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Full moon in Aquarius

I’m frustrated. I decide I don’t like men anymore, only very effeminate men and women with dark hair and dark eyes, the universe sends me endless blonde men w blue eyes and short hair, ew and one woman, also a blonde w blue eyes. I used to be open to lighter features but they freak me out now and remind me of demonic, weak gene‘d, recessive flaws, no offence but no. I went on like 2 dates with a male software engineer with these features and I was like nah. I like dominant genes like mine. Unevolved Recessive gene people are insecure a f and take it out their jealousy on dominant gene ppl in narcissistic ways, i.e racism. Idc what society brainwashes us into, I like what I like. Lighter featured ppl are draining a f too and I can’t deal with it. They remind me of the Kabbalah’s husks, mistakes, the qlippoth. I am of god and the sun. Melanated beauty.

narc is still in my life and I need to ditch him and replace him with someone who kinda looks like him, makes music, plays an instrument, talented, beautiful, but not a narcissist. I need an empath like me. Someone who actually cares about me and is spouse material, faithful, loving, there for me, and we can grow, get famous, make lots of money. My power couple partner. Been listening to Beyonce’s upgrade u and I’m like yesss, other than the semi problematic lyrics, I am for this vibe. “partner, let me upgrade u.” Let’s upgrade each other. Where are you??? Tonight is the full moon in aquarius and I manifest you in my journal using the 369 method. I’m ready for you babe. Come into my life 💕

I’m ready for it all: wealth, fame, love, friends, music, talent, beauty, fun, epic times, laughter

I want to reprogram my subconscious so I get the life of my dreams. Remove all the b.s problematic trash my parents put in there. Fuck them. I hate them so much.