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i forgor how to draw Ragatha but that does not stop me from sketching her in the Portrait de Madame X pose [under da cut]

Maybe ill redraw that sketch into more detailed piece but for a warmup it`ll suffice

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Surprised to see not that many people talking about a lot of Jax's anger coming from a loss of bodily autonomy?

That struck me as a huge thing from this episode. From first the vegan joke to how he gets noticeably distressed from it at the bar, to realizing his tail is gone, even the maid outfit section, Jax clearly doesn't like being controlled. He tends to roll with the punches during adventures, or finds ways to have fun otherwise, but when its his own body being changed against his will, thats when he gets actually upset beyond the point of masking it with being an ass

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Don't recall seeing people call Steven SU "fake" the way they do Ragatha even though they're both kinda fucked up in a similar way:/

Oooh I can't show any other emotion than cheeriness and compassion, oooh my mother was an asshole. Ooooh and now everybody's gone and moving on and I'm left there unable to find myself because I've been oriented towards choosing Others over Me my whole life. Ohh, I SO don't want to be a burden.

Since when is trying to be nice to other people seen as on level grounds with actual bullying? Or a toxic trait? I understand that she might be annoying to some and that she doesn't let anyone close which makes it harder to get to know her but come on! I just can't grasp what's the problem with a character who's genuinely trying to help others.

I really didn't want to make this about "perception of female vs male characters" and "hotness bias" but the more I think about it, the less sure I get :(

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ČESKÝM NEBINÁRNÍM LIDEM SE OPRAVDU ŘÍKÁ “ENBÍCI”?? JÁ MYSLEL ŽE JSEM JEDINEJ KDO JIM TAK ŘÍKÁ

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Following the release of TADC episode 5, I have made a liiiiittle change to my AU.✨🐸🤝🐰✨

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I cannot stop thinking about Episode 5 of TADC because Ragatha is, however unintentionally, one of the best examples of how isolating and difficult it is to interact with the world as an autistic person I have ever seen. To the point it genuinely makes me sad to think about her. I need to make a post expanding on this at some point but rn just. The way everyone assumes there’s some sinister hidden meaning to everything she does and says but she’s literally just trying to be nice and she doesn’t understand why it’s not working. The way she tries so hard to make connections but it constantly falls flat, she says things that hurt without realising how or why. She follows the rules she’s been taught will make her friends — she’s kind, she’s forgiving, she’s accepting and apologetic when she messes up, but for some reason it’s just not working. She tries to mimic other people, she tries to laugh at past experiences, tries to open up about her past like everyone else is doing, but now everyone’s uncomfortable and looking at her like she’s crazy and she doesn’t get it!! She doesn’t get it!!! Jax is a jerk and he’s mean to everyone but for some reason Pomni likes him and she doesn’t get it, she doesn’t understand! Pomni tells her it’s okay to be a jerk sometimes but Ragatha doesn’t like being mean, she wants to be nice to people, but she does it anyway, she gets mean like Jax and Zooble do but now Pomni’s looking at her like she’s done something wrong but she just did what she asked her to!! She doesn’t get it!! At the end of the episode everyone goes off into their groups and Ragatha is left alone, after having tried so hard to make friends and fit in and make people like her, she’s still alone, and everyone thinks she’s weird and unapproachable and she just has to give up and accept that she is inherently unloveable. Her evil alter ego tells her she’s going to die alone and nobody loves her and the only thing she corrects her on is the fact that they can’t die here. The few that might like her when she’s around don’t miss her when she’s gone, because there’s nothing to miss. Ragatha has spent her whole life systematically stripping away everything that makes her different and unlikeable in order to make herself more palatable to others, and in the process she has made herself a personalitiless blank slate with no unique identity for others to latch onto and appreciate. She has nothing to add to any conversation because she’s too afraid of being disliked to have a memorable personality beyond being generally polite and nice. And just. God. Someone get this girl some noise cancelling headphones and a therapist on speed dial, being this good of a representation of what it’s like to be autistic, especially to be an autistic person with trauma, is not good for the soul. That final shot just destroys me right in the heart. My poor girl.

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no words, just angst

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the new episode was great, I love these three

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i kissed the brick before i threw it dw

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fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

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jax had some amazing expressions in the newest episode, i just had to draw them

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I felt inspired

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my name is caine i am your bitch

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i’ll tear you to pieces

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New episode was cool