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so far summer is so much fun :-) i love life and im feeling incredibly grateful. EEEK

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ppl r so rude and mean for no reason.. sigh. whenever i’m met with situations like this, i try my best to remind myself that id never be like that to people im just meeting ! 😻 my heart simply cannot. i’m only mean if i know someone is mean to others or me.. but even then it’s kind of hard to do so. sigh. i always have felt like this at various moments of my life. sometimes i feel like ppl like to single me out and play in my face. like im not dumb ik what ur doing 😔 sigh. this is why i dont fw a lot of ppl. a lot of u bitches be FAKE AF AND WEIRD !!!

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also.. hoping i get my period because if i dont.. then i have a problem on my hands.. i do think ill be getting it though despite the slight scare from this weekend

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we’re hitting our 8th month this friday. friday is when i’m seeing him again! we’ll be celebrating that night, and eating pasta at this new spot we found 🤓 i just want it to be that day. i miss him so much 😭😭😭😭i sound like a broken record and i think im just feeling extra emotional with my period coming.

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feeling very sad . pre period hormones are No Joke. i miss my boyfriend a lot. almost started crying while on the phone w him and idk why. just miss him a lot. i see him 5 days out of the week, yet it doesn’t feel like enough 😭 wish we could live together already. i really do. i can’t wait for that day. hopefully it’s here before i know it

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i think this girl in my class dislikes me HAHAHA. honestly.. don’t care. i think i just find it funny 😭 she had me read her lines for her during her speech, but i don’t think i did as well at it as she wanted me too and she’s been giving me the death stare 😭 sigh.. whatever. it’s not my fault she didn’t prep 🤓

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can’t wait to see my boyfriend later!! i don’t attribute all my growth these past few months to him, but he’s definitely helped me tremendously. being loved by him is so healing. very grateful to him and all that he does and for who he is. i hope i can always do the same for him. i love him so deeply, and im so excited for our present moments. also our future of course. but seriously, so grateful for him :’) never thought id meet my person, never knew they’d be out there. but here he is! AHHH thinking about it makes me so giddy. i love him :-)

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woke up feeling grateful. i always try my hardest to remain grateful and in the moment, but sometimes i don’t have to try. i just feel that way naturally. today is one of those days! the universe truly always works in my favor. i’m so lucky, loved, protected, safe, financially abundant and deserving of all things great. I LOVE ME AND I LOVE MY LIFE ! :) through it all

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oh.. just thinking about all that i have to do is slightly overwhelming me. but ive been making steady progress, which is good. i just need to keep trying. which i’ve been doing :-) i also think back to moments in previous semester where id catch up no problem. the difference with last semester is that i just wasn’t doing anything at all. that’s not the case this time. i can do it! i believe in me!

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“If I fully trusted that I am growing into the version of myself I’ve always dreamed of being… what would I stop worrying about? What would I give myself permission to feel, do, or believe today?”

I would stop worrying about the worst case scenario. i think a lot of my earlier years, i experienced plenty of rug pull moments. things would be okay one moment, and then suddenly they weren’t anymore. i’m in a phase where im beginning to forgive and accept my father for a lot of what he’s done. whenever he’d return, it felt as if though he was disrupting whatever stability we had built without him. it’s not just cause i felt that way, it’s simply because that’s what the reality was. chaos would inevitably come when he returned. that’s not the case anymore. i’m realizing i need to let my anger go, ive felt it a lot and i feel like ive finally released that. he’s trying to do better, and he has been. i’ve strayed away from the purpose of this journal entry in way, but it all correlates. the rug pulling was because of him. his growth shows me that bad moments aren’t forever, they’re just moments. they pass. i think life before always felt like doom and gloom, but im in a stage where things feel so light. that’s very different, and scary. scary to accept the good that has been coming my way. i want to accept it, because im worthy of goodness. i want to give myself permission to believe in myself and my abilities, ive overcome so much. i think more than i like to give myself credit for. i want to give myself permission to be proud of me. i hope little me would feel very proud. i think she’d be really happy about where i am today. i don’t just think actually, i know so. it’s all for her :3

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also i’m feeling really good about this coming summer. i think it’ll be filled with a lot of joy, laughter, growth and endless good luck.

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i get to see him today :3 can’t wait to sleep in the same bed as him. honestly feel very sad when i don’t get to

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was spiraling back into negative self talk and self sabotage… we are breaking the #cyclrs. thankful to have a bf who is patient with me in those moments and offers reassurance and unconditional love always. i love him :3

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feeling dumb and unworthy of love again. maybe it’s not for me. maybe i’m too much, too much effort :-)

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wompwomp why do i ruin things haha

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no more people pleasing. i’m living for me.

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seeing someone u love feel so down is so hard. i wish i could cure what he’s feeling, but all i can do is be there.