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Tied Up in Bliss: My Shibari Beach Adventure

There’s something uniquely poetic about ropes—how they bind, but also how they free. Shibari, the Japanese art of rope bondage, has always fascinated me. Rooted in the traditions of Hojojutsu, a martial art used to restrain prisoners in feudal Japan, Shibari evolved into a sensual and aesthetic practice. Today, it's celebrated for its intricate knots, flowing patterns, and the connection it creates between partners. And, as I discovered one unforgettable evening, it’s also great for... beachside awkwardness.

It started innocently enough—just me and a girl I’d been seeing, a rope or two, and the soothing crash of waves. She suggested trying Shibari in the open air, and honestly, how could I say no? The idea of being wrapped up like a gift under a moonlit sky had its appeal. We picked a secluded stretch of sand, the kind of spot you only find after walking far enough to question your life choices.

With her hands deftly looping and tying, I felt a mix of exhilaration and calm. The salty breeze, the gentle pull of the rope, and the laughter as she teased me for flinching when sand got involved—it was a moment of pure connection. I’ll admit, there was something magical about being vulnerable and bound, completely trusting her.

But then came The Moment.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw movement. A couple, clearly out for a romantic beach stroll, appeared on the horizon. We froze. Well, she froze. I, being tied up, had no choice in the matter.

As they approached, I braced for judgment. Instead, they just smiled. The man gave a little thumbs-up, and the woman giggled before they continued on their way, whispering to each other. I wasn’t sure if they thought we were performance artists or just a quirky pair of enthusiasts, but their reaction made me laugh. It was a beautiful reminder that life—and Shibari—isn’t always about perfection; it’s about embracing the unexpected.

Since that night, I’ve embraced my love of being tied up. Shibari is more than an art; it’s a journey into trust, connection, and, apparently, a good sense of humor. Next time, though, maybe I’ll check the tide charts and invest in a “Do Not Disturb” sign.

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All dressed up and nowhere to go… except deeper into temptation. Locked, loaded, and waiting for instructions.

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Sex life

I'm trying to figure out what happened. We were very open, talked about kinks, fetishes, we tried a lot of things.

Don't get me wrong.

Lot of sex, or at least enough in my opinion. Or not.

Navigating changes in sexual intimacy and desires within a relationship, especially when you still have a strong desire for sex but don't act on it with your partner, can feel confusing and isolating. Many people in committed relationships seem to experience similar shifts over time, and there are often a mix of factors—psychological, relational, and personal—that can help make sense of it.

Routine and Familiarity: Long-term relationships can bring a deep level of comfort and connection, but they can also lead to sexual routine and predictability. With routine, the novelty that often drives sexual excitement may diminish, and sexual encounters can feel more like an expectation than an exploration.

New Desires and Personal Exploration: My interests and kinks have evolved, and I'm discovering desires that may not align with the sexual dynamics me and my partner currently have. Kinks like femdom, chastity, pegging, crossdressing, or bisexual exploration are intense and often require a high degree of trust and communication to explore with a partner. Many people fear sharing these interests, worrying about how their partner will respond or if it might disrupt the dynamic they have. But I already had that. Don't know what's wrong...

Sexual Shame or Fear of Judgment: When we develop new interests, especially those that deviate from what we’re used to, we may feel embarrassed or hesitant to express them. Sometimes, the fear that a partner may not understand or accept these interests can lead us to keep them private, which may lead to a lack of intimacy if we feel we’re hiding part of ourselves.

Comfort with Solo Sexual Expression: Masturbation, especially with fantasies or preferences I may feel are unique, can feel like a safer, lower-pressure outlet for sexual satisfaction. The solo nature of it allows full control over fantasies, exploration, and pace without fear of judgment, which can be reassuring when your desires feel complex.

Possibly Unresolved Feelings in the Relationship: It’s not uncommon for couples who love each other deeply to experience some barriers to physical intimacy, often stemming from unrelated issues like stress, unresolved resentment, communication gaps, or even small misunderstandings. If there’s any underlying emotional tension in your relationship, it can impact your desire to connect sexually, even if you do feel love and desire for your partner.

