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Welcome back!! I hope you're able to relax after your [REDACTED] ^^

Thank you! I'll certainly try :D

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i was cleaning up my computer and woah. a lot of those WIPs are actually good? and mostly done??

i'd want to read the books again before i actually finish up and post them because i've probably forgotten a lot of canon, so i'm not promising anything, but...

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shěn Jiǔ | Original Shěn Qīngqiū/Yuè Qīngyuán Characters: Yuè Qīngyuán, Shěn Jiǔ | Original Shěn Qīngqiū Additional Tags: Curses, Hurt/Comfort, i shamelessly torture yue qingyuan in this one, Angst with a Happy Ending, One Shot Series: Part 2 of Qijiu Week '23

Wordcount: 2.408

With the older generation out the door, Yue Qingyuan finally decides to tell Shen Qingqiu the truth about everything--only to find he physically can't.

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Shěn Jiǔ | Original Shěn Qīngqiū/Yuè Qīngyuán Characters: Shěn Jiǔ | Original Shěn Qīngqiū, Qiū Hǎitáng, Qiū Jiǎnluó, Yuè Qīngyuán, Goose | Geese Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - The Soulmate Goose of Enforcement, Soulmates, Goose-typical violence, Crack Treated Seriously, Hurt/Comfort, Additional Warnings In Author's Note, QiJiu Week 2023 Series: Part 1 of Qijiu Week '23 Summary:

The Geese come at a time that neither Shen Jiu nor Yue Qi considers ideal. They make it work.

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I have two works lined up for QiJiu week. No spoilers for the second, but I can tell you that the first one will be a Soulmate Goose of Enforcement AU :3

I'm looking forward to seeing everyone's entries!

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Liǔ Qīnggē & Yuè Qīngyuán Characters: Yuè Qīngyuán, Liǔ Qīnggē Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Yue Qingyuan's Shizun Slander, Scars, Hurt/Comfort, YQYweekend, Pre-Canon Summary:

The knife gleamed in the lantern’s light as it laid on the table, still quivering slightly from where Yue Qingyuan had put it on the table with perhaps a little too much force.

“I… what?” Liu Qingge asked.

“I couldn’t reach my back on my own,” Yue Qingyuan repeated, and his smile didn’t falter for a moment. His hands did not shake. “Surely Liu-shidi would be willing to assist?”

(Or, Yue Qingyuan's Shizun has ideas about what must be done in order to rid Yue Qingyuan of his scars.)

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It would be kinda funny if some kind of truth serum that should reveal Shen Qingqiu fails because Shen Qingqiu's internal identity is so firmly "Shen Qingqiu" that it just doesn't work even though Shen Qingqiu expected to be exposed

Like he's super stressed about it and angsty and afraid but when it happens it's just like "I am Shen Qingqiu"

It would work on Airplane but only kinda because Airplane would go on long rants but only Shen Qingqiu would understand what the fuck he's talking about. To everyone else he's basically speaking gibberish and demanding that people call him daddy for some reason

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So we know SQQ uses The Wives/The Women as a stand-in to talk around his attraction to Binghe, but another thing SQQ does is use the Original Shen Qingqiu as away to talk around his own personality, (negative) emotions, and even self-esteem, either by contrasting himself against him, or by finding similarities. It makes a lot of sense, since he's inhabiting the body of the original, the person he needs to, to a certain point, imitate to survive.

From the very beginning, SQQ finds similarities between o!SQQ and him, and says he doesn't get why someone with reputation, good cultivation and the biggest sect backing him up would be so envious of other people's potential to the point of scheming against them. The Original Shen Qingqiu was not satisfied with the things he has and instead of idling his life away, like Shen Yuan in his previous life, he's digging his own grave.

When rummaging through the carriage interior, SQQ finds a lot of stuff that was frankly unnecessary to take on such a short trip, like "five or six different tea sets". And noting this, SQQ thinks,

No matter that in his past life he could have counted as a wealthy second-gen, he still hadn’t been this pointlessly indulgent in his pursuit of first-world affluenza, okay? (Chapter 1: Scum)

He's saying, "unlike him, i wasn't needlessly indulgent".

Other example is when he compares his own competency to that of O!SQQ. He does this a few times in the first volume.

