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Nan Goldin, Valerie in the mirror, Paris, 1999

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gardens in art 💐

jardin benlliure by jose benlliure gil / mission san juan capistrano by gustave baumann / glorieta al atardecer by santiago rusiñol / jardín by eliseo meifren i roig / milton park by cressida campbell  / kiki’s delivery service by studio ghibli

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Crossed daggers in polished brass with warm golden labradorite.

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https://www.instagram.com/p/B_uHUx4JQBY/

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Dont know if theres a post talking abt this already but in brasil the president made a speech last year saying he wouldnt buy vaccines bc the company put on the contract that they wouldnt be held accountable for side effects so the vaccine could turn you into a crocodile for all he knows. Anyway heres how people are dressing up to get their shots

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Okay, making this donation post as of 8/16/2021 just to be specific:

I’m trying to get a surgery on September 3rd to finally address a jaw joint that eroded out of existence five years ago due to longterm injuries I sustained when being gaybashed in college seventeen years ago. It greatly affects my quality of life, chronic pain, vision problems, headaches, nerve flare-ups, vertigo, etc, and means I’m unable to do work other than what I can do as a freelancer from home, and having no family as a resource, I’ve had to use just what I can get from working best I can 24/7 and donation aid from tumblr to get by for the past five years, while saving up and working towards this surgery.

The 21K surgery itself is paid for, prosthetic is built and I’ve just been constantly delayed in getting it for the past year and a half. First the pandemic resulted in a lot of delays and postponements, but as my condition has continued to deteriorate, by the time I was able to book a reliable surgical date, I’ve found myself repeatedly unable to make it��.since each time it comes around I haven’t had enough money to work as a buffer for the month of bedrest and a wired shut jaw, liquid diet, etc, that will be part of my recovery period. Aside from rent, food and cellphone, my only expenses, I have to shell out $800 a month for my pricey as hell insurance that’s the only reason the surgery doesn’t cost six figures, and that I can’t afford to lose before the surgery without getting slapped with an additional hundred thousand in everything from anesthetic to hospital fees for while I have to stay for observation. I’ve had to personally cancel or postpone the last three surgical dates, and so anything and everything to help me build up a buffer before this one, so I can actually MAKE it, is really needed and beyond appreciated. If I can’t make this one, there is theoretically another slot in October I might be able to snag, and I literally have no choice but to keep trying to make this happen until it does, and it only gets harder and harder each month in the meanwhile, so again…..literally any dollar amount helps me make this finally actually happen. 

I’m hesitant to ask for a specific amount because to be honest, I can’t guarantee for sure what that is, since living day to day with a lot of ongoing medical drama means stuff constantly pops up that I wasn’t expecting or planning for and I have to divert funds to take care of that, and also I do worry that sometimes when people see large amounts on donation posts they figure the goal is unlikely to ever actually be met and so they save their money for one they feel more confident they can actually make a different? Idk. There’s really no science or guarantees when making these kind of posts, just a weird mix of desperation and hope, so for now I’m just saying honestly, any amount goes directly to getting me through a month of recovery, whether that’s September or ends up being October, and can make a difference. There was basically an entire year there where I probably lived off $3 a day food-wise, so never discount the possibility that a $3 donation can be enough to get someone through the day. But yeah, its taken a lot of effort to get to this point and I’m running on fumes and have been for a good long while tbh, and I really really would like to keep this particular finish line in sight before it vanishes and ends up tacking on another three or four months to this, where I’ll only get worse in the meanwhile.

Thanks for reading and passing this along and any help of any kind, and I’m hoping this will be the last month I have to do these kinds of posts, but really need some help making that happen. Please know I don’t take any of this for granted or have any expectations, just a need and a lot of appreciation for anything you can send my way at all. Thanks!

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Baby Boy by Micaiah Carter

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Fucj fuck fuck This is an emergency.

I already made a twitter thread about it after the incident sorry if this js rushed

My apartment caught on fire. It happened at 5 am and I heard my sister screaming and saw the flames coming from our patio.

This was the result

Im typing this rn cuz I have to get mt phone charge from my brother. Im sorry i cant make sense of things rn.

This is our apartment now and we have no where to live...

I really need some assistance and donations to help aid.. idk if like half of my stuff is gone...could be salvageable but we dont know yet.

Again, I have a twitter thread to keep an update and I'll try to update here as possible...

Please consider donating. If not, please PLEASE boost this, because I may or may not lost everything and I may need get laid off from work....Idk HOW is this going to pan out but we really need some help.

I'm like not in the right mental state to try to make a GFM right now.

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rebecca black was right. gotta have my bowl gotta have cereal

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Watching Olympics women's weightlifting 🏋️‍♀️

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If anyone would like to help my family and I dealing with the cost of cancer treatments, expensive medications, food, transportation, medical bills, and the cost of a recent hospitalization due to chemotherapy side effects, my cashapp and venmo is @liquidlipstick, paypal is @plumslices. Ty ❤️

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despite being an independent and receiving zero financial support from my parents since i was 18, my university’s FAFSA eligibility is still reliant on their income and as a result i don’t qualify for aid this semester..this is supposed to be my final year of undergrad after many medical/ mental setbacks. absolutely anything helps—even if i can only afford 4 units it’s better than nothing. my paypal is rohiedaffeh@gmail.com and my cashapp is $blacklacebra. i am also opening up custom necklace commissions for the month of august-examples below. thank you!