did nothing more that kiss so dont get any ideas! but the kisses were all really meaningful. like nothing i had ever felt before, each kiss had a different feeling. 

I Get to school wearing barely any make up and a really over sized jumper with a pair of leggings. I walk into school receiving Nasty looks from the bitchy girls. What had i done? I kept walking minding my own business before i come to the notice board which was crowded by girls screaming like 14 year olds. I push through to find out what was happening. Before people started screaming my name asking for pictures. I saw the words MAGCON written on a poster, then i realised. Nash. Cam.Matt. The Jacks. I was finally gonna see them after ages. I smile and try not to show my emotions, but in my mind i was bouncing up and down trying to comprehend with everything. I started walking to the canteen before i was Approached by Flynn he had a cute smile on his face. 

*Hey uh. Korra?”

“Yeah?”I replied giving him a smile in return.

“There is this school dance thing and i was hoping you’d like to come with me?”

“I’m sorry. I uh have a Boyfriend And dances aren’t really my thing...”

“Oh im sorry....” The light that was in his eyes had gone.

I walk away guilt filling each inch of me making me feel worse by the minute. Lessons went quick and well i actually Received a slip to skip my next two lessons. Thank god. 2 free periods. I sat alone in the canteen at lunch. I’ve never had close friends apart from mahogany and Shawn. I sat on my phone texting Nash but not getting any replied, I sighed before i returned to the real world and was hit by a wave of girls screaming. I look up from my phone and see Cameron. I run out of my seat and leap into his arms hugging him. 

“Woah. Zahra?” he said surprised.

“Yup its me! its been too long!” I squeal.

I let go and get a good look at him. I then see everyone Mahogany, Shawn, The jacks, Arron and matt. Matt hugged me and so did the rest of the guys. I then hear louder screams as Nash enters the school. I let go of Matt and see Nash smirking at me. “Who are you smirking at?” I said teasingly. 

“My girl.” He smiled at me.

“Shut up no one knows yet...”

“YOU TWO ARE BACK TOGETHER?!” ‘i hear mahogany shout.

“YES NOW SHUT UP WE DONT WANT THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWING!” i SQUEAL.

Turns out the guys were here to do a bit of “modelling” for the photography students. and the calligraphy students were giving tons of really pretty letters. The art students gave fan art which looked Grand to say the least. Every so often Nash would give me a sneaky little kisses making my stomach tinge each time.

-------The end of the day rolled around quickly. Nash drove me to the hotel everyone was staying at, we all decided to film some videos and just cchill and have fun. I forgot how much i missed everyone, we’ve all grown and changed but we still feel the same way about one another.

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Its different now... A Nash Grier Imagine pt 2

Well Its the second day of school. I woke up at 6;30 and had a shower. I then prep my skin and realize I had a giant zit on my cheek. “Damn..” I mutter to myself, I had clear skin most of the time but hell strikes every so often and my skin will go mad. I washed my face and held a warm Towel against my skin. I then slipped on a bra and knickers. I walk to my room and see Nash sound asleep. I smile and put on something cute yet simple. I wore a loose jumper with black leggings, brown Timberland's a a beanie not really bothering with making my hair look fancy. I then applied my usual makeup but with a bit of lipgloss on my lips to hide the fact that my lips were dry. I open my bedroom door to go downstairs and just as i turned the door nob i was startled by the sudden crying of my brother. I then run to his room and pick him up out of his crib. I go to the corner of his room and warm up some milk in a microwave which was in the room. I then took him  to my room and fed him. I hush him down trying my best not to wake up anyone in the house.I then Hear the weight on the bed shift towards me and a husky voice say. “So this is Your brother?” 

I turn around and reply. “His name is Ace. I named him that because that day i had my final exams and i “Aced” the test.”

“What?”

“He resembles success and pride. to me he is everything.” I look down and smile i feel a tear well up in my eyes.

“You ok?”

“Yeah.. I’m just really happy. Having a sister is fun too. Tori’s amazing shes one of my bestfriends i can tell her everything and even though shes young i just feel like ive got my own little apprentice...”  I watch ace fall asleep finishing the milk.

“Does your dad know i’m here?”

“Probably, don’t worry he’s still really chill as always, dad never changes.” I giggle a little.”Im gonna go put the lil one in his crib.” i get up and leave him in his crib.I then run downstairs and have my breakfast. I have cereal with a cup of apple juice and a 1 liter bottle of water. I hear the footsteps of Tori slowly coming downstair. “hey T you ok??”

“Yeah im tired though like really tired.”

“What time did you fall asleep?”

“None of your business” She said grumpily.

“Ok whatever... I’’m gonna go upstairs.”

I take some breakfast for Nash upstairs and leave it on my bedside table with a note explaining a few things. I then put my backpack on and put of a bomber jacket. I go downstairs and leave the house. I take the tube to school and prepare myself for a brand new day. 10 seconds before i was about to enter the building i heard a girl scream my name. I Turn around and see Mahogany and Shawn, I run to them hugging them. “How did you guys get here?”

“As always we have our ways...” Shawn said.

“Hey can we come with you its kinda boring in our hotel.”

“Sure but you'll need a visitors pass.”

I take them to the school reception where i got them visitors passes. I then got my DSLR out of my bag and snap a few pictures of Mahogany and Shawn trying to keep the pictures as natural as possible. The bell rang and i took them to the visitors room where there was pretty much heaven, A coffee machine, A whole table of food and snacks and pretty much what a party would have.  then Walk to my first class which was Media. I was so bored in lesson i had been passing mid terms and all that good stuff with flying colours. 

__BREAK TIME__

I was walking to the visitors room to go pick up Mahogany and Shawn and as i was walking through the hallway i bumped into a tall figure. I nearly fell back before the person grabbed my hand and pulled me up. I look up to see a boy, he had beautiful emerald eyes, brown hair and freckles. he was tall about 6′2 I smiled. “Sorry. Uh... Thanks.”

“Dont be sorry i should’ve watched where i was going. My names Flynn Rightwood.” He had a cute smile.

“Zahra Korra Marglin, You can call me Korra or Zahra whatever..” I held my hand out and he shook it.

“I think i’ve see you before...” 

“Im new here its my first year...” I felt butterflies in my stomach and then i realised. Nash.. What the hell am i doing. I’m emotionally cheating on him.

“Oh.. My sister watches your videos on youtube!” 

