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june 6

25 hrs f@st3d 👍

mac and cheese, chips, cheese squares and cake at a f*cking grad party i let myself l0se c0ntrol at

estimate of 2200

376 bvrned

start: 6:30

goal: 72 hrs

tomorrow:

~~ eight m!les

~~ four bottles of water before 4pm

~~ b!nge watch ginny and georgia instead of f00d (can we talk about how relatable abby is)

also i have no clue what words to c3nsor but better safe than sorry ig

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r3c0v3ry w3!ght g@!n<<<

i’ve l0st 10 p0vnds and i still look so b!g. i have to l0se more for vacation in a week.

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i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

i’m f@t.

if i don’t l0s3 tw3nty p0vnds before college im kms

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are you hvngr¥?

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ch3w slowly.

tiny b!t3s.

ch3w thirty times.

pause before b!t3s.

only eat from a plate.

never finish the plate.

water in between b!t3s.

€ount everything.

w@lk after m3@l.

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may 30

37 hr f@s*

protein shake

strawberries

texas roadhouse rolls and mozz sticks

chicken, corn, green beans

nicks ice cream, ghirardelli, raspberries, cream

2300

57 bvrn

start f@s* 7:45

TOMORROW’S PLAN

brek: yogurt, berries, matcha

walk/run six m!l3s

lvnch: frozen meal

d!n: bibibop kale, chicken, chickpeas, corn, carrots

des: outshine bar

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some random sp0 on pinterest ☺️🫶🏻💋🪽

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march 29

f@s*t3d 27 before bed

bvrn3d 700

🫶🏻

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So you ate like a pig and made yourself sick again, big deal. You can’t let that drag you down, try again, harder this time. One bad day won’t undo all the hard work you put in, so don’t give up.

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may 27

f@s*t3d 25 hours then…

b!ng3 of 3199 😪

pretty clear that the b/p or b/r cycle is NOT working out very well so i’m going to up my c@l intake to 500-1200 after a three day water f@s* to cleanse.

a f@s* probably isn’t the best way to combat this mistake buttttt doing it anyway to show myself i can be disciplined instead of addicted 😀

bvrn3d 204 like it matters 😑

i’m not rvnn!ng tomorrow but i will thursday, and friday im going to texas roadhouse with my grandparents so ill f@s* for now so that later i can order what i want without r3str!ct!ng.

i’m disappointed in myself for creating a vicious cycle, but i know it will take practice and i have to remember my goals. i forgive myself for my mistakes but i wont forget the icky feeling i have right now. urges are just a thought.

start f@s*: 6:00pm

wednesday plan:

- nap as much as possible, watch tv, hot bath and read

- work from 3-8, then go home to bed

thursday plan:

- four mile run no more no less

- two mile walk no more no less

- otherwise napping, hay day, read, tv, tiktok, wtv

FRIDAY plan:

- four miles

- one hour bath with reading, move marathon

- texas roadhouse with gram and gramps! 😊

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dad gave me cash to eat and i bought this skirt instead ☺️

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may 26

b/p twice at 9am and 11am after 18hr f@s*

f@s*t3d the rest of the day

572 bvrn3d

unsure of # c0nsvm3d

may 27 goals:

f@s* with lots of naps, w@lks, and screen time

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may 25

twenty three hr f@s*

cucumber 50, prot shake 160, prot bar 210, fibr one 70

490 total 50g prot

862 bvrn

start f 2:20

happy with today 🤷‍♀️

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may 24

another disappointment…

not proud of today but again, the shame in posting a third b!ng3 is motivating. also honestly still pretty sh!tty but not my worst b!ng3, especially since it’s technically the recommended intake for m4!ntenance, and i beat a lot of cr4vings i had after 2:48.

c4ls consumed: 2,020 (pvrg3d some)

c4ls bvrned: 493

hrs f4sted before b!ng3: 17:35

new f4st start time: 2:48pm

w3!gh: 155.8

tomorrows goals:

24 hrs, break with protein shake, cucumber, fibre one

4 m!le run or more

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i’m gonna post any time i have a low because it keeps me accountable.

telling myself i will post a daily review whether it’s good or bad keeps me motivated and helps me to learn the hard way with a healthy amount of shame because i do not want to post about a b/p or b again.

i look forward to sharing p0unds l0st and h0urs f4st3d and sharing that with a community is far more motivating and i deserve to lose this fuck ass “recovery” we!ght.

it’s fucking embarrassing to post my intro and rules then the first godam day im not even following them. the embarrassment of these couple days must be motivation to keep going and l0s3 as much as possible in 3 weeks.

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worst day ever

may 23

burn3d 600 c4l0r!3s

b/p once

just b rest of evening no p

vacation in 22 days. i will l0s3 20 p0unds in 3 weeks.

tomorrow goals:

• f4st whole day

- sleep until 9 then bedrot til 11

- walk dog for one hour

- target followed by another walk

- grad party, no food. talk to everyone, eat nothing.

• 5000-10000 steps 🤞🏻