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this feeling of guilt is KILLING ME.

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“inactive blog” i say as i make 3 new posts

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doing the one thing i said i didn’t want to do.

i can never stay on my word, i always have to break it to please others

thats what i am, a “people pleaser”

i make people laugh and smile

no i dont?

i make everyone worry and upset

i’m so alone, yet i have so many friends

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i’m done.

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only now you start to care

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i’m done.

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i hope

you are DISGUSTING.

i hate you and everything you do,

i hope everything bad happens to you,

i hope you never succeed,

i hope you burn in HELL

you don't deserve happiness.

you don't deserve anything.

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FCUK the fact im supposed to stop posting on this account FUCK that

FUCK everyone FUCK EVERYONE

im done IM SO FUCKING DONE YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW

FUCK YOU

GOD I HATE PEOPLE GENUINELY SUCK GO KILL YOUSELF

i NEVER loved you, i never WILL

rhe little times together? NOTHING TO ME.

GOD CAN YOU,

STOP??????????

i genuinely need fo yell and punch something

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hey. this is important.

so, i've decided that this blog might not be great for me, as relying on the internet to let out my emojis is pretty immature, so this blog will be inactive.

if there are posts on here, they are from desperation and loneliness,

" why can't you just delete the blog? " ,,,,, I can't find the password..

so i'm doing this until this blog goes poof, if it ever does,

6 / 15 / 25 ,

G out

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when i cant focus properly because i heard some muffled sounds of stuff falling over so it reminds me of a time

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isolation and ed

everyday I keep telling myself "oh I'm not going to eat" yet I do it anyway, what is wrong with me?

if it was like before, we would be talking right now having the best night ever giggling and kicking my feel like some stupid girls sleepover,

but now it's so,

distant,

i hate it, I don't want to grow apart, but also when anyone else trys to talk to me I shut it down completely because I just,

i hate everyone, and I don't mean that in a angry way, i'm just, gen losing interest in everyone, but I don't WANT to lose interest,

I hate being a depressed slob who cant even describe his own emotions properly

everytime I keep saying "I'm gonna take a break!" "I'm gonna distance myself!" "I'm going to stop talking!"

hahaha imagine I stopped existing lol

not funny

if you aren't there, then why should I be? leaving me to rot

everyone does, I'm used for their own desire and then left to crumble and rot away,

i'm just some kid, to everyone

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my feelings don't matter

I. DON'T. MATTER.

sigh.

waste of my time.

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ahahahahahahahah digital footprint htbrjehvbtrnedkfibrenopkvro;ie

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on here for a reason.

so, if you know me personally and are seeing this, well maybe there is a reason i didn't talk about this ! (there isn't i'm just a loser who has horrible timing.)

oh boy can't wait for another day "people-not-really-caring-about-me-nor-my-problems!"

my heart is so heavy I think i'm

either I'm taking this out of perspective or no one cares!

i'm just some, person, there for when it's needed, like for when you miss your gf or want to talk to me about wanting to scissor your partner, or you want me to comfort you when your venting, or you want to use me to fulfill some trauma you had.

yk if I did something, SAY something, right? yet, when I don't do that, I'M IN THE WRONG? but if you don't do it, oh it's just, MAGICALLY OK?? pick a fUCKING SIDE DIPSHIT

get some sense knocked into ya.

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potential deletion of this blog,

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please just talk to me i’ll do anything

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what am i doing?

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when people want to break it off with me, or when i’m in the wrong,

i try so badly, to salvage what we had,

sitting alone in my bed, 8 pm,

sinking feeling in my stomach

trying to salvage something i loved

just to end up alone

.

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always alone,

hm? funny right

god this is so cringe.

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everything reminds me of you.