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My experience based on my birth chart placements

Nobody asked, but I saw someone doing this and I found it interesting. (I’m Brazilian and English it’s my second language if there is any mistake).

Saturn in 1st house: I never had self-esteem. I was like the weirdest kid ever in terms of appearance, and even after some years, when things got better, I couldn’t just trust I was worthy. I love myself today, cause I can see my qualities (I’m a venus dominant), and I developed I lot of things. But, after all, I still have Venus square Saturn in the chart ruining my confidence. In terms of appearance I have a good bone structure with bony shoulders. I already had tooth caries twice, so I’m not lucky with that.

Psychologically, I have a feeling that people thinks I’m too serious or boring sometimes. My life was always hard and I have barely been happy. It really feels like there is something heavy in my back and I have to carry this without having any joy. I can’t even understand other's people happiness. This is not a rule for everyone with this placement. I believe this is karmic, cause my dad is a Capricorn sun and I’m an Aquarius 🙃.

Pluto in 7th: I don’t know shit about it, but my 7th house is also Scorpio, and I’m worried. I have 10h stelium, but I just wanna write about the bad placements. So, people doesn’t like me. Anywhere I go people bully me or treat me mean with no reason. I have no friends. My last relationship was intense and almost destructive, but I’m fine. The only friends I had were extremely disrespectful to me, they were always bullying me and I had to heal for the horrible things they said to me and about me.

Mars in 11th: I think this it’s the another reason for my loneliness. This is a good placement, but the friends I had were always trying to fight me. It’s hard to develop a good friendship with that.

Moon in 12th: My Taurus moon here makes me wanna stay in my house for several weeks. I love being alone, in home, doing whatever I want without having to deal with anyone. These are the moments I’m the happiest. My battle here begins with my intrusive thoughts. As an Aquarius mercury/sun I think too much. These thoughts made me develop severe anxiety. The anxiety and the extreme loneliness combo makes my life too hard to handle. I relate to much with Megan Thee Stalion (a beloved and admired Aquarius woman) when she sings about her anxiety and depressive thoughts. But I’m in therapy and I believe that, one day, everything is gonna be alright.