“Oh right cool tell her i said hi. Well i should get going i have some people waiting for me. see ya!” I say before i walk away. I hear Shawn singing Some of his songs. I walk in and sit down with them.

~~~End of the day~~~

It’s the end of the day and I drop Mahogany and Shawn at their hotel which was only a few blocks away from my house. I walk home and once i get home i’m confronted by the whole family, they were staring at me piercing holes into my skin. That’s when i Saw Nash standing in the background smiling at me with an embarrassed look. Then Cheryl broke the silence “Jaz would you care to tell me who this is?”

“Let me answer that for you hunny.” My dad interrupted, “This is Nash Zahra’s boyfriend.”

“Cheryl come on I’m an adult i get it your looking out for me but NAsh and I have known one another for years...Please.”

“Dont get scared i was just startled when i saw a young man in your room munching away at a bowl of cereal and a granola bar.”

“Hehe I wish i was there to see that... When is dinner gonna be ready?”

“It’ll be ready at 8.”

We all end our little conversation and continue on with our evening. Nash and I sat on couch while watching friends. I liked looking at his eyes I missed them, they were really special. really really special they made me feel calm.

------9:30-------

Nash had to leave and get his stuff from his hotel. I was doing a few assignments and then Tori bursted into my room with a huge grin on her face. “What are you so happy about?”

“I have a boy friend!”

“WHAT?! TORI YOUR MUM’S GONNA FREAK OUT WHAT MADE YOU THINK THIS IS A GOOD IDEA YOUR 13!!!!”

“Let me do  something with my life please....”

“If you end up crying like the baby you are dont expect sympathy from me.”

“I Hate sometimes.”

She walks out of my room slamming the door, I didnt bother shouting at her.

----10:40----

I wasn’t falling asleep. at all. II decided to get up and continue editing future videos for my channel and scheduling them to upload tomorrow at 1:30. I hear knocking on the door so i run downstairs and answer the door thinking it was our drunk ass neighbors asking if they could puke in our bathroom. I open the door and see Nash standing there with a luggage. “Hey. come in its really cold.” I let him in.

“I’m so tired....”He muttered.

I take him upstairs and let him get dressed in my room. I then walk in and see him wearing only a pair of sweat pants. 

“Wow who took all these pictures?” He points at my wall of photos.

“I did they all mean something special...” I take a picture of the two of us off the wall and show it to him. the picture was of one that we took if us together on my 16th birthday.

“I remember that...” he hugged me tight.

“Let’s go to sleep you seem so tired.”I smile pulling him with me towards the bed.

I fell asleep in his warm loving embrace.

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Matthew Espinosa Short Imagine...

Main character: Becca Hill (16)

Best friend: Lola Hiroshi (17)

Matthew Espinosa as himself(18)

Hi im Becca a 16 year old collage student I’m pretty nerdy but i do have my crazy side, it just takes alot to find that crazy side...

September 19th First week of school

The first week of collage wasn’t bad or good. I went to the same collage as my childhood best fried Lola so life was pretty good.. I saw this one guy he seemed much older than me, maybe like 2 years he looked mature and kinda jerky, I dont know if i like that though, he seemed to be interested in me but i just Ignored what he had to say. It was the end of the day and i was walking with Lola home talking about school.

“Hey Becs you wanna come to a party tonight at my guy friend’s house?” Lola asked sounding desperate for me to come.

“a part seriously. you know im not that kind of person Parties are really not my thing...” I say to her really not wanting to go.

“PLeeeeeeeasssse I have our outfits ready pleeeasee” she whined.

“No. Lola i really can’t..” I didn’t want to go. 

We get to my house and i look through the living room window to see my dad. Drunk as ever. The house reeked of Vodka. I turn around.” On second thoughts i think im gonna come” I say giving her a smile.

“Yessss come to mine in five.” she runs across the road and rushed into her house.

I run upstairs and Take a huge duffel bag and fill it with make up and clothes. I was planning to stay at Lola’s since life was so much easier with her and her awesome family unlike my shitty family who dont even care if im in the house or not. I take money from my dads wallet and leave. I run to her house and she opens the door with a smirk on her face. We go upstairs to her room and i see two outfits laid out on the bed, on in my size which was a white Baralette with gold studs on it with a bright blue skirt. The other was a red Bralette and a black skirt. 

Heres what my outfit looks like on me:

I then turn to her and say “I wouldn't be caught dead in this.” It was a bit bright for my skin tone since im mixed race but i kinda liked it. I then looked in the mirror and put my glasses on before Lola yanks them off my face and Throws them onto her bed. “I cant see!”I yell at here.

“Take these.” She hands me a box of clear prescription contact lenses. I Refused them and put my glasses on.

“I wore your stupid Outfit so let me wear something i actually want to.” I then put on a gold bracelet.

“you look hooooottttt as fuck!”  Lola squeals.

“Shut up lets leave” 

We leave the house. She drives for 20 mins before we arrive at the party, It wasn’t like highschool parties this party was calmer but less alcohol and more drugs. We walk in and before i knew it Lola trailed off with some guy. I wondered around the house before i realized nearly everyone was high. I see Matthew Shouting at people “HEY STOP DOING DRUGS! GO SOMEWHERE ELSE FREAKS” I hear music start to blast my ears hurting so much. I walk upstairs looking for an empty room. The house was massive with 9 bedrooms in total. Every time i walked into a room there were people making out. I then got to a room at the end of a hallway. Empty. I went inside and sat down on a bed that was in the middle. I got in a comfortable position and I mean if someone came in they could see my underwear with was a navy blue lace underwear. I didnt care i just went on my phone and started texting people  and ranting on twitter. About 10 mins later the door opened and i see Matthew standing there jaw dropped.   i jumped to my feet. “Oh god. im so sorry i didn’t know this was your room”  I flip my hair over to one side. 

“No it’s fine... you look hot though. wait. Becca?” He looked cute but i stopped thinking about that snd relied to him.

“Sorry Matt.. I really need to go.” I run to the door but he closes it. he grabs me by the waist and holds me close.

“I’ve seen how you look at me...” He says slightly seductively. 

I stare into his beautiful hazel eyes being charmed. “Matt... Really stop. I-I. MAt are you drunk?”

“Becca.”

“Matt.”

He kissed me passionately.

“How do you feel now?”

“Kiss me. Now.” I command.

He kissed me Picking me up and throwing me onto his bed. He then took his shoes off and unbuckled the belt of his pants and threw them across the room. Out lips then Crashed together His hand massaged my boobs and i heard him mutter “God your tits are huge” I slightly moan . He slips my skirt off and leaves a trail of hickeys from my neck down to my panties. He then took them off and slated licking me. I grab the sheets and tilt my head back. He then inserted a finger making me moan “I want you matt... Please.” 

He kissed me and lead my hand to a bulge under his boxers. I then flip him over and i was on top of him now. I grinded on his bulge and he let out a grunt before he said. “Your such a tease”

