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Weigh-in

Down by 7 pounds now! :D Even with the ‘cheat’ yesterday. I think this is gonna go well; being able to indulge now and then, and being a little more moderate on the carb restriction, could very well be something I can make a permanent lifestyle change on. <3 Feeling good about this!

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Week 3

It’s been 2 weeks so far! Things are going fairly well, though I’ve decided to back off from Keto a little and focus on LCHF, just trying to minimize my carbs but not trying to cut them out completely. For one thing, it’s easier to stay with something that’s not quite as restrictive; for another, I’ll definitely still lose weight doing LCHF, because I was probably eating close to 500 carbs (at least) before. 

But the other thing is I don’t want to risk losing weight so fast that it fucks my back up. That’s not unprecedented. 

Last weigh-in I’d lost 4 pounds. I’ll probably ask Gaylynn if I can use her scale again today. Not sure if anything will have changed, especially since I indulged in a cheat day yesterday (had some chocolate dessert from a restaurant--so sweet but WORTH IT). But it’ll be nice to keep track. 

Still feeling good about this whole thing. Also finding that the indulgence sort of renewed my commitment today. I think indulging now and then is really important to keep morale up. That way, when I see something I want but can’t have, it’s not “never,” it just “not right now. Later.” 

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Day 7

Almost a week in! Things are going okay. I don’t have a scale so it’s hard to know if I’ve dropped any weight, though I’m aware any weight I’ve dropped so far will likely just be water. Still, as Jamie said,those are still pounds I’m not carrying.

I haven’t given up soda yet. I don’t want to take away my one big indulgence on top of everything else just yet. But I think after leadership bench I’ll start trying to switch to tea. 

More details later! Still at it though. <3

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Day 2: sleep woes

It’s the morning of day 3, so I’ve had 2 nights of keto-sleep. 

The first night was awful. After my (admittedly lovely but pretty much involuntary) nap, I had the worst night of sleep I’ve had in ages. I couldn’t drift off; my RLS was acting up like crazy, and every time I DID manage to drift off, I’d be awake again in an hour or two needing to pee. Bronwyn had an equally rough night. 

Last night wasn’t as bad. I didn’t nap, and I let myself drift off when I felt ready (which was at about 9:20pm). I fell asleep without much trouble and stayed that way until around 3:00am, when I woke up to pee. But after that I didn’t get much more rest. I was up until 5am reading fic and watching videos, unable to drift off; at 5am I managed to doze for a bit, but the alarm woke me up at 6:05. I snoozed it, dozed until the second alarm at 6:19am, and here we are. 

Apparently one side effect of Keto is not sleeping as much. Excess energy makes it unnecessary. But the first week of keto has also been known to cause some sleep issues while the body is still in its adjustment period. I’m not too worried, especially since last night was leagues better than the night before, but I’m eager for this part to be over. 

Also eager to get more into the swing of what I’m gonna be eating. I’m feeling a bit bleh with my usual stuff, and I know I am quickly going to get sick of eggs. I’ll have to start getting creative fast if I don’t want to burn out. But I’m up to the challenge! 

I think I’m also in desperate need of some fat bombs. I don’t know that I’m getting in as much fat as I should be in my meals, so a fat bomb supply would help with that. I have a recipe picked out and I’m planning to try to grab the ingredients after work today.

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Day 1

Started keto today! Not much to report; it’s just day 1. But it was fine? Had the muffin eggs for breakfast, the hamburger casserole stuff for lunch, and kielbasa with steamed cauliflower and broccoli for dinner. I feel fine; I was exhuasted after work and took a 2-hour nap but I woke up feeling great, not the way I normally feel hungover after naps. 

I also only needed one pain pill today. I’m not gonna kid myself that one day of keto is responsible for that, but I’m also not going to look a gift horse in the mouth.That’s one more extra for Orlando, whoo! 

Bronwyn got a headache but when I gave her a cup of beef broth it went away immediately. Me 1, Keto Flu 0.

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getting started

this is just a blog for me to track my progress with a few changes I’m making in my life. Here are my reasons, just to remind myself: 

1) I’m tired of hurting all the time. My back pain is out of control and it’s taking over my life. 

2) I’m tired of not fitting anywhere. I’ve gained so much weight in the last year that I can’t even fit into normal places, like restaurant booths or airplane seats. I’m tired of worrying every time I go to a theme park that I won’t fit on the rides, or worrying that if I go see a play the theater seats will be too small. I want to fit into my life. 

3) Clothes are too. expensive. 

4) I want to rock aesthetics I can’t at my size, like layering (I get overheated) or styles I just can’t afford right now. 

5) I’m tired of making my fiance put her life on hold for me because I’m in pain. 

6) I deserve to feel better!!! 

There are lots of other reasons but those are the biggies. None of them have to do with feeling ashamed of myself, or feeling like I am an embarrassment to myself or others as-is. I’m done trying to shame myself into losing weight or getting healthier. I’m fine as-is and I’m already a good person. 

But I want to feel better. I want to live a more pain-free life. And I deserve to do so. This is my effort to make that happen. 

Here we go!