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My hands itch to draw but I have no inspiration

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It hurts knowing that there are people that I cared so much for that I don't want to introduce to things that I enjoy. Because they hurt me and never apologized. I doubt they even know what they did.

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If i had any power i would want it to be the ability to freeze time and bring people and objects with me like I would freeze time at 3 am and just go places no consequences. What is there to fear when nothing can move. Read all that fan fiction and also get your homework done. Go spend time with my cat for hours. Probably commit some crimes while I'm at it because fuck why not. Who can stop me. Who would know it was me. I would probably forget to unfreeze it at some point and stay inside for days until I noticed oh fuck that's why nobody has checked in with me yet.

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I think this might just be some desprite bid for control at this point.

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How do I tell someone I'm suffocating.

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Sometimes I think about just blending out into the silence but then I remember how it feels to look back on that last conversation and think about what you could have done. I dont want to not read a friends text because what if thats the last one you get and you dident look. Or what if you don't see it and then you're gone and they forever have that unread message sitting there waiting for something that will never happen. Somtines I just want the silence.

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Me: I don't want any relationship or sex. Icky.

Me: Sees a pretty girl*

Me: ok but....

Me : Garbled noises*

Me: 😍 pretty

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I just want to hear her tell me a story again.

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I'm just so tired all the time and nobody gets it.

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I used to say my friends names like prayers.

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Let me twist your bones to become my garden

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An adorable little hognose doing their best to become a ring 

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I have work at 9 tomorrow. Why am I awake? ADHD. That's why. Fuck.

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Its been a day folks... I keep thinking about people in the past. I miss Anna singing and practicing the guitar when it was just us in the room. I would turn off my music and listen in. Moments stretched to years.

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Me trying to go to sleep:

Me 4 hours later still awake:

Me @ my insomnia: welcome back I guess?

Also me:BuT i HAvE wOrK toMOrrOw?!?!?

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Enjoyed the shit out of printmaking class can't wait to do more soon!

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