Need for Open Communication: If you’re interested in exploring these desires with your partner, opening up a gentle, honest conversation can be powerful. It’s not easy, and it might take several discussions to build comfort on both sides, but open communication about sexual needs is crucial for a satisfying sexual relationship, I'd say. Starting small—perhaps sharing a fantasy I think she might be open to or asking if she has any new desires herself—can create a bridge for deeper sharing over time.

Each of these factors could be contributing, and it might be a blend of them that is influencing my current feelings. Working with a therapist or sex counselor, even if it's just individually, can provide support in exploring these desires and opening up with your partner in ways that feel safe and constructive.

În concluzie, vreau să ne futem iar amândoi

Haide vino înapoi

Să

Fim iar

Amândoi

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My first boobs

Growing up as a man, I always felt there was something unique about my self-expression, something I couldn't quite place. It wasn’t about conforming to traditional gender roles or expectations—it was about being true to myself. For years, I harbored a quiet wish: to have boobs. Not because I wanted to transition into a different gender, but because it felt like an important part of how I wanted to present myself. To me, having boobs felt empowering, comforting, and most importantly, aligned with my sense of self.

The idea of boobs on my chest symbolized a deeper connection to my personal identity—a blend of masculinity and femininity that I had always felt but rarely discussed. I would think about it often, wondering how it would feel and how it would change my relationship with my own body.

After some time, I made a decision: I was going to get my first pair of fake boobs. I spent some time considering the implications, how it might affect my life, and how others might react. But ultimately, I realized this was about *me*—about feeling whole and confident in my own skin.

When the day came, I was filled with excitement. I looked in the mirror, I couldn't stop smiling. There they were, soft and full, sitting comfortably on my chest. They felt right. They felt like me.

In that moment, I felt an overwhelming sense of liberation. My chest, now with a feminine curve, felt natural in a way that I hadn’t anticipated. I knew that for many people, this might be an unusual desire or even confusing. But for me, it was the completion of an internal narrative that had been unfolding for years. I wasn’t trying to be someone else; I was simply adding a new dimension to who I had always been.

Fake boobs helped me feel more connected to my body, my identity, and how I wanted to engage with the world.

This journey is mine, and I’ve come to realize that people will react based on their own perspectives and experiences. What matters most is how I feel—and I feel fantastic.

Wearing my fake boobs has allowed me to break free from the rigid constructs of what it means to be a man. It has given me the confidence to embrace both my masculine and feminine sides, reminding me that gender expression is fluid and deeply personal. It's about allowing ourselves the freedom to explore, to redefine who we are, and to express that identity unapologetically.

My first pair of fake boobs is more than just an accessory—they were a symbol of self-acceptance and personal evolution. They helped me become more attuned to the full spectrum of my identity and allowed me to confidently navigate the world as the person I truly am.

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Embracing Unique Desires: Why I Love Golden Showers

In the realm of personal preferences, everyone has unique tastes that bring them joy and fulfillment. For me, one such preference is the enjoyment of golden showers. This intimate act is about more than just the physical sensation; it’s a deeply personal and visual experience that I found particularly thrilling.

I love golden showers because they offer a combination of sensory and visual stimulation. It's an intimate act that builds a strong sense of trust and connection between partners.

For me, the appeal lies in the freedom and excitement it brings. There's something incredibly liberating about it. It’s a unique way to connect with my partner on a deeper level.

By openly embracing and discussing this preference, I hope to encourage others to explore their own desires without shame or fear of judgment. It's important to communicate openly and ensure mutual consent. When both partners are comfortable, it leads to a more fulfilling and intimate experience.

As society grows more accepting of diverse sexual preferences, I'm trying to help to break down stigmas and promote a more open and understanding dialogue about intimacy and desire.

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Crossdressing: Why KIND I Love It

Hello, dear reader! Today, I’m excited to share with you why crossdressing is a passion of mine. For those who may not be familiar, crossdressing means wearing clothes traditionally associated with the opposite gender.

For me, it’s not just about clothing—it’s a form of

self-expression, freedom, and fun.

