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“Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.”

— Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

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The moment you decide you are worthy. The universe starts to agree.

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“I like how sleeping next to someone means more than sex sometimes, the body’s way of saying ‘I trust you to be by my side at my most vulnerable time,’ you have no defenses when you are asleep, you tell no lies”

— Eric Shaw

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I miss you, Dad..

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“Just remember that sometimes, the way you think about a person isn’t the way they actually are.”

— John Green, An Abundance of Katherines

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Maturity is not seeking revenge. It's healing and moving on, so you don’t become like the people who traumatized you.

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Takot ako sa mga patay na oras.

Sa mga sandaling tumatahimik ang paligid, nababakante ang isip, nabubuhay ang sakit. Walang pasabi, papasok ka na lamang muli sa memorya at paulit-ulit ipapamukha sa’king hindi ko pa kaya...

‘Di ko pa kayang magsimula,

pagkatapos mong mawala.

Palagi ka paring kasama sa alaala at sa bawat paghinga.

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Since you have passed,

I have developed an affinity for anything that reminds me of you.

anything that gives me a reason to believe that you are still around.

..and maybe it's just me, looking for a reason to not let you leave this world entirely,

But all I know for certain is that I haven't stopped looking for you after all this time.

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“I love those random memories that make me smile no matter what is going on in my life right now.”

— Unknown

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“I think a lot, but I don’t say much.”

— Anne Frank

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“Let’s raise children who won’t have to recover from their childhoods.”

— Pam Leo

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To the Daughter Who Has to Wake up Fathers Day Without Her Daddy,

I get it.

I get that he will be the last thing on your mind when you went to bed Saturday night, and he will be the very first thing on your mind when you wake up Sunday morning.

I get it.

I get the broken heart, the lump in your throat; that physical ache deep, deep down in your belly.

I get it.

I get the wanting of him; the needing of him. I get the longing for even

just one more moment with him.

I get it.

I get that pang that your chest feels when the phone rings, and your mind fleets for even just a moment when you think it could be him.

I get it.

I get that yearning for just one more conversation, just one more piece of advice, just one more comforting hug (because is there anything better than a daddy hug? the answer is no).

I get it.

I get the fake smile that you will wear, the forced laughter that you will have, the "Yeah, I'm okay. Thanks for asking" that you will respond with on that day.

I get it.

So, Daughter Who Has to Wake up Fathers Day Without Her Daddy,

While on that day you may feel more alone than ever,

Please know that you are not.

Because this daughter right here, the one who has to wake up on Fathers Day without her daddy?

She gets you. xo.

Via Love Always, Heather (ctto)

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“To the ones who still believe in dreams: Chase them. Chase them until youre out of breath. Then, keep running.”

— Unknown