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it really is the year of building self esteem and not being afraid of myself anymore

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I just want to do my own thing with the same sense of peace about doing so as I did as a child

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cannot wait for it to cool down. last night I ended up in a&e for an emergency ecg because my heart rate was just 136 constantly and I was having palpitations and it turned out to just be my POTS flaring because of the heat…. I’d spent the whole day in the dark with ice packs, taking electrolytes, drinking a Lot. like. why can my body literally not deal with it

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A beautifully renovated early 20th-century apartment in Stockholm (click here for the full home tour)

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I had blood taken from each arm today and the bruises are remarkably symmetrical

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i didnt know you were allowed to do things for the sake of wanting to do things. i thought you were just supposed to keep that locked inside your ribcage and let it rot you inside out until youre limping around as the desiccated corpse of who you could have been

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Pangaea was wasted on the dinosaurs. Imagine the railway network.

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accent transfer from a language that isn't your native one is so funny, I really do just speak German with a Dutch accent

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lived my entire life in northern europe yet every summer I’m like :o when the sky looks like this at 10pm

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I am finally doing something about work making me feel like garbage and am applying to jobs 🫡

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okay day-tripping Edinburgh on 90mg of codeine was certainly an experience but it was nice to see friends despite the pain and the fact that has to be the least friendly city I’ve ever been to

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god this town is so nice. I knew when we moved here it was nice but living here and seeing the day to day is so different. there’s a completely free bookshop always full of people, regular markets on in the square for local bakers, cooks and artists, real well-used well-loved community spaces, I see people bump into familiar faces every day, almost every business here is independent… idyllic, I can’t believe it

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Brussels, June 2025

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My 2nd ring! Already better than the last one (even if the tail bit looks a fork)

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a weekend in Belgium where I spoke French to everyone I spoke to in Brussels and Dutch in Bruges did a lot for my confidence in terms of feeling a lot more self-assured, which is something I've struggled a lot with lately (constantly second guessing myself and seeking reassurance from others). I am capable and I can do things that feel scary.

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