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Hi sorry for disappearing for two weeks or so mental illness has been metal illnessing very hard. I try to not post much about it because it's embarrassing but ever since a little before my birthday I've been in a depressive episode. It got worse the 29th of April because I had a really bad episode that day and ever since then I haven't really felt like myself.

Luckily my mom (bless her heart) has been very supportive of me and has been my rock through all this. I went from attending to occupational therapy to going to a psychologist and since I've been taking my meds for a while, they have started taking effect. So that's good 👍

I'll probably still be inactive both here and on my discord because I straight up deleted both apps from my phone. This is mostly because I'm not stable enough to keep my relationships with others healthy.

Please don't worry to much about me. Like I mentioned I'm going to therapy, have my mom's support, and my school is very flexible with work. I don't want anyone to think I am their responsibility or that they are at fault for my mental state. Everyone has brought me endless joy. Even if I can't return it back, though I hope I'll be able to one day. I also don't want anyone to "wait for me" or something like that because it would be a selfish request.

I am not deactivating this acc or my edit acc because I know there's people out there who truly do enjoy my edits, for which I'm very grateful for. I'm also not taking down any of my rentry pages because tbh I'm very proud of them. Hopefully I'll be able to come back one of these days.

I think that's all I wanted to say. I hope everyone takes care of themselves.

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kittens conversation:

hey we are all really small do you want to sleep in a pile

other kittens: yeah

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✦　—　fairy type miku my beloved

sources　:　art ( 1 . 2 )　renders ( 1 . 2 )　overlays ( 1 . 2 )　psd

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I need to put Kazui in one of those salad spinners and make him go woooooooooo 🌀🌀🌀🌀🌀🌀🌀🌪️🌪️🌪️🌪️🌪️🌪️🌪️🌀🌀🌀🌀🌀🌪️🌪️🌪️🌀🌀🌀

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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I love him so much oh my goodness he'd be the only one in this cold cold world to truly understand how I feel all the time I love him I love him I love my wife let's get married and remain together for ever and ever and ever and ever until our hearts wither away 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself

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The blank eyes of a child who doesn’t know himself