“Let me just return the favor...”

I yanked off his boxers sucking his member. I then inserted it into me... 

Lets just leave the rest to your imagination....

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Its different now... A Nash Grier Imagine (This is linked to my previous series)

Its been 3 years since Nash And I broke up. I’m 19 Now living in London happy, Mahogany, Shawn and I were still as close as we were when i left maybe even more. My dad remarried to my amazing step mum Cheryl and i now have a cute 13 year old step sister called Tori and a baby Half brother Ace he’s only 1 month and hes adorable! I haven’t really heard from Nash but i guess i’ve moved on. I was beginning my first year in a photography and arts University in central London.

Wednesday 8th September 2016

I wake up to a new day 6:00 AM sharp. I have a warm shower and put on my outfit for my first day at uni. I wore a Blue hoodie with a white tanktop and Black jeans, I then put on a pair of white jeans and white Vans. I run down stairs and pour some Granola, Fruits and yogurt in a bowl and i then get a 1 Liter Bottle of orange juice out if the fridge and guzzle it down with my breakfast. I run back upstairs and put a headband on, I then lightly applied some makeup to my face and then put my glasses on. I put my backpack on my shoulders and run downstairs to see my little sis sitting there all ready to go to school waiting for me as usual. I sit next to her and stuff fruits into my bag. “Hey whats up T” (T is her nickname)

“Nothing much... Jazz?”(She calls me jazz because When i first met her i gave her jazz hands trying to look cool)

“Yeah?”

“Can we go to some meet up after school today... Like you pick me up and ill go with you...”

“Sure you do whatever you want but just dont expect me to join in im probably gonna be face timing Shawn and Mahogany”

“Ok whatever i just really wanna go because theres gonna be a bunch of youtubers and i cant wait sqeeeeee!!!”

“Ok OK I get it your excited c’mon let go ill drop you off at school, oh yeah we cant be long after school i have alot of video editing for my channel.”

“OK one sec let me get my bag...” she runs to the livving room and throws her bag over her arms.

We walk to school i drop her off and then catch a train to West minister After that it’s a ten minute walk from the train station.

~Skip to the end of the day~

My day at school wasn’t bad it was ok, i didn’t have any friends but i wasn’t too bothered since i’m kinda Introverted. I kept to myself being eyed down here and there by guys. The end of the day rolled around and i went to go pick up my sweet lil sis. I wait for her outside her school gates and she runs to give me a hug. We then walk to A small community center it was packed with girls wearing t-shirts that had the number 97 on them I felt like something wasn’t adding up. I felt a presence a familiar presence a warm loving one. We we waited in line for whatever Tori wanted us to go for. I just stood with her on my phone looking through my social media. I then hear the voice of a young man I look up from my phone and see... Nash... He looked around and we made ye contact, instantly i turned my head and something went off. thats when it hit me “Shit... why the fuck is Nash here... what have i done..” I mutter to myself and before i knew it we were at the front of the line. I covered one of my eyes with my fringe and plastered a smile on my face. Tori screams and hugs him, he didn't notice me standing beside her... i think. she then got him to sign her planner. she then takes a selfie with him and then my sister did the stupidest ever.

“Hey Jaz come take a picture with Nash” She said oblivious to why i was trying to avoid Nash.

“Huhh? I’ll pass...” I shrugged and held her hand tight.

“C’mon let my fix your hair...” She brushed my fringe off my face and neatly tucked it behind my ear.

“T come on let go before mum and da-” I was cut off by Nash.

“Zahra?”

I was silent for 5 seconds straight. I then plastered a smile on my face and said. “Nash.. Long time no see....Ahem. well me and Tori are gonna leave now byeeeee!!!”

“No Zahra wait...” He grabbed my arm.

“What Nash. What do you want im over you.” I felt bad why can’t i just keep my fat gob shut.

“Zahra.... please?” I could hear the same disappointment in his voice from the day i left.

“I’m sorry... i shouldn’t have said that. Here its my Dads card it has my house phone number on it.” I look in my wallet and hand him a card. I then walk away dragging Tori with me. We were only like a block away from home, we both never spoke a word to each other.

“Jazz how does Nash Grier know you?”

“Long story short , I met him when i was fifteen we dated and then I decided it wouldn’t work because long distance relationships were not really my thing.”

“YOU GUYS DATED?! how did you not tell me?!”

“I didnt really think it mattered.”

“Its ok i still love you.” she put on a silly face.

We walked into the house and were hit by a wave of crying coming from baby ace. I go to the living room where i see Cheryl going insane. “Need a little help i think my baby brother missed me.” I take the baby out of her arms and cuddle him, eventually he opens his eyes and smiles. I smile at him and he falls asleep and that smile slowly fades away. The house phone rings and i pick up.

“Hello, This is miss Zahra Korra Marglin speaking who is this?”

“Hey its Nash...”

“Oh. hi.” Ace starts crying.

“Is that a baby?” He asks.

“Yeah one second.” I then focus on my baby brother. “It’s ok Baby Ace I’m here ive got you..” I rock him to sleep.

“Wow that was quick” He sounded like there was something on his ind he really had to get off.

“I’ve been really busy  with school, youtube and my baby brother lately sorry if he cries again.”

“It’s fine... Look Zahra. I still love you.I love everything about you. I dont know why your avoiding me. i just wan to ask you if i’ve  done anything wrong.”

“No. you haven’t done anything wrong. Things are different now. I’m grown up its been three years we’ve drifted apart.” I feel a tear run down my cheek and fall onto Ace’s face.

“You wanted me to leave and thats what i did. What you said to me at the airport before you left. I really thought about it. We crossed paths ii came back give me chance please...”

“Ill think about it. Im gonna go out for a run around Primrose hill. ill call you later bye”

“Bye.”

*Hangs up*

I put Ace down in his baby bouncer and call Tori down to look after him.

“T just look after him i’m gonna go out for a run see ya”

I run out the door before she could give me a response. I started running and then i started walking. I slowed down and started walking around. I was walking past an ally way before a drunk man came and grabbed my by the arm. I Scream for him to let go but the louder i got the tighter his grip became.”Get the fuck o-off me” I then see someone appear and punch the man in the face. The man then Let go and scampered away. I looked up at the mystery guy who was towering over me.  “Wh-Who are you? And why didn’t you just leave me?” The guy took his hood off and revealed The same boy i fell in love with three years ago.

“why would i leave my one and only?” Nash said.

I hugged him tight.

“I knew you’d come back” I whisper to him.

“I could never leave you.”

“Can we go home please its a bit cold...”

I take him home and sneak him up to my room. I didn’t care when i was getting dressed for bed i just Got dressed in front of him.

“Damn your such a tease!” he says laying down on my bed.

“I bet that makes you want me more...” I say a little flirtatious.

“Damn since when did you start talking like that?! I aint complaining”

“I was forced to watch Fifty Shades Of Grey you really dont thing im a changed girl?”

