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Ikalawang Yugto (XXVIII)

I'd like to stay positive despite everything kasi this should be a special day. Tho tbh i am not sure if dapat pa ba natin gawin yung ganito, alam mo naman the situation we are in.

Nonetheless,

Let me start this, by a little throwback of what actually happened and the highlights of last year.

Naalala ko this time last year when i first ever received a necklace from you, the infinity necklace, tanda ko pa sabi mo sakin naguguluhan ka what to get me if a cross pendant kasi it will stand for "Cruz" or the infinity one. Pero sabi mo the infinity sign is better kasi nga it symbolizes our infinite love for each other, tsaka yung Cruz pang buong pamilya mo hahaha. Tapos sinayaw mo ko after mo isuot sakin, kumakanta ka pa non "gusto kita isayaw ng mabagal". Pero pag kasama kita, time flies so fast. Kulang pa 24hrs satin.

Then do you remember we matched colors ng damit without telling each other first kung ano ba talaga kulay dapat, grabe no? I am already planning to wear the pink dress bago mo pa sabihin sakin na we should wear pink. Alam mo up until today i am still amazed on how our hearts and minds interact. I guess pink is our love color, tingin mo?

Tapos before we head out of the hotel we took few photos sa hallway nung floor natin kasi gandang ganda tayo sa mural and sabi mo para maiba naman and hindi puro room photos tayo hahaha pano halatang di lumalabas ng kwarto hahaha. (Look at how inlove i am with u 💙) Tignan mo ang gwapo mo oh 😍.

Tapos tanda ko pa na hindi natin alam where to eat so we had to stroll around Makati Ave for like 20-30 mins and gutom na gutom na tayo kasi mag 10pm na yon and di pa tayo nag dinner. But good thing we found that rib resto. We had our first anniversary dinner date. Actually kung sa sinehan may last full show, parang ganon din tayo that time kasi malapit na mag sarado sila ate tapos buti humabol tayo sa last order. Tanda mo ba to, tayo lang tao sa loob nung resto kaya parang it was an exclusive date night 💙. I can still remember your reaction nung unang kagat mo dun sa ribs hahaha.

And then we had our first rooftop drinking date, naalala mo nung may nag papapansin sayo gg ako hinalikan kita hahaha. That was funny. Sayang lang wala tayo photo kainis hehe.

It was a long but fun night. Imagine hindi naman planado lahat nung activity for that night pero turned out to be amazing. Alam ko nakatulog ako HAHAHAHAHAHA pero i knew we had fun pag dating sa kwarto. Yuum haha.

Tapos diba hindi ka makatulog umiiyak ka na nga kasi sabi mo gusto mo na mag sleep, so i did what i am good at which is to sing you to sleep. Grabe nga eh hindi pa ko nakakatapos sa first stanza, tulog ka na. Pero alam mo, that's what i love about us yung how you feel at peace knowing i am here and hindi kita iiwan.

When we woke up the next morning, pinag usapan natin kung ano ginawa natin nung gabi tapos inaasar mo pa ko diba kasi sobrang bagsak ako. That's the time you told me wag ako mag lalasing kasi lugi ka HAHAHAHA. We were very silly and happy kasi we got that far, i mean who would have thought diba na sa simpleng "👋" magiging ganito tayo.

I am glad i was able to document our first anniversary, it felt like as if it was just yesterday. Ang bilis ng panahon, ang dami na nangyari, sobrang dami din natin pinagdaanan hindi ko alam if it's a good or bad thing to say but, hey we are still here. Nakakalungkot lang na we weren't able to hang out today but we are matured adults and have responsibilities kaya naiintindihan ko naman.

Two years have passed, sa loob ng dalawang taon ang dami dami natin napagdaanan at pinagdadaanan. Sigawan, sakitan, hiwalayan, at kung anu ano pa. Nakakapagod pero ang galing kasi dun sa pagmamahal na meron tayo sa isa't isa pakiramdam ko dun tayo humuhugot ng pag-asa tsaka strength to overcome and face the everyday battles we have to face. I know we haven't been really reaching out to each other lately, di nag kakaintindihan, nag kakaunawaan, puro bangayan, sagutan, sumbatan pero regardless of what happened sa dulo ng araw, pag ako na lang mag isa, kapag tahimik na paligid, kapag nawawala na lahat gusto ko sabihin sayo na ikaw padin, hinahanap ko padin, na mahal padin kita and i always wish that things were different.

I don't know what life is waiting for us, kung anong meron satin bukas o sa makalawa pero sana ikaw padin yung nasa gitna na sasalubong sakin tapos sabay tayo pupunta dun sa dulo na pinapangarap natin.

Happy 2nd Anniversary, salamat dumating ka sa buhay ko at salamat sa patuloy na pananatili sa buhay ko. Palagi ko ipagdadasal na maging masaya ka at maging mapayapa yung puso mo.