The original Shen Qingqiu’s skill at facing down demons should have made this quest as easy as killing a chicken with a knife. Shamefully, the knife had failed to even hit the chicken. In seconds, Shen Qingqiu discovered something that made his mood even worse. (Chapter 2: Mission)

in other words, "unlike the original goods, I am so uncool right now". But the best thing about this part is that... it puts SQQ in a bad mood. I want to call attention to the fact that he feels shame for failing, for being being weak when he should be strong. Shame doesn't come out of nowhere.

Rereading this volume and noticing this few hints of his character and emotions really challenge the notion that SQQ/SY is just an easygoing person. There's a lot of mental gymnastics being performed so he doesn't have to confront his own emotions. If the unreliable narrator tells me he's easygoing, should I believe him? I am questioning everything he says until it's confirmed with his actions.

Now, going back to how he uses o!SQQ to talk about his own competency, and most important, how he feels about being competent, strong, etc.

Surrounded by the cheers of the sect’s disciples, Shen Qingqiu attained a complete victory in the first match.

At this moment, Shen Qingqiu realized why the original flavor had clung to being a poser like it was his lifeline—it was unbelievably satisfying. (Chapter 2: Mission)

Why is so hard to say "being cool feels so so good"? Being admired, strong and capable is something he comes to enjoy, and I wonder about Shen Yuan, and what was his life like. Why does he have to use o!SQQ to open a sentence about why being "a poser" feels good. He won't say he himself is a bit of a poser, or that it feels good to be cool.

The original flavor pushed Luo Binghe onto the battlefield because he was shameless! He didn’t care about the sect’s reputation! He hated Luo Binghe to the bone, enough to want to vicariously torture him via the hands of demons!

The current Shen Qingqiu didn’t share any of those three motives! (Chapter 2: Mission)

SQQ is not shameless, in fact there's a lot of shame in him. He cares about the sect's reputation, even if he's been in PIDW for, what, a few months? And most of that time he spent in a cave cultivating. I wonder why he latched himself to the sect so quickly? As if a part of him always wanted a place to belong to, be part of, play an important role, a place he could contribute to.

“Do you think that the burden of peak lord will be too heavy, Qingqiu?” asked Yue Qingyuan.

The original Shen Qingqiu would most likely have suspected that Yue Qingyuan was trying to undermine his authority or something of that sort. However, the current Shen Qingqiu knew that Yue Qingyuan was genuinely worried about him overworking himself and damaging his health(...) Chapter 3: Favor Points

He's saying: "unlike him, i don't misunderstand people", which is... clearly not the truth, but he doesn't know that. SQQ thinks he has a pretty good grasp about people's intentions and that he's good judge of character.

All that said, the quote that actually made me connect the dots about how SQQ invokes the original to talk around his own emotions is this one, when they're facing MBJ:

“Unusually inferior talent,” [Mobei-Jun] said. “Foundation and techniques inflexible. Leave.”

Shen Qingqiu said nothing.

He wasn’t some unmatched genius in the Human Realm, but his talent was still at least one in a thousand. And Cang Qiong Mountain’s foundation and techniques weren’t inflexible, they were orthodox! Mobei-Jun still described them as he would a pile of garbage. If the original Shen Qingqiu had heard this, he would have coughed up three liters of blood and run away crying to make a voodoo doll. (Chapter 4: Conference)

But wait, that first sentence kind of sounds familiar, doesn't it?

From early on, he’d known that even if he idled the rest of his life away, he’d never want for food. Perhaps due to this carefree upbringing, devoid of either competition or pressure, he came to believe that ranking in the top ten of a competition was good enough, so long as it had more than ten people. (Chapter 1: Scum)

He's saying "as long as I score among the best I don't have to be a top ranker". Like, if he's comparing himself to others, he won't feel bad because he's not at the bottom. He's average, and average is good, right? Like "at least I passed the test, I don't need a top score" kind of thinking. It feels like something he'd tell himself to feel better about his own performance.

The middle child, saying that as long as he has an average rank everything is fine? Hahaha. Yeah Ok, Shen Yuan. (wtf are you hidinnnng)

But I want to draw your attention to this sentence

If the original Shen Qingqiu had heard this, he would have coughed up three liters of blood and run away crying to make a voodoo doll.

because it's so fascinating how SQQ is mentally incapable to admit to himself that his pride has been hurt by MBJ's words. He feels insulted, and he channels that emotion by projecting his feelings on and picturing what the original would feel in that situation.

Oh, but zy, isn't this just SQQ's humorous running commentary on everything that happens to him? Maybe he's not really upset about what Mobei-Jun said about him having "unusually inferior talent".