“Who would do that?!”

“Jack G who els? But honestly i don’t care if i undress in front of you. Your my boyfriend arent you?” I give him a smirk.he then gets up and walks behind me wrapping his arms around my waist.

“You dont know how long ive wanted to see you...”

“Babe.. Can we continue. from where we left off 3 years ago.”

“Of course.”

He laid down on the bed and i sat on top of his bare chest and kissed him. we then fell asleep in the arms of one another.

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School with the MAGCON boys pt 5 The end for now...

Its my last day. My room was empty everything was shipped 2 days prior. I stared into the empty room and sighed. My time here came and went. It felt like yesterday i arrived here with tons of jet lag. I switched on my phone “2:00″ i say to myself. only 5 hours and im gone. I stood in the hallway of the house starring into my room and thinking about how much i’d miss it. I then feel a hand rest on my shoulder i turn to my side and see my dad. “I’m gonna miss it...” 

“Me too hun... me too.” he seemed calm with a hint of sadness in his voice.

The door opens and we both turn to see Nash and the crew standing there with a limo. We grab our bags and leave the house. I enter the limo that was lit up by fairy lights and LEDs creating a small path/

~Skip the journey~

We arrive at the airport 30 mins early. I get out of the limo and take a good look at everyone. I feel tears well up in my eyes.

“g-guys *sniffs* look. I’m probably never gonna see you guys face to face ever again, please dont forget me. I’ll never forget you guys i promise you that. I’ll never forget all you guys have done for me. Please keep in touch, It’s the only thing i ask for. And Shawn.. I’m really sorry i cant be here for your birthday so here. *Hands him a large box* dont open it now. Open it when im gone. when you really miss me. And make sure you have a smile on your face! I love you guys” 

We all have a huge group hug. “Hey uh Zahra can we talke” I hear Nash say i then follow him towards a small bench. “Zahra.”

“Nash.” I said a little scared.

“Are we still... you know. gonna be together.” I could hear the sheer disappointment in his voice. 

“I Dont know... I just don’t think i can do the whole long distance thing...”

he then kissed me as the spark returned like fireworks on Bonfire night.

“Tell me do you still feel it... the spark.” he says with a bit more seriousness in his voice.

“Yes. but thats why we need to take a break... Goodbye Hamilton Nash Grier.” I felt bad, but before i walk away all i said was “if you love something let it go, if it comes back its yours if it doesn’t come back it was never truly yours.” I lived y that quote. I then walked over to my dad and got my passport stamped before disappearing into the duty free. was this the end? more to come soon see ya!!!!

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don't wait for your dreams to chase you, get a head start and Chase your dreams.

Zahra Islam

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School with the MAGCON boys pt 4 Is it the end?!

Its been 4 months since the party, since that night. I’ve found that Mahogany, Shawn and i are getting closer and closer. Things have changed over th past few months. Mahogany has a boyfriend #CarLOX (I totally ship them) Shawns Music career has launched, he was even invited on the Ellen show. Nash and The guys are all Planning to go on tour or somthing, And as for me? Well, Ive started up my own youtube channel. I dont expect much to come from it but who know, maybe Something can come from it. 

~Back to the story~

Its the 25th of July, My sweet sixteen, but also a really scary last few days here in the US. I’m leaving in three days, I felt like crying but i didn’t give in to my emotions. I was woken up by party poppers going off and streamers all over my room. Everyone i had ever met here were sitting by my side screaming happy birthday. I get up out of my bed and hug the girls and guys, I then kiss my dad on the cheek and as im taking my towels into the bathroom so i can have shower My dad hands me a hanger with a cover on it. I take it into the bathroom and have a shower. I indulged in some fancy body wash and i then dried myself up. I unzip the over that was on the hanger to reveal a beautiful Purple and white dress with a pearl necklace on it. I then slipped it on, it fit like a glove It was stunning whoever created this masterpiece Is a Fashion genius. I put on a pair of white heels and then styled my hair using a bit of hair spray and mousse here and there. I then left the bathroom and entered my room. I applied a bit of make up trying not to make my face look cakey. I went downstairs and saw everyone running around the Living room looking for places to hide. I walk in and see the most perfect birthday party ever. Until everyone sqealed “Surprise!!!!”

“Ok ok... this is probably the best party iv had in years!” I say as i run to the table to see all the snacks we had. “but wait, its not a proper birthday until i face time my grandparents.” I say taking my phone from the table. I call my grandparents and they pick up. “Hello! Guess who it is grandmama!”

“Ohhh is it melissa?!” My grandmother thought i was my cousin Melissa.

“No Grandmama Its  not Melissa its Zahra!!” I say while i let  out a little giggle.

“Oh sweetheart dont be upset, im getting old you see... Now Happy birthday!!!”

“Grandmama I thought You forgot my birthday?!” I say teasing her.

“Why would i forget the birthday of my first grandchild? I cant ait to see how You’ve grown!” Her voice sounded excited.

“Grandmama? Where is Grandpa let me speak to him!” 

“Hunny he is sleeping at the moment! Dont worry ill call you when he wakes up.”

“ok Grandma speak to you later have a good day!”

“Bye sweetie have a terrific day!” 

I hang up and smile. I then hug my dad and he whispers “You look wonderful sweetie!”

“Thanks dad...” I pull away breaking the hug. I then go towards a coffee table that was covered in neatly wrapped presents and a pile of cards.”Wow” i whisper to myself. I only get like 2 gifts on my birthday but having all these made me feel lucky and greedy. I wish i could do the same for everyone here. I started opening the cards one by one. The last card said “To my sweet child. From mummy” I felt a tear form in my eye as i opened the letter as i read the letter, tears gush out of my eyes.

“Dear Zahra my baby girl,

You are reading this on your sweet sixteen. If im not here with you im sorry. im sorry I cant be there, I should’ve been there for you. When your father andi were young. we tried to keep my pregnancy a secret. But then i realised, you weren’t an accident you were a gift. you are a gift. Just know im loving you when you feel happiness When you feel happy and loved  Thats me, loving you, cherishing you. Your father is a lucky man, your a blessing. be safe sweetheart.

- Anne-Marie Logan”

I  wipe the tears away from my face and whisper to myself “I love you mum always will...” I feel Nash’s arms wrap around my waist hugging me. 

“Why are you crying?”

“Mum.”

I turn around and give him a peck.

“Lets just carry on with my birthday...”

I held his hand and walked with him to the rest of my friends who were digging into the party food, i join them and have an awesome day. We went sky diving, on a boat across a lake and then we had dinner at a fancy restaurant then later we had a photographer come and take tons of pictures for my USA album. That night was kinda rough. I was crying about how much i’d miss everyone after im gone. will they forget me, will nash move on, what if i never see them again, is it the end of my journey already? I guess well have to find out soon.

