abn0rmal-butterfly

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

the issue is when youre mentally ill and you randomly say i love you people assume youre about to kill yourself

not yet friend im just reminding you how much i care about you

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

im proud of you :)

mmwah

I did it... i got out of bed.... and changed...

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

i think id feel much prettier if someone used me as their muse

that would be incredibly flattering

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

hey girl

Yearning for connection!!!! Yaaaaaayyyy

I need to be held

Guhgghrgrhrhehh

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

I won’t do anything I promise

sorry

please don’t worry

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

sorry if I disappear one day

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

i need to stop im just going to go on a downwards spiral and nobody even gives a shit

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

does it ever get better or will i feel this way forever

why is it hard to enjoy myself even when im with the people i love

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

i just want to be able to smile without still being sad

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

couldnt god have at least made me a little bit more normal when making me

maybe get rid of a little bit of the depression so that i can enjoy being happy without the underlying feelings of dread and guilt weighing down on me constantly saying that im easily replaceable and should just kill myself and carve open my flesh

you know just. just a little bit

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

i don't know why you all stick around when you could so easily find someone better

but even so, please don't go

i don't want to be alone

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

there’s a train track near my house

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

if i WAS going to kms id overdose cause bleeding out would take too long and jumping leaves too high of a survival margin and i dont have a solid beam to hang a rope from but i wouldnt kms because i dont want to deal with the consequences if i survive

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

tumblr gave me a page that was just suicide and mental health hotlines and it wouldnt let me off unless i closed the tab is this a sign

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

they call me the follows one person around all night-er

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

I want to be picked up bridal style and be held and rest my head on someone’s chest

[abn0rmal-butterfly]

"the internet isn't a replacement for human connection" well you apparently have never met my mutuals