Nope. He's really, really pissed off

Just as the sword array was about to come down like sheets of rain, Shen Qingqiu snarled within his heart.

I’ve done my best, but he still thinks I’m low-level trash, so what can I do?!

How loathsome! If I have to die, couldn’t it at least be in a better-looking way? After being stabbed with hundreds of black swords, I’m going to be a sieve! Who could bear to look?!

He SNARLED in his heart. MBJ didn't call him low-level trash, he did that himself. He's so pissed off that he's going to die in such an uncool way that will leave him looking like an ugly pulp of blood.

Is this really a guy that doesn't care about his reputation or how he looks to others, that calls himself an easygoing person????

This is a guy that has had to repress every emotion related to his own pride and self-esteem. And this is something he was doing in his previous life. Again, what the fuck was going on with the Shen family?!

I don't think this is the way a man that is satisfied with his lot in life would think.

Shen Qingqiu was a man of few needs; he would have been satisfied just idling away to a ripe old age. In that way, it wouldn’t be that different from how his previous life had been going.

youre LIYING. I'm not going to trust anything you said about yourself EVER AGAIN. you were so satisfied to "idle your life away" you died from eating expired yogurt! you were clearly repressed and depressed and unhappy and pretending to be okay!

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I'm lowkey obsessed with your multiple transmigrators idea, would you be okay with me giving a try at writing it? No pressure, and of course I'd give credit if you're okay with it. Thank you for your time!

Go ahead! I hope you enjoy it :)

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Imagine if without-a-cure had acted up when Shen Qingqiu tried to self destruct in Jinlan city and he just ended up hugging Luo Binghe

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 人渣反派自救系统 - 墨香铜臭 | The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Luò Bīnghé/Shěn Yuán | Shěn Qīngqiū Characters: Shěn Yuán | Shěn Qīngqiū, Luò Bīnghé, Xiǎo Gōngzhǔ | Little Palace Mistress Additional Tags: Bodyswap, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Remix, Humor, Angst, (usually mixed together à la svsss), POV Shěn Yuán | Shěn Qīngqiū, MXTX Remix 2023 Summary:

Shen Qingqiu, an escapee Cang Qiong Peak Lord, wakes up in the body of his former disciple, Luo Binghe.

His to-do list: fake his way through interacting with Huan Hua Palace disciples, avoid thinking about where Binghe's consciousness has gone, and settle into his new life as soon as possible.

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This fic has now also been remixed into a Shen Yuan POV by ever_and_anon! Go check it out, it's amazing <3

So Shang Qinghua, right? He is the Peak Lord of An Ding. He has no peers other than the other Peak Lords, who only ever visit when they need something from him. His students come to him for questions about the quarterly imports of rice and nothing else, Mobei-jun beats him black and blue for no reason Shang Qinghua has been able to determine, and all he wants is a fucking friend.

So one night he takes a pen to paper, imagining a world where he has a companion. Someone who understands him -- so they must be a transmigrator, or at least a seer. They must put up with his whining, and know things about his hobby of writing, and you know, this is wish fullfilment in the first place, so why not make them thoroughly Shang Qinghua's type, cold and dignified.

A little embarrassed, Shang Qinghua imagines a person that could never exist in real life. Someone who would have cared about his writing. Back in his first universe the only people who read his story were the people who were there for the smut alone. Nobody else.

Maybe, he thinks shamefully, they would have even left detailed criticism. A shiver runs down his back, cheeks flushing red. Wouldn’t that have been something.

So he puts down the last words of his dumb little story and promptly passes out from exhaustion.

The next morning he wakes up to the news that Shen Qingqiu had a Qi Deviation.

(I just love the idea of Shen Yuan being another one of Shang Qinghua's characters. Wouldn’t that be so interesting?)

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What a wonderful day to remember that Shen Jiu would bash all of our heads in with a rock for calling Yue Qingyuan “Qi-ge”

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hi!! are you open to people picking up your posted ideas/prompts/concepts? because i've been eyeing so many of your stuff and i dont really want to steal something im not allowed to, so!

Oh yeah sure, do whatever you want! It's happened once or twice before and every time it's so so cool to see how people branch off from that base and turn it into a world of their own :D

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We’re happy to announce the YQY Weekend Event. Held from July 7th to July 9th.

Below are the prompts and rules.

If you have any questions feel free to send an ask or a dm!