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School with the MAGCON boys pt 3

I Wake up the next morning in Nash’s arms, something felt strange. i made the wrong decision my dad’s gonna kill me... 

I wriggle my way out of his arms and put my bathrobe on.

“ZAHRA ARE YOU AWAKE! IT’S 8:30?!” My dad calls me from downstairs.

“Im just gonna brush my teeth and wash my face.” I replied...

I pick my phone up and see tons of texts from shawn. 

Zahra? you ok? where are you? i need to tell you something...  ARE YOU MAD AT ME?! I KNEW IT YOUR WITH NASH!

SHAWN! im fine!!!!

you ok?

and yes i WAS with Nash.

also im not mad at you, why would i be?

You got me worried... well Mahogany might be mad at you...

What Shawn why?

she told you not to speak to Nash and you did... i have no part in this so if anything goes down don’t include me!

she cant control me... i can talk to whoever i want!

well i agree with you. It’s just that...

????

He’s dating Darcy Thorton...

WHAT?! NOW IM PISSED OFF. 

Yup. you need to talk to him now!

Boi you think im gonna just talk to him?! Im gonna bitch slap this child.

go girl! well gtg my dad’s making pancakes.

bye be safe shawnie!!!

I put my phone in the pocket of my robe. i then turn to see Nash as he sat up rubbing his eyes. “Morning!” i say trying to cover up my anger

“Morning beautiful”

“Hey Nash quick question..”

“yeah?”

“are you in a relationship?”

“Well you see... um.. i.”

“Yes.Or.NO?” I say more sternly.

“I kinda broke up with her two weeks ago...”

“Darcy Thorton?”

“How do you know?” 

“I have my sources..” I say relieved that Shawn was in my life

“I lied... Last night...”

“WHAT?”

“I came because darcy was outside my house knocking on the door screaming my name and saying that she loves me and she wants me back. so when i was walking home after Dropping you off I see My mum looking at me from the bedroom window signaling me to sneak into the backyard. i did so and then Hayes Handed me a bag and told me to run. I then ran from the back to the front yard and Darcy saw me, she then ran after me but slowly lost me, i was in Matt’s Neighborhood so i went to his house and played video games for a few hours. i needed a place to sleep but Matt said there was no space so i figured you’d let me stay...”

“Oh.. Right. well i guess thats ok but you should’ve told me.. that she was after you.”

“Your my only girl. Only you. no one els.” he smiled at me.

“You need to brush your teeth...” 

“I have my toothbrush”

we both went into the bathroom and brushed our teeth we then tried to creep downstairs until this happened...

I walked into the kitchen trying to distract my dad while he made waffles for breakfast as Nash attempted to hide under the dining table.

“So dad hows work?” I say trying to sound interested.

“Hunny.”

“Yes father?”

“I know.”

“What?!”

“Tell the boy to come out its fine. i heard your conversations my room is nextdoor you know?”

“You surprise me sometimes...”

Nash appeared in the doorway of the kitchen with a smile on his face.

“Come sit down son and tel me bout yourself.”

I felt so embarrassed, i mean yes its great having a young relateable  dad and all but sometimes he brings out the really “Dad” side of him and its just weird.  

he asked questions about school, parents, siblings me.. really “Dad” stuff.I kinda enjoyed watching Nash answer his questions, it made me feel like i wasn’t alone.

_3:30_

Nash and i were sitting together on the sofa watching Paranormal Activity as i hugged him tight. i was scared i held him tight and he kept his arm around me holding me close.

“Hey you wanna go to a party at 4?”

“Sure whatever but dont expect me to look  like a supermodel.”

I got up and went to my room and got dressed into something more “Suitable” for this occasion. I Wore a Black skater skirt, Blue shirt and a pair of black vans. i then put my hair up in a pony tail and applied some makeup. I run back downstairs and find Nash wearing a Red “Obey” t-shirt and bluejeans. he had a cute little smirk on his face, he looked me up and down he then licked his lips. “Hey.” I say quietly. “You look good...You ready?” he says with a bit of a sexy tone, it kinda turned me on a little. “Yeah... on sec” i then poke my head upstairs and shout. “PAPA IM GONNA GO OUT SEE YA AT DINNER! IM TAKING THE KEYS!!” i then take my hoodie from the coat hanger and put my phone and keys in the pocket. i then held Nash's hand and we walked to the driveway to his house he came out of the garage in a black jeep. i sat in the front next to him. we were driving for about 20 mins until we got to a house where there were a bunch of other teenagers drunk or high. there were flashing lights and alcohol bottles everywhere including a sprinkle of condom wrappers The music was almost deafening. we walked in and i noticed Mahogany and Shawn in the corner of a small room with a closet filled with vodka and a table in the middle. i let go of Nash’s hand and run to go and hug my two bestfriends.”Guys!!!”

“what are you doing here?!” shawn asked

“....” Mahogany didnt say anything

“I just wanted to be out of the house...”

“OK I’M SO SORRY IM SUCH A BAD FRIEND ZAHRA PLEASE DONT HOLD A GRUDGE AGAINST ME!!!” mahogany sounded so sad. she hugged me tight.

“How could i be mad at you?! your my bestfriend!” I say hugging her back.

“Hey dont forget me!” Shawn said jokingly he then joined us in the group hug. 

“How about a we get some drinks.” says Mahogany releasing us from the hug.

“Sure!” I say enthusiastically.

as we walk into what was meant to be the kitchen i notice two people making out. I took a closer look and notice who it was. Nash and Darcy. I feel tears roll down my face as i run up to Nash and slap him. all i could get out of my mouth was. “I Trusted you. and you threw it away.” I stormed out of the front door dragging Shawn and Mahogany with me.  They notice me sobbing and sit me down on a bench outside the house. “I should've known...” i whispered

“Its not your fault” Replied mahogany.

“Dont cry il sing for you” Shawn says.

“You guys are the best. but...”

“What? But what?” they both say confused.

“Im gonna have to go soon... like out with my dad. I cant get too attached. I guess i learnt that the easy way. I never even had a mother to get attached to.” Depressing thought flooded my mind before being interrupted by Nash.

“Please Zahra i didnt mean to!”

“ Just leave me alone.” tears kept pouring out of my eyes.

Before i knew it the guys all surrounded me. Matt holding my hand along with Shawn. I didnt know Matt that well but from all i could collect he was a friend he was kind, nice and he didnt look too bad.

“I haven’t got time for you. I didnt think you were that type of person. Im not sorry Nash and i hope you have a good life jumping from hoe to hoe without being held down by someone who cares about you.” I let go of their hands and started walking. Matt ran after me and before i knew it he caught up.

“Hey you ok?” He asked, concerned.

“Nope. It wouldn't even work im probably gonna go live in London with my grandparents...” I was actually sad. I kinda liked it here. 

“Nash is a jerk sometimes, he barely has a brain in that head of his, but he really likes you. I mean seriously all the guys are into you...”

“Are you?” I ask curiously.

“Wow this is... weird... well yeah. i guess.” He started blushing. i wiped my tears away and gave him a cheeky smile.

“Well i dont even know how im gonna get home.” For a second i kinda felt a spark with matt. but that all went when it came to the fact that he had a dog. I have a Major problem with dogs. They chase me. all the time. When i was 6 i was attacked by a dog and it bit my leg. i have a scar but its kinda faded.

“Ill drop you off...”