First and foremost, crossdressing allows me to explore different aspects of my personality. Each outfit is like a new character, offering a fresh perspective and a chance to step outside my usual boundaries. It’s a creative outlet that lets me experiment with styles, colors, and fabrics that I wouldn’t normally wear. Whether it’s a chic dress, bold makeup, or fabulous heels, each piece adds a new dimension to my identity.

Crossdressing is also incredibly liberating. In a world where we’re often boxed into rigid gender roles, putting on a dress can feel like breaking free from societal expectations. It’s a way of saying, “I define who I am.” There’s something exhilarating about challenging norms and expressing myself in a way that feels true and authentic.

Another reason I love crossdressing is the sheer joy of transformation. The process of getting dressed, doing my makeup, and stepping into a different look is like a mini adventure. It’s a chance to escape the everyday routine and indulge in a bit of fantasy. The excitement of seeing a new version of myself in the mirror is always a thrill.

Moreover, crossdressing fosters empathy and understanding. Walking in someone else’s shoes—literally—offers a unique perspective on the experiences of the opposite gender. It’s taught me a lot about societal pressures and expectations, making me more compassionate and open-minded.

In conclusion, crossdressing is more than just a hobby—it’s a celebration of self-expression, freedom, and joy. It’s about exploring new facets of who I am, challenging societal norms, and embracing the beauty of transformation. So, the next time you see someone stepping out in an unexpected outfit, know that they’re not just dressing up—they’re living their truth, one fabulous garment at a time.

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Fetish: chastity cage

There's ... the masochistic thrill of not being able to get off.

I started wearing a male chastity device out of curiosity, after reading about other people’s experiences online.

Rather than feeling sexually repressed, it’s given me a kind of freedom.

The fact that an erection can no longer arise and also masturbation is effectively prevented, gives me all power over my desire. The duration of such a game is quite variable – the penis cage can either be used only for a limited period of a few hours to the Tease & Denial, i.e. the excite and refuse to support, or even be worn over several days and weeks in the form of cuckolding or a relationship that involves no sexual intercourse. Usually I'm wearing the cage for a few hours.

The varieties are subject to a huge bandwidth and are limited, of course, not only on pure BDSM relationships. Even as an occasional erotic toy can be a penis cage use outstanding and brings a whole new kind of pleasure to light, which is based solely on the desire and the knowledge not to touch yourself, but always to rely on the will of the partner.

When we hear the word "chastity" we probably think about the Middle Ages, and the metal cages that men would supposedly force their wives or daughters to wear to protect their "virtue." In fact, there’s some debate among academics about whether chastity devices were widely used during this period, or even if they existed at all.

But today, chastity devices are certainly real. There are literally hundreds of products to choose from on specialty websites, from metal devices with a lock and key, to smart devices that can be controlled via an app. Chastity kink is a broad spectrum, ranging from foreplay, where a person might abstain from sex or be locked up in a physical device for a short period of time, to a full blown lifestyle, where the (literal) keys to a guy’s sexual freedom are controlled by a partner for days, weeks, or even months at a time.

Almost all of these devices are for men. So while chastity may have started out as a way of containing and controlling female sexuality (or, at least, as an elaborate cultural joke about controlling female sexuality), today, chastity has taken on a very different meaning.

For a lot of men, gender norms can lead to huge pressure to behave in certain ways—and a kink like chastity can be a safe escape from that.

It comes, in part, from a desire to give over control, to escape from your role. One of the reasons this kink is so popular, but still taboo, is that we’re afraid of that dynamic, we’re afraid, still, of female control and dominance.

I discovered chastity by accident while browsing a porn site. I quickly realized that I was interested in taking a more submissive role during sex, and that relinquishing control could be a great release. The kink seemed like the perfect way to explore those things, but it took  a while to work up the courage to tell her about that. 

At first, I can't say that she liked it, she thought that that device was hurting me. I never talked again about that, but I'm still using that toy from time to time, and, meanwhile she accepted my fetish. She even pegged me several times, with my chastity cage on. The feeling was unbelievable, to be totally under her control.

Opening up about a desire can be difficult, particularly if the desire goes against common social standards and you’re not sure how your partner will respond.

I could feel my cock trying to get hard, skin pressing against the plastic tube, trying to find any space to grow. There was nothing, no space, no room. I like that feeling, and also the "after" feeling, when "he" is released.

