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So, i understand that women need there contort zones, but when they are consistently like, well you have to be better than my comfort zones for me to let you into my comfort zone.... But then put 0% effort into even trying to understand mine. Its laughable, down right imbecilic. When i'm trying to build towards a partnership and you ladies are stating that my thoughts on the matter are moot just because. No real logical reasons given...ever.

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So, i think I'm the good guy, i do good things, act like a good man. But.....i don't know anymore, I've done so much bad in bad situations that I've hurt the ones that I've loved. I had a chance to be with the one woman that i love with all my heart and what did i do. I kissed her, then told her i can't leaving her crying heart broken, and every time i see her my heart sinks from the pain. The pain i gave her and the pain i have now. Now nothing i do can do will bring us together. I'm broken. And i don't have the ability to put myself together, to pick up the pieces that are scattered around. I have to take care of my mom. Why us adulting so hard. I'm failing her, failing myself losing my mind and the house I'm trying to save to help my mom and i just can't with my life.it gets harder and harder everyday. I'm isolated, i have friends but they aren't mine, they are friends that are friends of my family, no real friends that i have made because i seemed to push everyone away or the friends i do hang out with i do sporadically, and then i just stop. Because, i get tired, tired of going to them, tired of being the one that initiate, exhausted of the exhaustion.

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My father passed away a couple years ago, and i keep getting mail addressed to him. companies need to get there act together, this is like a kick to the balls everytime it happens. Ohh yes I'd love to sign up for a life insurance policy that will help with the burial of an already dead man......... -_-

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So, i just got confirmation that people i put my trust in that lived with me and my mom, whom has severe seizures and bad health, stole from my house when they moved out in the middle of the night a few months ago. I hope i don't see either of them again, but if i do the guy my cousin, that right my cousin stole from me, better hope he doesn't try me. I can't believe my cousin stole from family. Some people in this world just don't deserve happily ever after and seeing their relationship, they are getting exactly what they deserve. I may be single but i have a better moral center then both of them combined.

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Is it bad i fail N.N.N. on the first day?

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Sigh, why do i have to have these feelings. Why am i stuck knowing I'm lost in life? I am stuck in a hole of feelings trapped in a vice. i wish i Didn't feel this way, wish i didn't love you the way i do. But i can't help how i feel, or how you make me smile with just a message. i love you and unfortunately i think i always will, but we will never be together. Not the way i wish.

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Reblog this if you are literally suprised when people find you attractive.

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When you think/realize you are no one's type, just become the random dog man of the neighbor hood. Have like 30 animals they'll love you for you.

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Thoughts?

Been thinking for a while, been wondering about your smile. I realize I'm not your type, i realize i can't help how i'd like. Can't change my feelings, you always cut through my shielding. I wish i could give you the world, but I'm stuck drowning in a whirl. I hope you find happiness and you find someone that treats you like you are his everything, for i can't fill the void, i can't help, but i always hoped i could.

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Of all the things i think you are always stuck on my mind, when i lay down to sleep i see your eyes stareing into mine, as i lay in the dark all i wish for is you to be beside me. I wish i had the courage to admit my feelings. But, how could i with the mess of an existence i have? For those of you that follow or see, I'm sorry just gotta rant somewhere.

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When all you do is imagine her smile, her scent, and her warmth from cuddling and you just want more, intoxicated by her touch.

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Anybody wanna chat?

Hello random people coming across my post.

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