“HOW DOES EVERYONE KNOW MY ADDRESS????!!!”

“J told all of us, guess he kinda go a bit excited...”

-----Getting home-----

Matt drops me off home. i walk into my house and see my dad in the dining room setting up the table for three... I run and hug him tight. All i could say was “I dont wannna grow up papa”

“Hunny whats wrong?!” He sounded concerned. 

Instantly i started breaking down into tears and told him everything.

“Hunny, sometimes boys and men do things when they’re drunk... i dont blame you for bring upset anyone would, but think rationally. what he did was unacceptable, but you have to let him know how you feel before walking away. sweetheart i know you love him a lot. Your a strong girl like your mother. You can do this. I’m sorry that we’re always moving around. but we’re gonna stay here a little longer, only until your 16 in july. 3 days after your birthday we’re going home. Going back to your Grandparent’s house in London our journey is over soon so go have fun.” Getting that lecture from him made me feel better. I hugged him tight before i said “Dad, i bet mum loved you lots, you always know the right things to say.” I hear the doorbell ring and i run to open it. As i open the door its pushed open by everyone i had met in school bombaring me with hugs. “Guys i need to breath!!!” they all back away and i lead them into the living room. we all sat on the floor and started speaking. There were some people I didnt recognize but Shawn introduced me to them. I knew pretty much everyone we were all like a family.my dad brought dinner for all of us, There was Cameron Dallas, Jack J,Jack G,Matthew Espinosa, Taylor Caniff, Arron Carpenter, Carter Reynolds, Mahogany, Shawn and me. we were all talking about stuff and i kind of opened up to them, my dad watched us talk with a smile. i guess he was happy that i had people who loved me like a parent, shared secrets like a sibling, opened up like an aunt or uncle and stood by me like friends. 

They all left around 10 o’clock so i decided that i was gonna call it a night and put on my jammies. I took my makeup off and took a long look in the mirror and smiled. i just said to myself “Gosh Zahra sometimes things can be hard just keep getting back up and you’ll be ok...” I leave the bathroom and take one last look out my window before i ended my night. I then saw a dark shadow fun past my window. I dont think much of it and i close my curtains. *knock on window* i look back at the window and see Nash standing there.” i open it.

“What do you want?!” I say firmly not letting any of my emotions show..

“Please... let me talk to you...” i could tell he was pretty upset with himself. i let him in and shut the window.

“You have 5 mins... please dont waste it.”A part of me still loves him, and always will..

“Look, i have no excuses. I wont say she came on to me because that would be a lie. and i wont say i came onto her because that would also be a lie. i was drunk out of my mind. my had hurt and i didnt know where you were. I thought i saw you but then i blacked out the next thing i knew i was having a make out sesh with Darcy Thorton. What im trying to say is. You might not like me the way you did before. You might not see me the way you did before. and i understand. And god i wouldn’t mind having my heart broken by you having my heart broken by you would be a pleasure. But your forgiveness is all i need. Do you forgive me?” He really meant it. he really put thought into it.

“Of course i forgive you” I leaped into his arms wrapping my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around my waist and held me tight. I lifted my head away from his shoulder, we stared directly into  each others eyes before we had a blissful kiss. That kiss turned into a full on make out session, Our tongues danced as we kissed. he then laied me down on my bed and gave me a kiss. He was about to leave before i told him he could stay here, with me. “Please stay... I really need you here please...”

“Anything for you...”

He undressed only wearing his boxers. I bit my lip, i cant lie he looked hot. he then made his way to my bed and cuddled me to sleep and just as i was half asleep he says “goodnight sleeping beauty...” and i just whisper “Goodnight prince charming...”

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School with the MAGCON boys pt 2

My second day at my new school. i wake up at 6:30 and get ready for my day. i have shower, brush my teeth, comb my hair have my breakfast. i chose to wear a white croptop, blue ripped jeans, black hoodie, boots and a gold pendant. i curled my hair and i did a nice bold wing on my eye i then left the house. i walked to school today while i enjoyed the early morning air. i get to school and walk to my locker to get my stuff out before im interrupted by Nash. “Hey...”

“Hi...” i reply

“are you ok?”

“Yeah... why wouldnt i be?” i say

“you seem a little...tense.” he said

“Im great... honestly.” i say with a warm smile.

“You wanna get dinner some time?  seriously.”  he says as i look into his eyes. they were beautiful i the quickly snapped out of my daze.

“Sorry, i really dont know im... just.. urgh never mind.” i walk away confused. this never happens ive never been on a date...

i walk quickly to where Mahogany told me to meet her. i see her and i run and tell her what happened.

“wow Hamilton Nash Grier asked you to  go on a date?! I dont believe it. girl your to loving for him!” she says sounding really kind and motherly.

“I just stuttered and walked away... i cant talk to guys. other than shaw and my dad.” i say  bit down.

“Hey dont be sad. your beautiful i’m not surprised the boys are going out their minds every time you walk past them!” she smiled.

“What?! how do you know?” i say confused.

“They tell me everything, you would be surprised when you hear what they talk about.” 

i was suddenly more intrigued with our conversation.”Can i ask you a question?”

“What?”

“What does it feel like to have a mum?” i say trying not sound sad or depressed.

“Why would yo- oh, right well it feels amazing, you feel loved, wanted and best of all you feel at home.” she closes her eyes sighs and then opens them and smiles.

“sounds...Nice” 

the bell rings and i have Biology again. i walk to bio with my books. i walk into class and sit down in my seat. i open my books and start reading and writing as the rest of the class enter. as im writing i feel a tap on my shoulder. “You dont have to go if you dont want to...” i hear Nash say. i lift my yes off my work and make eye contact him. “What time?”

“Huh?” 

“What time do you wanna meet up?” i say with a cheeky smile.

“Uhh...urr.. 6;30?” he says his face gleaming with joy.

“Sure where do you wanna meet up?”

“The Bakery on oakstreet?”

“Cool its only a 2 minute walk from my house.”

i return to doing my work.

----The School had to be evacuated after there was a fire in one of the science labs and a bunch of chemicals were interfered with so it wasnt safe enoughfor students to be on campus, so we haad an early finish at 12;30. My dad heard the news and came to pick me up in his car. i go a ride home. As im getting into the car I see Nash smiling at me, i wave and then get in the car. 

“A boy you like a presume?” my dad said cheekily

“Dad! how did you know?! im joking.” 

“hey you can speak to me. im here for you hun.” he said reassuringly.

“Dad you know how you said you will support me through whatever decision i make well... can i go out on a... you know... a... date with a school mate today at 6:30?” i say fearing he might say no.

“Sure! Why not? your a teenager go have some fun and do something. just not drugs or alcohol please.” 

“dad why would i do any of those things im a good girl!” i say with a sheepish smile.