You are the 34 to my 35.

Mahal na mahal kita.

-Therese

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“Liham para kay Ba..”

Ilang beses ko sinubukan kang isalba sa impyernong kinalalagyan mo ngayon. Pero ilang beses din ako nabigo. Sa tuwing akala ko makakaahon ka na, bigla kang mawawala at makikita kitang unti unti nang lumulubog.

Ipokrita ko kung sasabihin kong hindi ko gusto na sana ako na lang. Pero hindi eto yung gusto kong gawin mo. Gusto kong makita mo yung halaga mo. You deserve so much more than that. Pero bakit ka nagssettle sa bagay na alam mong di mo deserve.

Sa tuwing nakikita kitang wasak, ubos, umiiyak, depressed at suicidal, pakiramdam ko unti unti akong namamatay.

Sa bawat pagkakataon na nakikita kitang wasak gusto kong tanungin sarili ko saan ba ko nag kulang ng paalala sayo? Na bakit hanggang ngayon di mo padin yan maiwan?

Sa mga pagkakataong sinusugatan mo sarili mo, nararamdaman ko yung bawat hiwa at sakit na lumalapat sa balat mo na hindi mo sana nararamdaman kung sana nakinig ka sakin.

Sa mga panahong gusto mo nang mawala kasi ubos ka na, nararamdaman ko yung upos mo na unti unting nauubos na kailangan kong bigyan ng sindi at init para sa isa pang araw, para sa susunod pang mga linggo, para sa mga dadating pang buwan, para mas matagal pa kita makasama.

Alam ko sa mga ganitong pagkakataon mo mas kailangan ng gabay at pangunawa. Nasasaktan ako na paulit ulit kang makita na ganyan, pero ang tanging bagay lang na magagawa ko ay manatili sa tabi mo habang unti unti mo ulit binubuo sarili mo. Habang unti unti ka ulit bumabangon.

Andito lang ako hanggang sa matapos kang buuin ulit sarili mo, hanggang sa mapagod ka at marealize mo lahat ng mga bagay, hanggang sa makabangon ka ulit, at hanggang sa makita mo yung totoong happiness na hinahanap mo. Yung makakapag bigay ligaya at panatag sa puso mo.

Andito lang ako hanggang sa marinig ko mismo sayo na "masaya na ko". Hindi ako mapapagod makinig sa mga problema mo. Hindi ako magsasawa payuhan ka. Hindi ako titigil pasayahin ka sa panahong malungkot ka. Hindi ako mapapagod na paulit ulit kang buuin sa tuwing nawawasak ka.

Hindi ako mapapagod na ipagdasal ka sa taas na sana maging panatag at payapa na yung loob mo. Hindi ako titigil na ikwento ka at kung gano ka katibay na tao sa kabila ng lahat ng mga nangyayari. Hindi din ako mapapagod na tulungan at gabayan ka sa panahong kailangan mo ako.

At higit sa lahat hindi ako magsasawnag ipagpasalamat ka sa Diyos na nag exist ang isang kagaya mo. Your existence brought life to mine and in just a short period of time nakita ko kung gano kaganda yung buhay na namimissed out ko before you came along.

Bago kita nakilala napaka makasarili ko, pero ngayon wala na akong ibang gusto kundi ang makita kang buo, masaya at successful in all aspects of life. Masaya na ko at kuntento na ko na binigyan mo ko ng pagkakataon na maging parte ng buhay mo at hinayaan mo kong mahalin ka.

Hinayaan mo kong makita yung mga bagay na meron at wala ka. Yung mga kakulangan mo at flaws mo. Yet despite all of that i still see you as an amazing and beautiful person. Thank you for opening a chapter of my life that i will truly remember and cherish.

Every moment that i spend with you is just simply heaven in this hell. At wala akong ibang hangad kundi ang makita kitang masaya, kahit sa iba. Basta yung totoong sasaya ka.

Mahal, manatili ka sanang matibay at matatag.

Andito lang ako.

Kapag pagod ka na, lingon ka lang, yung bahay na binuo ko para sayo lagi nag aantay sa pagbalik mo.

Mahal kita, B.

-Maria

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“There’s no such thing as love, it’s fantasy” - Summer Finn

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“Isang tula para kay.....”

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Smile. Let everyone know that today you're a lot stronger than you were yesterday.

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"We don't talk anymore, and the saddest part is, we used to talk everyday."

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THIS ♥

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Sabi nila, kapag mahal mo daw ang isang tao, ipaglaban mo. At hindi siya mawawala sa’yo.

Pero bakit ako? Pinaglaban ko siya, pinaglaban ko yung nararamdaman ko para sakanya pero nagawa niya parin akong iwan. Madaming tanong ang hanggang ngayon hindi mawala sa isip ko. ‘May pagkukulang ba ko?’,...

