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insane to think that her son is my age tho LMAO

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i love her v much actually

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what if my trauma never gets to become ptsd

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and you expect me to believe mothers have an intuition when their child isn't ok😭🙏🏻

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oh god scratch all of that wtf

it's funny how some people can just delete you out of their lives so easily. it's 4 am and I'm crying because I just want some peace where I don't think about the people who didn't nearly care enough about me as much as i did them. she will always prioritise her romantic relationships and the hurt that they caused her over the platonic ones which is so in character of her I'm not even surprised. i just wonder if she's even thought about this as much as I have in the last few months

i think i just needed a reminder that everything moves on and people don't remember anything about you or even if they do it just goes by quietly and never reach out. i was honestly hoping she'd text me once at least yesterday so that I could have some kind of a closure even if it was just small talk. but I guess she isn't brave enough if her post is anything to go by. or she just didn't care enough. so yeah this is all I needed i need to shut the fuck up and accept things as they are

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it's funny how some people can just delete you out of their lives so easily. it's 4 am and I'm crying because I just want some peace where I don't think about the people who didn't nearly care enough about me as much as i did them. she will always prioritise her romantic relationships and the hurt that they caused her over the platonic ones which is so in character of her I'm not even surprised. i just wonder if she's even thought about this as much as I have in the last few months

i think i just needed a reminder that everything moves on and people don't remember anything about you or even if they do it just goes by quietly and never reach out. i was honestly hoping she'd text me once at least yesterday so that I could have some kind of a closure even if it was just small talk. but I guess she isn't brave enough if her post is anything to go by. or she just didn't care enough. so yeah this is all I needed i need to shut the fuck up and accept things as they are

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mere birthday ke dinn inko dusro ki khatirdari karni hai aur karvani bhi hai i should've just fucking gone out tomorrow but nahi humko toh inko chance dete rehna hai mai hi chutiya hu I keep fucking hurting myself setting expectations

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i need to skip tomorrow i don't want it fuck this

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begging god to let me die to begging god to let me live pipeline

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every year i wait for my birthday to come around with a hope that someone lost will remember it and it will help me ground myself after talking to them, every year no one does contact me and I'm reminded that they never cared and they never will. i don't think I'm doing that this year though. im done giving people who did nothing but make me feel like shit a chance to affect me or any aspect of my life. im not waiting for anyone. the people who are there, are there. and i don't need anyone else to make me feel alive and worth something. i already feel I'm so much more worth than however they treated me even when they were my friends. i love what I am and what i have. love is s strong word but, im happy with where I am and with who I am. don't ever let me go back there please

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maathe pe mere chutiya likha hua hai ofc mujhe na appreciation milegi na hi acknowledgement aur mai gaand maraake parso exam aur apni responsibilities hone ke baad bhi inki stupid si lunch ko prioritise karungi haina

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it gives me immense joy when he's on the same team as me

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papa is gonna be furious i can't wait

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who the fuck shows up at people's houses at 10 fucking pm in the night HE KNOWS MY MOTHER ISNT HERE BHENCHOD MAI KHATIRDARI KARNE BAITHI HU IDHAR? how simple does he fucking think it is

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listening to dad rant about his business that failed because of his stupidity was not on my bingo card (also fucking hell he really lost a golden ticket there huh)

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to think I was so cool back in school (that rhymes) i did plays, (direction and acting), singing, won almost every single debate, got the best grades (until 8th at least), hosted so many events, edited a fucking magazine and I still didn't have friends? what a loss to those people man genuinely. i love younger me you were so cool baby I'm sorry for being that harsh to you you're the sweetest person ever no one deserves you

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your otp is someone else until you see my mother and ridiculing me 🫶🏻 truly the best pair out there