~~~~~Getting home~~~~~

I got home and got the juicer out of the cupboard and juiced some carrots, apples and raspberries it doesnt taste that great but it does wonders when it comes to not having an achy tummy. I look through my bag and find a note i open it up and Nash wrote his number in it. I added his number to my contacts. i then sat on my bed and opened up my laptop i started editing some pictures that i took with my camera. i was super into photography. i then plugged my headset in and listened to my music. i pick up my phone up from my bedside table  and text Nash. 

Hey its me Zahra Xxx

Hey:) X -N

I’m so bored what you doin? -Z

Not much just looking after my sister-N

My dad was so chill when i asked him if i was allowed out.-Z

That was you dad?! he looks too young to have kids-N

I was born when he was 17 and im not ashamed to say i was an accident.-Z

your mum?-N

Never met her. she died giving birth to me.-Z

im sorry...-N

Its ok. i don’t really have any feelings towards her, i never ke who she was. but my grandparents say she was great.-z

Can we meet a little Earlier?-N

Sure i need to go now, see ya! XXX-Z

i put my phone down and walk to my cupboard and choose my outfit. i wore a dark blue knee length dress with white heels but a small heel since i didnt need to be any taller.  then flipped my hair to one side and used a bobby pin to keep my hair in place. i then put on some lipbalm and sat down listening to music and texting Shawn and Mahogany for the next 2 hours.

-two hours later-

The door bell rings at 6:00. i take my phone and run downstairs to answer the door. i open the door to see Nash wearing a tux with a smile on his face. “Hi” he looked so handsome.

“Hey i told you i’d be early”

“Wait how did you get my address?!”

“Jack J”

my dad comes out of the bathroom and puts his hand on my shoulder and says “Go have fun sweetie!” i take my bag and slip my phone and keys in. Nash shakes my dad’s hand and they both smile.

“Sir your daughter is beautiful you know that.”

“I know...” replied dad, I smiled at my dad and then linked arms with Nash as we start walking. we went  to an Italian place, it was ok but it wasn't that much of a big deal but it was a cute place for a first date.  It wasn’t boring at all , in fact it was fun, we were talking about so many things, i actually felt like i was getting close to someone but That’ll all be gone when i have to get on that plane and fly somewhere els for the next 2 semesters.we leave the resturant and as we were walking we came to a halt in the middle of an ally way as the sun began to set he pushed me onto a wall and lifted my chin up. i stared into his wonderful blue eyes. i knew exactly what was gonna happen, i turn my head and close my eyes. “im sorry..” i sigh “I let you down. i led you on. and i shouldn't have...”

“You don’t have to do anything if you don’t want to.” he says to me in a calm sweet tone.

“Maybe i do..” i kissed him passionately. He lifted his lips away from mine and gently tucked  my fringe behind my ear. i just couldn't stop grinning. he walked me home and just before i went into my house i gave him a peck. and then ran up to my room. i then opened my bedroom window and waved him goodbye.

i then ran back downstairs to the living room and hugged my dad.

“papa, i love you!”

“Why are you so happy?”

“Guess” i say mockingly

“MY BABY GIRL HAD HER FIRST KISS!” he shouted in joy!

“Quiet down dad!” i say while he hugged me.

“Don’t grow up too fast! your gonna make me feel old.” he said with a bit of sadness in his voice.

“I won’t papa im always your lil girl:)”

“I dont mind if you grow up but just dont leave me”

“DAD STOP SAYING THESE THINGS!!!!!!!!!!”

i give him one last hug and return to my room. I look through my bag and get my phone out and texted mahogany and shawn about the “date” that i had. something was off they were acting weird.

I go to sleep at 10:30 and wake up at 11:45. i heard knocking on my bedroom window. i grab a baseball bat from the corner of my room and turn on my lamp, readying myself for combat. i open the curtains and see a shadow. i then saw the a face. it was Nash. I open the window and let him in. he comes in and locks the window behind him he then looked back in awe. “What are you looking at?” i say confused.

“you look good, really good.” he says

i look down and face palm realizing my choice of nightwear was quite revealing to say the least. i went grabbed my robe and put it on.

“ shit i forgot what are you gonna do? tell your pals you saw me wearing short shorts and a bra” i said slightly panicking

“Im not gonna say a word but damn!”

“ok shut up. why are you here?!”

“I got locked out. my mums gonna freak if she finds out i haven’t got my keys. i have my duffel bag with my clothes in it”

“I thought you didn’t have your keys. how did you get the duffel bag?”

“I went to Matt’s house i left it there a while ago... there is no school tomorrow, they’re still fixing the labs up.”

“What do you expect me to do?”

“I just thought i can crash the night here..”

“My dad is gonna kill me but im gonna be nice and let you sleep on the floor.”

“Your amazing!”

“im gonna go put on a  jumper.” i leave the room and walk to the bathroom. i slip on  a jumper and walk back into my room to see Nash wearing sweat pants but he was shirtless. i blush and get some blankets out from my cupboard. I then lay them out o the floor making it comfortable enough to sleep on. i then jump onto my bed and laid there trying to sleep. “You wanna come up here... its more warmer and cmfortable...”

“Yeah..if its ok with you?”

“Yeah..”

he got on the bed and went sleep hugging me close. i fell asleep in his warm embrace. it was so easy. 

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School with the MAGCON boys pt 1

hey im Zahra. im 15 born and brought up in London, England. my father travels alot for work which means i have to go with him, my mother isnt here with me anymore she died while giving birth to me but ive learnt to stop thinking bout her as much...im proud of my father, although i may have been an accident he doesn't treat me like one, he treats me amazingly he’s been there for me through thick and thin, hes taught me so much and when we’re traveling from country to country ive been enrolled in so many classes, including self defense classes to help myself become a stronger female as a whole. I have the grades of a high level collage students so im basically never behind on my studies. my father had me at age 17 with my mum who was 16 at the time, they had the most beautiful love story yet so real, my father a man of his word, a gentleman he charmed my mother and they had me. after i was born my father didnt know what to do so i lived with my grandparents most of my life seeing my father come home from school tired but he always smiled when he saw me.

more on school. I was moving to a highschool in Chicago,i was looking forward to it but i felt that i would be very left out, i was the dork. my hair was black, long, thick and wavy with a few red highlights, my eyes were dark and my lashes were long. i had a very petite body, tiny waist and small hips. i was a decent height only 5′7ft  one could cal me innocent and i agree its ture heck i haven't even had my first kiss yet!

the school i went to was more of a local school with the usual crownds from what i could tell. There were the Jocks, popular bitchy girls, the nerds, emo’s and the “freaks”. i walk in with my Dad i wore blue jeans, a white top, bomber jacket, white vans, a small hand bag and my huge geeky glasses. i didnt wear much make up just a bit of eyeliner and highlighter. We were given a tour of the school, it wasnt that big but i knew i was still gonna get lost.

i get to my first lesson late. as always. I knock on the door and enter. “oh, and who must you be sweetie?” said the teacher at the front. 