With the cage on, I played 2 times with our magic wand, and I was able to cum inside the cage. The feeling was awesome! Something new, something hot!

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În care observăm cum "A", care își dorea să devină biolog marin, este ispitită spre plăcerile lumești, spre o viață păcătoasă.

"A" venise să observe de ce unele alge nu fac sex.

Dintr-o dată a auzit o voce suavă care îi spunea "Hai fată la un Bucegi, și să ne simtem bine".

Când și-a întors privirea, a văzut ispita: o damă brunetă, superbă (nu intru in detalii)! Și un pet de 2,5L de Bucegi, aburit de rece ce era.

A simțit broboane de sudoare pe frunte, era gata să cedeze ispitei, când dintr-o dată cerul se deschise și apăru Bunul!

"A"!!! Viața ușoară și plină de plăceri este prea ușoară și prea pentru oricine, dacă înțelegi ce vreau sa zic! Dar ca să cunoști plăcerile Raiului fără de sfârșit, întâi trebuie să suferi, să te chinui! Am zis!

"A" se desmetici, îi spuse ispitei "du-te fă de aici!" și își continuă studiul.

Astfel află că algele nu făcuseră sex pentru că aveau o relație PLANCTONICĂ!

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My favourite cookie

Usually I don't eat sweets, but there's one I can not resist to it (to eat)

The taste

The perfume

The texture 

The look 

I'm mad about it

I do not understand why others don't.

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Fuck, I Said. And I Was Fucked

Most people don't talk about their desires, fantasies, kinks. Because of shame.

For a long, long time, one of my kinky fantasies was to be fucked by a woman. Literally.

But I was afraid, shamed, to talk about that. Even now, I have a few friends that are laughing about that, even if they call themself "openminded", "nonhomophobic", etc.

 

Shame is very much tied into our ability to find our real desires and stand up for them. Releasing yourself from shame means that you are your best cheerleader. You can be fearless in taking on challenges because you know that you are on the right path for you. You can finally out aside what anyone else thinks you should be and just do you. I never really understood that because I was embarrassed of my desires. It was only when I started being less and less ashamed that I had the space to be proud of myself. To know that I could ask for pegging  if I wanted to. And if other people objected to it? Well, that was their problem, not mine.

In kink you have the chance of learning a very important lesson. If your desire doesn’t harm others without their consent, there is nothing wrong with it.

Your kink is not my kink, but your kink is ok - it’s more than just an empty slogan. It is a deep way of understanding the limit between appropriate shame and crippling self doubt. Because internalized shame is exactly that: a permanent state of doubting yourself.

 So. How was for me. A few years ago I met my love. I was still ashamed about my desire, but one day I came home with a strap-on. I looked in her eyes and said "Hey, I have a new toy! Wanna try it?" She said "ok, let's do it". Wow! No blaming me? No laughing?

It was awesome, beyond all my expectations! The feeling of being so vulnerable, totally open, totally exposed in front of someone else, was... wow, magic! Also, I saw in her eyes the excitement, curiosity, the pleasure.

After awhile I tried this with another woman, and I saw it in her eyes, too.

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Exploring Identity, Embracing Diversity, and Fostering Acceptance

In a world that often encourages conformity, my journey as a bisexual man has been marked by a resolute commitment to self-discovery and embracing the diversity that makes each individual unique. While my path may differ from societal expectations, it has led me to a place of self-acceptance and understanding.

Navigating personal identity is a profound and intricate process, one that demands introspection and a willingness to challenge preconceived notions. As a bisexual man, my experiences have illuminated the importance of embracing both my sexual orientation and the individual traits that shape who I am.

In my interactions with others, I have come to appreciate the significance of empathy and open-mindedness. By fostering conversations about identity and sharing personal stories, I hope to contribute to a more inclusive society that values and respects the diverse journeys we all undertake.

Ultimately, embracing my identity and sharing my experiences has brought a sense of fulfillment and purpose to my life. Through my journey, I've found connections with others who appreciate the value of authenticity and the importance of respecting diverse paths. As we navigate our own roads, let us remember that it's through understanding, acceptance, and celebration of our differences that we can create a more compassionate world for everyone.