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sometimes i forget how much happier i am now. even though it feels like personal progress is at a standstill (and boy Fuckin howdy am i an impatient person), i still have a lot more that im looking forward to and actively working towards.

even the highs are higher. its not the miserable "things could be better and im waiting for an unknown time to be able to actually start my life", its a brighter outlook. i have personal projects, i have plans, i have things im working on and making progress in! its kind of great.

two days till my button quail could start to hatch. im very excited-- i do need to build hutches (and before that, i need to reorganize the barn and get rabbit cages set up), but even that is better now. every day im realizing theres nothing stopping me from becoming a better and better person. and my own person.

im allowing myself to trust that im not being constantly observed. that there are times where i am not seen, and i am not thought of. like right now! i am in my own place, doing my own plans, and im allowed to sit in the woods and smoke by myself. thats made a lot of comfort already-- im getting better at existing alone. im able to sit, alone, and know that i have the ability to do that.

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sebastian dumbass but getting better

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i hear one or more screaming creatures in the distance and i cannot identify them. i am not worried but if the screaming approaches i will move my worry inside

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HM. JUST HEARD A FLOCK OF 3 PLUS GEESE LAND IN THE POND NEXT DOOR.

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listen. i know that i cant Fuck Up texting my dealer cause its literally the same script and also I Give Him Money but also catch me gettin that Sweet Anxiety abt it

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my brain is sorta sludgy splitting in half but thats chill...

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i invite you to my house to smoke weed. "the weeds on me," i say, "on one condition. when we're done here You Drink All The Bong water." you stare at me. i continue. "use of lemonade powders or loose leaf tea is permitted but if you even think about putting sparkling water in the bong ill destroy you myself."

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rabbits: culled

weed: out

dudes: texted

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When Will My Dealer Text Me Back

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SCARIER POSSIBLY THAN APPROACHING DUCKS AND CHURCHBELLS: THE SQUEAK OF PLAYGROUND EQUIPMENT. THERES NO PLAYGROUNDS ANYWHERE NEAR MY HOUSE.

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sometimes after taking care of the rabbits me (weed) and my mom (cigarettes) will hang out in the weed shed amd smoke... good vibes,

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boys cant be perfect... i have no gag reflex yet even at babby hits i uhhhh Choke

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honestly the pnf idea of “at least one musical number and one fight scene every episode”.... beautiful writing, dan and swampy,

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guys i hate to be a bearer of bad news but i think im just garbo at smoking weed

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and i give love/ to a lover quite deserving of it

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EVERY TIME I THINK ABT HOW THE UNIVERSE I LIVE IN IS THE ONE W/O MAGIC I GET... PISSED

I WISH I COULD DO SICK FIRE MAGYKS!!! then i wouldnt have to go on Lighterquest every time i smoke lmao