actiniumwrites

[actiniumwrites]

hey guys,

as you all know, i’ve been on hiatus for the last couple of months and, as i mentioned in my post about it, i had some decisions to make regarding this blog. this decision is well overdue and i’m sure it’s quite obvious where this is going, but i have ultimately chosen to archive this blog.

this was honestly a really hard decision to make and i’ve been thinking about it for a very long time — about a year, to be exact. truthfully, this blog has brought me a lot of emotions and good memories and i think i’ve just been struggling to let go of it because of that, but i truly think within the last couple of months i finally have, to some degree, found peace with the idea of letting it go.

it’s for a culmination of reasons:

for one, i’ve been running it for nearly 3 years. i started it at 17 in my junior year of high school and i’m now about to be 20 in under a month. it’s been a long time and i’ve changed a lot and so much has happened in my personal life that doesn’t really allow me the time or motivation to run this blog like i used to. the lifespan of this blog has also led to a lot of burnout over the years regarding writing (at least within this fandom) and it’s gotten to a pretty constant point that makes it feel unworthy of continuing on considering everything i’ve written as of recent feels very half assed.

two, i don’t really even play genshin anymore and i barely even play star rail. i have not touched genshin since around september/october 2024 and i genuinely have no plans of ever returning to it. the game, in my personal opinion, has died with natlan’s release. it was already on an up and down scale, constantly alternating from peaking to being absolutely disastrous and disappointing, and natlan was really just the final straw. i was ready to let it go a long time ago because i played it every damn day, but it was so hard to let go of. i’m honestly happy i’ve been set free from it 😭 and as for star rail, i enjoy it, but it’s never been the same for me and i don’t want to make this blog entirely centered around it.

reasons for leaving aside, i want to express my love for this blog and the time i’ve had on it. it’s been so much fun, for the most part. i loved watching it grow from what was supposed to be a small summer project to help with my writing before taking ap lit my senior year of high school, to becoming another comforting and creative outlet for me. i had originally intended on deleting it after 3 months, but here i am almost 3 years later with over 3k followers and nearly 60 works. that’s a fact i’ll never not be in awe of. and to my lovely mutuals and anons, i love you all so so much. thank you to everyone that’s stuck around, no matter if you’ve been here since the beginning or you just found me yesterday.

if you’re wondering what’s going to happen to this blog, no i will not be deleting it. all of my posts and fics will be here for you if you’d like to come back and revisit them at any point in time. i’ve created a lot of fics that i am honestly pretty proud of and i don’t intend to get rid of those anytime soon. and also because this is a side blog and tumblr is weird about deleting side blogs 😭

sorry this was so incredibly long. i’ve rewritten this around 3 times already, racking my brain over and over for what to say as a final, proper goodbye. so yeah, that’s it. it’s been fun. thank you all again for making this such a wonderful experience for me over these last 3 years.

farewell,

actinium <3

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alright well this was kind of obvious but i’m going to be on hiatus again for a bit :(

i know i haven’t written anything in forever so it’s not like it’s that big of a deal or anything but yeah. this blog is kind of dying out and i’m sure anyone who regularly reads my stuff or keeps up with my posts has noticed by now. so yeah, i have some decisions to make but for now i’ll just be on break 👍

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they already unbanned it 😐

NO TIKTOK SHUT DOWN WHILE I WAS MIDWAY THROUGH DOWNLOADING MY SHIT 😭

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NO TIKTOK SHUT DOWN WHILE I WAS MIDWAY THROUGH DOWNLOADING MY SHIT 😭

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why does phainon just feel like hsr gojo 😭

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PFP CHANGE I ALMOST DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS YOU OMG

HOW DID YOU NOTICE THAT FAST I JUST CHANGED IT 😭

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Aw poo I sent fluff and totally forgot what I wrote haha. Ha…

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noooo i’m sorry :(

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cutie patootie

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That feeling when you delete a game just to redownload it for a friend and realize that you infact do not miss playing it (you’re no longer addicted to genshin! Freedom at last!)

this except i never had friends that played genshin so i was just straight up addicted by myself 💀

but finally taking a 3 month break and then trying to play again and it just being boring and lowkey miserable says a lot. it also leads me into the current predicament of having to become a multi fandom blog because i just don’t enjoy genshin like that anymore :/

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just cleared out my inbox for the new year, so i’m sorry if your ask or request was never answered/written :(

i’ve been slowly making a lot of changes to this blog since last month and i wanted to start fresh for this year and my inbox was packed full of requests and asks that i never got to. again, i apologize if yours never got answered. it’s nothing personal i was just stressed with how many asks i had rotting in there

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I did the same too when I started twisted a couple of years back,,, I’ve gotten back to it again recently tho and it’s really good 🙂‍↕️

maybe i’ll try it out again !! not sure if i have time for more games though 😭

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men being mad over a female character possibly being wlw is so insane

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men being mad over a female character possibly being wlw is so insane

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happy new year everyone !! 🎉

i didn’t get to release as many pieces of writing as i had hoped to this year, but i’m glad you guys still enjoyed what i put out. i’m so grateful for hitting another follower milestone and for all the new anons and new mutuals i’ve made this year! i hope the new year treats you all well <3

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fic is posted here!

not sure why tumblr was tweaking out when i tried to post this ask on here, but the fic has been posted!! hopefully you’re still around to read it nonnie, i’m sorry it took me a year and a half to write it 😭

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Pookie dookie have though played twisted wonderland?

i think i tried it out like 2-3 years ago? it looked really cool, but i couldn’t really get into it from what i remember

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The 2 main reason why I dislike Batman so much is one, the lack or representation and two, the fact that it just doesn’t fit with the rest of teyvat. Like why is everything way more futuristic out of nowhere??? I’m sorry but if Batman was in a completely different game with different vibes then maybe it would be less irritating to look at… but anyways I don’t play genshin anymore. Last time I played was because my friend had convinced me loll

real cause what the hell is even going on anymore 😭

it feels like such a chore to play at this point that i haven’t played in almost two-ish months. it doesn’t help that i’m burnt out from writing for it too. not sure if i’m going to end up permanently quitting the game, but it’s looking more and more likely the more i see about it