I respect poetry so much because it does what I cannot do - say so much with so little.
When I have something Much to say, it takes me just as many words to say it. I say it with words that are each of them bland and common, unimaginative by their lonesome, with the hopes that if I stack so many together and squeeze a single drop of Much from each that it might flow into something meaningful.
When I have something to say, I say it twice. I say it three times. Because the first or second may not have captured the point. Because I do not trust myself to express the full essence saying it just once. Like just now, those last two sentences. I’ll repeat myself a third time for good measure - because I do not say it right just once or twice.
Poems say things in only a half, only a quarter. They choose single words worth more than ten of mine. I want to know how their minds shop for words. I want to distill myself like poets do. I want to trade in all my too many common words for the way they use an extraordinary few.
If I keep writing this, I’ll write it forever. I’ll explain myself again, as I have already, as I’m doing now. With more and different other words, with the hope of saying myself fully, like how all the hatched and messy wanton scribbles from a pen might finally color in a page. I want to change that. I want to not rip the page I’ve oversaturated by the tip of my pen.
I’ll start tomorrow, maybe, to explain myself less.
i.
His name is a prayer.
Don’t say it carelessly.
Run your tongue around the letters.
Dig your teeth in the vowels.
Put it under your tongue.
Swallow it.
Keep it.
ii.
Pray for him while you wash his feet.
Keep his wrists tight in your hands.
Bite in his veins.
Listen to his prayers and repeat them.
iii.
If he asks you to burn, do it.
iv.
Kiss him on the corner of his lips.
Taste the sweat of salvation in the wrinkles of his skin.
Dried wine and old blood.
Divinity.
v.
When they hang him on the cross, don’t look back.
Don’t weep.
Don’t pray.
Bite your lips and count the silver coins in your hand.
I've decided to do a few fursona adopts. I'm honestly so proud of them!
#1 Sunset ($10): Sunset Dragon
#2 Confetti ($10): Birthday Cake Doggo!
#3 Adjule ($15): Skeleton doggo, a little more expensive because of the complicated patterns
#4 Payton ($10): The bright blue Peryton
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IF YOU WANT AN ANTHROPOMORPHIC VERSION OF ONE OF THESE: It's an extra 5 dollars for me to draw them in anthro form since the design will be a bit different and you will recieve both the regular drawing and the anthro drawing.