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Bakit para sa iba ang dali lang tapusin ang isang relasyon?

Minsan tinatanong ko din yan sa sarili ko, kung bakit may mga taong madali lang tapusin ang isang relasyon para sakanila.

Yung parang wala kayong pinagsamahang dalawa, parang walang nangyari sainyong dalawa. Naiisip mo tuloy ngayon...

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Top 10 Haunted School Stories Of All Time.

1.) De La Salle — College of St. Benilde

The setting: An evening class

In attendance: A professor, his students, and a creepy girl

The tale: It was the first day of the semester, and the professor called out the roll, trying to match each of his students’ faces to their names. When he had finished, he noticed that there was one person who had not been called: the girl dressed in a white shirt and jeans sitting at the front row directly across his desk. He asked for her form to check if she was enrolled in that class, but she stared up at him blankly. He repeated his question, and watched – along with the entire class – as the girl stood up and walked past him, straight through the blackboard.

Take note: Though there are many variations to this tale, the scariest thing about it is that there was nothing to suspect about the girl at first, until she actually walked through the blackboard. Imagine that happening on your first day of school!

2.) De La Salle University

The setting: The Chapel of the Most Blessed Sacrament

In attendance: The restless souls of murdered La Sallian brothers

The tale: Many a ghost story has been set in the La Salle Chapel, but among the most harrowing tales is the one about a girl who decided to enjoy some meditative quiet time there. After several minutes of sitting with her eyes closed and breathing evenly, she opened her eyes to see a shadowy figure in the middle of the chapel, moving very slowly towards her. She closed her eyes again and tried to utter a prayer while frozen in fear. But when she opened her eyes, she found that the figure had materialized completely: it was a priest with a bayonet in his gut and bullet wounds in his forehead.

Take note: The scariest thing about the La Salle Chapel ghost stories? Their origins are factual. During World War II, 16 Brothers and several families took refuge in the Chapel. All the Brothers and 25 of the civilians were massacred by Japanese soldiers. The DLSU’s official website even gives a date: Feb. 12, 1945.

3.) La Salle Greenhills 

The setting: Class 2G’s room

In attendance: The entire class 2G, their adviser and a little boy sitting in

The tale: The class had been experiencing strange things in their room for a while–objects were rearranged; televisions unexpectedly shut down; computers misbehaved. Tired of being toyed with, the class decided to set up video surveillance to record what happened in the room at night. Only after a week of this did they find the cause of their troubles: in the recording, they saw a little boy around five years old limp into the classroom, circling it as if looking for something. He then disappeared in the video, only to return a second later–walking upside down, all the while approaching the camera lens. Some say that the doors slammed shut and the television and computer both fizzled out. They had to call in a technician to fix the appliances, but the students were all unharmed afterwards.

Take note: It’s rumored that to this day, the subsequent classes who take on the section “2G” still experience peculiar things.

4.) Ateneo De Manila University

The setting: The old Communications Department building

In attendace: A janitor, a security guard and a really mischievous something

The tale: The janitor, who had just finished cleaning the bathrooms, was about to lock up the building when a security guard asked if he could go inside to urinate. The janitor agreed and let the guard in. Minutes later, when the guard emerged, the janitor double-checked the second floor bathroom–and was met with the sight of the tile walls and floors covered in streaky handprints of human excrement. He ran back downstairs to confront the security guard, who was absolutely clueless. When the security guard turned to leave, the janitor was shocked to find another handprint, clearly pressed on the back of the guard’s white uniform.

Take note: The Comm Dept. is rumored to be Ateneo’s most haunted building, but most of the classes here have been moved to the newer Social Sciences building.

5.) Miriam College Highschool

The setting: Bathroom

In attendance: Four classmates, more or less

The tale: After their classes ended late, three friends went to the bathroom together. When three of them had emerged from the cubicles, another classmate entered the bathroom and greeted them. As the fourth girl was in the cubicle, the three decided to play a prank on her. They locked the bathroom and stood outside. In a moment they felt the doorknob rattle, and heard their classmate knocking and asking to be let out. They laughed and teased her as she begged them to open the door. When she started crying and howling at them to unlock the door, the three felt guilty and gave in. They opened the door to find no one in the bathroom. Again and again they called their friend’s name, but no one responded. Spooked, the three ran to the lanai. They found the fourth girl there, who was surprised when they demanded to know where she had gone. “Kanina pa ako dito,” she said. She hadn’t gone to the bathroom at all.

Take note: Bathrooms seem to be an especially prominent setting in ghost stories from all-girls schools. Often, these are haunted by nuns, creepy cubicle occupants, delinquent reflections and–in another story from this school–a ghostly head in the toilet.

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