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To say I hate this f****** life Astra I can't describe it I stayed I just see this f****** fear and even if I tell myself that I don't want to lose somebody I will lose everybody and everybody I will lose I will describe us unnecessary and everybody are describing a necessary I will lose and everybody get away from me and everybody will get away from me will forget me and everybody you forget me I don't remember my death my death will be there I guess happy stay in my life and every happy stay in my life will be that idea death and considering it's New Year's Eve are nearly New Year's Eve I will describe the serious two-sided kazoo lost somebody I lost many

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27.12.2017

It somehow always works out!

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21.12.2017

Would there be a difference if I just disappear , ore kill myself

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05.12.2017

Youre like heroin in my veins

You taste so bittersweet

But I know you'll kill me

So I'll sit here and smoke my lungs away

Trying to find the plot

Trying to stay alive

Trying to find a reason

Not to hate you, not to love you

But gosh you make it hard

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03.12.2017

I will get better, I will have less scars, I won't freak out that often. But for now everything sucks, it's the difference between hell and home he always sings of. I don't know how to get out, butt I somehow will.

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For everyone who thinks I'm not enough

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25.11.17

IT all feels good 💕

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Keep your shit lowkey, dont trust everybody.

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It’s better to have a friend that has 2 chins than a friend with 2 faces.

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Hardcore was my whole fucking world, and then these idiots came and ruined it. I found a safe haven in going to shows because I couldn’t co-exist with the high school jock mentality. Now hardcore IS high school, and it makes me sick. It’s not some fucking trend you pick up and abandon as soon as you’re old enough to go to bars. It was and is my whole life, and if you think that paying $200 for a t-shirt makes you “hardcore” you need to put a bullet in your god damn brain.

Brendan Murphy, Counterparts (via vehementx)

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1.11.2017

Listen Motherfucker  from time to time  we are fine  but as days pass by  i saw your your real face and im disgusted by your ignorance  your selfisch never ending whining  leave me allone you stupid cunt  trust is something  you never understood  and i hope your life  is fucked like your childhood

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may the last months of 2017 be the plot twist you have been waiting for

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25.10.2017

Press : windows + r ;

Type command : "clear emotion cache" ;

: loading... .

System error : your live has crashed , you stupid pice of shit have no time to save all data you've been working the last couple years on. Your body will freeze in 3. 2. 1. ;

System error: fuck you ;

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My therapist, family, and “friends”are so convinced that I am fine/better. That it’s so hard to tell them otherwise. So I just end up lying.

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