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—that's exactly what I love about you

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How cooked am I?

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ALNST x Epic is a crossover we never deserved

Actually I’ll just go ahead and post this to tumblr cause I’m pretty proud of how it turned out :D

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The connection with Sua and Mizi's jellyfish around her...alright...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYUNAAAAAAAA

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Old Hyuna sketch that actually kinda slays still 'cause I said so

(ermm get tagged @shakingparadigm)

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Thats mine 🥺🥺🥺

Tales of regret and prayers to a blind deity

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/rVjaB5W by Aeli_chan Ivan’s soul still lingers in the mortal realm. And sometimes, when white starlight is falling from a crimson sky, he manifests a vessel to communicate, telling strangers about his black, black sorrow. Words: 3713, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Categories: M/M Characters: Ivan (Alien Stage), Till (Alien Stage), Original Non-Human Character(s), Mizi (Alien Stage) (mentioned), Sua (Alien Stage) (mentioned) Relationships: Ivan/Till (Alien Stage) Additional Tags: Canon Compliant, Post-Canon, Angst, Yearning, so much yearning, bottled-up feelings, Ivan-centric (Alien Stage), meteor showers, A lot of spiritual mumbojumbo with a dash of pseudo science, Ivan Needs a Hug (Alien Stage), Pining, Hurt No Comfort, Unrequited Love, Ivan Character Study (Alien Stage), POV Ivan (Alien Stage), Ivan finally unbottling his feelings after a millennium, Lingering Soul, Attachment read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/rVjaB5W

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Yum !! 💙🍒🌈⭐️❤️

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oh my clematis, hope withered in the abyss

redraw of Vivinos's own art hehe

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WAITER!!! pass me another round of white/dark hair doomed yaoi

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mizisua my beloveds

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🌠A divergence from the usual. Comic about a boy whose smile seldom reaches his eyes. Let this goodbye be our final one.

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Ivan's whole deal of wanting to understand and befriend the Wagyein because he's able to see himself in the creature is basically Ivan pulling this univeres's equivelant of How to Train Your Dragon, and that movie is pretty much just a horse-girl movie but with giant lizards.

"Everyone else at Ankat Garden thinks you're too wild... but I know you can win the big race, Wagyein! They'll see!" *insert Wagyein doing a roar-neigh"

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my god, my universe

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If your emotions are so shallow, why are we all drowning in it?

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(this is copy-pasted from a ramble I had in sleepy's dms like months ago so please forgive the inconsistent grammar/punctuation etc!)

till's feelings are akin to an edelweiss, persevering despite the horrid conditions and all the forces that should have brought it down. it's around the same meaning as the clematis flower. both flowers are defined by their ability to bloom in harsh conditions, which mirror the behavior of loving and finding meaning within each other amidst an inhumane society. edelweiss are more associated with devotion though, and in My Clematis the clematis is seen as a source of hope and strength. mizisua and till to mizi are symbolized by flowers because they have (or, well, had) hope. their feelings bloomed as a result of an extremely human response to seeking some sense of companionship, connection, some belonging in such a strange and otherworldly civilization where it's incredibly easy to feel used and alone. which is why it interests me that even though he has this same desire, ivan's love is symbolized not by an earthy, organic piece of life, but by pieces of cosmos, falling stars. meteor showers are ivan's signature. (putting on my pretentious cap because once again I am going to apply meaning to something that probably isn't that deep)

Ivan is incapable (quite a strong word for it, but it's their words, not mine) of feeling proper human emotion, that much is stated in the patreon posts regarding his character. Why? I have no idea. I theorize it to be his harsh and ruthless upbringing that caused him to close himself off completely in order to protect himself. it started off very early too. or maybe ivan just had no concept of proper human emotion in general. I imagine that while he was growing up, there wasn't exactly any room for the humans he was surrounded with to exhibit any emotion lest they were targeted or punished somehow. Or maybe he was just born that way. anyway it's established that ivan is different from the other humans in this way, that's a similarity he shares with only one other character: Luka (Luka actually does have a stated reason as to why he seems so artificial however). It's why Ivan just goes limp in the grasp of the alien that held him over the edge, despite tears welling in his eyes he remains emotionally vacant and quiet. This moment is his first sight of the meteor shower. Ivan associates meteor showers with very significant experiences in his life (mainly near-death experiences according to the posts). Perhaps those meteor showers gave him some sort of relief, too, an escape from the hell he was living in. maybe he was just fascinated by them, the way they were so far beyond his reach yet burned so brilliantly. just like Till. he saw till's incredible resolve, his refusal to back down and remain passive. Ivan goes through the motions of his "life" doing whatever it is someone wants him to do. they want to sell him? okay. they want to throw him off a building? okay. sing this song, enter this competition, behave and pose for the picture. okay. But Till would rather be beat over and over again than to have his autonomy taken away. He doesn't even sing the songs he's assigned for the competition, he writes his own. His individuality is a blazing, passionate thing that's only bolstered by his natural talent. And to once again refer to the posts: Ivan is deeply fascinated by those who have qualities that he lacks. When he saw Till pick himself up off the ground, he saw stars in him. He saw the blazing fire, the brightness, the fascinating qualities that were far beyond his grasp, something he could only ever admire and hold onto in his hardest moments, but never to hold.

There's also the fact that meteor showers are fleeting. They're beautiful, ethereal spectacles, but they don't last. They're not meant to be held gently in your hands and cultivated like a flower. They appear in bursts of light and leave a lasting impression on whoever sees them, but eventually they disappear. Just like Till leaves Ivan behind, the palm of his hand disappearing from Ivan's grasp, his departure leaving a lasting impression. Ivan knows what they have together will not last, he knows Till's heart belongs elsewhere, yet he clings onto the imagery of the meteor shower because it's all he has. Even if Till doesn't love him back, he's the sole reason Ivan is able to feel to this extent at all. It's a blessing and a curse, so even if it hurts, Ivan continues to hold on. He even includes meteor showers during his performance in ROUND 3, sparkling gloves seemingly made of stardust reaching out to them as he desperately sings to his very own star. VIVINOS and QMENG said themselves that Ivan was persistent. He holds no anger towards Till's feelings for Mizi, he won't drive a wall between them because he respects Till's feelings and Mizi as a person, but he won't let go, either. Falling stars are fleeting, but the impact they leave behind? Not so fleeting at all. That feeling could last forever if it truly meant something to someone.