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[adolescenewastaken]

go ahead put anything vol 1

a thousand stars, they shine bright. feels like i'm alive but honestly i'm not.

when i was young, i was wondering about having my own life at 20s. like, i'd chase my own dream, do my job properly and have a good life.

but, that might be never happen.

idk why but my parents still controll me at my age. i wanna do this and that but they never allowed me to do. i feel like, im a grown ass person but everything under their shoes. i trapped, in this damn house with my stoneheaded mom and strict dad. everything is on their rule. till i realize that im stuck here, i cant get out. i cant.

after graduation, all i ever thought is about having a new job or continue my study. but rn, the choice is added, die. it sounds better. having me in this household maybe just give them a headache. besides they always controlled me, they made me have no choice. also, i cant make my own decision. like, i dont have a life, my life is belong to them.

i hate the fact that i always cried everynight, when something triggered me, ill be burst into tears. a silent tears cause i dnt want to they hear im cryin. it sucks when i cant tell what i want to them. i wan to talk, a proper talk that wins my argument, but everytime i tried, it ended with their decision.

and, yeah, they killed my dream. once i had, i have to burried them into the deepest.

i dont have a dream.

i always affraid if i had one. cause i know that never gonna happen.

life is sucks, and i trapped here, i lost.

im lost in the labyrinth. i dont know how to move or back.