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I just wanna say bc I KNOW you're somewhere on tumblr, to the teenage girl who attended Take Your Kid To Work Day at an office building in Ontario, Canada circa 2013 and had a conversation with a middle aged woman in which you showed her your Black Veil Brides fanart and fanfics and ship content and told her about different fanfic tropes including a/b/o verse bc she happened to know who Panic! at The Disco and Fallout Boy were and thus you felt the need to show her your bandblr ship art, that was my fucking mother and I had to clarify all that to her including looking my mother in the eye and trying to explain a/b/o verse without sounding like a lunatic.

It's been 10 years and I still regularly sent evil energies in your direction. Since you'd be probably two years younger than me and thus legally an adult now, please know if this post reaches you it's on sight.

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sippy sip

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How should I be afraid of shadows that I see moving in the dark?

Are they any more of a threat to me than me?

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I've been here.

Selfish but loyal, through every heart break and tragedy.

When your affections wax and wane.

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fyi if you do figure studies, the croquis cafe guy is a trump supporter so here’s some figure drawing resources that aren’t that: 

senshistock sketch tool

senshistock’s deviantart (queen of queens tbqh)

fatphotoref (password protected, you can dm the creator for the password or ask me but i will only answer if i can see by your blog that you are an artist)

figurosity (free, kinda wild)

jookpub stock

photoref.org (paid packs, run by jenn ravenna tran, so you’d be supporting a woc artist/filmmaker!)

scott eaton’s bodies in motion (paid subscription and kind of pricy but good if you want to spend some time Really Focusing on Anatomy)

posespace (big library, also paid)

drawthis channel on yt

anatomy for artists course on proko (pricey but good)

always gotta mention schoolism

books:

force: drawing human anatomy

morpho books

figure drawing for artists: making every stroke count

andrew loomis books (ALL FREE!!!)

constructive anatomy (haven’t personally read this one but heard it’s good)

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“Flesh is heretic. My body is a witch. I am burning it.”

— From Anorexic by Eavan Boland

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I want to walk off a bridge

I want someone to tell me i dont have to stay

I cant afford to get better, we dont even know if anything will make me better

Let me out of here

Nothing feels good, nothing makes me happy, nothing makes me feel comfortable or safe

Ever

It's all too much i cant fucking take it any more

I hate feeling like this

Like there's a pressure against my chest, but simultaneously there's nothing inside

Have no passion, no drive

The runes were wrong i have no fucking future

Im not good at anything, I never have been and I never will

Why keep pushing against a wall that wont fucking MOVE

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Oh good! It's back!!

With a vengence

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VINTAGE ROBESON POCKET KNIFE | LISTING

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credit to @gbrltvrst for the 5th one !!

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