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THIS.

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God me when???

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Death doesn't scare me but you know what does, those, 'what if's' and 'maybe's'

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him hehe

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lived my whole life in guilt bc i thought i was responsible for people's feelings. newly realizing that other people are responsible for their feelings and reactions, even if they make it seem like i'm the problem. a lot of the time it really has to do w them and their own emotional regulation. i can't keep thinking i'm not allowed to have space bc of other people's insecurities. like i literally refuse to dim myself. other people are responsible for their feelings just as i'm responsible for mine.

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All I want is someone to look into my eyes and see that I am not fucking okay and to tell me that it will be fucking okay. Is it too much to ask?

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I wish, I wish and I wish things were better. I wish you were kinder to me and more understanding. I could make things better if I wanted to, but I don't wanna leave you behind. I don't wanna leave the life we made together behind.

- Harmony

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take care of yourself today

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warm white aesthetic

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“I want in fact more of you. In my mind I am dressing you with light; I am wrapping you up in blankets of complete acceptance and then I give myself to you. I long for you; I who usually long without longing, as though I am unconscious and absorbed in neutrality and apathy, really, utterly long for every bit of you. ”

-Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena.

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take care of yourself today

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🤝🏽🌎.

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I’m out of my calling first, texting first, always wanting to be included, people pleasing, insecure, worrying, overplaying my part, giving my all while getting nothing in return bc I love someone, caring what people think, not embracing the style I like bc of the fear of being stereotyped by people stage and Honestly….I’m proud of myself.

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I was a dead sea and yet I wonder how you longed to drown in me. Someone like me.

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