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I’ve been doing some thinking and thinking and thinking and thinking and I’ve come to realize.. I’ve never felt prettier than in the moments I caught your eyes staring me down

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you are the sun and i am the moon and my love for you is the stars. i wish you knew that even though you don’t see it, that love is always there for you. you are never without my love.

i wish i knew that the sun and the moon were never meant to meet

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I was about to fall asleep. Finally..

I say I love you to you every night before I do. I hope you know I do

But tonight I wondered

Do you do the same?

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6:44 am

I’m so fucking terrified that I won’t be able to love anyone else the way I love you

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sunrises terrify me because that just means it’s the start of a new day without you

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Its 6:01 am. I should be asleep and I’m okay to go to sleep. I dozed off while looking through social media but now that I’ve put my phone down, I just want to call you. Just to hear your voice. Just to hear your soft breaths as you fall back into your dreams. I just want you. I miss you, but I’m okay. I haven’t had such an urge to call you. Not like this. It’s been so long. I don’t know what to do with myself

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Most days, I think about you and our love. I smile and feel it coast through my veins. I’m home.

Some nights, I think about how you told me you don’t live me anymore, and my memory of you and our love is shattered

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i don’t know how to not love you

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this is how I felt

“Everything I know tells me that I should walk away but I just want to stay”

— Dean Lewis - Be alright

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I’m so mad at you

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they’re not you, they never will be

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The Super bowl was yesterday (technically two days ago bc it’s Monday/Tuesday night at 4:53 am) and I just wanted to share this cute (and now that I think about it, kinda racist >:/) lil moment w you hehehe. We spent the Super Bowl at Jed’s house and his parents remembered that you came to my house to watch it last year and so they assumed you’d be here with us again this year, so Jed’s dad had our chopsticks for u. It’s kinda racist and makes me uncomfortable but I thought you’d find it funny. Hehehe.

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Seeing you is always nice, but talking to you? Talking to you felt like a dream. Not necessarily “love at first sight” type of dream. More of like.. “I’m seeing my old best friend after years apart” dream. I wish we could fast forward to when we’re both okay with our own separate lives and we don’t have to actively avoid each other. I wish that you’re happy. Your family too, I hope they’re happy. I feel like I have so much to say to you. Hugging you felt like.. a heated blanket in the morning when you really don’t want to get out of bed. It’s a common phrase but it truly felt like we were the only two people in the world. I miss my best friend but I’m okay that we’re apart right now, for the better. I’m writing this a few days after it happened because that night ended very poorly for me, but it’s not your problem to deal with and I’m okay with that! Just letting you know that that moment was something I really enjoyed. Okay it’s 4:51 am on a Monday night and I need to sleep. Goodnight Bwyan :) Miss you, love you!!!!!!!!!! God I really love you

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For a second I got really excited because there was a feeling inside me that I’d see you soon. That second passed and I don’t know what made me feel that. Fuck, I miss you a lot.

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I keep having dreams of you!!! Ah!!! This one had your mom in it and it was nice to see your family

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You’re so beautiful, you’re so loved. I know I can’t remind you but I hope deep down you know. I still feel so warm every time I see you smile

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I dreamt about you the last two times i slept, fuck