“hello, im Zahra im new here.” i say, my British accent standing out.

“ok hunny! go have a seat and ill be right with you im Miss Dina,”

I Nod and take a seat at the back. that was the only available seat. i adjust my glasses and get a pen, pencil and ruler out of my bag. i look around realizing there were a few familiar faces. That’s when it hit me, i realized there were a few viners here, Matthew Espinosa, Jack J and Shawn Mendes. i look to my left and  felt a tingly sensation in my stomach as i took a closer look at who sat right beside me. Nash Grier. OMFG i felt really shy but then i snapped out of my shock and returned to what the teacher was saying.”Now Class who can Name the three enzymes needed for digestion along with their uses?”

my hand shot right up in the air without me thinking. “Yes Zahra?”

“the first enzyme is Carbohydrase this breaks down starch and sugar, the second is  Protease this breaks down proteins and lastly is lipase this breaks downs Fats and Lipids.”

“Excellent!”

i felt everyone’s eyes piercing at me i could feel my face slowly becoming a tomato. i felt really panicky and queasy, my panic attacks were bad but i didnt need one now of all times, ive barley been in the classroom 20 mins. i started to lower my adrenaline levels and i slowly returned to my normal state. I was given an exercise book to write in but i didnt need it. my grades were amazing and i already knew all of this. but i still wrote as much as i could. it was about 5 mins until the lesson was over so i started packing my things up.i  reaching my bag and looked at my planner, it was a small planner but it was sentimental to me it had pictures of me and my classmates in France, Germany, Beijing and Poland. I missed them but i cant get attached to people too quickly. its not good for me at all. I flip through the pages to see if i had any empty time slots that’s when  i saw a particular name pop up (my dad writes stuff in here to keep me on track) says the Jhonson family are coming for a meeting. i mean it was cool but i was praying that it wasn’t the family of the person who i think it is. I her my pencil drop on the floor and i lean under the table to look for it. “uh.. here.” i look up and Nash was holding the pencil. i take it from him and put it in my bag. “Thanks...”

“So your british?”

“yeah. well i havn’t seen London in 6 years...” I reply.

“ what do you mean?” he asked me.

“I Travel alot, so i go to a few different schools in different countries, but im usually home schooled if my dad is free.”

the bell rings and our class was dismissed. I head out of the classroom and start walking through the hallway, i see a crowd of guys. i push through them minding my own business before i hear a few murmers. “Thats the new chick!” another voice said “Damn she looks finee” i hear another say “She’s probably a hoe” i feel anger build up inside me waiting to be released. but i just keep walking faster and faster. 

----Later----

It’s lunch time and im alone. So much for being socially awkward. I had a lunch packed in my bag, Salad and water along with a small can of pringles. i look for somewhere to sit but everywhere was taken... i felt like shit but then again Having no one to leave is better than having a ton of friends who ill have to say goodbye to. I feel a light tap on my shoulder i turn around and see a girl she looked a little older than me but definitely around 16 or 17. she had curly hair and freckles.”Hey! I haven’t seen you around are you new..?” she says with a bit of cheer in her voice. “Why yes im Zahra, and you are?” i ask her. “My name is Mahogany LOX im 16 you ca Call me LOX, your accent is adorable!!”she squeals. “Thanks...” i say. “come sit with me and Shawn.” 

I followed her to a table where she sat down next to Shawn. she introduced me to him and we all were like bestfriends.. the vibes they were giving out were so warm and positive. I talked to them about life and school and about who i am and what i like to do. i felt like i could talk to them for hours. We ended up swapping numbers at the end of lunch. my last lesson of the day was calculus which meant more stuff i already knew. 

----end of the day----

it seemed like Mahogany and Shawn got along with everyone but i seemed to be the awkward one. i was walking out to the parking lot of the school when im approached by Jack G. “Hello there...” 

“Uh.. hi?” i say

“So you wanna met up some time late and go to my place?” he says with an arrogant tone.

“Sorry im not Netflix and chill sessions and by the way i dont think im gonna let you into my pants that quickly.” I say.

he attempts to put his arms aroung my waist before my fighting instincts kick in and i grab his hand and twist it. he   shrieked in pain and moved aside.

“So i see your playing hard to get...” he says with a little bit of annoyance in his voice.

“No i just dont fall for fuckboys like you.” i walk to my bike and cycle home.

i get home and put my helmet on a little table by the front door. “PaPa are you home?!” i shout across the house.

“im in the kitchen hunny! go put something nice on we have guests coming over!” My dad says.

“Ok dad but promise me you wont bring up anything to do with my grades” i say.

“how can  i not when i have such an amazing daugher?” he asks.

“whatever dad im going upstairs see ya in 5 mins”

i run up to my room and look through my cupboard. i choose a pastel blue dress with a pair of black tights and i put my hair up in a pony tail leaving my fringe out.. i run downstairs and join my dadin the kitchen. i sit on a chair and watch him cook. “so how was your first day?” he asks.

“a bit awkward at first but actually pretty good. and i made two friends.” i say with a little grin on my face.

“Any boys?” he asks with a bit of sarcasm in his tone.

“Dad if there were i would’ve told you, but as i said for the millionth time, guys aren’t into me im ugly.” my cheer went down and he turned around and hugged me.

“my beautiful girl is growing up thinking she’s ugly? im a terrible father!!!”

“No papa your an amazing dad!”

“My baby girl is growing up... i will always love you. you look just like your mother. you know that right?” i see his eyes glisten with tears.

“I know dad... i know. now dont cry otherwise im gonna get emotional!” i say trying to put a little bit of humor into the situation.

“Well i thnk ive passed on the wrong genes. have fun dealing with being an emotional wreck.” i see him smiling and i giggle.

the door bell rings and i run to answer the door and i see a woman with a smile on her face standing there holding the hand of who i presume was her husband, and right there i saw...Jack.

“Mr and Mrs Jhonson?” i plastered a fake smile and shook their hands. my dad came from no where and escorted them to the dining room. I walk tot the dining room and get my phone out before my dad starts speaking. “This is my daughter Zahra shes just been enrolled iin our local Highschool.”

“She’s in my biology class” Says Jack. 

i look up and look back down at my phone and start texting Mahogany.but no reply. i go up to my room and sit downon the windowsill as i watch the clouds slowly shift out of sight. i sit there for about 20 min until i hear knocking on the door.i walk over to the door and open it. “Hey..” jack said leaning on the door frame. 

“What do you want?” i say slightly annoyed.

“just wanna chill...” he says trying to act cool.

“Well i have better things to do and besides do you really wanna end up like your friend or worse?” i say slamming the door.

---- 2 hours later ----

Finally they’re gone and now i can return to my normal life. i get ready for bed and put on my “more revealing” night wear on. i fall asleep at 9:30 setting alarm for 6:30.